MJ Fresh: Talks Toxic Exes, Custody Battles and Why She Won't Be Silenced
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All right, gentlemen, coming to main stage next, this is Bunny. Get up there. She's got a tornado of titties coming your way. Get those dollar bills ready. She's got an ass that shakes like Michael J. Fox. So get up there and throw, throw, throw them dollars. Dude, that is fucking iconic. What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode. I'm still trying to wake up. Another episode of Dumb Blonde.

My baby sis is back in the house. MJ fresh baby. MJ. That's the dollar sign. Dude. Not, I don't think I'm the only one that's happy that you're back. Josh has not left her alone since she walked in. I know. I miss my little stink. He would look cute for me today. You guys actually look like you go together.

The aesthetic is just like... I know. And when he first sat by me, he was just like, posed up so cute. Dude, where the fuck do we even start? Like, last time you were here, let's replay. We literally started from you and me being two completely different bitches, first of all. Yeah. Completely different. Yeah, we... Let's see, you were on season two. So...

Season two, I was not on OnlyFans and I was just starting out with the podcast and you literally just flew out here. I was like, I'm going to try this. Like I was only coming for this. And then I was like, I'm going to go try this like adult industry thing. I don't know. Yeah. Now I'm like doing a fucking meet and greet for it. And like you're like one percent like the top person on OnlyFans. I'm like, it's fucking nuts. No, it's crazy. OK, so let's backtrack. Hey, Chach.

Oh, I'm just letting him live his life. He will fucking sit there and lick you the whole time. Chachi, lay down, honey. Okay? Yeah. He looks at you just like shit. All right, so let's fucking dive right in. Porn. What's up with it? Fucking porn. Last time you were here, you were like, I'm thinking about getting into porn. And I was just like, you know what? I support you, girl, in whatever you want to do. And take it from there. Fuck, I was literally like...

I'm so excited for this question. I've been planning the porn questions since I got here and now I'm like, I don't want to talk about it. No, I do want to talk about it. Fucking porn, dude. I don't know. At first, I fucking loved it and I still do fucking love it. When did you start? When did you jump into it? Right after that podcast? After the podcast was my first day I went there. Wow. Flew out. So it's been about what? Two years now? Yeah.

Yeah, automatically I was getting booked with like browsers, like Vixen, like big companies, you know what I mean? And I was like, oh, this is fun. And I can like be creative and do my own thing, like, you know, my own styles and shit. And I was like, this is like a good job to have.

And like, oh my God, I did not realize like how much shit you have to go through to commit to that. Yeah. It's not as easy as just like jumping in and being like, I'm a porn star. Yay. What are some of the things that you have to commit to? Losing family. Like you literally lose family. You have people that don't mind when they think it's just like a little like, like thing you're doing and a bad decision and you're going to learn to get over it. It's a phase. This isn't a phase, ma. Right. It's like, I'm actually like this. I actually do this. And it's like, I've committed. I've moved there. I'm doing it. And like, people are just like,

No, don't do it. You got to go through that. And then you got to go like, oh my God, I feel like when I first came on the podcast with you, you told me everything not to do. And I did all of that. And I'm like, fuck, why didn't I listen? Oh,

And I don't ever, when I give advice, I give it, I never give advice that I don't have personal knowledge on. So it's like, if it's something that I've been through or my girls have been through, I'll always give advice. But like, if I don't know about something, I won't speak on it. So no, it was like, you know, just like watch out for people and, you know, stay clear of like the toxic relationships and stuff like that.

didn't trust everyone loved everyone um got the toxic relationship all the way through and yeah we're gonna talk about that like kind of i feel like set me free in the world and i did my little thing and now i'm back and people are fucking people are fucking crazy out here oh yeah people are mean and out to get themselves i met some of the nicest people that would give me the shirt off their backs and then i met some people that will live off cut your throat eat the food out of your fucking house you know what i mean like

Have you pay their bills and then turn around and shit on you for a shoot. What was like one of your first scenes? Like what, what, what did it, let me feel your emotions and walk me through your first scene. Your first professional scene. Chachi, I'm going to kick your ass, man. My first professional scene. She's like, let me think back. It's been a while. How many scenes have you done?

a fucking lot it's like i want to be like the like is that one mj fresh bitch on here but i also want to be like a real ass bitch and talk my shit oh no we got a lot and i'm like people are gonna hate me for this but i really don't care because i'm no whatever but tell my first scene i'm like so excited but i'm like i'm nervous and

I went and did it. His name was Peter Green. Fucking amazing guy. Love him. Shout out Peter Green. Fucking love him. No. He has like a girl. They're having like a bit. You know what I mean? Super like. Hold on one second. Chachi, get down. Oh, I'm just vibing with him. I'm not even noticing. But I just don't want him. Chachi, I don't want his tongue to pick up in your microphone. Chachi, come here. It'd just be him like snorting the whole time. Just the whole time. Chachi, come here.

Come here. You're not going to be able to come to work if you don't know how to act, bro. Come on. Get up here and co-host. Let's go. Come on. Oh, my God. I love that. Okay, have a seat. Love that. So, Peter Green was your first scene. Yeah. So, he made it super easy because, like, you know, he's kind of got the same thing as me. Like, you know, a whole, like, different life at home, like family and stuff like that, you know? So, it was, like, really easy to, like, shoot with him and...

Okay, I'm gonna keep it a bean to be honest with you. When I first started in the industry, I was on like Zans. So I was like, oh, yeah, I didn't have no stress. I was like, fuck it. I'm here. Listen, the best time of my life that I don't remember was when I had a Xanax addiction. Okay. So literally, you don't remember shit. You ruin friendships. You fuck. I'm sitting here like trying to remember how I felt. And I don't know at all. But I'm glad that I did porn because

watching porn, I could like see like how I looked and I was like, I never ever want to do that shit ever again. Cause I literally just looked like, yeah, just not how I look now. You can't tell unless you know, you're me, but like I was watching it like, Hmm,

Yeah. That's got to be hard looking back and watching yourself on camera just anyways. I know I critique myself doing fucking OnlyFans videos. So I couldn't imagine porn is like high def and like just you see everything and it's just you're on a set. Like it's got to be just crazy. You could have like one wrong pubic hair and they're like flipping. I'm like, yo, what the fuck? But no, but I loved it. It was it was fun. Like, I don't know. The people were like.

super nice you know what I mean like you get on set and it's really professional there's like here am I there's like um camera crews like you know what I mean people all over the place like it's like super professional but then there's just like little things in the industry that aren't and it makes it hard on girls in the industry I feel like and everyone what would you say that are shut up and be quiet yeah what would you say are some of the things that aren't professional I

And what do girls have to claim? Jesse motherfucking Jones, okay? If anyone's heard of Jesse fucking Jones. Is he an actor? I don't know. He told me that he was signed with a company. I'm not going to mention because I really fucking love them. And he told me if I call him out for stuff, I will never work for this company ever again. Nobody knows me that I might as well keep my mouth shut where I fucking belong. And I'm like, oh, because I'm not like big enough in this industry. Like these people are like...

