EP 53: Nurse Addison | Let’s get one thing straight and two things gay
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What always surprises me is whenever you always get like the toxic masculinity, like you get the patients that are literally, they're dying. And then you go to put the condom cath on and you're like, hey, like, can you go get me a small condom cath? And they're like, I'm not a small. Baby. I'm not a small. And I'm just like, okay. Well, the skin tells me, yeah. Okay. We don't have to lie. I feel like there's other things that we could worry about. Let's focus on the things that we can change, you know?

I beg your pardon. Hey, Bessies, it's your favorite caffeinated, medicated, and never hydrated nurse, Nurse John. And welcome back to your favorite podcast, I Beg Your Pardon. Bessie, I miss you so much. I'm so happy to be back for another week of another episode of your favorite podcast. Before we head on to this episode, do me a quick favor. If you're listening right now, make sure that you follow us on Spotify and Apple Podcasts.

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They're so comfortable. They're so stylish. They are my favorite scrubs ever. Nothing else. All right, Bessie. Well, before we head on again to another episode, I just want to ask how you're doing. How's life going? How's work? How's relationship? How's family? How's friends? I hope everything is going well. And if it's not, remember, there's always another day to make it right.

If things are not going well, again, the most important part is you're able to realize it. You're able to ask for help and you're able to kind of sit down and take a step back and think to yourself, what can I do to resolve a situation that I'm going through or anything that's going on in your life? And again, I think one thing that I always tell you guys is never ever compare your success or your

pathway to another person's success and pathway because again that is a thief of joy comparing yourself from others and comparing things that should not be compared because first of all whatever is happening in your life right now is your success and remember whatever you have in life right now is something that you've been wishing for and been asking for maybe the past five years ten years

And the thing is, you probably have not recognized those things to yourself. And it's just good for us to recognize the things that you achieve, whether it's small, medium, large, whatever it is, to thank yourself wherever you are in your life right now.

That's a little emotional to start this podcast. All right, you guys, let's get into it. In this episode of this podcast, I brought you guys the most demure, the most mindful, the baddest, the sassiest, your only daddy, Addy. Hey, what's up, guys? Let's get one thing straight and two things gay. Yes.

I love it so much. Thank you so much for coming here. Thank you for inviting me. No, stop it, Addison. I love you so much. Oh, my gosh. I think the first ever time I've met you was on a Guard Malad event. Yes. And I just fell in love with your personality because he is exactly the same person you guys on the Internet. I mean, I don't know if I can live up to all the things that you just said about me, but I will try my hardest.

Stop it. No, he is actually so nice. He is just a beautiful person inside and out. He's also so funny in real life. You guys, you have to meet this person. He's just a bunch of joy for everyone. Oh, my God. Now I have to compliment you. Oh, my God.

No, you just have to say like, K, you too. Oh my God, the same. Oh my God. Same, same bitch. Same for him. Oh my gosh. Well, thank you so much for coming into the podcast. No, thank you for having me. It was a little bit of a hot drive to get here, but.

I know. I love it. Oh my God. He came all the way from San Diego. Yeah. Which on GPS says two hours, but once you're in the car, you know, no, it's probably like three, four. Yeah. You're clocking in for a 12 hour shift, bitch. You're just might as well.

Pressure ulcer stage four, baby. Yeah. I had to wear my little butt taco. That's the little Mepalex for those of y'all that don't know. The Mepalex. I call it the butt taco because... Butt taco? Yeah, because you fold it and you put it in there. That is so true. Once it's in there like swimwear, for those that need it, it looks like a butt taco. You know what? That's like the skims of healthcare. It really is. Some people, it makes them look thinner, honestly. Yeah.

it's giving like get tell me when you find my waist it's missing baby yeah it's missing I'm sorry I just put on this mepalex and now you can't see me you're too fake it's covering me up stop it you're too funny like a blanket but again thank you so much for being here I'm so happy to have you here today in the podcast I mean everyone has been asking please bring daddy addy on the podcast we love him he's so funny it's like

Face timing with him every single time we watch his video. And that's what people have been saying. Yeah, I that's because normally I'm clocking out like right after my shift. So for sure. Yeah. So I literally I'm like, let me record this really quick. And then I FaceTime my best friend and then I'm complaining about my shift right after that. I know. And I love it so much because it's so true what they're saying. It's it's like we're talking to you personally. Yeah.

Like it doesn't feel like I'm talking to like just a camera. I feel so connected when you talk in the camera. I'm sure you can relate where when you talk like you just have to sit there and you're like, OK, how would I word this to my best friend? Right. Like for sure. To my best friend. No bullshit. Just how how would I talk to them? And most of my best friends would tell me, get to the point, get to the point, get to the point. So that's what I try to bring when I get to the videos. Right. Is like just get straight to the point, get to the punchline, punchline, punchline.

