S4 E7: The World is Gonna Come Together | Season Four Finale
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First of all, I just want to say I'm really sorry for the delay of this finale episode. It was definitely not my intention for it to come out a week and a couple days late. I have been, like you all, dealing with the overwhelming changes in relation to the COVID-19 crisis. My family and myself are here in California.

And we are currently sheltering in place. But the reason for the delay last week was that I was under the weather. I am fine. And I also received news of a loved one passing away. So I apologize for the delay. I hope everyone is staying safe right now, staying home if you can. And I just want to take a moment to say I love you. We're going to get through this together. I also just want to take a minute to say thank

Thank you so much to everyone who's out there fighting the good fight on the front lines, trying to keep us all safe and healthy right now. My heart goes out to everyone. I want to also give a special shout out to my husband this week who works with the homeless and has been working on the front lines to make sure that those people are still being fed and taken care of. And it's people like him who are really

heroes this week to me also brad from season three as you know he's a firefighter he's out there fighting the good fight t from season two she works at a veterinary's office she's out there fighting the good fight

Sarah's dad from season one. He's a fire chief. He's out there fighting the good fight. There's so many people that I know and love that are being impacted by this crisis right now. And I just want to say thank you to those who are helping. Obviously, this has been top of mind for myself and all of us. To be honest, it's been pretty hard to think about anything else right now. That being said, it's really been on my heart to try and

support people during this crisis in any way that I can. I'm currently working on an episode for next week featuring licensed therapist Elise Kennedy of Moving Parts Psychotherapy in Austin, Texas, and we're going to talk about the emotional impact of COVID-19 adjusting to these massive changes in

how COVID-19 may feel different for trauma survivors, and how we can ensure we're taking care of our mental health during this challenging time. We're also going to dive into how to talk to our kids and teens and parents and grandparents about the crisis in a psychologically healthy way and various other emotional aspects of keeping our mental health as it relates to crisis. And if you have any questions you'd like me to ask Elise,

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In some ways, I'm blessed to have gone through the Jonestown experience, having gone through the People's Temple experience growing up, because it's given me an ability to see a big picture. You know, I'm not so caught up in the micronisms of everything that goes on. I tend to look at the big picture of things. You know, what does this mean as a whole? And because I feel kind of what I want to go through it again. Absolutely not. You know, of course. Right. But I did.

But it's still who you are. Yes. And you can do with that and make positive change and positive impact on the world. Yes. Or you can let it kill you. And I find a lot of people that I speak to don't ever look at it from the big picture. They look at it from their own little world they're living in, not overall, like let's say as a nation or as a state. And I'll go down as far as to, because obviously because I'm a mayor, right? The city level. Absolutely. Okay. And was I...

by some of those things that I was involved with at Jonestown? Oh, absolutely. Absolutely. A lot of my...

The ways I look at society is from that brainwashing. And when I say look at society, you have to understand is growing up through that. We were raised to be as one big family. We were all brothers and sisters. The nucleus was torn down in people's temple. OK, we didn't particularly I mean, while we knew we were fathered and mothered, we knew who our fathers and mothers were.

But that aspect was taken away. And so we were taught we were all just one big family. So because of that, at least I believe because of that, I tend to look at my city as one big family. And yes, we're all going to have fights with each other just like any family members would. Okay, but I try to look at the overall health of the family and where it's going.

The worst case scenario a person can be in is being in a situation where they need help in dealing with something and nobody's helping.

They see it and they do nothing about it, which is part of the reason I feel it's part of my job to help out those people because I've been there. I know what it's like to be in a situation where, yes, what are the adults doing about this? You know, why are the adults so caught up in this? Why are they not saying to hell with this mess? I'm out of here, you know, or standing up or whatever else. Instead, no, you take your beatings and everything else and you just keep right on going because there's nothing else left to do but to keep right on going.

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Don't drink the Kool-Aid. My almost my response was, is you're telling me not to drink the Kool-Aid? Somebody who knows and has seen the results of that occurring. I have a suggestion back. Don't drink the Kool-Aid.

I always question things myself. And oftentimes I find myself at odds. I put it into the context in which it's meant under. And basically what it's meant by don't drink the Kool-Aid is don't blindly follow because others are doing it. And that's really what the term means. Back when I was first going to run for city council, there was this gentleman that said, I got a great campaign manager for you.

fantastic at doing websites all this stuff and he'll help you out right i was just like well okay well i don't have the money to pay for one he goes no no no he isn't going to charge you or which later on actually all three of us became great friends but anyway so we're first walking around this first time i met him right and he didn't know of my jonestown background okay so he's um and and he made several references to the gentleman about not drinking the kool-aid

Okay. And he's like, shh, don't say that. Don't say that. Right. And he's kind of like, eh. Right. And the guy's like, why? You know, they're kind of like talking in low tones. He goes, because he was there. He's like, shut up. No, he wasn't. He goes, yes, he was. Right. And they're having this little debate if I was or wasn't. Right. And I'm hearing this whole thing. Now, I got a pretty twisted personality. Yeah.

