S1 E13: We All Dodged a Bullet
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A few weeks after the Q&A episode was recorded, I was avoiding social interactions at a birthday party when I received an Instagram voice message from an old friend of mine, Lindsay No. 1. Lindsay No. 1 shared that she and a friend had been listening to the podcast, and apparently her friend was something of a web sleuth, and she had discovered Dick's real identity. When Lindsay No. 1 went to Insta-stalk Dick, she was shocked to see that another friend of hers, also named Lindsay, was following Dick's private Insta account.

She messaged Lindsay No. 2 to ask her how the hell she knew this douchebag, and Lindsay No. 2 shared that she had unfortunately dated him in 2018. Lindsay No. 2 and Sarah connected briefly over text and set up a time for us to talk. What we learned was both shocking and alarming.

I'm Tiffany Reese, and this is Something Was Wrong. So this is pretty crazy.

I'm in just finishing up nursing school right now. So we're like in exams. And then Lindsay, my friend called me out of the blue, you know, two days ago and was like, dude, I'm like, what? So,

This can't even be real. You hadn't listened to the podcast yet when she called you, right? You had no idea what she was talking about? Yeah, I had no idea. So she had messaged me through Instagram, sending me a snapshot of his Instagram profile. And she was like, dude, how do you know this guy? And I'm like, I don't know. Like, we dated, but the guy's a freak. So I don't know.

I didn't know. I was like, I have no idea what you're talking about. So she had sent me her podcast, but I hadn't, I didn't listen to it until yesterday morning. I was like, holy crap, that's insane. But I get it. Like I, it makes, it made sense to me. It wasn't really like, it wasn't like in shock and awe more of like, oh yeah, that makes sense. Yeah. Well, yeah, cause he's seen it. So you, you met him on Matt.

Yeah, that's when I met him was on that. Okay, what cracks me up is when he and I connected the story that he kept like repeating to everybody was that he had been in this season of undividedness, you know, where he wasn't seeing anybody. It was just, you know, him and the Lord and that he had deleted his hinge app even off of his phone and

And then when I liked one of his photos, he got an email, which I know now, I'm pretty sure he doesn't email you when you get notifications or when there's activity on there. But anyway, it's just funny that

It not only was all of that a bunch of, you know, crap, but he was on Matt too. So my story with him was I had, I was living in Reading and I had gotten on Matt. I had been on there and he was the first guy I had like ever like met or was interested on like a dating site because obviously after listening to the podcast,

We all know like how suave and great at communication and just super easy and cool it was to talk with him. Much of the same similarities how you guys met, it sounded like. And he was living, you know, in San Francisco at the time. And one of my best friends, Sarah, she lives in San Jose. And so I, within like a week, he was like, hey, come down, whatever. And so that's the first time in San...

I had went on, actually brought my friend Tara on the date and just because it was like, you know, big city and whatever. So that's smart.

So we met and he was how he was when you met him, I'm sure. It was just very fun and easy and whatnot. So I want to say that was sometime during before December. My best recollection, I'm thinking, was my friend and I, we kind of put our heads together and we're thinking like it was September, October in there of 2017. Yeah.

Wow. And then, yeah. That's when you started dating? Yeah, so that's like when we first started, like that's when we first like met on Match. Whoa, whoa, whoa.

Okay, sorry. It was like the end of 2017 to the beginning of 2018. Oh my gosh. Okay, so I thought it was at the end of like 2017, where abouts, because it was a holiday, like on our dates in San Francisco, like, you know, Christmas lights were starting to come up and the weather was cold. Oh my gosh.

It was like holiday season, right? And so we didn't get into like a relationship like you guys did. So I'll just be clear about that. I was super busy with my businesses up in Reading and he was super busy doing...

all the things that he says he does. And, you know, I mean, it was like a lot. And so it worked out great for us because we only saw each other when we had time, which

which now makes a ton of sense because he was super busy. But what was kind of funny in the podcast when you talked about you living in Sacramento and him saying he's never been there, I'm like, that's a lie because the only reason why he would come up and see me a lot was because he said he was working a lot in Sacramento.

Oh my gosh. And so, you know, there was like a whole bunch of weird coincidences that aren't very coincidental now that you look back at it. So he had been to Sacramento because he would come up to see me and said it was very easy because he was coming that way anyways. And he had probably seen me, he would come up like maybe every other week

So can I, okay, because now my, like, memories are all freaking out, or I'm freaking out and thinking of all the memories. So when you would, when he would come to see you, did he come up to Reading or did you guys meet in Sac? No, he would come up to Reading or I would go to San Francisco. We never met in Sac. Now, were these, like, during weekdays or weekends? On weekends. Because I think we were with each other almost every weekend from probably maybe...