And you just like, you kill it every time. Not every time, but I appreciate it. No, I actually, I laugh at every single one of them. I laugh. I laugh at myself. Me too. That's when you know we're ill. Yeah. If we laugh our own jokes, absolutely. Yes. Absolutely. Yes, 100%.

Well, before we head on to the whole social media thing of you being the most popular daddy out there, I think people want to get to know you first personally. So can you walk us through? Okay. From vaginal birth to, you know. Okay. Actually, I am a gold star gay, so I never touched a vagina. C-section bitch?

Yeah. No, just kidding. I actually was born with a vagina. But...

You pass through it, but you never touched it. I like to tell people I never touched one. Yeah. It's too fucking funny. Yeah. Okay. But not true because we have to with our job. But yeah, so I was born in a small town in South Georgia. Wait, you're Georgian? Yes. Yeah, I'm a Georgia boy. Baby, lock them doors and turn the lights down low. I don't know the rest. Do you know the rest? No. Are we going for a second verse? I don't know. So yeah, I grew up in Georgia, kind of like on the Florida-Georgia line.

and was there my whole life until I graduated high school, went to college, went to nursing school. I have one older sister and

She's also a nurse. She doesn't work as a nurse anymore. But yeah, she's also a nurse. And both of my parents are medical as well. They're both podiatrists. I just kind of grew up around a medical family or medical background. So you never really had any other profession in mind for you to like think about like, oh, I want to be like a flight attendant or something like that. No.

No. Well, I actually, I always wanted to go into like acting and stuff. I always was kind of like a theater kid, especially during the summers, I would do plays, musicals and movies.

Always just loved making people laugh. I love that. Was just always the class clown, but also the teacher's pet. So I would get away with a lot. A lot of stuff. A lot of stuff that I should not have gotten away with. And so, yeah, growing up, that was just always my personality. And then I was like, oh, I just want to bring this to healthcare and take care of my patients and also make them happy.

smile so I still was the same person I still like loved making people laugh but I was there was this like sense of urgency of like okay I need to choose a career field that I can get through school and support myself like as quickly as possible right and so then I went to school in kind of like middle Georgia close to Alabama and went through nursing school and like I went

I graduated college like three years later. So I was like 21 whenever I graduated. I was like a baby nurse and went straight into the ICU. Oh, my God. Yeah. That's crazy. Yeah. That is crazy. 10 out of 10 do not recommend. For sure. But I just I'm very stubborn. And when you tell me like, oh, I can't do this or maybe you should do this first and then work your way up. Like, I'm always just like, no, I want to jump and do it now. Yeah.

And I think that's a good thing, though. Like how they say like, oh, you got to start in med search first so that you can hone your skills, practice your skills. But honestly, in nursing, I feel like you can just do whatever makes you better.

interested in the profession. But again, at the same time, you have to kind of recognize that if you want to go ICU, you have to prepare yourself that it's not what it's like in the books. Right. Nursing school versus being a nurse is very different. Nursing school, I feel like it's the hard part.

For sure. And then once you become a nurse, that's the traumatizing part. You worded so perfectly because it's so true. How did you do in nursing school? Like what kind of student were you in nursing school? Oh my gosh. Sometimes I would do well in like pharmacology or something that was like kind of more straight memorization. That's so me. Yeah. That is so me. Pretty much everything else. Like I get so distracted. My ADHD was all over the place. The only test I probably could have passed was like a breathalyzer. Stop.

I'm just kidding. No, for real. So I didn't do as well as I hoped, but I always just told myself, hey, this is just temporary. I was going through school super fast. I also was like the youngest person in my class. So I just told myself like, oh, if I fail something, it's okay. Like you can repeat and take your time. But I luckily never let that happen. And I also was working overtime.

full-time in the school. I was a CNA. Okay. And then I was also an RA. Do you know what that is? No. What's an RA? A resident advisor. So you're basically like a professional tattletale and you live in the dorms for free. Oh. So like the people that like come and like you have the curfew. Right. And you come in there and you're like, stop smoking weed. Like, who's this in your bed? Like, you know. Oh.

Or like, why do you have alcohol? Like, that was me. I was a professional tattletale. Oh, my God. So it prepared me for nursing so well. That's where the name Big Daddy Addie came from. So I was given that name, or rather, I earned it. So basically, I lived in the freshman dorms, and each of the RAs had like a hall. And my hall was primarily girls, and they were like the hoes. Okay. Period. Okay. Which I loved. I loved them. I loved my hoes. For sure, the hoes. But it made me look like a pimp.