Okay, you know, I pick up on those things. You know, me and mine start saying, you know, how am I going to screw with them, right? Oh, yeah. Oh, yes. It's too good. Right, right. It's too big of an opportunity to pass up, right? If you have any sense of humor. So finally he turns around to me. He goes, were you in Jonestown? I go, yes, I was. And I'm in a very solemn tone, right? Because I'm going to play this. And he goes, wow. He goes, you know, I'm really sorry about the don't drink the Kool-Aid, you know, comments I was making.

I let my voice crackle a little bit. I'm like, you should be. I go, you have no idea the memories that conjures with me. It starts causing me to have flashbacks. Man, I'm so sorry. I'm just like, I don't even know how to respond to that now. Maybe I should just go home and just get away from it. He goes, I'm really sorry. I'm like, okay.

you know i really got this guy hook line and sinker that i'm really just like tore up over this right you know and and i try to go dude really really that's just the same that's all it is have you ever been about it no never never not even once i think one of the biggest questions that really keeps popping up from time to time is why did i survive yeah why me yeah

You know, you know, because, you know, you watch these movies and everything else, you know, where it's like somebody is saved from something because they have another purpose to fulfill in their life. Right. And so you tend to ask yourself that question. Is there some other purpose I'm supposed to be fulfilling? Am I fulfilling that purpose?

Am I missing that purpose and I should be fulfilling something? Those kind of questions go through your mind. And I think that's natural. It's like being in a bus accident and 32 people are killed. You're the 33rd person on the bus and you're the one who walked out. And you have to ask, why did I survive that? These questions are going to be natural for you to ask yourself. It's just, what are you going to do with it when asking? Connie now, she's my wife, but we've never been really married for 20 years.

We went to a dance and she was there and I went and asked her to dance and she kissed me on my first turn around the floor. She took me home and I never left. Sounds like my kind of girl. She likes to dance and she knows what she wants. She was pretty wily. I mean, she took me in and showed me the world. But now they take care of me like I was a wandering child, you know. What's that like? I mean...

They take my arm to cross the street and all this, but I know I'm getting more wobbly all the time. He fought a long time about coming to live with us because he felt much like I'm sure most elderly feel when they're getting up in years, that if I go stay with my kids, they're going to control my life. And so I told him, I said, no, Dad, what you're going to find out, you're going to be more on your own at the house than being concerned about we're going to try to control something you do.

You know what? Let's face it. How many more years in life does he have than me? Who am I to sit here and tell him what he should or should not do? And all of that, but he's gone through how many more years of life than I have? For so far as I'm concerned, if he says, you know what? I think I'm going to go climb up Mount Everest this year. And in my mind, I'll be saying, you're crazier than a hoot owl, right? But I'll be just looking at him and going,

Okay. Well, you have fun doing that. Scared to death if he did of him? Sure I would. Try to stop him? Not a chance in hell. Do you feel like as a parent that was hard for you to sort of find that balance? Between control and not control? Yeah. My biggest concern with my children growing up wasn't so much control as it was education.

I am a lecturer. You think about this. You think about that. You think about if you do that, how is this possibly going to show up? What are the different ways that this could turn out for you? And that is what I looked at as my role as a parent was to teach them about decision making. And yes, of course, when they're little kids, no, you're going to control everything they do because you don't want them running on the street and getting hit by a car.

But let's say they go to pick up a dog poop, right? Like they're going to bite it, right? Sure. Whoa, whoa, whoa, wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute. Before you bite that, understand that is dog poop. And it's going to have a god-awful taste in your mouth. You may want to smell it first before you taste it, right? And it looks like just, no, I'm going to taste it. All right, go ahead.

Enjoy. Yes. And then they taste it and he said, now, how was that? It's like, uh-huh. That's like your most famous line. All right, go ahead. Yes. You know, as long as it's not going to be something that's going to hurt them, I'll be like, you know, because most of us learn from experience, right? First-hand experience.

you have to let them experience some things that aren't going to kill them. Now, not say that they might not get a minor injury, like they might fall down that hill, but they'll be fine, right? I told you to stop jumping on the couch or whatever, yeah. And, of course, I am the guy who says, I told you so. So when they fall down the hill, you say, now, didn't I tell you that if you climbed that hill, were you going to climb it? There's a good chance you're going to fall. And you may want to consider that. Yes. It's like, well, you fell down the hill, didn't you?