They're vultures, especially the men in that industry. They are such vultures. I mean, look at all the shit that's coming out against Ron Jeremy's old ass. He's fucking like 70 something. And now all this fucking shit's coming out that, you know, he was like just this fucking creep back in the day. And I mean, like, hello, it's obvious that he was fucking creepy as shit. He, I saw Ron Jeremy and fucking Vegas all the time. And he was always preying on like younger girls, but I don't. Yeah. There's so much shit like that and it doesn't come out. And like,

I two days ago, like exposed some shit that I haven't because everyone's like, don't do it. Don't do it. Don't do it. What was it? But the person, the Jesse guy had showed me a video of other girls, uh,

crying on his phone that day. We went to go. We got booked to do like content or whatever. I'm going to talk about it. And I don't give a fuck who's mad at me for talking about it, watching this. Y'all can suck my dick. I'm gonna talk about it. Ayo, bitch. Suck my dick. He showed me a bunch of other girls who have like millions of followers and shit like that crying. And he said it was because he was like laughing. He's like, it's because like I wouldn't fuck them. And I'm like in my head at the time looking at it like, damn, that's a sloppy ass bitch. Like I wouldn't either. Like, you know? Yeah.

Until I'm the bitch in the video. Oh, no. Yeah. And then I was doing these girls and putting the videos out. Or what was it? I don't know. I just remember he showed me that. But then that's kind of what happened to me. And then.

His exact reasoning was that reasoning. I don't know. I just kind of like added up, you know, yeah, but it sounds like a narcissist Yeah, but basically you're just like kind of put into a box of like if you don't have hard cold evidence on someone You can't speak right and i'm the type of bitch i'm from the south. You know what I mean? I don't give a fuck I say how the fuck I feel if someone makes me uncomfortable i'm gonna tweet about it and let everyone know like I don't care I've always loved that about you that you've always stayed true to who you are. Hold on one second

Can we hit this fan right here? I totally forgot to turn it off. Yeah, that should make my ADHD go crazy. Yeah, I was listening to it. No, one thing I've always loved about you is you are no holds barred. And that's how I am too. And a lot of people might come against you right now for being so upfront. And so this is what it is. But in the end, people are going to love you for that. Because...

nobody's going to be able to get shit past you. You know, like you're just always going to tell it like it is. Yeah. I sat and I was like, you're right. Like there's, but it's like, not even that. Like, I've been through so much shit. Something like that for me is like, I don't give a fuck. You know what I mean? Cause people are like, well, why didn't you get police involved? Because like, I've gone through so much. So did you guys make a video? Is that, it was content day. So we got booked for content. Cause I've literally like been,

going through it so I just haven't been like booking my own content to my agents kind of like bitch we need content for OnlyFans like he's been booking it for me um

So I'm like doing content with this dude all day and it's cool or whatever. Like I shot with him before and the same exact incident happened. Right. But before, like I told you, I was on Zans and stuff. So I woke up the next day and I got it past you. Yeah. And I'm like, damn, I'm just a fucking I got fucked up. Like, you know, I blame me. Right. And then fast forward.

homeboy acted like he didn't know me at first or didn't even remember he had sex with me before he's the only for a year straight you know what i mean yeah like you remember right but i mean i deal with guys like that in the industry all the time that'll act like they don't know you and then they're like oh yeah and then they'll like mention like little tiny details where it's like how would you know that if you weren't looking on my twitter how would you know that

whatever creepy dudes yeah and then um overall what would you say your experience in the porn industry has been like are you gonna keep filming are you gonna keep making videos yeah i think i just decided like i've been going through it trying to figure this whole thing like nine out like it's like a crazy like world to understand but i fucking have realized that i fucking love the industry i love being creative and doing my own thing and i love like my agent and like the people you know that i do know are good

But I've like always just taken the bad shit and the bad shit like hiding it and not speaking on it has like put me in this little box and like gave me like depression and all kinds of fuck shit. So I decided I'm just going to get out of my fucking box. If people drop me or don't book me because of it, I don't give a fuck.

You know what I mean? Like before porn, I was good. And if after porn, I'll be fine. I don't care. I just like literally I've realized I'm going to say and do what the fuck I want. And I don't care. Yeah. Because I did that before. Remember like before porn, that's exactly what I. And then I get into porn and I'm just like.

The girl next door. Yeah. No. Do you feel like they just try to silence all the women? I mean, because it's already a sexual industry. So you would think that they would be more open about like sexual assault and fucking the things that go on in the industry. You think that it would like wouldn't even matter. Why do you feel like they're trying to keep you so hushed? I wouldn't like say like they, but there's just like individual people that like

Everyone benefits off someone. Right. And no one wants anyone to fuck that up. So everyone's like, unless you have hard, cold evidence, don't speak or say absolutely anything because we don't want to risk you missing a shoot that I can't make money off of. Right. But then that means there could be 10 other girls in your same position that are too scared to speak on it. Right. Okay. Or you're not going to like the dude, Jesse, I guess has a bunch of followers.

I don't fucking give a fuck how many followers he has. Yeah. At the end of the day, some fuck shit happened. Yeah. And I'm going to speak on it because I know myself. I've, I took like a year out of the industry because it like literally, I don't even know. I was like, so like brain fucked by it. Like a mental break. Yeah. And I went home and then I started managing a strip club that banned me. Yeah.

Let's hear about that. Fuck that club. I'm banned again. Is it the strip club that you got fired from before when you were talking about it on the podcast or no? I went back and they made me the manager and they put signs up of me everywhere. The bitches, I literally got so lost in the sauce of just like loving the fact that the bitches hated it because they were like drawing on my poster. Like literally I'm talking high school type upset about it. And I'm like, I don't understand why girls can't bring you so much. I'm actually not doing anything but positivity for this fucking club. Yeah. Yeah.

I feel like just people and I just am a nice person. And then I go into like fucked industries and I'm like, everyone's nice here, right? And I'm like, wait a minute.

No. Why do you feel like the girls hated you so much? Was it because they put you in that manager role and the girls wanted it? What does a fucking strip club manager do? I was a marketing promoting manager and basically I just like ran the social. They didn't have socials. They didn't have pictures of the club to even post on socials. I did see you doing that a lot of like promoting the club. I booked the photographers. I booked the girls. I had to even book some girls that weren't even from that club because I couldn't.

You know what I mean? Yeah. I have made the outfits like I had the commercial done and I've contacted people like no, not a single soul helped me. I wasn't getting paid this whole time. Oh, no. Yeah.

You got to always get paid for what you're good at, baby. I just love being able to walk in there and I'm like, I was banned. Here's my pictures. You know what I mean? And then I'm like, wait a minute. I'm being used right now. No, but I know. I hate it. I'm just fresh life, dude. So are we are we allowed to talk about the custody thing that went on on TikTok between you and your daddy? Oh, hell yeah. We can talk.

Because you know what? The court's already said don't talk about it and he's still talking about it. So why the fuck can't I talk about it? Okay, so when you were here last, I think that you revealed who your baby daddy was. But he was like nowhere involved in, what's his name again? Your son's name? In Princeton's life. And like you hadn't even talked to him or couldn't get a hold of him or something like that. I forget. Like he just was not in. Yeah, completely just like shut me out. Like I'm not the dad one day and the next day. Right.

