125: IMARI’S DATE WITH THE BIGGEST DJ IN THE WORLD… - Ep. 125
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Oh my god, I'm so happy about this. Honestly, me too. I had a great time podcasting with you guys last time. Everybody loved it, right Felisa? You're our favorite guest. So you've got four more episodes till they turn. It was well received though. Unfortunately true. I think the three of us podcast really well together because I'm good friends with both of you. Honestly, I feel like. Yeah, I hate these other bitches. Fuck, pay attention.

I just feel like, well, I mean, we go back further than like you and Paige and stuff. Yeah. It's just like a lot more lore and memories to talk about. And we have our own memories that we've built.

Without her. Yeah. Fuck her too. We just love you so much. The people love you so much. And we want to hate from you. You're the best. And we've been like... It's very interesting as you bank episodes, I think. Sometimes it's just like you can tell. We did one the other day where I think I yawned maybe like 412 times. And I was just trying so hard. But I don't know. This is nice. Yeah. And just like...

you're a good conversationalist. You make it easy. Oh, which is nice. Love that song. Now what? I'm like, shit, that's all. Thank you guys for tuning in. Earlier, we were like laughing about something really funny. So back in the day, like in high school, when we would go to Starbucks, like what reminded me today is Tana had a sweet tea. And when we were in high school, Tana used to go into Starbucks. I don't know where you're going with this and I'm scared. Her iced black tea with,

30 pumps of sugar. Not kidding. She would say 30. Sometimes she'd cut back and do 28. Like, I'm not kidding though. It would actually be like 30 pumps of sweetener and it was actually the most insane thing. Do they do that? Yes. I feel like now that would be like a health and safety. No, it's like honestly if I ordered one right now, it's good as shit. It's good as

It was an expensive drink too. Yeah, I bet. Isn't it like 50 cents a pump? Just tell them you want to drink classic syrup. Like nix the tea. Oh my God. Maybe I was pre-diabetic. It was so funny though. Well, if you weren't then, you are now. I just saw her sweet tea and it for some reason just made me think back to that. I was like, damn, do you remember back in the day when you were really out here getting 30 pumps of sweetener? Very frequently. I think it's just like, I don't know if you can attest to this or like,

There were no food laws in my home. I don't know how to explain it. At all. And also, well, I had like... Obviously, in my house, I was allowed to eat anything and I was very much like...

cheese it's kind of household and so when I discovered like health it was like oh my god I'm such a genius but I was like 15 or whatever and I was so obsessed with it that I didn't know anything like accurate so I would drink like 75 jamba juices in a day and I'm like why am I gaining so much weight laughing

Did you have like a favorite after school snack? Oh, are you kidding? Listen to me. When I tell you this, I was such a fucking monster. I used to wake up, my grandpa would make me like a breakfast sandwich, pancake, something. I would go to school. I would have a calzone and a French bread pizza for lunch with a brownie cookie and a soda. Okay. And on the way home from school, three hours later, I would get a Big Mac. Okay.

a Big Mac, fries, sauce, everything. And that was just after school snack. My family eats dinner at 5 p.m. So then literally two hours later, I would have a full dinner. Whatever it was, it was probably pork chops or some shit. And then at 9 p.m. I would be starving again. So I would have another. I was, I was,

Like the biggest back of all time. You're like, today drained me. No, babe, you're in a food coma. No, it was crazy. That's me every day. And my grandma, bless her heart, but she like, even before she had dementia, she never ever stopped going, are you hungry? And I was always, yes.

That's actually so sweet though. You know what I was just thinking about that my dad would do that I have not like talked about enough in life is that like he very much would look at the ingredients in the house, like whatever they could be and like make it like slop. Like, you know what I mean? Like just like eggs with grape jelly, spaghetti with grape jelly, like whatever, like the items. I love that. It's like, what's his name? Spencer from iCarly. Very Spencer Cota, but it would be so disgusting. And it's crazy if you really think about it. It's like,

I'd rather eat grape jelly plain and then spaghetti. Like, how are you serving me like spaghetti with grape jelly? And then you're mad that I won't eat it. It's like, why the fuck you complain? Go somewhere else. Then you fucking whore. It was always go somewhere else. Then where the fuck am I going to go? Oh, man. Then if you're fucking hungry.

I'm like, don't worry, girl. I'm on the way with Pop-Tarts. God, that's so funny to think about. What else were we talking about? Good God. My go-to after-school snack, like,

My dad would pick me up from school or like after track practice or dance practice. I've tried every single blizzard there is from Dairy Queen because there was a Dairy Queen right next to our school. So every day after practice, he would take me through the drive-thru and my siblings would be pissed because they didn't get one. But I mean, I was just harder working. I feel like you still eat like I just described. What did you say? 100%. Like you can eat anything. He has an entire dresser under his television with no socks and underwear. All of the drawers are filled with candy.

Okay, okay. First of all, she's lying on my name. No, I have a tiny little sock in her. Let me clarify. Let me clarify because my socks and underwear are in a drawer in my closet. That's what I'm saying. No, but the dresser, there's two drawers that are dedicated to candy. And they're massive. Yeah, they are big. Two big drawers. Yes, they are. Yeah, it is too much for sure. And I just can't let someone think that I have a dresser full of candy. That's a little excessive.

Big drawers of your dresser makes the story no better. I know. I know. I know. The other day Kim and Nicole came over to do my hair and Kim's looking through the pantry and she was just like...

is there any candy? And I was like, I don't know, maybe. And she's like, should I go to Amari's room? I feel like even she knows that. No, the guests know. Like sometimes, like Sade, sometimes she'll just come storming into my room and she's like, can I get some candy? Yes, yes, it's me, Willy Wonka, the candy man of the friend group. No, but I love that about you. But I will have my own candy brand one day. Mark my words. You need to. I want a beef brand.

I reached out to Mike Malak. I was like, who's got the beef? And then he, it's so funny. He responded like so intelligently. He did. He had a really insightful answer. I almost regret. Sometimes I regret asking Mike Malak questions. Yeah, because he really like takes it there. And I love him so much. I'm so grateful for it. But then I like, I came to and I was like, having a meat brand is a cancelable offense. I guess it is maybe. But then I'm also like, you eat beef all the time. Like what? Like, I know.

It's not like you're slaughtering the cat. No, I sound it's wrong. I don't even like it coming out of my mouth. Do you know that I reached out to PETA to try and work with PETA and they rejected me? Do you know that you also did a meet and greet in a shirt that said people eat tasty animals with the PETA logo? Oh, shit. They actually sent that back. No way. No way. Oh,

I really am passionate and I do love animals, but I'm not a vegan and I do eat animals. They clocked the shit out of you. You know some intern, it was like their third day and they were just, they had time. They're like, this is too easy. I guess I just like, for some reason I was like, why, how could you get rejected from doing like charity work? That is actually like very wild when you put it that way though. It's like,

Because like obviously you're following like you could provide. Yeah, I didn't realize there were like levels to it or I figured that there were levels to it and I thought that like I could be an animal lover and advocate without having to be like a vegan very serious. Has anybody ever done PETA? Because wasn't there a point in time where you like did PETA almost like Playboy? Like bitches remember like

Would be in like the fur coat, the fake fur. I think Pamela works with PETA a lot. Yeah, but I feel like she is a vegan, Pamela Anderson. Yeah, she's like a huge animal. Has anybody ever done PETA that isn't? Like is Khloe Kardashian a vegan? I know she worked with PETA. Let's get Tara's world on the track. Is she vegan? Yeah, she is. She's been doing my ooh. Yeah, she has. That's all I saw. I love her. Anyway, sorry PETA. No. It'll never happen again.

No, yeah. We don't say that enough. Like just some niche ass shit. Just, it'll never happen again. It'll never happen. I say that actually a lot.

Khloe Kardashian is not vegan. I didn't think she was. Aaron just searching Khloe Kardashian with a C? With a C is so funny. Oh my God. Yeah, with a K. Have you ever heard a gay man with a spray tan? I just saw him. I just saw him. Oh my God. I love him. When I see him, we literally will be like, hi, with a K. If there's one thing you guys know about me, it's that Murphy and Mouse, my cats, are my pride and joy. Okay? I love my cats more than I love my friends, my family, my co-host, my fiancé.