October-ish to, I mean, well after we were engaged. It could have been a weekday. He never stayed the night up in Reading. He never stayed up there. So when he did come to see me, it would be for like a half a day or something. And then most of the time it was me

Going down and seeing him. Gosh, I would just kill to know, like, specifically, because everything is so fresh and vivid in my mind, because it was so fast and short. That's why I feel so bad, because it is, you're, like, on high alert, because you know all this stuff. And for me, I'm like, yeah, I've dated tons of people since, and I don't know how it's like this crazy. Psycho.

Psycho dude. And then once this came up, I was like, oh, God, like, I feel so bad for you because I've been married before. And I met a guy, the guy who I married was almost identical to now finding out who was. And it, I think it was just a God thing. Like when we did meet, there were so many of those same like types of character traits that I was like, something's off.

And I even told Lindsay, number one, that I never introduced them. Like, we never took it that far. I never introduced them to my family or anything up here for a couple of reasons. And one was because I never introduced anybody to my family because they get very connected. Like, they get very excited, right? Like...

I'm in my 30s. Like, oh, my God, you met finally. We don't have to worry about you being a geriatric pregnancy. Like, it's the Lord, right? And so I don't ever want to introduce him to anybody because I'm like, I don't know if I'm going to like him in six months, right? And I got married really quick to a guy just like him. So I kind of have this rule of I date for six months. And I don't care if I love them or they love me just because I got burned before.

So I didn't introduce him to my family, but at the end of, I want to say the end of December, beginning of January was when he started getting super busy and weird stuff started happening. One of our last conversations, I was sitting in the car in Reading and he was wherever he was.

we got into a big fight about religion and by fight I don't mean yelling but a very I'm holding my own he's holding his own viewpoint I remember this conversation was like three hours where he was all about he wanted to know about my day and I had told him I was reading this book by Joyce Meyer right oh oh and then then hell broke loose it was like heretic alert

Yeah, it was like the great divide, right? Like it just instantly, the spawn of Satan came out of him. And it was just like, you have to stop reading that book, you know? And then he tried doing this whole demeaning parental thing with me. And I'm like, what do you mean? And then we started going back and forth with Bible verses. And by that time, I was like, whoa, hold the phone. There should be no way in a...

in a relationship of like mutual respect and Godly love that we're fighting over females having a place in the church, right? Like that was my big thing with him where the red flags went up. I got off the phone with him. I talked with my parents. They had knew I was seeing him and had liked him, but had never met him. And my parents were like, get out of it. There's something going on. That's weird. It shouldn't be like that. All this stuff, right? And

I had kind of the same intuition, but was still kind of, you could probably relate, was still sucked into his coyness and just so calm and cool. And he would make it up by calling and saying, you know, like, I'm so sorry, like, let's move on past that, blah, blah, blah. And that would kind of keep me. But then we would always, I always had that in the back of my mind, like, man, he is really strong on that.

And then he would say some stuff about the church I went to and all these other things. And I started to see this pattern. And it was in January. He had gotten super busy and he just stopped talking to me out of the blue.

When it answered my phone calls, deleted me from Instagram, from whatever Instagram he had, because I found out he had like three or four. And so he had deleted me from that one, and I had no contact. And at that point, I was super pissed, but more thankful, but super pissed. Like, what? I've been spending all my time, like all this stuff.

And then, like, a couple of weeks later, I want to say, like, three or four weeks later, he requested me on Instagram again. And when I pulled it up, when I accepted him, these were all the photos I saw. And this was January 25th. Wait, he requested you and those photos were posted? Yeah. What a psycho! So, I don't know what the point of all of that was. But when...

Then, like, when I started Instagramming him, dude, WTF, he would not respond. And it was just like, I had met somebody and it went really fast and blah, blah, blah. Okay. So I saw that, freaked out, sent that stuff to my friends.

And then she said her whatever, you dodged a bullet. And we both kind of just went on with life because I'm like, what is wrong with this dude? Obviously, he has some major stuff going on. And he met somebody while he met me and got engaged. That's why he was busy. That's why he didn't care about a lot of stuff that I would talk. You know, it's just it kind of all came into this perfect storm for me.

yeah and so I just I just let it go and then it wasn't until like the end of the year end of 2018 like in September he re-requested me on Instagram again wow yeah yeah it's like he it's so perverted right and it just makes no sense and it was from a different Instagram and all of your guys's pictures were off yeah so I'm like

oh what the heck and then I had weird scattered Instagrams of in September through December of last year where he would reach out and I'm still trying to get answers from him like what in the hell happened when did you meet her why why why why and he still never had answers so

That was the end of it. Like, I never responded back. He's tried to, like, come and see me out here. And, again, it was just I just never responded. I just knew at that point. When did he last try to come see you or suggest coming to see you? That was in September. But he's been out in Colorado since June.