I am the dad, but you'll never see him again if I get him all this stuff. So I'm like, yeah, you got a lot going on, buddy. And so I'm not going for child support. Nothing. I'm just. Yeah, you do you. And I'm not going to fight with anyone about my kid because, you know what I mean? We're good over here, baby. And so after that podcast dropped, I saw him with Jeffrey Starr, right? Was it Jeffrey Starr when he because he's a clout chasing bitch, fell off from

Vine well I was I didn't Work out he's broke as Fuck you know what I mean I Have so many people who Hit me up he tried to sell Him equipment to didn't work Out all types of shit where He's just like but he came Out of scamming and stuff and Now as gay right that was Before that and then I yeah I Guess he had a little clout Chase from Jeffree Star came Out as gay got another Clout chase did you know he Was gay

I didn't know he was gay. Not that we care. I wouldn't put it past him. But I think it's disrespectful as a motherfucker if you come out on Father's Day. You can make your coming out day any other day than my day. You know what I mean? But do you think that he just did that for clout? Or is he really out here dating guys and girls too? But now he's shunning and talking shit on Jeffree Star. Oh, God. God.

he he is the type person who doesn't he doesn't know who the fuck he likes yeah i don't keep up with him so no all i saw was the tiktoks somehow he ended up in my fyp a couple times when you guys were going through that uh like you know back and forth on tiktok of course i'm always gonna side with my bitch yeah but and i'm pissed because i literally could have made so many more videos i would have just literally made him look like shit i have files of it and then i sat there and i looked at it and i was like you know what

No, I think he did. I could be in the room playing fucking patty cake with my kid or I could be sitting here making TikToks talking shit about it and then my kid can go back and see that one day. Yeah. And then know that about his dad. So what had happened? Okay, so he was hanging out with Jeffree Star. He fucking came out as gay and then all of a sudden he decided he wanted to be father of the year. So...

This fucking guy. Yeah. Decided all of a sudden out of nowhere. My family's really fucked up too. Yeah. Shout out to y'all weirdos. Same. Um, yeah, no, very like very weird. And, um, they would like get up. They're clout chasers too, honestly. And they were family. Yeah. They would literally like text him and be like, um,

you're right she's so mean da da da da da like what the fuck you don't even you got his number out of my phone he doesn't even know me like you don't mean or know his kid like he doesn't want shit to do with you guys literally had like a i have friends go out of their way to make accounts to dm him from the industry girls in the industry

going out of their way to DM and try and hang out and shit like that with my baby daddy. And, oh, I work with MJ, so I know how she mothers. I'm a good motherfucking mother. Like, you know what I mean? And all these people are reaching out, trying to, like, talk about me. I'm like, and then he now is at a point where he's trying to send it to me. Like, hey, just letting you know.

Shut up. Yeah. Like you're trying to protect me or what? Yeah. Like I wouldn't trust him. You can't trust somebody who flip flops is hot and cold like that all the time. He's the type of person, he's an opportunist. Yeah. How do you say that word? Opportunist. Opportunist. And if he, one person from his past texts him or anything, he jumps on it immediately and makes a big scene and has to be on like gossip channels about it. He has a YouTube video now that some...

Some guy, some kid randomly decided to make a tea talk YouTube about me and him. I think that's complete bullshit. I think that's complete bullshit. This guy just randomly decided to have a tea talk about us. Yeah. What is he? I don't I don't know. I'm like, fill me in. I'm too old. There's like people. There's like Twitter pages. I was talking about it. Some kid on YouTube made a YouTube video about it. Yeah. He was like posting screenshots and shit of him and the social worker talking. Tell me how this is fucked up, though.

I told that social worker, I have no idea who that man is. I was sleeping with everybody. I don't know who my baby daddy is. That's what I said because I didn't want him involved. Right. So could you have a paternity test? The state was supposed to make sure that that was done. That was in the paperwork because the only thing he even jumped in like or anything he involved in throughout the whole thing with Princeton. He went to one court date, which was the very last court date. And

They had no probable cause. I didn't do shit wrong. I had marijuana in my system. Right. Which is legal everywhere. I just came from LA that day because my family, like, come to find out were the people that did it to me. Wow. Yeah, I found that out not too long ago. That's so fucking hurtful. Grandma? I thought grandma was cool. I thought grandma was cool, too. She had dementia. Damn, grandma turned.

Grandma turned. Wow. I was just talking about that with my sister on the phone today. I was like, it's crazy because the last video, I was like, Nanu made my underwear. Yeah. When it was stripping? Okay. Porn? Porn?

I've never seen more evil people in my fucking life. It's like they think I like rolled off into hell or something. I'm like, no, y'all just didn't leave me much of shit. And I have a kid and I'm gonna take care of them. Yeah. You know what I mean? And just because you're not doing things the way they did them back in their day doesn't mean that what you're doing is wrong. Yeah. But they don't even know what they're doing because they've never even left the state. Right. You know what I mean? Like they're.

Everybody's got a fucking opinion until, you know, about everybody else's business until it's theirs. Yeah. Nobody wants an opinion about their own business. Yeah, exactly. I'm like, what the fuck? Like, my dad's a fucking pastor and a crackhead. How the fuck does that work? Yeah. Like, but gonna tell me I'm a bad mom. Huh? No, I just do an industry. There's so many... I don't think we never got... We never got into your dad on the other... On the last podcast. He's a pastor and a crackhead? I don't talk... I literally just... We've never had a relationship. He was, like, abusive, I guess. And then...

Like, I grew up a little bit and wanted to meet him, you know? Yeah. Everybody goes through that. Something probably Princeton will do, too, one day. And then I just saw True Colors, and I was just like, fuck that all together. But then porn, and now out of nowhere, he's, like, coming out the cut, like, upset. That has all the other kids, like, because I have a bunch of brothers and sisters. So he has them all thinking, like, I'm, like, the spawn of Satan. That is terrible. And I'm like, mm.

Okay, buddy. So going back to this custody battle, how did it settle? How did it end? Are you cool? Are you guys cool and co-parenting? I got my full custody back because I didn't do anything fucking wrong. So they did take custody away from you. They took my kid away from me. No. They put my baby in a home and I got to see him once a month twice.

Or twice a month. Like every month. Oh my God. Why didn't... If he was trying to be father of the year, why didn't they give him custody? I guess...

There's no DNA test. There's no way to. They legally shouldn't even have been allowed. The state. To contact him. Yeah. You know what I mean? How are they even allowed to like. Can you turn around and sue them if you wanted to? I don't know. It's literally like this. It's so fucked up to a point where like I don't even know anymore like how to explain things. Yeah. Or go about them other than just like run away from them because I'm like what the fuck. Right. Like that shit. I went home because I'm like this is not I'm not doing anything wrong. You know I'm not on drugs. I'm not

not doing it. I'm legally just doing a job where I signed W-2s. So I went home. Second I got there, they hit me with a drug test, marijuana in my system, but I just came from a legal state and everything. And they even said themselves, they were like, we've never seen this many people on a case. We've never seen this many lawyers, nothing. Like I willingly went to classes and did all that shit on my own. Like no one had to like

Normally, they said moms will wait to be told to do the class as their parents, but I just went ahead and did them. I was like, whatever the fuck gets my kid home. You know what I mean? Yeah. Get my fucking baby to me now. You've been taking care of that baby since he came out the womb. Yeah. I mean, I literally am on my own with him now. It's just me and him out here doing life because I'm like... You know, I get it. I dress differently, and I act differently, and I can't say big words, but it's not like I'm a bad mom. Right. I just am different, and I don't know. People...