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obviously like we love him. We love Anton. And I was like, fuck, I really want to go to the show. And like going to the club during EDC weekend, they'll typically give you like a comp table and stuff. Like if you're from Vegas and if you, I don't know, you don't even need clout or anything like that. If you just know the people and they period, you can't do that during EDC weekend because it's like everyone comes through with all the money to spend, you know, no free tables are happening. And I'm like, how the fuck do I go to that show?

I took it upon myself to text Anton. And I was like, Hey, like it's a Maury, blah, blah, blah. Like,

I'm coming into Vegas. I'm also in town for the weekend. I'd love to come to the show with three friends. And he was like, oh yeah, absolutely. And it was so funny too because Vegas friends and stuff, everyone's still scrambling to try and go to the show. And I'm like, okay, well I have me and my plus three. We're fine to be at the stage and everything like that. And everyone's like, people are like, oh my God, whose table are you going to? How are you going? How are you going? Blah, blah, blah. I'm like, I texted Zed. I often think about the Zed era of our lives and I'm just like, how? Because Ashley was dating Michael who was...

in this music group called Grey. And they made that song, The Middle. Why don't you sing it? The Middle, Starving. Yeah. And so we all became very intertwined. And sometimes I'll just think to myself, I have this scar on my leg that I got from running through Resorts World to jump on and attack Zedd. I was bleeding everywhere and whatever. And I'll see him and he's still nice. And I'm like, it's crazy how much he just put up with. I remember one time he was doing a show at Zouk and I was crawling on the fucking floor

DJ board and like he got yelled at by Resorts World after that there's like just so many like memories where it's like he shouldn't still be like letting us in no seriously it was actually amazing I house sat for that like not house sat but so I had found a dog at the gas station Stugan I found a dog at the gas station they wanted a dog Anton and Arkady Arkady is Zed's brother Anton's brother and

and they lived together and they took the dog so when they needed a babysitter for the dog i would go to zed's house to babysit the dog and it's like at the time he was living in like his ad house like the architectural digest fucking mansion the craziest most beautiful mansion of all time but all glass like all glass windows so i'd be sitting there on the couch like

And it would be dark outside. And I was like, oh my God, everyone in this city can see right into me on this couch right now. And he'd get so scared. It's such an interesting house. Like it really is like a glass box. And one time I'm sitting there on the phone. I'm already like kind of freaked out. I'm freaking myself out. I'm hearing noises. And all of a sudden every light in the house goes off.

because they're controlled by their... He controlled them on his phone. So he was fucking with you? I grabbed that dog so fast, I took it to my apartment and he stayed with me for the rest of the weekend. I was like, I am not going there. That is so funny. Was he fucking with you? I don't know. I think it was like an accident. I also don't even know if he knew I was there because it was like I was there for our cutty. Yeah. But...

That was a fun time. I miss that era. I loved Vegas so much. I used to go to Vegas every single weekend, no matter who it was. Martin Garrix, anyone. I'm like, how do I get in the DJ booth? And why? What is the... It's just so funny, the psychology behind that. Feeling like you're just like... I remember I'd be like, oh my God, I'm going to flash my tits behind Zedd and I'm so cool. And it works. It was the most amazing thing because the first time I went to Vegas, it was my friend Nana I was with and...

The guy picked her out of the crowd and he was like, come with me. Took her, took us to the DJ booth and we never left for three years. And if you really think about it, it's just like, you're just in a booth. Like, do you know what I mean? But it's because,

I guess like I'd come from Coachella when I was like, oh my God, I'm a million miles away from Dylan Francis or Martin Garrix or whatever it is. And this is the coolest, most amazing thing in the world. I cannot believe that I can just go to Vegas and be this close to them. Yeah. And like watching them do that shit, especially when it's people who are like high level talented, like insane is so cool. Yeah. And people are like rolling. Yeah. Some people roll. I miss when he was not because he's sober now. Right. Yeah. He looks so.

so good I was like holy shit I was like what the fuck and that's what was cool too like how you're saying it's cool seeing them in their element and stuff like being back there like I typically don't care to be like I mean being at the DJ booth is obviously awesome and more convenient but being at a table also doesn't suck

at all either but something about it being during EDC weekend 525,000 people flew into Vegas to like just be at this fucking crazy festival and stuff like seeing that I was like holy shit I felt cool I felt cool there I'll say it and then I saw Gideon with the spray tan laughing

I think I was more excited to see him than see Zed. I'm not even kidding. You should have him on the podcast. He would have like a lot of lore, but I'm just like, we're always teetering the line of that Kardashian cease and desist. I'm actually like just afraid. Speaking of...

- Skims like sent me a bra the other day and asked me to make a TikTok for her and I was like, some intern doesn't know. Some intern, like you sure? - Sometimes I just like lose track of like what we say and stuff too. Like I was, I ran into Hailey the other day, Bieber. - Hailey? - No, I like ran into Hailey Bieber and I'm like afraid to look her in the eye 'cause like God forbid she came across a clip one day and like someone saying like, I never say anything bad about Hailey Bieber by the way, but I'm like, I get scared 'cause I'm like, what if she's like that dumb girl

I think she's safe. I don't, have we ever? I dragged, I dragged Rose through the mud.

on TikTok because their lip product melted my lips off my face and I just knew because it got millions of views. I think that was a coincidence. I don't know. They didn't disclose that the tree nuts in their products and my lips melted off my face and it was crazy. Did you read the fine print? Actually, I probably could have filed a lawsuit. We're not going to talk about that. You can. But no, I did not read any fine print. There was no fine print. It's like somewhere, like, look, look at your shit. Yeah.

Look at your shit. Does not say contain nuts, although this flavor is called peanut butter and jelly. Okay, well, I don't think watermelon had anything like that in there, but it was crazy because I just knew when that TikTok started blowing up and getting millions of views, I just know the road offices were in shambles with my TikTok pulled up on a PowerPoint. I was like, well, yeah, they're fine. They don't need me.

I'll kill myself. My slander did nothing. No, I'm a kiss-ass. I don't even care. Hayley, I love you. I love Hayley, honestly. I do. I always have ridden for her. She has everything. But you get hate for that these days. People are like, you're... Well, now it's flipped. Now it's flipped. It's so wild the way the internet works. Because now it's like she's a billionaire and we always should have loved her. Now that she has money. No, I think what the flip was, everyone was like, Justin sucks.

or like Justin's like obviously like not that nice to her sometimes. Yeah. I think people started being like wait she's amazing. Well that Vogue thing was crazy. Makoa could tell me that and I would fucking smack him upside his head and I'm never going to be on the cover of Vogue. I can't even imagine someone who like has a viable valid chance. You know it's like and just to post that like is on her like especially there's like something to be said I feel like that happens a lot where

People want to make your big moments like somehow about them. And I feel like that he, I mean, you know what? Billy, I made a song about that. Yeah. It's just, yeah. I thought the Vogue post was crazy too. Cause it's just like, imagine that coming from your husband and like someone that's just like so successful, like Justin Bieber, you know, it's like,

It's embarrassing. Yeah, it just feels like you're getting, like, shat on, you know? Like, damn. Like, I want good things for me, too. She has been on the cover of Vogue, like, before now. Oh, really? Yeah, and he only has two Vogue covers, and she's in both of them. Period. That is wild. Like, it's just... I don't understand at all, to be honest with you. I'm also... I'm not a Justin Bieber hater. I just... I don't like that caption. I know. It sucks that I love him so much, but it's like... That ain't no man. I think just, like, any... Like...

adding anything to the fire when Pete's sure to get so much hate and then being like and by the way I said you would never be shit you've gotta be like socially aware of the like my husband hates me final boss yada yada and then you're just gonna like throw gasoline on that yeah it's very interesting

I wish nothing but the best for them. I don't know these people at all. Me neither. I really teetered the line of being like so unbelievably parasocial and then like also so frustrated with how unbelievably parasocial everyone else is. Honestly real. I don't know these people and like also like I don't know these people 100%. But you know what I mean? This is our job. We have no choice. I know.

I wonder what would happen if we just completely rebranded, canceled, like right now, like starting right now, our next episode, like we only talked about like philosophical shit and like architecture and like six viewers. It would end us. It's kind of a funny segment though. If we started like having Devin look up like things and quizzing us or like, no, I always thought we should have an educational segment or like a vocabulary lesson since we like get so many words wrong. Yeah. Or at the very least,

Talk about what we've gotten wrong on the previous episode. That would be really funny. Like the things we learned from the last episode. Like, for example, the time I said Ehlers-Danlos was a really minor disease. Wait, wasn't I on that episode? Probably. We talked about it a lot, though. Do you have it? We don't know. Because like I said to you, I was feeling like complete and utter shit. And then I came home and I feel great.