Yeah, I have no idea. I didn't know where he lived or, like, whatever. We never had conversations like, hey, how's your life, anything like that. It was more, I was, my questions were, like, the same every time. What happened? Yeah, just tell me what happened. When did you meet her? I just want, like, answers, but then when Lindsay had given me all of this information, now it kind of all makes sense.

Yeah. From my perspective, obviously not from yours. Yeah, so I haven't listened to all the podcasts. I don't know if I'm going to, to be honest, just because at this point it's all like posh, posh to me. It's like, dude, this guy is way beyond. It is what it is. Yeah. Yeah, way beyond help. But I know that when you talked about going to that concert,

in fact that he took you to I remember him telling me like that was one of his like favorite Christian bands and that he was going to see them and so when I was on the podcast I was like dude no way so I knew at that point in the podcast as well okay that just confirmed that he was seeing you at the same time

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And then when you guys were in Colorado, he had called me and texted me from Colorado and was telling me about his time in Colorado and was, like, planning on a time to see me again. And so that was another thing where I was, like...

Okay, you were with him in Colorado. He was calling me from a Colorado trip he was on. So all these different things where it was like, man, he was really trying to juggle the roots for sure. Oh, my gosh. And let me tell you, I mean, that trip to Colorado, his parents were handing us a check for our wedding.

That's what this trip was. And yet at some point during this, he was on the phone. I'm trying to figure out even when like he had time to be on the phone because that trip was so nonstop. Yeah. I don't know, dude. I don't know. It's like, was it like at night that he was on the phone with you or during the day? I know this is,

If you don't remember, it's no big deal. I honestly, Sarah, I wish I could tell you. It's okay. I have no idea. I can't even remember what I ate for breakfast yesterday. I know. Poor thing. Land of stress. But I have no idea. I just know that...

He did. We had contact. I knew he was in Colorado. Like, I knew the things that he was doing. But again, we weren't in a serious relationship. And we saw each other when we had time. Nonetheless, it doesn't make it...

good or settle easy to know I mean for either one of us because when I heard that I was like oh yeah I remember him telling me about that trip except for you weren't involved in it you know right yeah this is a little detail you left out did you know he took ProVigil okay here's the thing so he it's hard to keep everything straight with him and

And so I would just kind of tune a lot out. But I do, there was a lot of talk around supplements, energy stuff. He would pop, I was always under the impression that he was just downing supplements like crazy. Yet at the same time, part of me had this weird feeling that I should maybe look into some of the stuff he was taking, but he was just super flippant about it. And I knew that he would be up late at times, but he always said he was doing work or doing design stuff or doing a side gig, you know, contract work, studying the Bible.

So, he's so gross. But, okay, so anyway, yeah, he, I mean, during our time, you know, he had, this is so gross, but I'm going to tell you. So, he,

I remember him telling me like, cause he would be up late. Yes. Um, I concur this too. I know. And he would call me like super late at night. Um, and he would be like crazy full of energy. And I'm just like, why are you not sleeping? And he said like, he had all these sleeping issues.

And in one conversation, he was like, I need to get this like refill from this doctor. And I'm like, oh, for what? And because I'm in the health field, you know, I'm like, oh yeah, tell me about the drugs you're taking. Yeah. ProVigil. And I'm like, why the frick are you taking Adderall? Because ProVigil is pretty much Adderall. It's a super powerful stimulant, but it's,

It's an off-label drug that's used mostly to treat, like, narcolepsy or sleep apnea or people who travel a lot for work and they have that, like, sleep disorder, that sleep-wake disorder. But he said that he was taking it

Because the guy, Dave, whatever. Steve Asprey? Yeah, dude. His BFF? Oh, so stupid. Yeah, right? They're besties. I'm like, you've never even met that freaking dude. No, not at all. Whatever. And he would tell, like, he would say, yeah, not to get off topic, but he would tell me stuff like that. And I just like, I think maybe because I was so involved, thankfully, in my own life.

life that I just never really had time to listen to like all the shit he would say and some of that was like about like this Dave dude right or like that he I remember on our first date he told me that he had like cancer and I never like looked into it right I'm like he had the

just like weird stuff like that. But so he had mentioned he was taking ProVigil and I got like, whoa, why are you taking that? And a lot of our conversations were around like him getting off of that because a lot of people use that. It's an upper. So it changes like moods. It changes. It makes you like really ramped up. So it's like people who take Adderall and make you as a totally different person.