Just judge my parenting. And that's one thing. Judge my parenting. Call me every name in the book. But to like involve like a state like that, South Carolina. Right. Like like super conservative will never probably ever legalize marijuana. Like, oh, no, the Bible Belt will never Bible Belt. Yes. That's what says. Yeah. But we're going to get to Caleb. I was kind of hoping Caleb was with you today so I could put you guys. Oh, my God. I wanted to bring him. I wanted to bring him so bad. And he was like, but I was like, no.

I don't know. It might not be Bunny's favorite. No, he wouldn't be my favorite. I would definitely grill him for sure. No, I wanted to tear him a new ass, actually, because I just got cheated on by a bitch at Pizza Hut. Okay, let's talk about it. Moving on. So you got your baby back. Everything's good there. Yes. Are you still... Are you living in South Carolina? No, I had a house. Everything perfectly. I just went to L.A. not too long ago to, like, do my re-entry into the industry. You know, I'm back. I mean, I would never regret for a second what happened. Yeah. Because...

losing my child i 100 i think was i think i was maybe a little selfish in aspects of my life and now it's like i live constantly like that could happen yeah not even by the state but just like in life you know and like so now i live every day like if he wasn't there because that like going through that is like the worst fucking feeling ever like you know i mean if you weren't a good mom you wouldn't have cared

Yeah. To see the hurt on your face, talking about your family and talking about this whole thing that happened like that shows that you're a good mom because my mom fucking left me when I was three months old and didn't even have as much fucking pain in her face talking about it. You know, so that shows a lot of people that like kind of know about like everything that's been going on. I've said that like, yeah, that a lot of moms have like like Caleb's mom, for example, left him and stuff. And he's like,

'cause I tore myself down for so long. Like, what am I doing wrong? Maybe I'm a bad mom. Maybe I'm not deserving of him. Like going through that made me really honestly think that I just wasn't good enough.

and like now like recovering from that like i still am like battling to see that i'm a good enough mom and i'm like i am it was probably fucking traumatic it probably gave you post-traumatic stress from all the shit you had to deal with no i don't i don't even trust my son around like daycare nothing like nothing at all because i'm so terrified someone's gonna like take him from me you know yeah i feel like there's better ways you should go about things like that if you don't agree with someone's parenting

You don't take their fucking kid from them. Especially because you always took care of your son. And I... Yeah, they said... Even the lady that was in contact with... Whatever the fuck he calls himself. That's baby daddy. I didn't want to say his name because he doesn't deserve... I call him sperm donor at this point. He doesn't deserve the clout. It's been two years and he's... Now that we know he's such a clout chaser, he doesn't deserve the clout. So we don't even care. No, none at all. Literally none. But yeah, that shit like...

Traumatized me 100%. I feel like there should be like. You had to go through that sis. Like for real. That shit is fucking terrible. I can't believe he would do that to you. And I sat my family down. With no intention of even fucking really taking care of the kid. Because for him it's not about Princeton. For him it's about showing everyone. Because it came out. It was all fine. Until I called it out on Twitter. Yep. Maybe that's why everyone tells me to shut the fuck up.

But I called out on Twitter because I'm like this man sitting back living his best life I'm, just watching him like purchase things and do his little like cloud chases and do good and i'm sitting home fucking changing shitty diapers so I called it out and

I realize the only time he cares is about control damage on social media. Well, that's what narcissists do. So you calling it out on Twitter was a blow to his ego. So he had to do damage control and make you look like the bad person so that it didn't hurt his ego. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like in the thing he's like, why don't you stop posting and go get your kid back?

I can't just go pick him up. You know, I'm in my classes, I'm doing my thing, but I'm not going to let you sit here and like completely, you already, I already have thousands of people now or like at the time I'm like trying to tell, cause they put me in psychology, all this stuff.

Because it honestly, I think they drug it out so long because they couldn't find a probable cause. That and they're getting paid for this. You know, the state gets paid for whatever they're doing. There's got to be something because they drug it out way too long. But he even like said things that were just like, why don't you just go get Princeton? And I'm like, I can't just go like pick him up. I got to go through classes, you know, like.

I was the only mom that my caseworker said she's ever seen request as many visits. She's like, I was like knocking down doors. Like I was at every visitation on time afterwards. Like is he seeing the kid now after all this? He's never done DNA tests. Same from two years ago. It's not a goddamn thing. I've even. So all that for nothing. I've even forgiven and texted him and been like, listen, like, you know, one day like you're going to have to answer for this.

And I'm kind of in a position where I'm kind of like alone, you know, like I don't have my family anymore. I've completely given everything into dropping so I can commit to my career and provide a good life for my kid. And so it would be nice to have a little bit of help and not even a text, nothing. Nothing. It's like he only gave a fuck when DSS was involved to try and fuck it up for me more because I think he was four. Kind of like. Yeah.

in a fucked up way to say it kind of for me not having princeton yeah but just to make his child's life like that's an evil human being to make a little boy go without his mom to just fucking be able to cause issues on social media literally just to get the clout on social well i mean i don't know if it was for that or if it's because he just he genuinely doesn't i guess want that well

Well, people make mistakes, you know, things happen. We didn't like plan it, but it happened and I took responsibility for it. Like I'm not out here forcing anyone, you know, I could legally, you know, make this person be involved, but I'm not doing that. Instead, I'm doing a couple of bullshit tweets. Cool. Ignore it and keep scrolling. Yeah. You'll save yourself a bunch of lawyer fees and all that shit. Well, that and don't do a whole fucking smear campaign to just not be a father.

I could understand if you were trying to be a dad, but when it's all said and done, after all the bullshit you did, you didn't even step up. It's like so many people afterwards. I'm like, does people not like see the bigger picture here? Because like first you got DSS telling you you're a bad person, bad mom, right? Yeah. Then you've got now Brandon thinking about himself and not the thousands of people who saw what he was posting, sending me death threats. So hold on a second. He changed his name. No, his real name. Okay. But his.

Fake name. We're going to bleep his last name out. I don't know if he's like a rapper, DJ, OnlyFans. I have no idea what he does anymore. He does absolutely everything in there, grandma. Yeah. Let's not say his name because we don't even want to give him the clout or the subs. This podcast is booming so much that bitches will go over there and fucking. Oh, yeah. No, fuck him. Unless you're going over there to talk shit. Fuck him. Yeah, I don't post. I don't even talk shit to him on social media anymore. Yeah. Fuck that. Yeah, don't even. Who cares? Don't even give him the clout. I feel like, cool, you fucked Jeffree Star, but like, mm.