So I think, well, are you just talking about like right now in life? No, just generally speaking. Do you think you have like Ehlers-Danlos flare-ups? I don't know. You're so valid. You're so... It's adding to the Natalia Grace allegations. No. No, you're valid. I know my scoliosis is so bad. My hip is actually dislocated. And I was joking about it all across tour and I come home and I have like

I don't know the term. It ends in like osis with my muscles, something. And Dr. Javid's exact words were like, things are just compressing. Like I'm like compressing too fast. Right.

which is like now affecting my hips and knees and arms and like everything attached to my spine. So it's getting shorter. Well, yes. And you think that's why you're, you say your feet keep growing. You, you think you're switching into the ground and your base is getting wider. Whoa. Like dead ass. Probably. Feet are collapsing. Like probably. I'm not even kidding. Um, when I come home, I have to do stem cells. Wow.

What's that? I don't know where they inject stem cells into all my shit. I think that's good I think that it is supposed to be really good. Yeah, but it just feels It feels very baby's bloody to me. Like what do you mean stem cells? Where does that come from? Does that come from like placentas and shit? I think stem cells are from no, I have no idea I was gonna just I was just gonna start spreading misinformation. Yeah, I got my pre-nuvo results Oh, I was literally just about to ask that. Mm-hmm. And and

I didn't have anything like crazy. I had like findings. I had like something with my thoracic vertebrae or something. I have fluid in my uterus that's not supposed to be there. I have cysts on my uterus. I have cysts on my liver. What do I have? All that Tylenol. Do I have a person living in there? I have a cyst on my liver. I have, it's all like very minor though. And there's some just informational things. For example, my breast tissue is denser than others. Okay.

I swear to God it said that. It did say that. It says I have implants, which was a shock. But it is very like, it's cool. Because I mean, I don't have cancer. I don't have tumors. I don't have anything like. How many obligations to talk about it on the podcast did they give you? I already covered them like two episodes ago. I was trying to share something with my friend. Go.

That is really funny. The reason I say that is because this brand was just asking me to like organically talk about their product on the podcast. And it's like the most inorganic thing, whatever. You'll know. Come on, get laid on us. But first, prenuvo.com slash brookscofield. But I kind of love that. I love when brands want that because it's like,

We don't get it very often, right? Where a brand is asking us to organically talk about something on a podcast. But I bet like that's happening all the time. Yeah. The brand safe podcast of the world. You know, I really wanted to do it. So I was like, yeah, of course I'll talk about it. But now I have, I'm supposed to post it on Instagram and I posted it on my stories. And I, I got,

ripped apart. Why? Because it's like, I actually understand it because it's like... Very expensive? It's very expensive and it just feels like people are like, this is so tone deaf. Like most people can't afford this. And like, I understand that too. So it's like, maybe I just don't post it. Maybe I just pay for it and shut the fuck up. But it was very, it was something I wanted to know. And... You're an influencer and you're posting for some shit. Like, I think that...

That is one of the like crazy doesn't feel real. What the fuck insane perks of being an influence or just like a luxury that obviously like a lot of people can't afford. But there are also saying that other people would take that perk if given. Yeah.

I just think like, you know, some people can't get a mammogram, but like people should get mammograms if you can. Why are mammograms so antiquated? That felt like I was just saying. I don't know what antiquated mean. But like like how they smash your tit in between like two fucking big plates. Oh, I think they're really looking for something. But it's like there's got to be Elon Musk do something. You know what I mean? Yeah. Well, American health care is just like really disgusting and disturbing anyway. I can't get health insurance. Nobody can get health insurance.

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I am coming to the realization that I think I have OCD. Antiquated. Old-fashioned or outdated. Wow, used that one right. Wow. You did. You could definitely have OCD. It sucks because... And it's also just very funny, like, me saying I have OCD because the public perception of OCD for the most part is, like, organized and, like, whatever. You know what I mean? I don't have that kind. I was like, what do you mean? But that's very, like...

rare I feel like most people's OCD is like like ruminating thoughts or like or random rituals that like some people wouldn't even know about yeah I feel like mine is very much ruminating thoughts and I like for a while I just thought it was anxiety and then it's just like I don't know it's becoming more and more prevalent to me like the other night I'm in the kitchen with Makoa and he's cooking me dinner and I'm replaying over and over and over in my head that he could take the knife he's cooking dinner with and stab me to death right now and like could not stop it's like Makoa's

not gonna stab you to death so weird yeah that's really weird and I just like oh my god I just keep having shit like that happen to me where I have like

a constant I had one on stage and it freaked me the fuck out like in Amsterdam for our last show where I was just like I could literally like shit and fucking scream into the mic right now like I could just walk off stage I could just like like my brain was ruminating on the fact that like if I stopped yes like if I stopped just like telling the show I could like yell my deepest darkest secret right now I could like whatever to the point that I was like

freaking the fuck out on stage. And I was like, damn, I think I have OCD. And it's crazy because this could affect my career. So how do you go about getting diagnosed with that? Do you talk to a psychiatrist? I should probably do that. I've been talking to Jake Shane and Mike Malak. I think I have mental Tourette's. Why do you think that? I don't know. I have certain things or I'll get the most random...

like flashbacks that are so specific and like it'll be like weeks at a time I'll get the same one same one same one same one and then like something new will be it but it's like always like I put myself in a very specific memory in a very specific place and for some reason like when I'm doing my makeup I'm like there it's so weird but it's like in my head it's like

I picture like a record player and I picture it like stopping on that. Like my brain like stops on that little thing. And then you don't feel like you're like maladaptive daydreaming. All these words. No, because it's like, I'm not like moving through anything. It's like literally just like all of a sudden I'll remember like being in a house somewhere like when I was six. Yeah. And I'm like, oh, that's really weird. So are they? I don't know if that's Tourette's, but it's like uncontrolled. Like I can't control thinking about it.

All adoptive daydreaming is excessive, vivid daydreaming that interferes with daily life and relationships, causing distress and hindering functioning. I've always kind of done that. Just in general, yeah. Like, I, like, love doing that to fall asleep. That has been, like, what brought me through, like, most of my life because it's so fun to, like, imagine my life a certain way. Yeah. Yeah.

I fall asleep a lot too. Like just like put myself in like some random situation. Like even whether it's like real life or if I put myself in like a show or like I put myself in Grey's Anatomy so many times or like a video game or something like that and then I start actually dreaming. Like I fall asleep and then I'm, now I'm in it and I'm like, oh hell yeah. Oh, that's cool to transfer it into your dreams. Mine does not work like that. For a year I was like, where am I going with Pete Davidson? Oh, no.

I have to cut it. I have to cut that. I have to cut that. I literally have to cut that. I'm gonna kill myself. I am like, I am my own worst enemy because it's like, just don't admit that. Like, you literally... I think it's totally... We went everywhere. He loves you. Waking up like, that's my man for real.

No, but for a while I felt like if I maladaptive daydream something, I could like make it come true. And I won't get into those ones. It's just like too much. But once again, I'm obviously psychic. Duh. So like I was really hoping that one would just, you know, wrinkle into reality. Less psychic, more witch.

That's crazy. Oh my God. So earlier we were talking about, speaking of going somewhere with someone, earlier we were talking about where you may be going in your relationship. You think you might be getting proposed to. Well, I know I'm getting proposed to. Oh my God.

Okay, slay. No, honestly, awesome. The way you said it is funny. No, well, Amari wasn't with, like, we talk, we, like, are very open about it. Like, we talk about it. We know we're getting engaged, but. That's so cute. I. God, love lockdown. I'm so excited, but I am very, like, I'm being really annoying about it. First of all, I'm asking Bebe every day, am I getting engaged today? Am I getting engaged today? Am I getting, and he. You think she's going to be like, yes. I know, for, they're both like, shut the hell up, or we're never going to do it. I love weird. But.

Bebe is being a little suspicious right now because she wanted to get her nails done today. Or she made an appointment three days ago for us to get our nails done today, which is already just like, we don't do that. Me and Bebe go day of. Yeah. Spur of the moment. How often do you guys get your nails done together versus alone? Every time. But we don't make an appointment. It's always like, do you need your nails done? Yeah, I need my nails done. We go. So...