Because what would happen was all my hoes would go around to the other floors in the freshman dorms. And they would literally be just, like, flirting with all the boys, sometimes girls. Period. Hey. And a lot of the RAs would text me and be like, Addison, you need to get your girls. You need to, like, their party. So you were a parent. So I would have to, like, go to the other halls and, like, collect my girls and be like, it's past...

like midnight what are you doing like the coochie is close yes and you have a boyfriend I'm telling and like but no sometimes I would period and they would be like okay and they'd be like

Okay, daddy-addy. And so that's kind of like where it kind of came from. Daddy-addy. They would call me daddy-addy. And then some people would be like, big daddy? Like, wait, what? And then so it just turned into big daddy-addy. Oh, that's so funny. So yeah. So then I just started going by that. I love it. I love it, though. Big daddy-addy. Yeah. Now I understand it better now, like why it's a big daddy-addy. Because you were literally their dad. Yeah. Yeah.

So we got the Big Daddy Addy reference. And then so you're doing that. You were RA and a CNA at the same time. Yes. And would your parents, were they there to support you or they were just completely off it? So it's complicated without getting into that too much. Too deep. Yeah, too deep. But my dad was like not in the picture anymore. And parents at the time were not very supportive of my homosexual lifestyle. So that's kind of what... Okay. Yeah.

caused a lot of the like why I had to be my own parent and for sure for sure I think that's where I learned like like I said I'm very stubborn but I also like and I want this like to be like a message to anyone that might be listening that for sure is gay or maybe their parents don't agree with like choices of their lifestyle or whatever first of all it always gets better as stupid as that sounds it always gets better but the thing is is that when people are giving you

a million reasons to fail. Think of how good it's going to feel if you don't.

If like you overcome that and then you prove them wrong, think of how good. I'm so happy for you though. You've achieved so much in life. No, thank you so much. That I think like not only you're a nurse, you've supported yourself all the way through. So many people in the internet loves you just because your personality shines. And I think like that shows a lot of who you are as a person is that you're very positive. You look,

You look for anything that's going to lighten up your day, some other else's or situation that tells a lot about you as a person. And it's hard to do. Or hard to be positive in the environment that we work in. Oh, for sure. For sure, for sure. So if you can twist it or disassociate or use your mental illness to your advantage. Thank you. Then...

Do it, bitch. Since we're talking about nursing, can you tell us more about your nursing journey? So you said, like, you started in ICU. Yeah. And tell us the whole journey of nursing till now. Oh, gosh. Okay, so I went straight into the ICU. I just got lucky.

Because I just happened to, I think, work there a couple of times. Right. Whenever I was a CNA. So they kind of recognized me. And they were like, oh, yeah, like, you can work here. And then as soon as I started, I was like, wait, we're putting that in what hole? Hold on. Why does every, like, hole have to be filled with something? I know, right? Like, I don't understand. Like, why do we need to monitor that? And then I learned really quickly. I was a year for about a year and a half, two years. And then became a travel nurse. Because I don't know if you know this, but in Georgia...

nurses do not make anything. No, apparently not. Yeah, no. Apparently not. You literally might as well work any other job. Might as well be a stripper at that point. They probably make more. Yeah. Period. Period. So you were a nurse in Georgia for how long? So, well, two years. And then I went, I became a travel nurse. I went to South Carolina. And the week that I started travel nursing, everything shut down for COVID.

So I unintentionally became a COVID ICU, like, crisis nurse. But, like, as, like, a regular, like, travel nurse. Like, not, you know. You got stuck in some shit. Yeah, for a while. But, like, because some people were, like, talking about the amount of money that people were making during the pandemic. And the crisis nurses, like, going to New York and stuff like that. And I was like, I was working that, but I was not making that. Right.

Right. Because I was already contracted. That's crazy. And so then after a while, I was just like, well, like once my contract was up, I was like, and I had enough money to save. I was like, okay, I'm going to go somewhere else. For sure. Where I actually kind of want to be since everything shut down. And so then I went to California and that's when I realized what California was.

California nursing was. Which is what nursing should be most places in California. For sure. It's what nursing should be. For sure, for sure. So when did you move here in California? Well, my first travel... I didn't, like, move officially. Okay. And so I... Because I still travel all around. Oh, you still do? Yeah. But just primarily SoCal and California. But I...

first came over here in 2020 I think that was 2020 the end of 2020 oh really okay yeah so it was because yeah that was whenever the first like wave the wave of covid hit yeah so that must have been in July or September July August or September of 2020 wow so you've been here for a while yeah

Yeah, so I've seen the way California has progressed and everything. And then I've done contracts. I've done per diems. I've done... Oh, everything. Listen, if there's one thing you need to know about me is I love to be passed around. And I'm just kidding.

Feel hashtag in the hospital. That's why I'm a float nurse. Float. Which they might as well just rename that sinking because that's all you're doing. You're sinking down the fucking boat with whoever the fuck. There's no floating involved. Like, why are you floating me here? This hospital. Oh, because it's sinking. Yeah, I'm captaining the Titanic right now. I'm not floating.

That's so funny, though, because it's so cute. Like when you get float, the reason why you're getting floated is because that unit is sinking. Yes. And you're not really going to float because you're about to sink. They might as well call you the floaty because you're basically a human life preserver at that point. You are basically the floaty that they're looking for. You're there to take all the patients that they don't want. Yeah.