If you don't have like a sleep disorder, ProVigil is like taking Adderall when you don't have ADHD. You know, it changes the chemical imbalances. And if you don't have any imbalances, it's just going to make you kind of up and crazy and get a lot accomplished. But it makes you rant and do a whole bunch of other stuff. So it changes your personality. So for that, I was like, dude, you need to get off of this. And we would talk about it all the time. But he would be up late at night.

and saying he was like, "Need this refill," whatever. But late at night, he would like send me pictures. And it was at the time, I wanna say it was like near December. It was like at the time where I was really busy and he would ask me to come down and see him.

Like, hey, can you drag down tonight? And I never knew why it was always, like, had to be on his timeline. But it makes sense now because, obviously, he had a really strict timeline with you. So it was always, like, on his. And he would, like, get mad at me for, like, not wanting to have, like, sexting conversations. Wow. Yeah. And he would sit out on, like, have you been to his place in San Francisco? Oh, yeah.

This is so gross, Sarah. I don't even want to tell you this stuff because he's so nasty. And now looking at pictures of him, I'm like, ew, you're so unattractive. But he would, like, send me, like, naked pics of him in his hammock, like, laying there in the morning drinking his coffee, like, butt naked. Wow. Wow. Okay, I'm floored because, like, real talk, just being honest, he wasn't, like, that wasn't a part of our relationship.

And he we didn't like there was no sexting. He was very like he kept it pretty conservative. He never sent me nudes. So but, you know, what's weird is I knew that there was a streak because of jokes that he would make about other people. And I thought, you know, there's some perversion in there. But I didn't that I did that in me to like way later because it started to come out way later.

But for some reason, he really kept it under lock and key. I'm also freaking out while you're telling me about the provigil and how it's an upper and how it alters personalities. I'm remembering times when he would be texting me randomly and it would be like, all of a sudden it'd be crazy. It was like crazy. I would just get a hundred texts, literally one after the other, after the other.

And it was just like, woohoo, and a bunch of, there were like different versions of him. And I'd be like, okay, we are on a, you know, we're in a good mood today. Right, yeah. And I mean, I don't want to contribute all that to the drug, but I want to say like that drug, I know people who take that, it's a very hard drug to get into.

And he was getting it, and this is what he said. So, Tate, that was a grain of salt. But he said he was getting it from, like, some doctor friend that he knew in, like, Jamaica or some weird island. Yeah.

Can you ever say anything about that? No. The makeup. That's the first I've ever heard of that, honestly. Yeah. He said he like with, he's had this vacation where he knew like this doctor who worked in a different, I mean, obviously a different country somewhere. I don't know where, I don't remember where he said, but that's where he was getting the drug. And so it was like, okay, really hard drug to get. So at the time I was like, so,

So you have a doctor friend who's prescribing you ProVigil. I mean, nothing he said really made sense, but I never really questioned a lot of it. And I don't know if it was just because it was like nuts or just because I didn't care. Well, he told me he'd never been out of the country, but he told you he'd been on like a vacation or something. Yeah.

So he would get mad like when I would not respond or like send him something back. And it was just like this. I would just stop talking to him for days when he would send something like that and just get pissed. I just couldn't care because I'm like, it's this random guy that I'm seeing. It wasn't serious. So that's why a lot of this stuff was neither here nor there for me. But yeah.

Yeah, so he would send pics and stuff like that. And it kind of shocked me when it first started happening because he seemed very emotionally unattached to me, but yet was wanting to get, like, the physical feel of it. That's what it felt like. And that's why I kind of distanced myself because a combination of felt like I was being used in a sense, slash...

I was, you know, he was weird about all this religion stuff. And to put your mind at ease, nothing physical ever happened between us, ever. So it wasn't that I think, I think maybe it's not maybe it felt as though that was where the relationship was going. But I think once he realized, hey, it's not going to go there, and obviously he's

engaged in or dating seriously and, like, is trying to plan a life with someone, for him it was probably, like, too much work and tried to, you know, too much upkeep for him. So when he sent you that message, were you clearly, like, what planet are you on? Yeah. Well, yeah. At that point, I knew...

At that point, everything was done in my mind. At that point, I knew he was seeing somebody else. I knew he was lying to me. Everything came together in one big, beautiful package where it was like, I know who he is. I know what he was doing.

I don't want any part of it. Get it out of my sight. So at that point, that's where I was like, he wouldn't answer it. And that's the thing. And he still wouldn't. A year later, September, December, he still wouldn't answer it. Still can't tell me why his engagement didn't work or why when he dated you or when he got engaged. He could not or would not answer any of it ever. It was just...

very back to, oh, you got the timeline wrong. It was always something about my timeline. Oh, it's not how it worked out. But it would never go into detail. And that was it. I never knew, too, that he, until listening to the podcast, that he was engaged before you. So...