She made an appointment, but then I honestly do sound crazy. She I couldn't go today. It was the appointment was for today made three days ago. And I said, I can't go today. And she goes,

Instead of saying, okay, I'll go without you. She said, okay, then I'm going to have to move our appointment, which makes me think I have to get my nails done, which means I'm getting engaged. Obviously. How likely is the scenario of her going without you versus moving your appointment for the two of you? I just like, I think neither of us would move the appointment after I already like

planning it days ago we'd just be like ah fuck you also what kind of nails is she getting done isn't she a lesbian now imagine that's why she's so eager is just to get the like acrylics with the two gel fingers no she has like her little like tiny nails right now but no but also like yes she is I overheard at some point on tour of you and Miles having a conversation about

It potentially happening before Australia. So that's why I'm like, I know, but now I don't want to disappoint myself that way because it's like, what if it isn't? And like, there's nothing on my books. You know what I mean? It's not like we're like, we happen to be going somewhere or like, yeah. What do you mean? You happen to be going down under? No, I mean like a date or something like, Oh, I'm literally an idiot. Yeah. So I don't know. I know it's not going to be like a big proposal cause I don't want a big proposal, but

So when you say you don't want a big proposal, what... And I think I agree with you. I think it's nice. But what's...

What's your dream proposal? I guess is what I'm asking. I don't know. That's hard. I don't have a dream proposal. I have almost just the opposite, what I don't want it to be. Okay. I think because I have so much birthday trauma. You're not the birthday trauma, but I know you're going to assume you are. No. I've always felt really weird about big, grand gestures or anything like that because it just makes me anxious. So I have never wanted that. I want it to be so...

like chill us too i want it to be cute still i don't want him to do it at burger king well i just don't think anyone should ever propose someone in a restaurant in general i don't know i would be like rock with the chili's proposal chili's i want a proposal for a brand deal yeah i don't know i don't know what i would want he's always said like he he's he feels like he's just gonna know exactly when he wants to do it and he's gonna do it what if that's in like an air one

Like, do you think he means it like that? No, no. I don't think he means it like that. No. I think it's so cool that you both just, like, know. I think it's good, too, like, where he's at in his life. You know what I mean? Like, yeah. With him being older, I think he'll make sure that it's, like, really relevant. Yeah, I feel like it's going to be so, even just, like, knowing the both of your, like, aesthetic, it's going to be very, like, Pinterest and, like, you know. He doesn't have an aesthetic. Yes, he does. I don't have an aesthetic. I feel like Miles is very, like, cool girl as a guy. What?

I don't know how to explain that. You think so? We went to his dad's birthday was the other day and we went and had lunch with them and his mom told him as we were leaving, she goes...

I really love you so much more than how you're with her. That's so sweet though. That is cute. What a funny way to say that. Yeah. She's like, I really love you and I love you so much more now that she's here. That's so sweet. He's like, love you too. But yeah, I guess I would have liked to have had like a, like, Oh my God, I'm so surprised. But like now I'm like, tell me when it is. I want to know. No one's telling you when it is. I need an outfit. Yeah.

You'll have an outfit. She refreshes Revolve new today every day. I don't think there's anybody who like... There's not an item on Revolve that I have not seen. I feel like people go on and then they see new today and they're like, hell yeah, new today. But Brooke is like, what is new today?

I do. And now I'm doing it on the real, real as well. It's like, it's a part of my major social media routine. Don't tell her that. No, but I just, I need to stop. You know why I need to stop? Because I made a pile of all my like vintage things that I've been buying to do a haul for a YouTube video. And I put it beside my bed. And as I'm putting this pile beside my bed, I think to myself, this is really dumb to just like put all these things like right where my feet go. And then I woke up the other morning at like 8 a.m. to me just cracking a pair of Chanel sunglasses in half. Well, why was it with the sunglasses?

on the ground. Because I was like, this is my wall pile. Why wouldn't she? You know? It's so true. I've been looking on the RealReal specifically for you because you have a birthday coming up. Oh my God, that's very sweet. Yeah. I'm having it on the hunt for a gift for her too and I'm like, oh. Everyone's so nice. It's going to have to be secondhand this time, girl. I'm still...

Right. I'm like, rent's real expensive these days. This is one of the sweetest gifts I've ever received, though, because I do now that I switch them a lot. I like take off my card. This is the like skip this part. We'll put a time on the screen where this part is over. I switch my Cartier bracelets from wrist to wrist a lot because they like to change up my stack. And when I do that, I open it and I see George Mickey and I think it's very sweet.

Oh, I forgot that that's on. It always just makes me laugh because I know that is the only time in Cartier's history that they have seen Jorts McGee engraved into a solid gold bracelet. For sure. I know, and I had to wait a few extra days for that. I was like, I give this to her today. Instant gratification.

I had to wait days for it. No, I think that's awesome. All right, everyone, we're back. From whatever the fuck. Wait, I want to talk about something. Speaking of George McGee, like, when you guys were just on tour, everyone was seeing George Skate finally for the first time. Yeah. Which I think is just hilarious. What's his team are you on? I'm not on either of your guys' teams. Well, that's your own kind of history. No, I can always see both sides because, like, well, first of all, like, because I know you guys, I just...

I can just see, I could feel you guys arguing. Like I could just put myself in that room and just being like, okay, she's right. Okay. She's right. Okay. Now she's right. Okay. Now she's right. Like, you know, and it's just so funny because like,

I obviously see this shit all over TikTok and stuff and people like taking sides and everything. And I'm just like the way people are like almost making it seem like you guys literally fucking hate each other makes me like absolutely laugh because I'm just like you guys, this is where the parasocial jumps out with people. It's like you guys, if you guys fucking hated each other's guts, you guys wouldn't be sitting on these couches right now, you know? And like you guys wouldn't be touring together and stuff. And it's just like,

they act like that like ended your guys's friendship or something like that and there's like sides no there's a there's a new one because i we were like honestly i was kind of i was being i'm gonna admit it right now when she hit you with the stop poking the bear it wasn't it wasn't even the jorts gate it's like it's a new one it's because we were talking in um i don't know why are you getting so defensive yeah after fucking

I was like, oh my God. Thank you, Jesus. I was playing a game with like the rest of the room, which I'm sometimes doing. At my expense! And see, this is exactly, this is where the sisterhood jumps out. I know. And like, God. And I swear to God, it's so funny too because I watched that back and I was like, this is Tuesday. Like,

I didn't even think like, wow, this is like, cause I'm just like that. I know. But then in my head, I'm like, there's so many omitted details, so many ways to interpret this, but the general consensus. And I know usually if, if the masses are on a side, I'm probably on the wrong side. But I don't even think that like people do just fill in so much. Like, yeah. Whatever. Like,

The way that you know what I mean like yes they saw George get yes they saw that episode of the podcast and we put it out there so it's like I don't care I'm just saying I think that then people assume and like just fill in everything else and it's kind of just like yeah but but basically I was like you don't go outside and I was like you would have so much more fun if you went outside but like you don't and she was like I want to work.

And I was like, oh, this is like, were you actually in like Ireland or something? Yeah. Yeah. And so I formally, I apologize. I actually did apologize. You can't even get it out. That's not true. I apologize to you on my own time. I did. I said, you know what? I am sorry. Cause that was like, I was being like, but in my head, like I really, I'm sorry.

Let me go ahead and go back on everything. I would never want to cut into your work time. I want to cut into your time playing. I only play Good Sorting Match at night and now the new game is the adventure. And on planes, and on planes, and on planes. Have you ever seen me play it not on a plane or not on a night? You need to take some accountability for telling you. She'll be like, I played Good Sorting Match for seven hours yesterday. And then I'll be like, but you said you didn't have time to go outside. She'll be like, I was working. It's not in the daytime, only on a plane.

Wait, that was so real though. I played good sorting match for seven hours. That's the time I want to cut into. I want to cut into your good sorting time. But then people are like, well, if she wants to sort goods, she can sort goods.