That's too freaking funny. Are you still afloat now? Yeah, most places. So that's the thing is that most places, if you're an ICU nurse, they just automatically put you in the float pool because they're like, oh, you can work anywhere, which is not the case. That's not the case. If you put me in with like five patients, I'm losing my mind.

For sure. I love all my patients, but I'm losing my mind. Oh, for sure. Yes. Oh, my God. You're lucky you've never had... What's the max patient you've ever had? Oh, I've had, like, the five patients. You've had? Mm-hmm. Five? Actually, I've had, like... I mean, as a CNA, or, like, if they floated me to, like... I've had 15, bitch. Yeah. 15. That's crazy shit. I know. See, you can't... Like... You can't. I was, like, you all wipe your... You're a machine at that point. I was, like, girls...

Boys, wash your ass, put your IV, feed yourself, here's your medication. You got this. But in the ICU, the most I've had is three.

Okay. That's even three in ICU. That's a lot. A lot. And we would have that during the pandemic and people would freak out. Now, granted, that's, it was a lot of work, but there also was a lot of help to like prone patients and things like that. But I was like, I had three patients all the time in Georgia. Holy shit. So I just, I was like, let's do it. Who are we flipping now? And now are you floating our ICU still?

You're floating, right? Yeah. Well, so right now I'm in between like contracts, but I'm about to start back again, a per diem that's going to be float. Where are you going? Oh,

I don't want to stay on here. I don't want people to find me. People are crazy. People are crazy. That's true. There's like millions of people listening to this. Oh, my God. Okay, so but you're in California. I'm going to be at Grey Sloan Memorial. But you're still going to be in California. Yeah. Okay. Oh, okay. Yeah, yeah. California. Sorry if that was the question. Yeah, you're still going to be in California. I'm still going to be. Yeah, because I want to say. So that's why like I hadn't officially moved here. And then like now that I finally have like a place.

per diem per diem I'm gonna move here a job you get to move a J-O-B J-O-B period a bloop a bloop a bloop

So you're in California now. How do you navigate in the changes? Because Georgia is completely different from California in so many, many ways. Yeah. Well, yeah, there's so many things. Everything's different. And like leaving your family and friends for work. So you're independent here. Right. And I think a lot of that. So that part doesn't scare me as much. I know like to other people, like it sounds scary. For sure. But I already had to do that.

like growing up. That is true. So, so you've kind of had the skills and the ability to kind of like, yeah, yes. I got myself. I'm like, I can do this. You know, period. If I'm unemployed for a month, I can, I can find another job. That's so true. I can go shake my ass on Ivy pole somewhere.

Since you're talking about the IV pole now, can you explain to us how you got into social media? When did it all start? Well, I was bored. Really? It all starts with that. I was bored and I love attention. And so then I was like, what can I do? It's either stripping or maybe social media. No, but it started in the pandemic whenever I was an ICU nurse. For sure. And...

South Carolina and I was bored. And you know, when everything shut down and you're an ICU nurse working with COVID patients, nobody wants anything to do with you. So I think it was literally, um,

And, like, I couldn't even go to Target in my scrubs because people would look at me like I was contagious. So that's where, like, all the, like, social media started. I was just, like, doom scrolling on TikTok. And then I just – from that, I was like, I could do this, I think, maybe. And I started making some nursing content. But then whenever I started, like, talking to the camera and saying dumb shit, that's whenever – People loved it. Yeah, people loved it. And I was like, oh, okay.

Okay. Okay. You want me to say dumb shit? I can, I do that all day. I could do that. I do that on daily. Yeah. So I was just like, okay, so I just have to click record. That's so funny. What's your first ever viral video? Okay. The first viral one where I was actually like talking to the camera was, I was talking about taxes and like going to jail. Like I was like,

It's tax season and I'm going to go to jail. Or something like that. That's too freaking funny. And then that one went viral. And then I think my first nursing one that went super viral was I was talking about...

COVID. Okay. It was like COVID talking about like the Delta, the Delta. And then I said something else. Yes. I remember this. This is the first video I've ever seen from you. And it was so damn funny. And I said, anyways, I have to go fart in my wallet for gas money. That's so freaking funny. Everybody was just like, excuse me. What did you say? And I was like, what I said.

What I fucking said. And when did the one thing straight, two things gay started? I think it started because I would do these videos like with the IV pole and stuff like that on my breaks. Right. At work. And so I work night shifts, so I would also get bored. Thank you. One of the hospitals I was working at, you had like an hour lunch break. So I would go. An hour? An hour. Sometimes it was broken up, though.

But I was like, can you give me a whole hour together? Okay. And I was like, what am I going to do? Because I, as nurses, we scarf our food down like in five minutes. So I was like, what am I supposed to do with the other 55 minutes? That's so true. So I would just like go try to like film, like I would go to the parking garage and I would film TikToks and I would try to come up with like different intros. And like, it was just like three jokes in one video.