I have an ex who actually I found out, I feel like Jeffrey, I love Jeffrey and I would love for Jeffrey to come on the podcast whenever he wants. Um, I found out that I have an ex who fucking Jeffrey star sucked off and he said it was the best blow job he ever got. And the dude's not even, well, I didn't think he was by at all. And then after him and I had been dating for like three months, he tells me that. And I was like, what? Like,

like fucking but also there's a part of me that's like it's jeffrey fucking star i don't care who you are he could suck me off jeff literally i don't give a fuck who you are like you know what i mean i think it's

Also like that's where I feel bad for Jeffrey Sarp I fucked up he deals with people that are like just leeches leeches because I'm like that's probably why he lives in fucking Wyoming now and doesn't fuck with anybody. He literally did you know that he started like a yak farm and does not live in LA lives in Wyoming just fucking does his own thing. That's how I feel. I'm like, yo, I want to go to a fucking field somewhere in a house where no one's around and

And just live. Yeah. Like, I'm so fucking sick. Like, no, I even threw some shit. No, I really, when I first came on this podcast, I was like, so sick.

Hey, bitches. That's why I didn't even take my meds today because I'm like, MJ, be fun, MJ. Don't be depressing. Be real, MJ. People care about you. They're invested in you. Yeah. I'm just always so like... If your heart hurts, fucking... It's okay to say it. This is a fucking... I love bringing girls like you on the podcast that everybody looks at like, oh my God, she's so beautiful. She has the world at her fingertips. She's in the porn industry. She's fucking, you know, got everything she could want. And then...

people get the stereotype where they're like, oh, she could never battle mental illness or her heart never hurts. No, motherfucker. We're real humans. We go through a lot of shit. Yeah. No, seriously. Like, I feel like

The girls in industries like this go through probably more. More. Yeah. And we're not minimizing anybody's trauma, but we're in the situation where we're in more position and we put ourselves in more of a position to get hurt. If that makes sense. And it's like,

Then also you're on camera all the time. So you always have to have your personality and your smiling face. And it's like you're trying to like heal from traumas, but smiling and laughing all day. And it's like that's not how you heal. You know, like there's... We're like circus clowns. No. Literally. It's literally like I've heard so many talents say like...

like tell me stories and stuff. And they're like, I'm not their stage name. They say their real name. Cause they, everyone feels like you have this like mask on in the industry. I feel like that's why I'm dude, I'm so honest and open with my battle with mental illness. Literally. There's been so many podcasts that I've done that I, I've thought about killing myself, fucking the,

before the podcast, you know, because I'm battling with such bad depression or there's been podcasts where I've had to cut them short because I'm having a panic attack. You know, people, some people in the beginning used to be like, why do you chew gum? Because I have anxiety. You know, people don't realize that even though we're in the limelight and I talk about this on my TikTok too. I'm a TikToker now.

I know you were doing you're actually killing it I love it I love you you are a fucking TikTok queen now I figured it out I figured it out but um I talk about it on my TikTok because people are like you wear a pound of makeup and you're always working how are you depressed motherfucker that is depression depression has no face you know so I love that you're coming on here today and that you're being 100% MJ because last time we got you know you got the face I watched it and 100% I was like

How cute. Yeah. And also you've grown up. I mean, two years in the industry that you're in. I mean, you've been through some fucking shit. I thought that I had seen the world and been through it when I first met, like first came on the podcast. Now I think I have been through it and seen the world because I've been in some...

That's why I love bringing you back on and I want to always bring you back on because I want people to see the I love being here. I feel fucking like I feel comfy and normal here. I'm like, thank God, like people. I don't know. I'm not about to like pop my coochie out. OK, great. Awesome. No, I don't want that. I want I want people to see your heart, you know, even though I fucking like love being, you know, I love being a good time. That's me. But I'm just like, you don't have to be on all the time. I feel like I'm healing from like losing the fam.

Still got the toxic. OK, let's talk about the toxic boyfriend. So last time you were here, you were single, right? Caleb wasn't around then. I had never even had a boyfriend in my life. I had two girlfriends and that's it. OK, so his name's Caleb, right? Caleb Duggan. OK, first and last California pizza. Oh, I want to go. And if your pizza is late, it's probably because they're in the back fucking. So let's talk about this. How long have you guys been together?

off and on about two and a half years yeah so like right after yeah so I remember when you guys first got together I was just seeing the tiktoks and actually yeah yeah I was saying that you guys were making tiktoks together and I was like oh my god MJ's in love you know and then fucking fast forward to just I don't even know a couple months he did some fuck boy shit and like cheated on you how many times has he cheated on you now

You're lucky he's not here. Everyone gets to say it's not cheating because I'm in porn, but it is cheating. I hate that. I've been cheated on. If somebody to omit information about a situation is manipulation and manipulation is lying. Lying is cheating. Hello. Cheating for me is everything. I don't give a motherfucker because like I I'm into like threesomes. I'm into absolutely everything. So I'm an open minded person. I love everything.

Like you and Jelly Roll have like, you know, other people and stuff like, yeah, me too. Okay, that's all right. I can't do that now in my relationship because he's fucked the trust up so bad to a point of like, you know, I can't even enjoy it how I want. I don't understand how men do that. You can literally, my husband, we've always had a free relationship. I don't like saying open because fucking people are weird. They're like, oh, you guys are swingers. No, no.

I'm allowed to be with other people. My husband does not want to know about me being with other people. He's fine with not knowing about it. He's like, as long as it's not emotional and you're only having sex, I don't give a fuck what you do. Just do it. I, on the other hand, want to know what my husband's doing. Yes. If you fucking find a little... Down to the last like on Instagram. Oh, yeah, for sure. I want to know. So if you find a bitch on tour that you want to fuck, all you got to do is call me and say, hey, babe, there's a cutie here. And he's always like, that's not true. You would never be like that. And I'm like...

Try me that no literally that's I swear to god. I'm like people are people we make mistakes You're gonna go to a bar one day. You're gonna accidentally like a picture on Instagram accidentally kiss a girl I can't I'm not gonna like ruin my family and my relationship because of an accident and also because of the industry We're in we get it. We see so many married men cheat on their wives, dude. It's like I

But them lying about it is grimy. It's lying for me. Right. I'm so sick of everyone fucking lying. Like people just fucking lie. My husband, Caleb, my husband had a whole affair behind my back for a year with one of his ex girlfriends. And then when he got caught, he told me, I thought you would be cool with it.

What part of I want to know everything that you're doing before you do it fucking... And it was emotional. Like, you know, like the girl spilled the beans. She sent me all their Snapchats, their text messages. Fucking she would record him. But just like randomly one day? Well, so...

Jay and I had split. God, Mimi always knows the dates. I don't. I think we split in 2018. Mimi knows. Yeah, she knows everything. So he had left the house and never came back. I went to California to go see one of my sugar daddies, came back. My whole entire house was packed up. He had moved out. I waited for two weeks, tried to fucking...

you know reconcile with him find out what was going on but in my heart i knew something was going on i couldn't figure it out he had told me i was crazy gas lit me the entire time told me oh yeah we're always the crazy we're always the crazy ones right feeling always been right always right never wrong so fucking finally after two weeks i went to go see him at a concert and he treated me so bad um one of his friends told me if i were you i would just go back to vegas

That instantly put a light bulb in my head that everything I had already fucking known was real because it was one of his friends telling me that. So I fucking left the next day. I packed up my house. You literally just gave me goosebumps. That's what his friend told me. And it's like they confirm it. Right. So I left. And then, of course, fucking I'm back in Vegas for not even two days. And Jay texted me. I'm going to tell you everything.