Not everything's about you. This is also in the midst of fucking La Boo Boo Gate, okay? And you bitches are just WWE over a stuffed doll. I'm like, the goods, and go sort themselves. Like, shit, let me have my peace. You're like, I have anxiety. I need to sort goods. For all of this? I'm not kidding.

there would be some points in the green room where like BV or just anyone just something would be happening and I'd be like I gotta sort my goods it actually became like my my coding mechanism but all of those things had a common theme and that was I just want to spend more time with my friends in Europe see when that whole thing happened like

When I was seeing stuff, I could also see both sides of that too. It's like, duh, you want to create memories with someone and stuff. And like, it's like, these are like once in a lifetime opportunities and stuff. And who knows when you'll ever be back in this place with these people. But then again, it's also like, yeah, if the bitch is tired, the bitch is tired. And it's like, you know, just. I am definitely, I'm the sleepy care bear. I think that it is like, just our perceptions of things sometimes are different. And you very much are the type of person who's like,

I only see this out like in my person. You know what I mean? And like you guys might not be going back for like a long time because Miles doesn't like to fly. And like you guys were looking at this with this like beautiful new eye and like vacation and whatever. And I think I was very much looking at that as like, and this is obviously a privilege to even like say this. Like I don't want to say and come off like crazy, but like I'd been to Paris. I'd been to London. Like I'd been, I wasn't, and I just can't, I can't like truly just no matter what, like with the shows, like I,

I don't know. I know it did make me feel bad though because I felt like and you've said it but like you did not have a good time. You know what I mean? And that like that I felt bad because I was like

I feel like you would have enjoyed it more if you, I understand. I had concepts of a good time. But you know what I mean? You kept saying like, I won't say what you compared it to, but you, you really had a horrible time. And like the whole time I was like, I felt like if you were like really like spending your days out, you would have not maybe had such a horrible time. But I also understand that.

Maybe we wouldn't have gotten to the show if we... Yeah, I just... Because even in the US, like, you know, my show battery, it's just... It's not... It ain't what it used to be. And, like, I... And it is harder being sober, I think, because I just feel it all. And, like...

Dead ass truly. Like even just getting out there, I like, I don't know, like how nice would it be to tour with zero other obligations? Like I think that then maybe I would also have more energy, but it's like, oh my God, I don't know. Like I was just like doing a lot of shit, but like it is what it is. You know what I mean? I know. Well, I do apologize. I really do. Well,

And not in a like, I apologize, but I know I did say that a couple times. I remember when you guys were on the US tour. I don't even like, I hope you know I was never like seeking it. Like I said, I watched it and I was just like this. I know, I guess I just keep seeing these TikToks that are like, and there's a huge feud. Yeah. And I'm texting her like, wait, is there a huge feud? I think it was people just kind of being led into what maybe more so of our off-camera conversations can look like sometimes. Yeah, in fact, we fight worse. Yeah.

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I remember like when you was on the US tour and I came for the last like two and a half weeks and stuff like because Makoa wasn't there and I was and we were sharing a hotel room and like every city we were in like

I would get up and like I knew she was fucking exhausted and stuff. I also had raging diarrhea that was like, it's just like God like actually does test me a little more. Yeah. She was just like tired and stuff. I'd wake up and like just walk around the city by myself and I'd ask her like, oh, I'm going to do this. Like, do you want to like come meet me later? Do you want to? And she's like, uh, maybe I'm like, it's not going to happen. But also I'm like, okay, bye. I'm just going to do my thing. Like whatever. Like I can live. It is one or the other for me. It's also hard though because it's like I'm saying raging diarrhea and then it's like put the whopper down then. But then I have a whopper at home.

home and I don't have raging diarrhea. Like, I don't know what it is. Like, just. Yeah. Yeah, it takes such a long. That was crazy. Yeah, that diarrhea was nuts. I remember you heard me one night. Yes! And I was just like, what? You said it sounded like pouring oatmeal. Yes. Into a toilet. It sounded like oatmeal, like, just falling into a toilet. I was like, oh. Yeah, it was crazy. We didn't have to say that. I'm happy we did, though. Making me feel closer. I brought my PS5, too. I remember I turned my PS5 on and I was like, no, no, no, no.

This is not happening right now. You know what? I want to start. I feel like we should all start playing with our Nintendo Switches. So fun. I also appreciate that, like, gameplay with other people. Like, just, like, like, not. Yeah, I'll sort your goods with you. My new one is eVenture, and I don't even, it's worse. It's even worse. I, like, run a little cafe, and I'm deleting it tonight. It's ADHD. Like, I do just have crippling ADHD that affects me.

In so many ways. And it's so hard because it's like, I don't know. I will say I have ADHD too. A lot of people were like, you don't know what it's like. I'm like, no, I actually literally have that. But I... Well, Buterin has completely eliminated like ADHD paralysis for me. Not eliminated, but like I do not experience it like I used to. I used to like... It was like I have the world to do so I cannot move. I cannot move my eyes. I cannot move my hands. But I'm not like that. Like...

I don't know at home or in the daytime like it really I was just experiencing like an extreme low during tour and like now I feel pretty back and I'm hoping Australia just doesn't do that to me I don't think it will I think it's gonna be good and just the dynamics yeah like I don't know like just all of it like I'm I love Bebe so goddamn much

But I think you might be a little less on edge. I was only on edge for like three days because of BB the last three days. But boy, was I on edge. I watched that TikTok of you guys eating McDonald's together in your hotel room. I felt rage for you. No, it was. I was like.

oh my god the way she was like ripping the food out of your hands and like knocking it all over your bed but she needed to be like Mouse was there it was giving Mouse I pictured like just us two and I was just like oh my god because I'm so the type of person that like I can eat in the bed and like not make a fucking psychotic mess

A lot of people can eat in the bed and not make a raging mess, you know? No, I just ordered like actually like over $200 in stain removing products. It's getting out of hand. But I was just sitting there watching that and I was just like, oh my God, I really just like,

I pictured like this one right there and I was like, wow, I really feel for her right now. And then just like, yeah, the way the ripping the other day, the other day we're sitting, we're laying in my bed and mind you, I have my phone in my hand laptop and my hard drive is plugged into my laptop. This bitch right here. First of all, you can't just rip a hard drive out. You have to eject it because then like sometimes your files can go corrupt. You can lose the entire project. I'm working on a YouTube video.

she just no no questions asked just reaches for the cord that my hard drive is plugged into my computer and grab like literally grabs it doesn't rip it i go what are you doing what are you doing she goes can i use this charger that's my hard drive and but like still like hand on it like let it go and also ask ask like what's your laptop at can i use that like you know maybe even something like that and then like five minutes later

we learned about this feature on iPhones where like when you press this the camera button or whatever you can like zoom like change the zoom if you like swipe it up and down which I didn't know and I'm sitting there like amazed by it you can change it to front camera or whatever and I'm like whoa this is so cool and I'm experimenting with it she just rips my phone out of my hand while I'm doing it and I was like just what I'm not gonna go barbarian no yeah she was what you think I'm gonna go through your phone I was like

No, like you can go through my phone. I have nothing to hide from you. It's the fact that you just ripped my phone out of my hand. Not even like a, oh, can I see? I want to try or anything like that. Like she just,

I was like, sometimes I forget that you're like a whole human being and not like we're not one. Both of those things happening within like 15 minutes. I was dumbfounded. My new bit is this. Oh, yeah. No, yeah. We're sitting at the edge of my bed and she grabs my phone from my lap. And like, I don't give a shit if she grabs my phone, but she grabs my phone, picks it up.

just like brings it so close to my face, swipes it up and just like, I was like, what the fuck are you doing? You crackhead. She's literally barbaric. No, I was like, what the hell? Especially with you, I just, we're like siblings, dude. I don't know if you heard. There's no way that just happened. You took me in. I was like,

It was just the craziest shit ever. I always think about that. I'm like, damn, they could really just unadopt me. That would never happen. And then we're like sitting in my bed for like, now she has like,

mind you i'm trying she loves to um she's always like oh like let's edit together can we have an editing party blah blah blah i can't i physically have to like lock myself in my room be in my bed edit by myself no distractions any like i can't have someone else on their laptop next to me like i just need to be alone she does not understand that one and i mean she's gotten better about it because she just knows not even to ask me if we can edit together i

but then now I'm clearly trying to edit hard drive plugged in almost unplugged and now she has Trevi in my room Ashley in my room and I'm like okay I haven't seen Trevi in a long time like Tana like just got back I'm like we're hanging out a little bit like okay like 15-20 minutes will be fine like maybe they'll get the gist like I'm doing something they're in my room for like two hours and I'm sitting there and I'm like

You should let him work. Working is so important. Let him work. His job is not just to be your friend. I was about to hit him with a breakout response and be like, well, me, Ashley and Trevi had so much fun at the store and you're not inviting me.