He's obviously got tons of issues. He's a predator that targets very specific girls because we all have very, very distinct similarities in our lifestyle and our beliefs. The type of churches we attend, our activities, our ambitions. Like, it's creepy. If you look at, like, photos of all of us together, it's trippy.

We all have very similar looks about us. Our families are similar. It's insane. Well, after listening to the podcast, I have a history of mental health and my master's, and I never – it was kind of exactly like your podcast said. It's one of those guys that has these personality disorders, and they crave –

control and dominant and it's I don't know it's pretty disgusting another fun fact though I remember on one of our dates I wanted to take a picture and he would not let me take a picture and I was like I'm not going to post it or anything and he never wanted me to have like a picture of him which he was nude in the hammock right and so I'm like looking back and I'm like okay so he didn't want me to post it but

He probably knew I wouldn't post a nude photo of him on Instagram, right? No. Right. Just, like, kind of the things. He knew how to work the system, obviously. And even, like, how you said he paid for everything. It was the same type of deal. Like, when he would go out with my friends, Sarah and I, he would pay for everything. So he had these very same moves, you know? He did the same thing over and over. Right.

Looking back, I don't know why he would even venture out with me. Like, why waste the time? That's how I look at it. Not for me, but just for him. Purposeful selfishness of him. Like, why would he want to waste his time, you know, when he has...

you and he was getting everything he wanted in that direction and for me it made me feel bad because I was just you know I'm like man I felt like he was using me at the very end for like the physical aspect and now looking back I kind of feel like that's what it was and so when I got that feeling I

in the beginning of like that relationship when he started sending me those pictures, that's kind of a red flag, obviously. And it should be for any, you know, self-respecting female that if you're not in a committed relationship with somebody or you're a groggy female, having a guy send and ask for that stuff is, it's a red flag or it is me. And it's intentions and everything are not going in the same direction as one would hope. And so at that point,

I was like, dang. So he was trying to get something else from me. And when I wasn't giving that to him, it ended. Yeah. So which now I look back and I'm like, well, it was a good thing for me because that's not, you know, obviously it's not what I wanted. And it's a good thing. I mean, obviously for you, clearly. We all dodged a bullet. I mean. Yeah. Yeah. I did decide to reach out after finding this out yesterday. I just, I don't know why I needed one final little thing just to kind of dehumanize him for me.

But I realized, okay, I just kind of flipped the switch from very, very broken human to predatory robot. And now I need to warn his current girlfriend. And after that, I'm obviously not going to bug her. But I just, I need to know that I...

Oh, yeah. He took her to London last month. Oh, my gosh. They've been together since at least, so on the anniversary of our engagement, which is January 20th, he posted in his stories that they were together. So they had been together for a little while. I mean, I'm guessing they were already saying I love you, but with him, I mean, he'll do that three weeks in. When? Because he was asking to come see me in September. Oh, my gosh.

Well, I'm going to guess, this is seriously just a guess, that he met this girl around November, December. I mean, it could have been earlier. It could have been later. But on January 20th, they were saying, I love you. So...

Who knows? Who knows? Yeah. So what was weird is when Lindsay reached out to me Friday evening, yeah, and she was like, hey, you're following this dude. And I was like, first of all, I was shocked. I'm like, I am. I'm still following him. I didn't know that. So I, like, went to his page, right, like, saw his page. And then Saturday after listening to the podcast, I went back, and I'm blocked from both of his Instagrams now. What? Yeah.

Yeah. Saturday. Oh, did you might be stalking? No, we're following each other now. I will bet. I mean, I know for sure that he's watching my public Instagram. So he probably saw that we're following each other now. Probably. He's doing his thing. He's so,

so stupid, but he's so smart. And that's the crazy thing with these guys is that personality, that character type, they're very manipulative and deceptive and they're good at their game. But eventually they find someone who

works with their sickness. And that may be the girl he's with and it may not be. It may be a girl 10 years later. But that's what I found out. And you see the same pattern. It goes to show how good he is at what he does because even with you, even though you saw the red flags and eventually were like, you know, goodbye,

I mean, with your background and experience and understanding of psychology, he still was able to keep conversation with you. He still was able to get some of your time. That's how they work. Those guys are the greatest at that.