And he still didn't tell me everything, but she did. It's like pulling teeth trying to get like that's the that was like you're really, really bad relationship. Yeah. Well, that was Jay. That was my husband. Oh, my God, dude. That's literally it sounds like Caleb. Yeah. He's Jay. I always say Jay is a reformed narcissist.

When I first got with Jelly, he lied. He's going to kill me listening to this podcast. He fucking lied. He gaslit. He was a fuck boy and a half, dude. And it took me leaving him and coming back and putting him through a fucking year of fucking torment before he really fucking changed. And he didn't change for me. He changed for himself. And that's the key. Women are always like, you need to change. You need to do this. You need to do that.

motherfuckers aren't going to change unless they want to change for who they want to. And the number one person they want to change for is not us. It's themselves. Yeah. And he did it and he's reformed. So I really do feel like people can change. So let's get back to Kayla. Good for you because listen, I saw Caleb like we, we would break up. I'd be motivated. You know what I mean? Pause. I'd see him starting to do good. And I'm like, Oh hell no motherfucker. You did not just put me through hell for a year.

and you're just gonna go like be positive and good run it back so then he'll come back but then i don't know it's like a sense of like when's his birthday he's a leo august 7th leo and a bird that's actually soulmate match you guys are probably twin flames that's why there's so much pain there it's it's no matter what how bad he does me

It's like I see deeper in him because he was like a... So Caleb was a basketball star. You know what I mean? He was huge. He was actually amazing. He was supposed to go to any college he wanted to. She said he was amazing. He was. But now that was seven years ago. Right. He had pulled whatever bitch he wanted in high school. Like he's the type of person that had that like pop moment. And then he had a bad thing happen in his life. He ended up doing...

Things and he lost his scholarships And shit now all of his friends are signed Off doing shit and He's the one that always has to hear from everybody In his family and everyone around him like that's a hard pill To swallow yeah so he's always trying to like Grab that back again then Me and him date girls who's Never responded before responding you know I mean I actually hate how bitches are like that

what the girl from pizza hut there's pictures of me and my kid all over the room like listen that's the one thing I told him so he really cheated on you with a bitch from pizza hut not that we're not California pizza but I don't want to even give that place that clout because I know they watch my porn in the back so I call it pizza hut because I don't care pizza whatever right and I don't shit on no one's job but if you are fucking on the job issues there okay well if you're committing if you're if you're cheating with somebody on your job then you deserve to get talk shit about you know

Yeah, but like it's fucked up because they didn't like so it was actually people from his work that told me. Yeah. Probably the most disgusting bitch I've ever seen. And then it's so crazy because right after the cheating phase. They never cheat up. They never cheat up. It's always down. Yeah. No, it literally cheated. He cheated way down. I think they literally just want the like.

They want the like because I mean, who could he find better than me that he gets to feel powerful with? Right. You don't have nothing in your bank account. You live with your dad. You're 27 years old. You just said it, though. You just said it, though. When I asked Jay one of the times I was like, what what the fuck was it that you just fucking had to do that? And he was like, she just makes me feel good about myself.

yeah and it's like wait a second because i'm a fucking boss and i fucking run my shit it makes you feel like less of a man so you run to less of a bitch and that's exactly what it is exactly it's because you're so powerful in your own right that they need these little fucking hood rats that are just like that feed their ego you know oh my god i swear and at first i called this girl right called her literally just like

Let me not be crazy and on this girl. Let me actually give this girl the benefit that I let me try it the other way And so I call her trying to be a woman, right? Yeah, and i'm like listen caleb making it seem like you're this like stalker crazy I already know the situation, but I always do that They always make them seem like they're the obsessed one And i'm gonna go ahead and let this girl have a moment to say her side and then not have me be the crazy bitch that I am because she knows from being a pizza how crazy I fucking get and

Instead, she lies and takes his and every bitch he's ever cheated on me with lies for him. And I don't get it. And I've been told because he plays victim. Right. And he acts like he's scared of me and all this stuff. What the fuck? What are you scared about? Leave. The door is open. Yeah. Walk out of it if you're so scared. I'm literally eating this mic. No, you're fine. I'm like, literally, like, I don't... People don't see, like, the bigger picture. If a man's, like, so...

the victim in this i'm controlling i'm crazy i'm all this stuff no i say what i want in my relationship i say how the fuck i feel and if you don't like it leave yeah he doesn't leave he stays right well so he loves you he does and i love him but and that's why i kind of like he fucks up because it it like helps his ego you know what i mean yeah absolutely i feel like it makes his ego feel good like oh i'm the man again just like high school you know yeah but it's like

The people from his work were like, well, we thought you were like this. Like, that's what he made them believe. So they wouldn't snitch. Right. And then when they did snitch, they were like, we only. So his friends snitched him out. Once they found out that we were together, I guess he had told him like we broke up and stuff like that. And then they all ended up snitching because. So he was fucking this girl in the back of California or Pizza Hut. So the pizza place he worked there like his whole life. Kid all the way up until.

I don't know, I guess until I made him quit. I didn't know why I just made him quit. I was like, I just don't trust it. Like he was FaceTiming me every day at work and I'm like, nah, I just don't trust it. Like I just saw some shit posted by shade room about, um, this girl FaceTiming her boyfriend all day at work. Yeah. I saw that too. I don't give a fuck. Like there's a reason she feels that type of way. Like, you know what I mean? And I just made him quit. And then he's always worked there. His house is next to there. You know what I mean? And, um,

I don't fucking know. I guess this picture is all up. That's what I told him. I was like, I'm not mad that you did it. I'm mad you got it past me because I'm good. Like, I'm really good. I pull mattresses out of walls. You know what I mean? I look for hairs. I mean, anything you think of it, I do it like. Yeah. And.

Is he that good to be fucking running back to him? And that's what everyone says. No, it's just I don't know. Like I just I've like cried with him. You know, he's like a like besides all the fucked up shit that he does to me. I sound like a such a shitty toxic bitch. It's like I still love him, but it's like

I know he's not good for me. I know. But I know he is not good for himself. Right. He doesn't even know him. And he's been through. You're in love with the good parts of him. Yeah. You're not in love with the bad parts of him. But there's also you have trauma that needs to be healed because you

The way we love is how... Is things we weren't given when we were a child. You know? So... You love him because he makes you feel good. So good in certain times. And then so terrible. You guys have a trauma bond. You know? Yeah. We bonded over like similar traumas. But like the first night we met... Yeah. Like because my brother passed away. Yeah. And I met him... We were like a...