And so I would try to think of different things to say to get people's attention at the beginning. And that's where the let's get one thing straight and two things gay came from. That is so funny. That was such a golden idea, though, because that's your brand right now. Yeah. It's just kind of caught a life of its own. Yeah. And I feel like that should be in a shirt or something.

Yeah. One thing straight, two things gay. Yeah. I'm just really lazy. You guys need to keep convincing Daddy Addy to just pull it on a shirt and wear it. I will. It's coming. It's coming. Period. It will. As it should. You know, what I did not realize is actually what we're doing is still nursing, but we're not nursing patients. We're nursing our colleagues. Right. We're still taking care of people. Exactly. Yeah. We're just not doing it by the book.

Thank you. We're just doing it unconventionally. Unconventionally and like we're the intrusive thoughts that our colleagues can't say in person. Right. Literally. Yeah. And then like once you graduate, it's just kind of like just take care of your patients. Do what's best for the patient. At the end of the day, do what's best for the patient. That's it. Regardless of what the book says sometimes. Exactly. And if that means that if your dementia patient thinks that you're on a boat,

Bitch, I want to be on a boat too. Pull me as a captain. I'm saddling up. Hold on, let me go grab my paddle real quick. Let's captain this ship. That's so freaking funny. Because this is more entertaining than working in the hospital. Thank you. I'm like, do you know where we are? Oh, we're on a ship. Bitch, where are we going? Hold on. Where's Jack and Rose? Hold on, I didn't realize we were on a ship. I just clocked in. Let's go. Where are we going?

Since we're talking about patients and something, patients experience, like what is the craziest patient experience you've ever had? I get asked this all the time. And my answer is like, I feel like I could say something mundane that's like just a general part of my day. And you would think that's crazy.

True. Like people don't realize that like when they ask nurses that especially on like first dates and stuff. They like. Have you ever been asked that on a date? All the time. And it's like the first. That is so weird. It's always like the first thing is like people are always like I want you to be my nurse. Bitch. I'm off. I'm off the clock bitch. I'm like okay. We don't accept your insurance.

Insurance denied. Insurance denies, bitch. Yeah. I'll tell you where I'm going to put the Foley later. 16 or 18 French. And then later you realize it's, oh, I should probably just use an IV. No shade. No shades. No shade. No shade. Put a condom cap. Yeah. Easy. Yeah, for sure. Listen.

Don't even get me started on the condom cath. That's so... Stop. Yeah. Oh my gosh. Literally, the condom cath, like, what always surprises me, well, I'll get to, like, my crazy story in a minute. What always surprises me is whenever you always get, like, the toxic masculinity, like, you get the patients that are literally, they're dying. Like, they have COPD. Like, they can barely breathe. They're on a BiPAP or whatever. And...

Then you go to put the condom cath on and they act like, oh, what are you doing? And you're like, hey, can you go get me a small condom cath or something like that? And they're like, I'm not a small. Baby. I'm not a small. And I'm just like.

Okay. Well, the skin tells me, yeah. Okay. We don't have to lie. I feel like there's other things that we could worry about. There's bigger things that we could worry about than your small condom catheter. Right, right. Let's focus on the problems at hand. I feel like let's focus on the things that we can change, you know?

You clock dirty. Yeah. Let's focus on the lifestyle changes that we can change. This, we can't help. And this is not a... And your bigger problem is your diagnosis, not your small date. Right. Well... Period. Exactly. And it's like, well, actually, I was going to go get a peer wig, but I was being nice. Not the peer wig.

Not the freaking pure wig. Oh, yeah. So going back to your crazy story. Oh, my gosh. I have so many. Do you want crazy or do you want like traumatizing? Traumatizing. Okay. So the day that I wanted to quit. It was a dark, stormy night in the ICU. Actually, I don't know what the fuck the weather was, but we were. Oh, these are sound effects. The patient was intubated. So you have to. By path. Okay. So the patient was had C. Diff.

and was not small so it took four of us to turn them over i was on the ass upside and it's a fine line when you're cleaning a patient up between i already know this it's a fine line between between cleaning them up and stimulating something um and so sometimes it's like you're in ride at splash mountain you don't know when the when the drop is gonna happen

But you know it might come. And so we were gowned up. We thought we were ready. Gowned up, had towels the whole nine yards. And double-gloved, triple-gloved, I think, that day. And we just cleaned a little bit too much and stimulated and we got sprayed. And me and the nurse, I'll never forget the look in that nurse's face. I've had dead patients or deceased patients where the room was louder than in that room when that happened. Yeah.

Nobody was laughing. Everybody's jaw dropped. Everybody hit the floor like the amount that just. Yeah. And so trigger warning if anybody doesn't like bodily fluids. And so we like turned to each other and I just remember looking at the other nurse and I was just like, Tiffany, tell me it's not on my face. Just tell me it's not on my face. Like even if it is like just tell me.