I mean, they excel with people and getting what they want and being able to, you know, manipulate the situation. And, I mean, it makes sense that he's already on to the next. He has to constantly, like, he has to constantly be conquering and be in charge. And I just, like, I keep seeing, like, Crow Vigil. I know he's, like, on some type of stimulant that just, like, keeps him going. There's just, like, no way.

a normal human can function like that as he goes. And I can tell you, he doesn't have sleep issues. I mean, he would conk out like no problem, but he's taking the uppers because he, he needs the constant stimulation. Yeah. And I, what I, I mean, I'm,

convinced that there's a good chance he's probably seeing a couple people right now while he's flying this other girl to London because he just is insatiable. He can't be satisfied. Totally. I agree. It's a good thing you reached out to the girl, but at the same time,

That's all you can do, right? Like you can't make her see, you can't make anybody see anything, especially when they're in it. It's so very hard. Oh, I know. I'm curious what his issues were he found with your church because every person we've talked to that stated him has mentioned that he has had issues with their church or their pastor. And I haven't really heard why.

Yeah, well, for our conversations, we're always centered around, and this matches perfectly with who he is, was that the man is in charge, right? Like the woman is to be like submissive to the man in the sense that like he runs the household and in the church setting and the church is very important.

So it's to be protective and conservative and women kind of take the back seat in a church. And that their say is not that it's not important, but it's not to be,

announced in like the church setting and that women should not be leading the church or speaking or have any type of authority or power in a church setting which okay what are we in the stone ages but what's very interesting is that on dating sites and other people that you meet when you start to get into like the oh what religion are you or oh what do you believe and there's always this one type of guy who

who is very conservative, but in this weird, ancient, biblical way where they take everything from the Bible word for word and make it their own. It's like they create their own Bible. They take it out of context. And I remember telling him, like, that is not what the Bible says. The Bible does not say women have no voice in the church and all this other stuff. And we would, you know, we would fight about it. And then,

I remember saying, oh, so we should stone our children. You know, that's what the Bible said, right? So when you have a child, you're going to stone your child when they like, you know, back talk you or something. And I remember for the first time, he had nothing to say about that. And he was, he tried crawling over it in different ways.

areas but could never come back to that. It was the only issue he ever had. It was always centered around authority. It really wasn't the church and it really wasn't the Bible and it really wasn't anything else besides he really believed that the man had the authority and

in every sense of the word. And so anything that challenged that power or authority. And I think when it came in the church sense, because I remember on our first date, he had told me about like his upbringing and all these different things that had like led him to Christianity and like,

believe the things he believes but it sounded kind of messed up like it sounded like he had a like a rough childhood which leads people into religion which leads them into having some like very strict weird views and that's kind of how he always seemed it was anything that had anything to do with authority was not good which matches him perfectly right he has issues obviously with

women in authority. And so that was always his issue with me. And he didn't want me reading books like Joyce Meyer or anything that any type of female was relating God or the Bible or anything on a religion basis. He did not want me to read it and would tell me other books to read and would tell me other pastors to watch. It was as long as I didn't read or believe

what a female was saying. Same. He had me, I got rid of so many books that were in my

my room and he would replace them. He would give me other ones. It felt, it felt very oppressive. Yeah. One of the arguments, one of the arguments that we got in, you would always quote that scripture. I think it's in Corinthians where Paul says that women shouldn't speak in a church. And I argued back cause I, I went to Bible school and I said, Hey, FYI, if you look at the context of that, women also didn't know how to read back then. So it,

it would make sense that Paul would say women might not want to be teaching in the church because they can't read, you know, in general in that culture, women weren't taught to read. But otherwise that was never repeated. That wasn't, you know, a

If you look at the cultural context of it, women can't teach what they're not reading. They're not speaking because they can't read and properly teach. But Jesus gave women the first of everything. Women were the first to see him after he was resurrected. Women were approached first. Women were given a high position. And he would always divert the conversation. Somehow I find this...

talking about something else all of a sudden and be like, oh, I guess we're over here now. That's over. No big deal. I'm all worked up and he's looking at me like, you know, oh, why are you so upset? You know, calm down. Right. Yes. That was the same for sure. It was exactly like that, which I think ultimately is why he pays for things and does these things because he's in control. Once he pays, he's in control. Then it's what can you give him to make up for

the great blessings he has bestowed on your life by whining and dining you and doing these trips. You must now give me everything that I need and meet my needs because I have done all this for you. And he's always had a problem with authority, which is funny, even

Even growing up, I mean, there were arrests. And then I would hear stories of the church that he went to in San Francisco. He talked about how he got asked to leave a small group. And he was telling me some story. Well, what's funny is the leader of the small group he was in happened to be a woman. And she contacted the pastor or someone in a pastoral role in their church complaining about him. He was so dismissive of it. And I just kind of let it go. But he constantly had authority problems. Oh, that's going to...