I don't hate that. And I had a great time hanging out with her for like two hours, but then she was like, okay, can we go upstairs? I was like, Tana, no, please. You guys just sat in here for two hours. I know. I'm still trying to get back to what I was doing. I have been extra forcey with you lately because I haven't seen you, like being away from you. Yeah, it's been great. See, that's me. I'm just trying to force you to go out and do this.

God forbid, I just want to spend some time with my friend. I love God forbid. God forbid is like the best. No, but I'm going to get dragged. I already know. She, who's going to work if you're out drinking all day? The drinking is why. I don't even drink. I literally, I drank one time that whole trip. Your guys' beers look cute. I know, I also saw people like saying like, Tana is a recovering addict and she cannot be around like an Aperol Spritz. And I was like, damn.

they're riding for the wrong I only drink one time the whole time as BB I don't mind that you guys had looked really cute with your faces in them Guinness so those look really cute I was like wow that's cool yeah no BB got fired okay wait please explain a little bit to me I feel like

I had a feeling something like that would happen. Everyone knew it was coming. We anticipated it on this podcast. We were like, BB is coming. It's going to be a horrible idea. And Makoa, I remember the moment that we found out Makoa and I were at LAX for some reason. And I told Makoa that BB was coming and he just started dying laughing. Like we were like, this is going to be like watching Bad Girls Club. But Tana has this completely...

I have a completely skewed memory of what this decision making process went down has because when I started getting upset and like complaining about it, Tana's like, well, what did you expect? And I'm like, actually, it's both. I think that in the beginning, obviously in my brain, but I'm not always also going to tell you like my thoughts on some shit because like, no, that's not true.

I had another assistant or another person who was going to come with me on the tour and I was anxious about it because I was like, no, my takeaway was do what's going to make you the happiest. That's always my takeaway. It wasn't your, it was her idea. She goes, well, don't you think just BB could do it if it's, if it's this easy of a job, like just invite BB to do it. And I'm like, I don't know if that's a good idea. She's like, no, she'd be fine. Like in such a short, like it with so little responsibility, like she would be fine. And it was your idea. Yeah.

Well, I think that you in the past have said like that would make you happier to have like somebody who entertains you and like a friend and like versus like someone in just a working role. And you don't really like to have an assistant like that much. I'm not good at having an assistant at all because I –

No, I'm just not. And like, that's true. No, I'm laughing because you'll be like, I just want them to read my mind. I do. And like that, that's like an actual issue I have. Like, I'm not used to like allocating. Like commanding someone almost. Yeah. And it feels weird. It doesn't matter. Even if I don't know the person, like my first assistant, she was amazing. But I like, we weren't that close. So when I...

like wanted her to do something I sometimes felt like weird asking her and I felt like I didn't want her to feel like she was beneath me so I would like not really say what I wanted or needed out of her and then I would get so frustrated when she wasn't doing what I wanted and needed out of her like how was she to know so like I made that mistake with her and then I was like but BB just knows me she reads my mind yeah I think BB is with that like with that being said

would be the best choice yeah but there was this day in amsterdam that was so fucking funny we have like some footage like i'll try to review it and see but we get this beautiful gondola like boat to like ride around can i tell my can i tell my truth my truth okay so and bb i love you more than anything okay but like i was already like kind of like holy shit i have not

I didn't expect her to really, like, do a lot. That wasn't the thing. I brought her really because, like, she's my best friend. She's my emotional support. I want her with me everywhere I go. Yeah. So that was, like, her real role, okay? And I understood that. And then I think she started doing shit with Paige and not wanting the third wheel. Well, the problem was we weren't spending any time together. So then I was like, wait. Where's the emotional support? Yeah, where's my emotional support? I can't even find her. So...

i was already getting a little like like hang out with me you know what i mean like not to force you to hang out with me but also like please hang out with me yeah and i like if you're paying her but like really i started like thinking just because i was like i gotta get her to do something i would give her like random tasks and my one number one thing the entire trip like the one major thing that i was like i have to have this bb i need to go on a boat

Okay, I need to go on a boat. I don't care where we have to go to boat. Nowhere we went even had boats until our very last stop. And the second we landed, I see a boat in the water and I go, BB book the boat. Okay, I'm so fucking excited. I'm like, BB book the boat. We're on the way to the hotel at the hotel. I'm like, BB, have we booked the boat? She's like, I don't know. Like, which which boat do you want? I'm like, any boat, whatever. Next morning, BB, I'm seeing boats everywhere. Are we booking a boat? She's like, I don't know what boat you want. And I'm like, well, I don't know what boats there are.

Doesn't matter. No boat booked. We're walking down the street. Me and Miles go, look, BB, there's the boat booking store. She's like, I don't know. The website's not in English. I'm like, whatever. And it was all fine. I was like, whatever. I'm not going to go on a boat until we're in. BB stands for bad with boats. Bad. Until we're in the green room and Tana makes an announcement. I got a boat for tomorrow. What?

I'm all excited and then Brooke's seething and I'm like, why? I got a boat. I'm so excited to go on your boat. That's not it. It's just the fact that like, like Tana all day. She's, you know, working and Tana found a way to book a fucking boat. Cause it was really just that easy. And now Tana has a boat and the,

The boat that I wanted to bring everybody on no longer can exist because now there's a different boat that everyone's going to go on. Well, no, my boat was originally me, Makoa, Chris, videographer. It wasn't any... It had nothing to do with your boat. It was the principle. Just the fact that now this thing that I was so excited, that was going to be my thing to bring everyone on this boat that I wanted to do. And now there is a boat and it's not like...

whatever like what you wanted to do like kind of fell through it's never about the boat or the labubu or the drawer it's like that's the takeaway and then she'll just like it's always just the principle so whatever we get on the goddamn boat okay

And the straw that broke the camel's back was this. I'm sitting there. We're whatever. We're talking, chatting, whatever, back and forth. And I stand up and Bebe's drink is sitting on the cushion and it spills all over the floor, all over my outfit, my shoes, everything. Oh, didn't you get some expensive shoes or something? Yes. My brand new little sandals. My little chanclas. I've been so excited to put my whole outfit around them. And I'm sitting there. I stand up. Her drink spills everywhere.

I literally go and she goes, well, why would you stand up if there's a drink right next to you? I'm like, oh, why would there be a drink next to me? And then she swear to God, Amari BB, BB, I love you. I'm freaking out because my shoes are like they're leather and they're like they change a whole different color. It really doesn't matter. The shoes don't matter.

She doesn't stand up. Someone puts a rag on the ground and she just starts pushing it around her foot while she just still is in a conversation with Paige making TikTok. Oh my God. And so I just had a fucking fit. You just realized your business needed to hire someone yesterday. How can you find amazing candidates fast? Easy. Just use Indeed.

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So now, and it's like a small boat, but there's the front of the boat and there's the back of the boat and they're like running back and forth and switching places. I'm walking to the back of the boat and Bebe's like, she's such a fucking this. I'm walking to the front of the boat and she's such a fucking this. And they're going back and forth. It was bad girls club on this beautiful gondola in the middle of it. And I honestly made like such a scene, but it was because I'm like, now I'm not on my own boat. I'm on a stranger's boat.

And Makoa just turns to me at one point and he goes, could I have violins? Like we passed this old couple with like violins eating dinner on the boat. Oh my God. I was like,

It was literally bad girls club on this fucking boat. And it's so funny because we all hadn't had like a big, like we had been doing things separately. And then I was like, wow, this is like, cause obviously also I think that your boat in your dream boat world would have been booked at 8 a.m. And like my boat was booked at like 3 p.m. Like you would have had a dream boat. Yeah, no, it wasn't that. I don't even know. I'm saying the only group interaction that we like all have together just turns into fucking what's that show? Craziness.

Below deck. Oh. Like, just fucking, oh my God. It's so funny you say that because I'm literally in a below deck hole right now. But, I don't know. It was another one of those situations where it's like, okay, Brooke, I could have booked the boat. It takes two seconds to book. I could have booked the boat. No, you're paying someone you want to task. It was the principle of me being like, I want just this one thing. If I ask for it, I want to get it. And to her, she was like, well, you didn't tell me what time. You didn't tell me which one. Blah, blah, blah. But I was like, well. I totally get it. Like,

Honestly, that would frustrate me too. And like what you said, but like you guys are so close, like she knows you. Yeah. Like there's some things that like... I also just think that like I do agree with you on the principle. Obviously like...