And she was like, it's just like, it's not like, and she's like, is it on mine? And I was like, no. And we just like stood there like gloved and like in the gowns and we just like, didn't know what to do. And we normally don't get breaks in Georgia, but that day we took a break and we just like sat outside. Oh baby. I need a vacation. Yeah. We were like, and then I, I, Oh yeah. It was like, I, I rode splash mountain. It was, it was literally like, I, yeah, it was so bad.

Like, I don't know. I've never seen anything like it, honestly. And it was so bad. Like, I was traumatized in that moment. So let me drink. I'm going to need a drink. In that moment, I was like, this is... Oh, this...

This is how it feels like. So nursing is like this. This is how it feels like. So nothing prepared me. Oh, so all those tests that I took. Oh, oh. You're not supposed to just wash your hands for 30 seconds and then introduce yourself and then take up the curtain and things are going to go well? In that moment, none of that mattered. Shit. Like, yeah. No. My God. HIPAA, OSHA, be damned. At that point. Like.

Like, I was like, I don't care. This is not worth my license right now. Like, in that moment, I was like, it wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth it. I would have taken a bath.

Yeah. Bye. We took it off and we all like we went. I don't think it was on our like scrubs. I don't think it got on our scrubs. But I remember we all like me and like we just got like the surgical scrubs and we changed and we just for the rest of the shift, like everybody like we just sat in silence and we were just like. And I was in my head like because they tell you in nursing school, like nothing can prepare you from when you start working in the hospital. And I think I was just like stifled.

and went straight into the ICU and was just laughing. And I even saw people, like, comforted family members as, like, their loved one died and all that. Saw a lot of traumatizing stuff, but it wasn't until that moment that I was like... That you're like, you know what? Fuck this shit. Not only that, but, like, I was blaming myself. I was like, oh, I fucked up. Like...

I don't want this life. Real hard. Like, this is not what I thought I'm going to get into. Oh, my God. Like, how do I get a refund? Even half of the refund, I'll take it. Like, sometimes, like, I love my patients. But sometimes in moments like that, you're just like, throw it all away. Like, throw the patient away. Let's start anew. Forget the whole schooling. Forget all the struggles. Fuck this. Oh, my God. That is so crazy. That was the most traumatizing story.

story. That's crazy to me. Yeah. I can't imagine. I don't want to be in that position. Never. Which, I mean, I'm sure we all have gotten stuff on us. We've done. I mean, bodily fluids on us, but to be sprayed with it? I know. Like a skunk. Straight up. Imagine your mouth open. No. Not in that moment. You keep your mouth closed every time. Mouth open, eyes closed. I'm just like, where am I putting this?

Like this. Oh, my God. That's crazy. Now, my next question is... Okay. Have you gotten any hate on the internet? It was so stupid. I made a video...

Where I was talking about getting Starbucks in the morning. So there's this guy, I guess, that he makes these videos where he like, it's like gym motivation. And it's like very like toxic masculinity. And he's like, we go gym now. Oh my God, gym bros. Yes. But there's like this one guy in particular that does it. And this is no shade to him. I don't think it was him that did the, started the hate. But I just stitched one of his videos and I just like had just woken up and my hair was messy. And I was just like,

No, we go Starbucks. No, we go Starbucks now instead of the gym. And so like that went viral. And then...

Somebody else stitched that and like was calling me like a beta instead of like an alpha male. So I got like flooded with now granted it all just seemed really stupid to me. So I was laughing. I was laughing because out of all the things you could make fun of me for, that's what you came. You called me a beta. Right. What?

What even is that? I have no idea what the alpha and the beta is. All I know is if you're in a hospital, you're not an alpha, you're not a beta, you will get the holy cow. What is a beta? That means I wash in between my booty cheeks? Yeah. Then I'm a beta. Thank you. Because you look like you don't. Peak locked? Right. And so you just let the water run. Period. I'm just like, okay. So what are we doing here? And then, so I got all these guys. A lot of them were just...

Like spam accounts. And they just like flooded all my videos with like beta this, beta that. That is crazy. I had to go through delete.

Thousands of comments. Like, thousands of comments. Do you know there's a filter comment in TikTok? Yeah, so I did that. But this was, like, after. Like, because it just happened so fast. It blew up. Right. And so, by the point... By the time I, like, caught up to it and was trying to delete it, then my account got banned. And then I had to, like, reach out to TikTok. And then they, like, gave me my account back. Thank you, TikTok. Thanks, TikTok. But for a while there, if y'all noticed, I was missing for, like, two months. That was... Because of that. Yeah, it was because of that. And...