That's going to carry with him. I really appreciate you taking the time out of your busy schedule to talk to us. Oh, gosh. Yeah. Being such a good sport and all of this craziness, because I'm sure you were like, wait, who? I know. Yeah. I mean, it was just kind of funny and a weird thing, but it also puts my mind at ease.

to ease not only do I have like the discernment in dating but also just it solidified some of the things like you were saying so like okay it makes a little bit of sense now now you don't have any questions lingering and you know all jokes aside it didn't affect me like it at

you. I just can't imagine what you're going through and what you went through. It has to be horrible. So I feel so bad for you. I'm also super thankful that you're out of it and like can see from it and it

It's just going to make you like stronger and better able when you're out back dating, you know, to really be aware of what you want and what you don't want. I'm just very thankful for what I was spared from. It's not like, you know, I'm so highly aware that there are women out there listening to this that didn't get out.

that are either still in it or now they're left with, you know, picking up the pieces and in debt. And I mean, who knows how much debt he's actually in all that stuff. And I'm just, I'm, I have this huge, or I just, I get the gravity of what I was spared from. And just to be allowed to glimpse, you know, to have like a nine month glimpse into that was all I needed. I mean, yesterday was super up and down, but I, I spent some time kind of alone last night processing everything. And today is completely different. But at first it was just,

really of all the crap that he pulled and everything, like why is this all of a sudden sending me into like a hatred tailspin just to know that I was on top of everything cheated on the whole time. But it makes perfect sense. And other people that have been in it are like, yeah, what'd you expect? I just did my last rotation was at the involuntary psych ward. And so we just worked with all the, you know, but the main thing with all of them was,

is that they're obsessed with religion. And so after listening to the podcast, I'm like, yeah, this makes perfect sense. And it's not like a religion in the sense that we follow a religion, but as in it's all, they're the God, it's all high and mighty. All they do is talk about religion and the Bible. And even though some of the stuff that they say is true, they twist everything completely.

And it's just really funny to make that connection because we talk about it all the time is when you're on the floor with them, all these guys will do is just talk about religion, how they're better than God and they have it figured out. And, you know, it's like these guys are the actual ones that have killed people and their moms and their sisters and everything.

the women that they date or some girl with blonde hair who pissed them off in the supermarket, you know, there's no connection and they have no type of empathy and they have the same type of, it's like the same patterns, like the religion, the control, the bad childhood, it's the same exact thing.

You know, unfortunately for him, he falls pretty close in line with all of that. So if anything, we'll just pray for him. And for future targets. Yeah. Yeah, he needs to for sure get on some meds and not like co-vigil meds, but...

And it distracts them. They do that because they take the drugs because it distracts them from being so down and dealing with all the other repressed stuff. And so they take these things to escape, which makes them into this whole new thing. And we got to see it play out. Lucky us.

it's interesting that you had a previous marriage that sort of allowed you to see through it because one of the other girls that we spoke with that dated him before Sarah also had had a previous abusive relationship. So she was also able to see it more clearly, more quickly because having known the signs and things like that. And I just think it's such a testament to the purpose of the podcast that we're trying to achieve, which is hopefully if enough people are educated with these signs and

and see them even though they seem mundane or they might seem simple. We know from speaking with so many survivors, it's all the same. It just looks different.

It's packaged different and delivered different, but it's all the same. So the fact that you're saying that about where you work is just really confirming for me. Yeah. The first thing I tell people is if you feel something is wrong in your gut, something is wrong. And don't let anything or anyone tell you anything different. Once you feel that for yourself,

Run because they're yeah, and I think the hardest part is in dating and all these insecurities and these guys all this stuff that comes together in perfect harmony, it's hard to Trust yourself because you know really yes They're good and we can't we don't we're not going to find that perfect guy and so we start to go back and forth of all right, I'll you know we'll compensate in this area and we'll compromise here and

And you just don't listen to those internal triggers. And if I would have listened to mine years ago, I wouldn't have gone through everything I went through. I was able to get out, able to get out safe and alive and went through years of recovery and

Because of what I went through. And, you know, I look back and it's not like, oh, I feel so bad that I didn't listen. But now I'm thankful because I have that. Everyone has that same thing who's been in relationships and who has gotten out. They say, I knew something was wrong. I felt it at some point. And everyone has that.

And that's where it is. And that's that, that's that same word. Like if I could tell anyone and I've told some other, I was in a support group after for a while because what I was in was really bad. And I thought that I had, I was a Christian and you make, you know, commitments and you compromise and you see the person for the better.

And then it just gets so far into it that it becomes normal. Yeah. And it's like once you get into that point, it's like, man, you're doomed. It's going to take a lot. That's why all these people don't leave, right? The abusers keep, the views keep going back to the abuser. So it's like listen to that gut feeling. That gut feeling is there for a reason and you never question it. Just get out. Yeah. Yeah. The gift of fear. Right. Yeah.