Yes, hiring your friends can be murky water and like whatever and we all know that. But I think if you pay someone to execute a task, they should execute that. And you're not asking a lot of her and like honestly, the drink with you guys being as close as you guys are, that drink would have sent me over and that's like backhand territory. Oh, and then Bebe screaming like it was her. That could have been backhand territory. Because it wasn't, I'm sorry, it was nothing. It was why the fuck would you stand up? Oh, see that would, she would have been off the boat. It's Bebe, I can't stay mad at her for literally like two minutes. Yeah. And like you guys are also just so similar in the sense that like,

both of your like perceptions or your, like, you don't even like BB had her whole side of like, and BB's like, and BB could tell this exact same story from her perspective. And there would be no world where anyone was on my side. You know what I mean? Because it was like to her, it's like, well, how the fuck am I supposed to book a boat when you don't tell me the time you don't tell me which boat you don't like, you know what I mean? So I, she's, it was just stupid. It was like a stupid fight. But it was one of those things where it's like, communicate.

so funny like like they will communicate in passive aggression like through the fucking it's sisters like i always forget sometimes that like like it's very sisters it is it is very like like you guys oh my god it's like my my i grew up only with sisters like we would fucking beat each other we would like everything was like you're such a fucking stupid fucking like

So in my head, that's just like, that's what you do. No, and you guys actually, even the Amsterdam, they're doing that. You know what I mean? Just fucking losing it. And then the next day, they're on stage scissoring. And I'm like, what the fuck? No, that was same day. That was two hours later. From like, you're such a fucking...

I hope you die to like insert labia here. Because even like, like Tana was in there for the blowout after the boat was fine, whatever. It's funny because I made a TikTok in the beginning because it started off so lighthearted and I'm like, fuck, I should have kept recording that. It was insane. But it did not, it ended so like crazy and so bad. And so, cause it was just like both of our frustrations like at once. But even then, like in the mornings, like when we see each other, it's like, it's a joke. Like we're looking at each other like,

I could really only imagine the heat like running through your body though when Tana in the green room is like, so I got a boat. I'm not like literally my heart. I was like, why isn't she excited? My heart sank because it's like I had this one little thing that I just wanted so badly to be like, oh my God, I'm going to have this boat and everyone's going to come on this boat. Yeah. And then I already had to swallow my pride and I'm like, God damn. I think I was sorting my goods off the boat. Probably.

But it's still a bit today. Still, like, Bebe's like, the other day, we're making banana bread, and she's like, look how good I am at assisting. It's also funny because, like, not only has she assisted you, but she's also assisted you. Yeah, and I mean... Bebe... Bebe is the talent. My takeaway is, like, Bebe was never meant... She's not supposed to be anyone's assistant. I really, like, realized that this year, too. Like, I don't know, yeah. The assistant role. Like, I just... I don't know, because even just...

With Paige leaving, there were a couple weeks to a month there where I had no one, right? And I'm just like, I was having to do all these. And I was like, God damn, it's so wild how much coordinating, scheduling, and just back and forth conversations, the amount of people you already know. An email could be a text, a text could be a thought, a fucking, and just so much shit. And just shelving your own life. And yeah, I mean, I could never do it. I think anyone who is a very main character in their own world...

Or in their own head. Like, it's very hard to shelf your life and your thoughts and even put your emotions to the side and, like, compartmentalize. I'm not good at having anxiety. I feel like you're so good at, like, delegating and being like, this is what I need, this is when, whatever. Because it's the only way it will work. I'm such a procrastinator and everything gives me so much anxiety that it's almost like if I have to, like, go, you know, like, spell it out, then it's like I might as well be doing it. Well, that's if someone, no, like...

You could definitely get in a rhythm with someone where you're like delegating and they are helping you out. I'm just not like a strong communicator like that. Like I don't. You want someone to read your mind and then get mad when they don't read your mind. That's not possible. You know, but. Yeah. You guys wonder what I think about often. You guys think Emma Chamberlain has an assistant? Yeah. Oh yeah. Yeah. You think so? Of course. Multiple. If I had to guess. Oh my God. Have you guys been to the new Chamberlain coffee? At Century City. I haven't. It's so good. I tried to go, but I got mobbed.

I still believe that. Period. Honestly, it was like, yeah, I love Emma. We go way back. I do love her so much. I'm obsessed with her. I love her podcast. I was just going to say, I love her podcast. So much. It's just like so raw. So, so, so much. I just love her. I love everything about her. Do you guys watch Alex Roll's vlogs? No. I see clips of them though. Yeah, I think. So obviously she doesn't podcast anymore. And I'm not going to lie. Wait, she doesn't? No.

Why? Oh, oh, oh. Yeah. But I'm not going to lie. I did not enjoy her podcast. I really just... I'm like trying to get out of the clip. No, I didn't enjoy her podcast. I think she's fucking awesome. I met her for the first time recently. She's so sweet. She's so gorgeous and stuff. I love her vlogs. I think her vlogs are amazing. Well, it's just a smarter like business wise because I think so much of...

Her strong suit. It is like her life is so cool. Like showing the life versus speaking in detail about the life. She's meant to be watched. She's so captivating. Everything she does says her life, her friends, everything. It's all so cool. You're so locked in. I feel like it's hard for that to translate. Yeah, it's like when she's talking about it, it's almost like, damn, I want to know what this looks like. I want to see this. I feel like I'm there. Such a smart business move. Now her vlogs, every time I watch one of her vlogs, I'm like, damn. I'm just like...

Can y'all do this? Yeah, I saw her looking for the artist bands at Coachella. It's just like a clip of her looking for her artist wristbands. And she's like, she's digging through her room. Nina Dobrev comes out of the corner. She's like, can you let me in? Alex is like, is that fucking Nina Dobrev? That's iconic as fuck.

She has the most iconic life. I live for Alex Earl. I want her to have all the success in the world. Went from Coachella during the night to wake up and go speak at Harvard the next week. She's sipping Mark. It is just so funny to me because I'm like, you want to talk about battery? Yeah. What do you guys think about...

her dad being her manager. I think that's like the most interesting thing in the world. Oh, he is? Yeah, her dad, from the beginning of time. I did not know that. That's crazy. I think that you occasionally hear the stories of it working out like Tish Cyrus or like it working out so perfectly. Yeah.

But I feel like just... I'm not talking about Alex at all. I'm talking about as a blanket statement. I feel like if I had to gather every story I've heard of that, only 10% are successful. Yeah, like more often than not. Literally. I think in her particular case, it just works so well because she's... Everything she does is so centered around business and her dad is such a successful businessman. Yeah. Does that make sense? She obviously has her agents and stuff too, but when I found that out, I was like...

Oh my God. I could also just tell she has an amazing relationship with her family. And you see that through like all of her content, honestly. They very much do. I love her little siblings. They're so cute. Yeah, honestly, all of them are so cute. I would do anything for an Alex or a reality show. Yeah. Like that is like someone who fucking needs that. I want to know everything. Just all of the dynamic of everything. Like it's just, and just the busyness. Yeah, I want to see her dad open her email and be like,

500K? Hell never. Hell never. Isn't that crazy? Alex Earl probably frequently turns down, if I had to guess...

You know what's funny is seeing TikToks being like, Alex Earl is making $70,000 a month and I want to be like, Alex Earl is making millions of dollars a month. Yeah. Millions. Carl's Jr. probably made her so much fucking money. I just found out what an influencer that we know got paid to do like a one day shoot with a big brand. And I was like, oh my God. Can you tell us? We'll bleep it. You were there. You know who it is.

No, I don't know. Well, yeah, we'll just cut it or bleep it or whatever. But like got paid like over like a fucking million dollars to go shoot for like three hours with him.

Like millions. And it's so funny because I just like, obviously I will die having never experienced that side of the shop. And I wouldn't trade like my life for anything. And like, you know what I mean? But it's just, it's so wild. Yeah. Yeah. Just the, like you don't, the money like that, the Jake Shanes, the Alex Earls are making like,

It's so wild. And I just, the dream to me is to have that like workload. Like, I just feel like when I like, I'm like, oh, I want to make the X amount of dollars doing something. The amount of like work time, effort, meetings, creative shooting, all of it. Like, you know, because it's usually like a self thing.