They all reported my account. And I mean, people will literally report any videos that they don't like. And for some reason, this application... And shades on you guys. I don't know how the hell do you guys do this run of privacy and shit. But they reported a comment that I did before for sexual abuse. When they said like, Okay, pop off, queen. Yeah. Sexual abuse? I said slay to someone once and they were like...

this is violence. And I was like, not yet. Watch me, bitch. Well, now it is. I was like, now I'm violent. And they would report videos that doesn't have any correlation to the report. Yeah. Have you ever spotted McDonald's hot, crispy fries right as they're being scooped into the carton? And time just stands still.

But flag it. Yeah. I'm like, do you guys like who is in the back of this whole thing? Yeah. And sometimes it's like you're being too sexual or something like that. And it's like and I was just there in my scrubs. I wasn't even dancing or anything. And I'm just like.

Well, if I turn somebody on, then that's not my fault. If the person reported this got a boner. Yeah. That's on them. That's on them. They just felt guilty about it because they were watching it with their phone in their left hand. Thank you. Period. Period. Clock T. Oh, my God. So going back to the social media situation, what is something that you...

Like about social media that you're doing right now? As stupid as it sounds, I love like I love the going live and just talking to people every day and just like the engagement that way because it seems it's so much more like real time. For sure. Rather than just like, oh, I posted this thing for you and then they comment.

And I'm sure you deal with the same thing kind of like your live shows. It's just a different beast. It's a different vibe. Yeah. It's nice to be able to actually FaceTime with people in real time. And to see their genuine reaction in real time. For sure. It's like, you know.

And you're a gamer too. Right. And to, yeah. And so then to also, but some of that comes from like me just having ADHD. I just need something to do. Like I can't just sit in front of there, like in front of the screen and just like read comments and just wait for it. So like, I like to game because it gives me something to do and it also provides content for like a way to also entertain people.

But yeah, I do gaming. I would say that's probably my favorite part of social media is just the live aspect, but then also just the genuine reactions from people. And then being able to engage with them in the comments. And what is something in social media that you learned that you hate about it? Apart from hate.

Sometimes like how like time consuming it can be or like thought. Are you consumed on your phone most of the time? I try not to be. I've gotten a lot better. Okay. But yes. Yeah, I am. I'm always on my phone. I'm always on my phone. But I've gotten a lot better. And I think though that it was kind of like a blessing and a curse whenever I got my account banned. For sure. Because when I went those two months without like an account like at all. It felt better. Then I was like.

Why? Like, because it really felt like a part of me died. And, like, that sounds dramatic. No, no, no. It's true. But it's, like, just think even, like, right now. Like, if someone... If, like, your account was just taken away for, like, no reason. Oh, yeah. I would die. And then, like, you couldn't get a hold of, like... You know, it really does feel like a part of you died, like, because it's something that you put a lot of time and effort into. But...

At the same time, it wasn't, like, something tangible in my life. So I was able to, like, sit back and, like, go to therapy. Period. And be like, why did this affect me so much? Like, because this is, like, not something that's

In real life. Like, that's for sure. It is. There is a sense like it's a part of you, but it's not everything. It's not your whole life. And so that's whenever I like I was able to take a step back and be like, so that's probably what I don't like is that when it did affect me and consume me so much.

I was like, okay, it's okay to enjoy this thing and to have it be a part of your life, but it shouldn't be your whole life. For sure. For sure. Because a lot of people now makes it their whole life. Right. That's it. And it's okay to make it your job. I'm not saying like, oh, don't. Oh, yeah. For sure. Don't make it your whole life. But you still have to have, like, if it got taken away tomorrow, like, would you be okay? That's it. Because it's always, I mean, TikTok is in the verge of getting taken away.

Yeah, well... From us. Yeah. Is it really? It's like a threat. I don't know. It's a threat, but I don't think it will ever go away. I mean, I think...

But I get all my news also from TikTok. So I'm like, I don't know how biased that is. That is so true. But according to TikTok, TikTok's not getting taken away. Like, according to people on TikTok, it's not getting taken away. According from TikTok sources. It's going to, I guess, take so long. For it to be taken. It's generating so much money in the United States. Right. It's so many jobs. For sure. And so many people are...

profiting from it or benefiting from it even if they don't have a business on TikTok. And have you been profiting from like social media like financial wise? Not as much as I want to. Hey sponsors. Yes sponsors period. But yeah like there is definitely a payoff to it. Oh for sure for sure for sure. And I used to be like very resistant to that idea because I didn't I didn't want it to like make

Like, let it become my whole life. For sure. And then I was like, oh, this can be a part of your life. And you can profit from this. That's it. But without it being... Too much of, like, your whole existence. Yeah. Still be yourself. That's it. And then if that...

just happens to make you money then that's the american dream right there that's it that's it yeah and since we're getting to the end of this whole podcast what is something that you want to tell the people listening right now okay well actually i have two life mottos so like live by this i'm

I shouldn't be anybody's role model, first of all. I should just be like your like slutty inspiration. Period. I can be your inspo, but yeah, don't put me as your role model. Maybe like your whole model. Just JK. No, but yeah, comparison is the thief of joy. I loved like when you said that because like I grew up like always. And so I have to remind myself that always.

all the time. And it's, and that's basically social media is like a breeding ground for you to just like compare yourself to other people because that's, that's literally like what it is, is like you're liking videos because it's sometimes you're like, oh, I want that or I see that or I want that life. So it's okay to like admire something and like want, want more for yourself or have goals and things like that. But

That doesn't mean it has to look like this other person that's doing the same thing. So don't compare yourself too much because you'll just never be happy. For sure. And focus on the things you can control. And then the other thing is that I always, that's how I'm able, especially the nurses that are listening, is when I clock into my shifts and I disassociate, if I'm having a hard day or I get something traumatizing comes my way, I always just think my life motto is this is just temporary.