Thank you so much. It was really nice talking to you. I'm sorry it was under such weird circumstances. No, not at all, yeah. Sarah, do you feel better? Oh, yeah. Good. No, it was very helpful. It really, yeah. I can't imagine, like, anything else I would want to know because I'm, you know, moving on with life at this point. I'm moving back home to Cali in three months, so try not to date the same guys off of Hinge when I get up there, okay? Yeah, okay. Maybe I'll send you a message and be like, hey, how did I talk to you? Or it might be a good idea. Yeah.

Double screaming process. I was going to say we can vet them out. Seriously. Well, you guys have a great day and feel free to call or text anytime. Thank you so much. Good luck with all your exams. Thank you. Yes. All right. Have a good one. Bye. Bye.

As I've shared before, the outpouring of love, encouragement, and bravery of our listeners has been incredibly moving and inspiring. I'm so excited to share that the next season of this podcast will share survivor stories of all kinds. Emotional abuse and coercive control happens in many different environments, cultures, religions, and relationships. And the next season will expose these insidious toxic relationships and

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So grab your weird podcast friend and join us at B Street Theater in Midtown Sacramento on Saturday, August 24th from 7 to 9 p.m. Head to somethingwaswrong.com slash events. I'm also extremely honored to share that on April 26th, Something Was Wrong won Podcast of the Year at the Iris Awards.

The Iris Awards are an annual recognition of individual achievements, collective creativity, and impactful work on the internet. I was incredibly shocked and amazed that my little self-produced podcast was nominated alongside other incredibly talented podcasters, including big names like Dax Shepard and Jen Hatmaker. Like, what is life?

I wanted to take this opportunity to thank all of you that nominated and voted for Something Was Wrong. We couldn't have won without you. Here's a clip of my outer body experience of a speech. I did my best to edit out all of the swearing, but as you may have noticed this far into the podcast, I become a bit filterless during times of excitement.

Turns out, when you're convinced you're going to lose and you skip dinner and then drink five glasses of Cupcake Vineyard sparkling wine, you can get a little F-wordy. And the winner of the Iris Award for Podcast of the Year is Tiffany Reese, Something Was Wrong. Did I beat them?

Holy, I'm so sorry. I was not gonna scream. I was like be a professional Tiffany. Oh my god What was I thinking that would never happen? Oh my god I really want to thank my husband Michael who literally rescued me from my life and started a new one with me It's the best I could ever ask for and for my kids who

put up with me ignoring them on Sundays so I could edit this podcast. And I'm going to keep buying you guilt donuts, and I hope you're fine with that, and one day you'll forgive me for those six months where I was just, like, dead on Sundays, and you had to rely on your dad, and we know what that means. Okay, I want to thank... Is there going to be, like, a band that plays? Okay, okay. I want to thank...

I want to thank Sarah that the podcast is about. She's amazing and she inspires me every day to share more about myself and my friend Alyssa who introduced us and cheered me on and hell yeah for that friend who is in your group text that is pumping you up every day.

You are the best kind of women and those are the people I want to be friends with. So if you're like that, come find me. We'll be best friends. Okay. Oh my God. I want to thank Jill Krause for contacting me and believing me before an episode was even out and was like, I believe in you and I want to support this project. And thank you to Liz Porter who's also here.

for sponsoring the podcast and just being such an amazing support system. The reason I wanted to tell this story is that one in three high school girls in the United States experience either physical or sexual violence, or both. And emotional abuse is even more common and difficult to measure. Women ages 18 to 24 experience the highest rates of intimate partner violence and psychological abuse.

I just wrote a note to myself, you are okay at the bottom of this note card. Oh my God, I'm up here so long, I'm so sorry. I took 10 years to get here though, so like, you're fine. Okay, okay, you guys, 11 months ago, I just, life was not good. 2018 was a b****** and Mercury was in retrograde like so many times, it was insane. And I fell into the deepest depression and I thought I was a failure and I thought, I literally said to my husband, what if...

uh what if i never feel successful again well you imposter syndrome because i have a trophy now okay and making this story help bring me back to life and i can't

be here without all of you because you are an amazing community of empowering women and I am so lucky to know each and every one of you. And if I don't know you yet, like, we're dancing, you're not even prepared for what I look like on the dance floor, first of all. Okay, okay. I want to thank, um, Laura and Carrie.

You're amazing. Thank you so much for everything you do. Thank you for validating us. And the last thing I want to say is just if you're sitting on an idea and you're thinking, I want to do that, but I don't know how, you'll figure it out. That's what YouTube is for. I didn't know anything. I just won podcast of the year off YouTube video tutorials for free, y'all. Like, you can do anything. So please do that thing and you will be here next year. So do that thing.

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Thank you.

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