Yes. Are you going to climb that hill again? Maybe not today. But that's fine. Because now they know that there's chances you take in life. So what you try to do is to line up your decision to, how should I say, to prevent the biggest casualty to you as you go along. But you're going to do that by turning the reins loose some. What is it like to hear your dad before and now your grandpa sharing? Because it's not something you guys talk about all the time. No.

Well, it's definitely eye-opening. I definitely have a different perspective on just how I view life in general. I'm still kind of processing everything, you know? I mean, because I've been thinking about just the last interview until now, just trying to put myself in those shoes and understand what it would have been like.

Well, I've always been interested in psychology and mental illnesses and things like that. And just listening to the previous interviews that you've done, you really delve into the mindset behind the abuse and the abusers' reasons for doing things and how the victims process that whole situation.

And so for their generation, the mental breakdown of all of that, it never was really a thing for them. And so I feel like we don't really talk about how, you know, they feel about these certain things. And it's really something that I've really wanted to learn. It's something that I can hold on to. It's a little piece of history that I can pass on to my kids. And it's not like

listening to the other interviews and it's I don't really like hear the actual story if that makes sense yeah it's all cut out and because like I've been told things over the years on what happened but it's over the years so it like bits and pieces leave my mind and now I have something that I can reflect on and listen through the whole thing and know exactly what went down and just have it to remind myself

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and put you down at the same time, but then they go off with your intelligence. I think you gotta get to the point where when you're given information of where it's going, what's it doing, and how we're gonna react to it. And I think that's a very hard one to deal with, but I think that we need to work on that more than anything else.

And like I say, I consider Jonestown a lesson in life. My massage therapy was a lesson in life. I milked cows. That was a lesson in life. I was a pole climber. That was a lesson in life. I mean, I've been there. I've done that. And I'm satisfied with my life because I feel that

A lot of people don't get the opportunities I got, probably because of my not seeing things like other people see, but it's working through all of these experiences. That was Jonestown. Now this is a new life. I mean, anybody that dwells on sad things

never progresses. They keep living in the negative, negative. And I'm known that some of the people have been down there that they couldn't get out of. I considered learning, and I know it helped me in my work because I was able to understand people better because of Jones, the way he put everything. And so I think it's a plus. We're going through a state of progress.

And I think we're going to, I think the world's going to come together. And I think all of my kids and grandkids and all that are going to be a part of this. But the world is in a stage right now to where we're accepting more than we used to. Because if you, like with my parents and their parents, they had definite thoughts that weren't broken.

And now they broke that all down and we're accepting and we're producing more in that direction of world peace. That's what I really expect out of all this. I do have hopes for that. I love that you can still believe that. Yeah, because if you watch that kind of line of thinking, you'll find yourself thinking it.

And I really do. I think that we're finally got through shooting each other and beating each other up, that, hey, that hurts. Is there anything else that you would share with listeners? Well, actually, there's two things. The first one is sort of a disclaimer, okay? Okay.

Because one of the things that you have to understand is that you, on this topic, particularly with Jonestown, you will hear a lot of different survivors. Once you actually survived Jonestown, some that just survived being in the church that never went down there, who all have their own stories to tell. You will hear a lot of variations to every story and even conflicting stories. But they all have a common foundation to them.

So when you hear each of us speak, you have to understand this was our personal experience as individuals within the group. And because of that, it's important to understand that in listening to all the different ones, you'll get a fuller and broader story of overall how an organization like this was handled. And ultimately, I realized in hearing these stories, it's a sort of entertainment to it. It has entertainment value to it.

It's natural. It's part of our makeup. Right. You know, you see that dead animal in the path. You say, oh my God, what killed it? You know, it's a survival thing into itself reaction to it. So you're drawn towards this. But if you don't listen to the key factors that were involved in what drove people to these types of groups and understand that you are right now part of a society that

That is very much like it was in the 60s. And can easily get pulled into that type of organization. Without even realizing it. Unless you understand that once they start telling you. How you're going to behave. Whom you're going to talk to. How you're going to react. And how you're going to maintain an isolation within the group. When you start having those things thrown at you. Know that you're now in a cult. And to get out. Because if you can't take that from this organization.

Then all you got from this was a source of entertainment. And really what it is, it's us telling the story to try to keep others from falling into that same catastrophe. And as most people know, Jonestown was not the first nor the only whoever killed its membership. Open your mind, understand, and when you tell yourself it can't happen to you, it's too easy to prove it can't.

Oh, one last word? Yeah. Don't drink the Kool-Aid. You think you know me, you don't know me well at all. You think you know me, you don't know me well.

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