That's true. And I'm like, this is just temporary. I feel like it's okay to acknowledge the feeling in the moment and be like, wow, this is overwhelming. This is traumatizing. This is a lot. But like, don't let it affect you in the moment. And I know it's stupid. And I know sometimes that's not always realistic. But you can always just think like, this is just temporary. You're going to feel better later. And like, you have to kind of self-regulate. That's so, I love that. That's been the most like important thing that I've experienced.

like had to learn growing up is like this is just temporary and that it always gets better that is true and then it's worse again and then it gets better and then it gets worse again which is i think is life anyways is that like you can never always be in a high like there's always gonna be lows but what you gotta remember like you said is the lows is temporary just like the highs right so your expectation should always be

In the middle. Right. And it always. And it goes with like that comparison thing. Is because then you see these people. That like it looks like they're just always on high, high, high, high, high. Those are the people that.

are behind closed doors are like it's a shit show oh for sure you know for sure it's a and i hate to say that like i hope i i don't wish that for them but it's just like don't don't always compare yourself to those people that's it and like what you see in social media is not entirely what described this person as a whole right is i think something also that like for us healthcare workers is that

We get judged so much because we chose to show ourselves and be out there in public. And they're like, I would never want you to be my nurse. But how can you know that without me taking care of you? Right.

Right. Like, how are you telling me that because you've seen a stupid video that I made, you're now able to tell me that I cannot save you? Right. Like, who the fuck are you to tell me that? Well, thank you so much, Big Daddy Addy, for being on the podcast. And I think, like, a lot of people have learned more about

about you about who you are as a person and you as a nurse and I like as you were saying like don't make me a role model but I feel like a lot of people a lot of like

teenagers, a lot of people who's listening right now who can relate to your story can make you their role model because look at you now. You are successful. You've brought yourself by yourself in a position where a lot of people would have given up if they were in the position that you were at before. Oh, yeah. Like, I don't know what I'm going to do if I was in your position. I feel like I don't know how I'm going to be an RA and a CNA and then

nursing school all this shit all together and like live with my best like I would have like lost it those days because I just don't have the capacity like for sure now I could do it but like you did it and I feel like that's something to like for people to look up to like oh my god like

I love this man. Like, I love how he is where he's at right now because of what he did in his life. Well, thank you so much. I really... Like, that means a lot. Oh, for sure. For sure. For sure. And I mean, like, I'm not feeding you bullshit right now. I'm just saying that... It's okay. Like, you can keep...

Keep going. Keep gassing me up, actually. You are just inspirational. And I think, like, I just love that for you and all the success that you've been getting right now in social media, in your career, everywhere. I think you deserve it. Yeah. You just deserve it. Well, the same to you. I think that you literally, even anytime you get hate, like, I think that's, like, I've followed you for a long time. But that's what really, like, made me, like, solidified, like,

My love for you and admiration for you was just when you started getting... Well, I mean, we always get hate. But when I saw you get a lot of hate, then the way that you handled that, I was like, oh, yeah, he's a real one. That's it. Because for me, my biggest thing is that if I have not stepped on anyone's foot, and I've always been the same person that I am from the very beginning, I've been very authentic of what I do.

There's nothing for me to be worried about someone else's judgment towards me. Right. And it's not clapping back. It's just not feeding it. Not feeding it. Yeah. And that's from therapy. Thank you, therapist. Yeah. Don't feed the stray cat.

Period. Again, thank you. Thank you so much for being here in the podcast. And where can they follow you, Big Daddy Addy? Come on. So you can follow me on TikTok at Big underscore Daddy underscore Addy. Or you can follow me on Instagram at The Official Addison.

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period thank you again so much daddy addy i love you so much no i love you thank you we gotta finish this mojito it's hitting me a bit because i told the guy can i please get a mimosa on the go and he's like no we don't do that i was like come on baby extra five dollars hit us with something it's like all right i can do you a mojito

I'll spike with some vodka. Oh, yes. Period. I love it. Thank you again, Bessie, for listening to this episode of the podcast. I love you so much. Stay caffeinated, medicated, and hydrated. And I will see you again next week for another episode of your favorite podcast. I beg your pardon. See you, Bessie. Bye.