More self. Yeah. But you do a fuck ton. Yeah. Yeah. I thought you were saying you like. No, I'm saying like how awesome would it be to get paid a fucking million dollars for a three hour shoot because you've never talked about getting fucked with a toothbrush online. You know, like that's, it's like wild. But yeah, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I don't know. Even like, I'll talk to Camilla sometimes and we talk like, we talk a lot about that. Like where she's like,

I want to break the mold for being an OF girl, but then also being like brand safe. And I'm like, hell yeah, girl, you try. You know what I mean? Like, and I think she could do it. This isn't me like shitting on the idea of that. If anything, I think it's awesome that that's the way that she thinks about things and looks at things. But I think that I, for so long was like, I'm going to do that. And then like, I had to just make peace with like, you know what I mean? Like I might not ever get that goddamn Chili's deal and I might joke about it, but like,

The connection I have with my fans because I know for a fact that I'm never like getting on camera and being someone else. It's more valuable. And like, yeah, that like, I don't know. Yeah. Them seeing all of my mistakes is just as valuable as them seeing like all of my like happy moments because it like shows them they can also grow. And I don't know. I definitely see that still for you. A hundred percent. And I always use Trisha as an example, but like,

Trisha has every opportunity in the world right now. I'm fine with being like a role model for the fuck up girls that like you can build it all yourself. You are people. I mean, people and people need that. Yeah. You know, you are like so many people's like

I know. And it's just like very sweet. Yeah. Like I wouldn't change it for the world. I don't know. I see so much more value in the fact that like so many people are actually like moved and changed by you. Then like, that's what I'm trying to say is it's like, I would, yes. Like, of course it's like, okay, Chili's, please pay me to eat your triple dipper. I'm just gaining weight. And like, I would literally live like at the same time. Like, I don't know. Like, it feels nice to be here for more than just entertainment. Yeah. Yeah. And, and just like you, you don't,

I don't know. I don't want to sit here and say, like, you don't see a lot of archetypes like me on social media a lot. But, like, I do have that special bond with my fan base where it's like... Well, you don't. It's special. It's like, not to say that these people aren't fucking up, but, like, people aren't showing it. You've shown it. When you think about businesses that are selling through the roof, Allbirds, Skims, sure, you think about a great product, a cool brand.

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He named their daughter Sophie Rain and she had no idea why. No. And then, like, come to find out he named the daughter Sophie Rain after, like, O.F. Yeah. Sophie Rain. That's fucking crazy. Like, well, that's the most terrifying thing in the entire world. Imagine...

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It's so diabolical. I've been learning a lot lately about... No, this lady trolls. She's fake. Oh, does she troll? Yeah, she's a troll. Damn. I mean, with the fucking Wizard Liz shit going on, I just don't put anything past me. She makes TikToks all the time just being like,

Like she's saying shit like that. Damn. I mean, that's good. She's good at going viral though. I literally want to send that to my mom and be like post TikToks like this. I'm not kidding. Oh my God. Make money. That makes me happy that it's not a real story, but also societally we are at a point where that 100% could be a real story, which is just fucking wild. Oh, so it didn't actually happen? No, she just trolls. Oh, okay. What a weird, I don't know if I live for that. Also that Britney Valencia Augusta shirt is so cute.

Britney Spears Balenciaga shirts. I was actually thinking about getting one for Trisha today. I need to like look into that. What is it? Balenciaga has been doing these drops with like celebrities faces on their stuff. Does Britney get any money from that? Yeah, that's whenever I see anything Britney Spears my only takeaway is I hope she loves this, wants it and is making money. Yeah.

I guess it's like the designer of Balenciaga that's doing the print. It's like his last, it's like their last like line ever and so that's why Britain was down to do it because it's like his last project. That's really cool. But they are $800.

$800 t-shirts. $800 t-shirts? That's too much. But Balenciaga has always kind of done that, right? Like, even when they had the, like, button-up with the button-up attached, the iconic Trisha Paytas button-up, like, they were charging astronomically for that. Or, like, didn't they also do the stained t-shirts and jeans? Like, just look, like...

Remember those jeans that look like you pissed yourself, but they were like $2,000? I don't know. I've never really been with Balenciaga. I am like weirdly... Jesus, $1,050? Potentially. Damn. It's Britney, bitch. Ellen Pompeo was detained...

And held in the airport. I'm pretty sure the feds showed up for her. Because they thought her air one sunflower seeds were a bomb threat? Yeah. Or like a drug or something crazy. That would happen to me. That's fucking insane. I just have the worst. But you know, she's just so cool. I'm obsessed with her. Me too. Especially because I've been on my Grey's Anatomy kick. I just love her. Is this your first time going through? Yeah.

I'm on season 16, I want to say. Oh, you're on season 16. So you've passed the most important moment of all time that will ruin you. And you haven't gotten there yet, so we can't even tell you about it. Wait, what? Obviously, John Doe, bus crash. Oh. Oh, shit.

You need to make me start it because I want to. I actually like really, really want to. I've also just been having so many problems with my television not working and everything in my house. I had to pay someone $500 today to come make sound come out of my TV because the last person that I just had come to like fix our sound system broke my TV. Like I keep having people come break shit and then having to pay other people to come and fix the shit. The only thing I've gathered from you having bought a house is that

Never buy a house. I had a guy come the other day. Oh, sorry. Today, our pool guy came to come and inspect our pool heater because the wires got chewed up by rats and stuff. Mind you, there was an inspection seven days before that that cleared that nothing was wrong with the pool heater. It happened seven days after the inspection that I paid for. Today, the guy opens up the pool heater. There's live rats in there. Chews through all of it. And you'd think a pool heater was decently priced.

No, you wouldn't. Honestly, I wouldn't. How much does it cost? Like five, six. Oh, I would think more. Seven, eight. Depends like really what kind of pool heater you want, how big is your pool, what quality of a pool heater you want. Guess that's on me for getting an Olympic-sized pool. You know what I mean? It's like Tana. I tried to swim from one end to the other the other day and I dislocated my elbow. Like knock on wood, but like what?

a fucking earthquake instead of put a fucking crack in the basketball court. I know. Even the PTSD with just the fires, like really thinking my house is going to burn down. No, this guy comes the other day and no smart home ever is smart. By the way, I think all of the systems are just fucked and fucked and fucked. And again, this is me bitching about a champagne problem. But he comes...

And all of our gates and like doors to enter everything in the house are like codes and like security like that. Like they're very digital, right? And he comes for an issue that we're having with just like the speakers like outside, like something that has absolutely nothing to do with all of our gates to enter our home. And he leaves, he fixes that. And then...

I leave the house and I try to walk back in and I'm entering the gate, all the gates and the front doors and everything like nothing works. I'm I can't get into my fucking smart fortress. And I call this man. He's like, I can come back in two weeks. I'm like, why would you leave? Why would you leave? How do you feel? Okay. With charging me this much money and you just left my house and I can't even get into it in any way. And it's not like two weeks from now, I could be fine if it was like a fucking light bulb.

I can't enter or exit. That's how I spilled Sriracha all over my shirt because I was crashing out to this fucking man. No, I don't think you should be even allowed to charge if you haven't done the job and done it right. Yeah. And he's like, I had to get my kids from school. It's like, I'll Uber them here if it's the only fucking time that you can fucking let me, get me to let into my,

We just had someone come yesterday to do something and then they literally had to come back today because what they did didn't work properly or worked for 24 hours. How come no one at Control 4 can control the 4? I want to talk about our old drug dealer and all of Los Angeles' drug dealer, but I think we should save it for the Patreon. Yeah, for sure. Because we were just reflecting on...

That's fun. That in the car. And it's very, it's just a wild, wild. You'll know. You'll know the time. But I think we should hop on over to the Patreon, right? Yeah. Yeah. And Amari, thank you so much for coming on. I feel like I just love these episodes so much. Me too. I feel fulfilled leaving them and we appreciate your presence very, very much. It's always a fun time. And our solos, I feel fulfilled. I don't know. The last two episodes, I was really like, damn, what the fuck did we just talk about? And that's on no one but me. Like just me being brain dead.

Sorry. Okay. We love you guys so much and we will talk to you in the next episode of the canceled podcast. Yay.

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