We were honestly like a one night stand. Like I was just home for COVID and I'm like, I'm going back to Florence soon. My friends were just trying to make me into this dude and I didn't even know his name. I texted him the next day. I was like, can you write it better than the Tesla? Like some rap lyrics or something being funny. I think I was like,

drunk or something. I don't know. But I was just like so embarrassing. And this kid like kept showing up at my house and shit, you know, like or I went to his house and then I wake up and he's making breakfast. I'm like, I'm trying to do like a little sneak out. Like, what are you doing? Yeah. Like I'm on my like, you know, like my routine of life of like sugar daddies doing my thing, like the whole, you know, like when I first got here and

And this man's like trying to cook me food. And then like his homeboys like make a joke and he wants to like defend me. And I'm like, he gives you a sense of normalcy. Yeah. I don't feel like I got to play my role so much with him. Like I can fart and not worry about him judging me. Like he'll sit there when I'm taking a shit and hold my hand. You know what I mean? Like, but then we'll fucking text a bitch while I'm like, I don't understand how you can like love someone so much and do that. Like I do porn, but it's like when I'm on set,

like I don't like for me it's like business you know oh yeah I'm people don't enjoying it but I'm not feeling it like you know I mean absolutely that's such a good way to say it is so much different than all porn dicks it's not a dick but I feel his dick you know like it's like I'm making love with that person yeah no to say that you enjoy it but you're not feeling it explain it's like hits the nail on the head people don't understand that it's a job you know like when we're in you know in this industry it's

two different people like you just said it's the lights are on the camera it's lights camera action and then it's the mask is off you know and that's what it is and people always want to use excuse well you're important it's only square people say that because like they don't understand i swear as people say i swear to god because i'm like i'm in porn but just like you know i mean the same way a male is going to get on set and have his wife and kids at home waiting on him yeah i

The same way I am like, you know what I mean? It'd be so nice to have someone you can trust. Yeah. To do those things. But like I tell Caleb, like, you know what I mean? After like when I do content, my agent books, my content, just so I don't have to like even DM guys and be like, Hey babe, like you want to meet up for content? Cause I just know how insecure, like how Caleb is. Yeah. So just to protect him from feeling any time I've,

protected anything possible that could make him feel insecure or low i've even been like let's like brand the like stay at home dad not a lot of guys get your job yeah i mean how many men

How many men like get saved from the pizza hut and are like, hey, I mean, save. Sorry. I mean, like, you know, take it from. I did it with all of my exes. Jelly is the first dude I've ever dated that has his own shit going on. And that is a boss. Everybody else. I was mama bear and took care of them and fucking they were my little fucking cabana boys. And I fucking just was the boss of the household. That's how I am. Yeah. I can't help it. I can't help it. I'm like, well, it's we're caretakers at heart.

You know, because of how our childhood was. So we just want to caretake and, you know, build people up and stuff. And it's like even he just did this to me, too. Like I just found well, he lied about it for eight months. And I just when I got to L.A., found out about it because I literally like was there. How many times has he cheated on you that you can count?

There he only cheats with either super young girls or super older girls. How old is he? Because he has a mommy issue, but he also has a I miss my high school basketball life issue. He's 27. And he cheats with how old? Either they're like like old ladies. Like I'm talking moms with kids that are graduated from high school. Gross. Like me. Yeah. Well, no, no, no. I'm talking. No, I'm talking about like like soccer moms type shit that you look like.

You know what I mean? You look like the sexy school teacher type shit. Like they booked me for MILF shit. I don't know how. That's crazy. I liked it because they were all like, what the fuck? Why would you do that? But I was like, because I'm a MILF. And like, I love it. I love it. I wrote with it. But he'll cheat with MILFs. And then how old is the youngest that he's cheated with? So the girl from Pizza Hut, because the girl from Pizza Hut, this is the first time I've ever been able to get factual proof evidence. Any other time. It was just hearsay.

It was him admitting, oh, I kissed this old lady at a bar. I'm not going to ruin my family and like, you know, take my son's guy he calls dad out of his life because of a kiss at a bar. Right. But this time I have factual evidence. And I'm like, you can look me in the face right now and tell me like that this is the truth, the full truth. And you're ready to kiss your family goodbye if it's not 100% lied. I'm like, are you kidding me? But he's cheating on me probably other than like, like,

Fucking wise is the first time I've had evidence. But I've there's other situations that don't sit right with me that, you know what I mean? When you have that gut feeling. Oh, yeah. And it's like you just know, like you just know your person and you know how they will act in a situation. And other than that, texting bitches like it's just like he's got a lot of growing up. He needs it. Not even for the sexual part of it. He needs it. How old was the girl at Pizza Hut? She...

was like literally just just graduated high school yeah she was one of those girls that dm me all the time you look so pretty like that's scary that he's 27 being in fucking 17 or 18 year olds yeah it's not a good thing right he can get in trouble for that i know and i feel like

See, that's the fucked up part. Although I do like them young. I like my men young. So if I do it, it's fine. Right. But I'm talking like 23, 24 at least. That's the fucked up part. I could never bang an 18-year-old. There's no fucking way. They look too young. But like 24, 25, just ripped and shredded. Come on down. Swear. No. See, Caleb has like this little baby face to him. That's what I love. Like Justin Bieber hair. He's just like a little cute boy. But...

i don't know where are you guys at now so are you guys cool are you guys gonna just be together and just ride this out she's like i'm gonna make him suffer honestly i'm so shook about this one that i'm plotting yeah i'm not jumping to like being crazy i'm plotting right i'm like i feel like either i can grow with this person and we can like you know what i mean forgive

and make it work like and because he has to figure out his insecurities yeah that's the biggest issue and i have to figure out nothing because i'm fine right no i'm just kidding i just i'm figuring out life and that's what i try to explain to him is i'm like dude like you're 27 you've been through a bunch of relationships how old are you 22 okay i just turned 22 and it's my first relationship i'm like the mistakes that i've made you know they're not like

They're actual mistakes. Like the mistakes he's made, he's done and made many times. Right. He's lucky to have you. He's lucky that you're your age and that you're so mature, dude. Like most 22 year olds can't. And he says that and then he'll turn around and...

do like cheating shit. Yeah. And I'm like, what the fuck? Well, a leopard will change his habits before it'll change its spots. So like I said, men will only change when they're ready. And he's 27. My husband, it took my husband till about 37 to change. Wait, hold on. Fuck. How old is he? Hold on. I got with Jay when he was 32. So Jay was probably about 34 when he really wanted to change. Yeah. I think,

I think that like Caleb has a lot of growing up to do. I think 30 is probably about the time I could see him trying to change. I think right now he's still in his head like he has nothing to lose. If we break up, where does he go? Right back to his dad's house, right back to the pizza shop, right back to the same place. But when he really loses you, he is going to fucking feel it. He knows right now that he, you know, that you love him. My thing is just like all the so many guys just assume like,

Like he does things like didn't plan my birthday, you know, like I plan like I planned his birthday. He sees all my friends, how big I go for them. And so I'm so my first birthday, like no one did anything. And so he was like, you know, like your next birthday, I'm going to go crazy. Yeah. So my second birthday, like with us together, not my second birthday, but me and him together.

I'm like, you know, how many guys buy you a section at a club and some jewelry? A lot, you know, a lot. I could get a bunch of guys do that. And Caleb, I guess, overthunk it for so long. Or I'm not sure what excuse to use this time, but.

I'm like dude all it was was some bologna in a blanket and some grass not one guy in the world's taking me to a picnic you know like why do you think I date you different things obviously you know I'm dating a pizza boy not because his money you know like not because his looks not because there's not really much he has to offer but his heart yeah and then he cheats because he feels like he's gonna lose me and I'm not gonna stay with him okay well now you are

because you're cheating on me with a bitch from pizza hut but right i don't know i wish i brought i'm bringing caleb next time yeah i think you need to just have a little therapy sesh with him get him right yeah i would love to get wrong with him i would love to definitely meet him um what can we expect from mj in this next year coming up what does 2022 hold for you okay so last time i was listening to you i'm also checking on our food so just i'm listening so last time

On the podcast. Yeah. The goals that I said were the complete opposite of what I did. But this time for me, I'm thinking I'm just not like now that I've had all these experiences and shit, I'm not going to put myself in a box and I'm just going to

i'm gonna do more you know what i mean do more of mj yeah and not so much because that's what i enjoyed when i first came i was like mj merch you know mj youtube like i love doing stuff for me and i feel like i started doing too much for others yeah so i think 2022 i'm just doing for me and i'm gonna speak for me and all that and whoever the fuck doesn't like it yeah you know i mean don't book me yeah don't shoot with me don't i don't give a fuck you know i mean at the

what i'll do another fucking job i'll do 10 more things but i'm not gonna like when one door closes another one opens so even if somebody does shut the door in your face there's gonna be somebody else who's gonna be like dude i respect her you know i respect that she fucking stands up for herself i want her to be a part of my business you know right and i know exactly what it's like when i did fucking do it and everyone's like

You know, like, yeah, tries to like not favorite it, tries to not retweet. No, like everyone in the industry is just like all. And I'm like, you know, I mean, yeah. How many other girls have gone through this and felt like fucking you can't say shit or do shit? No, I'm like, you speak up normally. That would make me like even more scared to do it for future references. But I'm like, fuck that from now on. I'm talking my shit. Yeah. And as long as I.

say it legal legally the right way politically correct and the only person who could tell me not to is the law and that's it yeah so you're gonna keep shooting porn yeah i'm here for the law that's why i went through all the fucking dramas to be able to commit because everyone's everything was trying to stop me like so now i'm like here committed i'm doing the x3 expo awards that's exciting that is june 6th and to june 8th

And I've never been to one before, so I'm like nervous. That'll be awesome. Yeah. And don't be nervous. Everybody's going to love you. Yeah. I'm just do something, something ratchet and crazy and get people's attention. You know what I mean? Do what I do best.

yeah so just focusing on your career and just being a mommy and hopefully caleb will get us fucking shit straight yeah actually be able to experience being a mom on my own now because before i was with fam and i've always had someone helping me yeah and now i get to finally parent my kid the way that i want to how i want to and i'm excited for that this year before i

porn before anything else I'm excited to start my life with my son and like break my family's you know family has traditional what is it generational curses yeah that's exactly what the fuck I'm breaking and I went through hell to do it but

That dude, if that's even if that's all you do this year is break generational curses and do self love and heal yourself from the shit that you shit storm you've been through the past two years. That's a lot. People don't realize working through trauma and working through so much bullshit is one exhausting and two. It's amazing because you just get a release. And if that's what you focus on this year, do it. You know, if I can build yourself up, make yourself feel good and just be the powerhouse that you are.

Yeah, literally how you're just holding the world by the balls right now. I'm Jay All you got to do is just go out there and fucking get it. Yeah, I know I just fall in line I know I came to you and that's exactly what you said and then I was like, that's what I'm gonna do And then I went out there and I was like started cutting my nails shorter started toning it down toning down and I'm like Fucking a I was like watching our old video like you're like telling me like little tips pointers and

And I'm like, I fucking didn't listen to shit. And I probably would have saved so much trauma if I did. Girl, I'm always here. All you have to do is text me. I know. I remember I was like going through it one night and I was like,

I'm texting bunny. I literally was just like, who the fuck do I text that I can trust? So I was like, fucking buddy. What the fuck? She's not going to tell anyone. No, I got you. No, I got you anytime. And I can't wait to have you back on. Why don't you tell people where they can find you? Tell them your OnlyFans. Tell them your Instagram. Fucking Instagram is always deleting you. I know. I just got deleted again.

I don't know who's dick I gotta suck to stop getting deleted from fucking Instagram but hit me up it's crazy because some of these girls literally have their butthole meat just swinging around fucking every day and don't get fucking deleted but literally I fucking post anything that if my legs are a little open too much the fucking post will get fucking taken down no I'm not kidding I had to make my account private yep and I realized if you make it private you have better chances but then

They just deleted me again. So I'm... I just now made all my handles DadsLoveMJFresh. I love that. That handle is actually fucking cute. Because... You need to make merch that thing. Every time I switch my handle, it's like either I get deleted or it gets taken from me. And then normally it's by people who are...

A little bit more poppin' So I'm like What the fuck am I gonna do? So I just like Whatever I love it I think that would be A cute merch shirt too Dads love MJ Fresh I'm doing merch I'm gonna do MJ Fresh cum rags And MJ Fresh Walk of shame shirts For the X-Fiz Awards Or Expo I love that

I'd love that. I'm actually finally going to do my merch two years later. I love it. Just whenever, you know, life comes in seasons and you are 22, baby. You have so much time ahead of you to figure out who you are, to brand yourself, to fucking make a couple hundred more mistakes. When I was 22, I wouldn't even have my head on as straight as you do.

So my hat goes off to girls as young as you that are fucking full-time moms that are in the industry that are fucking have your own. I mean, I always had my own place and my own money and shit, but I wasn't a mom and I fucking was a drug addict. I fucking was addicted to Xanax and fucking cocaine. I was a wild.

I'm so, I was like Lindsay Lohan. I'm so fucking happy. I don't have to grow up with cameras the way that you guys have to, you know, you have your fucking head on straight. You're going to have ups and downs in life. That's normal. Just fucking ride the roller coaster, but just learn from it and just keep fucking going, dude. Just use every fucking brick that gets thrown at you as part of, to build part of your empire. Yeah.

Yeah, I know. I literally feel like that's why we bond so much too is because like you tell stories and shit like that and I like relate so much. I'm like, holy fuck. Like...

Yeah, you've been through it. So I know that like that's kind of why like it's always a place of love whenever I give people advice because I don't tell anybody what to do. I'm just like it's free will. So if you know, do what you will with whatever it is that I try to give you advice on. Yeah, but I feel like you've been through it. And maybe if I would have like listen, I would have. We never learn. No, you have to learn yourself. Yeah, for sure. Wouldn't take it back for nothing. But yeah, I realize some people are just like,

crazy out here so i'm just mind my business and talk my shit on my own there you go well mj i love you so much and i love you and i missed you i missed you too i can't wait to see what 2022 holds from you and we're gonna get you back on the podcast maybe we won't wait two years we'll just do a yearly mj podcast yes and just or we'll do one with caleb soon yes everybody loves you every time you come on the podcast everybody is just fucking in love with you and mj's not on meds

So it's like full on MJ now. That's why I'm like hitting the goddamn mic and shit. I'm ADHD as fuck. No, I love it. I'm so happy that you came and I can't wait to see what this year holds for you. I'm happy that I came too. I missed you. Thank you. Thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye.