#344: “Lovely Bones” Author Is Sorry For Sending Wrong Guy To Jail For 16 Years After Writing a Book About Him
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她想呕吐。她想作呕。她再也受不了了。她关上电脑，望向窗外。这一切显然让她感到不对劲。

凯伦被雇来为著名作家爱丽丝·西博尔德撰写剧本，她是《可爱的骨头》的作者。我不知道你们是否看过这部电影。《可爱的骨头》是一部巨大的国际商业成功。它所基于的书籍也是如此。那本书迅速成为那个时期销售最快的小说之一。而且它是一本好书。

凯伦被请来改编爱丽丝的另一部书。所以《可爱的骨头》已经是一部电影，但爱丽丝还有一本叫《幸运》的书。这是一本回忆录，意味着这本书实际上是真实的。这实际上是关于爱丽丝的真实生活。它是事实。

凯伦负责将这本书改编成电影，一个戏剧化的版本。通常，这个过程非常漫长。而且这部电影不成功的风险相当高。但对于这一部，根本没有风险。我们说的是爱丽丝·西博尔德。我们说的是《可爱的骨头》的创作者。当然，它会成功。这是凯伦的梦想工作。那么，为什么每次她打开这本书时，她都想呕吐呢？她想作呕，对吧？

也许是因为这本书是基于爱丽丝在大学时遭受的绝对残酷的袭击的真实故事。我的意思是，一个陌生人把她拖到校园附近的隧道里，袭击了她，暴力殴打她，然后离开。但也许还有其他原因。因此，就电影选角而言，凯伦必须找到一群黑人男性演员，让他们试镜扮演袭击者，而在试镜期间，他们必须假装袭击某人。

这让凯伦感到非常不舒服。这是2021年，很明显这些演员根本不想在这里。他们中的大多数人是被他们的经纪人欺骗来试镜的。另一半人则觉得，好的，现在我陷入困境，因为我真的需要钱。我需要支付账单。但一旦这部电影上映，社会就会毁灭。我是说，演员会因为这种表现而被自己的社区抛弃。但工作就是工作，对吧？

凯伦改编了电影，写了剧本，并将其送到导演的桌子上以获得批准。她确实调整了一些内容。她压缩了冗长的部分，但她还把袭击者改成了白人。因此，当蒂莫西，这位将看到这本书从书本变成电影的导演，开始阅读剧本时。它只需要他的批准。然后我们就可以进入制作阶段。他将其与原书进行比较。他开始感到

这并不是一种坏感觉，而是一种感觉，他下班后出去吃晚餐，脑海中不断有一种烦恼的感觉，他觉得自己忘记了什么，但他甚至不知道自己忘记了什么。他只是觉得，我就是觉得恶心。就像有什么东西在烦扰我。他会凝视着远方，思考生活。当蒂莫西再也忍受不了时，他给丹，一个私人侦探打电话。他说，嘿，丹，你能帮我查一下吗？

或者查一个人。爱丽丝·西博尔德。是的，就是那位著名的作家，写《可爱的骨头》的那位。我只是觉得有些事情不太对劲。我觉得她在撒谎。我们要感谢今天的赞助商，他们使Rotten Mango能够支持无辜项目。他们的使命是为那些被错误定罪的囚犯平反，并为刑事司法系统的改革而奋斗。他们已经工作了三十多年，以防止错误定罪并释放无辜者。

本集的合作伙伴关系也使得支持Rotten Mango日益壮大的专职研究人员和翻译团队成为可能。我们也要感谢你们，听众们，感谢你们的持续支持，因为我们致力于成为这些事业的有价值的倡导者。

今天案件的一些快速免责声明。首先，提到的袭击是简短的，但非常生动。因此，请如果这让你感到担忧，请照顾好自己。我还想提到，我认为今天的案件需要很多细微差别和关怀。这个案件中技术上有两个受害者。

他们在自己的故事中都是受害者，但一个受害者帮助创造了另一个受害者，而你认为这有多少是故意的，多少不是故意的，创造第二个受害者，我想这取决于你来决定，但我们绝不以任何方式贬低或质疑受害者的袭击故事，它确实发生了，但这几乎就是我们所知道的。

所以请记住，许多事情可以同时为真。许多人可以同时是受害者，而受害者可能会伤害其他受害者并创造新的受害者。说完这些，让我们开始吧。关于锡拉丘兹大学，校园里有传言说有一个男人在爬进大学生的窗户。但如果这真的发生在校园里的学生身上，那算不算传言呢？

一名19岁的大学生爱丽丝·西博尔德正在回家的路上，她转过一个弯。她在车里。五辆警车的警报声关闭，但灯光照亮了整条街。警察在四处走动，试图与人交谈，试图与大学生交谈，而爱丽丝只是盯着这个混乱的场景。从车里听起来几乎是静默的，就像那些电影。她开车上前，能感觉到肚子里有一种厄运的感觉。她在车里，她在车里，

她告诉当时的男朋友，哦，我的天，哦，我的天，让我出去。我得出去。所有的警察都聚集在这条街上。她有一种直觉，感觉她的室友莉拉发生了什么事。爱丽丝从车里跑出来，直奔她住的楼，两个穿制服的警察挡住了她的去路。这是犯罪现场，女士。你必须离开。我住在这里。我住在这里。莉拉怎么样？哦，我的天，拜托，你必须告诉我发生了什么。

警官们在争论是否该让开，因为从技术上讲，她确实住在这里，然后另一名警官从他们身后走上前。爱丽丝？这是克拉珀侦探，曾在爱丽丝...时帮助过她。事情怎么可能再次发生呢。爱丽丝，你在这里做什么？克拉珀侦探，我住在这里。莉拉在哪里？我很抱歉，爱丽丝。你是什么意思？她被袭击了吗？克拉珀侦探低下头，咬紧牙关。

他见证了爱丽丝经历的一切。现在，是的，在后面的卧室里，她被袭击了。你的室友被袭击了。后面的卧室？这根本不合逻辑，因为那是我的卧室。她还好吗？莉拉并不好。我是说，一切都不好。这将撕裂爱丽丝和莉拉的友谊，因为事情变得太复杂了。警方认为莉拉的被袭击是因为爱丽丝。

袭击者是通过爱丽丝未锁的窗户进入的，把莉拉拖进爱丽丝的卧室，并说，引用，我想在爱丽丝的卧室里做这件事。监狱里有很多可怕的事情。监狱帮派，主要是监狱帮派可能比他们未被监禁的同类更可怕。

监狱帮派非常危险，他们完全破坏了美国的监狱系统，但这是不可避免的。他们无法真正完全消除监狱帮派，因为这根植于人类心理。这是人类的社会行为。

每个人在进入监狱时都有一套行为规范，如果你愿意的话，可以称之为行为准则。他们遵循这些不成文的规则，规定什么是对的，什么是错的。通常，每个人的行为准则是截然不同的。因此，自然，他们会在监狱中找到志同道合的人。一旦他们找到这些志同道合的人，自然会形成等级制度。因此，根据种族、民族、宗教、犯罪行为，会有一个等级体系。

人们会找到这些团体来安顿下来。他们找到忠诚感和安全感。当人类找到一个他们喜欢的团体时，我们会做一件非常有趣的事情，那就是需要一个敌对团体。嗯。

所以这些监狱帮派，我是说，它们会发生。一些较大的帮派包括拉丁国王。当我说监狱帮派时，听起来像是，嘿嘿，我们在监狱里是朋友，我们会在监狱里做事情。大多数监狱帮派是犯罪企业，在监狱外也在运作。他们只是在监狱里有一个分部。这些大型街头帮派中的一些，其领导层设在监狱里。嗯。

拉丁国王在美国各地运作。他们在158个城市中设有分支。在芝加哥，这个帮派在芝加哥市就有超过25,000名成员。他们以必须遵循的五个要点而闻名。我不会逐一列出所有五个，但其中一些包括：你的话就是你的王冠，你的王冠就是你的国家，国王必须遵循这个话。

还有，爱是我对我的兄弟、我的王冠和我的国家所怀有的。抱歉，这是什么意思？他们心中充满了爱。好的。他们还有一种叫做BOS命令的东西。见面就打。所以...

是的，打击持续的时间不确定。你说，我对那个人下了BOS命令。你可以全力以赴，持续的时间不确定。你可以打两个小时。然后你有三分钟的身体接触。至少三名帮派成员进行三分钟的殴打。通常，这仅由两名帮派成员执行。这就像是一种纪律处分。然后你有五分钟的身体接触。五名成员进行五分钟的殴打。好的。

听起来似乎不那么糟糕，因为五分钟在整体上听起来很短。但你说的是监狱帮派成员，五个人五分钟。然后你有TOS命令。见面就杀。通常，要加入拉丁国王，你必须割伤或刺伤他们告诉你的人。

然后你有联合血统，或者在这种情况下，东海岸的血帮，东海岸的加利福尼亚血街帮的分支。他们的主要收入来源是贩卖、销售非法毒品以及许多其他事情。据说，要被接受为血帮成员，你必须被所有成员围攻。这个过程被称为回家。如果你不小心，这个过程也会把你带回你的天父那里，他们说。

他们还称之为血入血出，意味着你想加入或想离开，你就得流一些血。但即使你被围攻，即使你进入帮派，你仍然必须犯下攻击和抢劫的罪行，以证明你的忠诚和价值。他们还在纽约的监狱里出售可卡因、手术刀和阿片类药物。我不知道他们是怎么做到的。我是说，他们和监狱警卫关系密切，但这太疯狂了。然后你有亚利安兄弟会。

这些是新纳粹分子。他们被认为是一个有组织的犯罪集团，在监狱内外有20,000名成员。与其他人相比，他们的数量相对较少，与拉丁国王相比，后者在芝加哥市就有超过这个数字。但根据FBI的说法，他们负责的监狱谋杀案数量不成比例地大。我想大约四分之一。哇。

他们参与武器贩运、毒品贩运、人口贩运、斗狗。要加入亚利安兄弟会，你必须宣誓效忠。你必须宣誓效忠，并且必须愿意杀死另一名囚犯。通常，他们会有一些纳粹符号或三叶草作为纹身来识别彼此。此外，除了死亡，没有任何退出兄弟会的方式。这是一种终身承诺。你的生命取决于此。

一名亚利安兄弟会成员表示，

这不仅仅是几道干净的刺伤痕迹。这将是一次残酷的杀戮，因为这就是兄弟们处理事务的方式。兄弟的工作永远不会结束。亚利安兄弟会讽刺地会与非白人帮派合作以获取利润，因为他们在种族主义之前，技术上是一个犯罪企业。但当没有金钱利益时，他们相当种族主义。应该非常明确。他们通常不喜欢黑人，通常非常好斗。

20岁的安东尼·布罗德沃特是黑人。他走进监狱的主要聚集区，他是新来的。所以他清了清喉咙，

手里拿着一个破旧的黄色文件夹，一个马尼拉文件夹，他的第一句话的表达方式将是非常重要的。他必须看起来自信。他的声音要深沉而有力，但听起来不能自负或威胁，像是在挑战任何人。但他也不能看起来太自信或不自信。必须完美地处于中间。你不能与人保持太长时间的眼神接触，因为那意味着你想打架。但如果你一直看着地板，如果你不断环顾四周，那意味着你紧张。这意味着你软弱。这意味着你在隐藏什么。所以他会站在监狱的中央，声音加深到足以指挥暴力罪犯的房间，他会宣布，谁是拉丁国王的头目？谁是血帮的头目？谁是亚利安兄弟会的头目？

我需要谈谈。所有三个团体？所有三个团体。他会召集每个监狱帮派的头目，无论是敌对的还是非敌对的，然后把他的马尼拉文件夹递给他们。他们需要阅读它。安东尼在17岁时加入了海军，他说他只是想让世界变得更好，让自己变得更好。他从海军光荣退役的唯一原因是照顾他父亲，他的父亲被诊断出患有胃癌。

他本该照顾父亲，但他却在监狱里，坐在这个牢房里，紧张而焦虑地等待他们读完他马尼拉文件夹里的所有内容。他的袜子里藏着用金枪鱼罐制成的临时武器。他必须随时保持警觉，准备好。即将决定他的命运。监狱帮派将决定他是否活着或死去。

因为在这个监狱等级中，安东尼处于最底层。他是一名被定罪的性犯罪者。他是一名黑人，强奸了一名18岁的白人大学生。而那名女性即将成为一位世界著名的作家，写关于他的故事。苏茜·萨尔蒙在14岁时访问了邻居的家。

他把她拖进这个秘密的地下窝点，强奸了她，然后杀了她。等一下，等一下，苏茜？等一下，什么？哦，是的。有个女孩叫苏茜。苏茜·萨尔蒙在14岁时访问了邻居的家。哦，邻居把她拖进去了？是的，邻居把苏茜拖进他的地下窝点，强奸了她，杀了她，肢解了她的身体，然后把她的遗体扔进玉米地。苏茜死了，但她并不是真的死。

她处于一种奇怪的梦幻般的来世中，观察每个人对她死亡的反应。每个人都崩溃了。她的父亲专注于寻求正义。他就像一只在树上吠叫的狗，但总是找错树。她的母亲痛苦不堪，以至于开始与调查苏茜谋杀案的首席侦探发生婚外情。苏茜的妹妹对邻居产生了怀疑，闯入他的家中寻找一切。

证据中还有一些其他的支线任务，苏茜在观看她的暗恋对象与她的好朋友亲密接触，某种程度上她占有了她好朋友的身体，感受与她的暗恋对象亲密接触的感觉，然后她找到了内心的平静。

无论如何，她关注着每个人并获得了闭环。她得到了正义，她的杀手死了。她的杀手死了，实际上被送到了苏茜那里，她对他进行了指责，目睹他被拖入永恒的诅咒。然后她终于得以解脱。仔细想想，这个故事有点诡异和失控。

但它卖出了很多本。这是爱丽丝·西博尔德的《可爱的骨头》的虚构故事。这部小说在全球售出了超过1000万本。它在《纽约时报》畅销书榜上连续超过一年，始终如一，没有中断。

彼得·杰克逊，《指环王》系列的导演，将这本书改编成电影。它在全球票房超过9400万美元。而且，请注意，这不是一部疯狂的系列电影或漫威电影。这些都是一些疯狂的数字。

这部电影和这本书的成功是一个罕见的现象。这是一个罕见的机会，这两者都在商业上成功并获得了评论界的赞誉。人们真的很喜欢它。这使得爱丽丝·西博尔德进入了文学成功和明星地位。她的财富不清楚，但仅她的房子就超过600万美元。她在最近的时间里技术上是最受欢迎的作家之一。

但到2023年，爱丽丝·西博尔德再也无法在外面遛狗。她再也无法走出家门买杂货或喝咖啡。她不得不在她那座600万美元的豪宅中完全隐匿。所有这一切都因为她在大学新生时发生的事情，当时她18岁。

18岁的爱丽丝坐在客厅的沙发上，她的整个家庭一直在期待她从大学回来，她的父母在她周围小心翼翼地走动。他们不知道该说什么。没有人想看她脖子周围的手形淤伤，或者她大腿内侧的淤伤，或者她脸上的伤口。爱丽丝的父母只是有些徘徊，等待看看她是否需要什么，她是否会说话，是否想谈论任何特别的事情。

爱丽丝看着他们，每次转头都会感到疼痛。你好吗，爸爸？他看起来非常困惑。嗯，我？我刚喝了五杯威士忌，但我从未如此清醒过。所以就这样。爱丽丝又看向天花板，她的父亲再次尝试与她交谈。呃，爱丽丝，亲爱的，你想吃点东西吗？爱丽丝想了一会儿，直截了当地说，

是的，爸爸，那很好，考虑到我在过去24小时内嘴里唯一的东西是一个饼干和一个阴茎。爱丽丝在不到24小时内在校园下的黑暗隧道中遭到袭击。这是她应对的方式。

隧道很阴森。我是说，主要是因为已经过了午夜，但也因为据说有一个女孩在隧道下被谋杀和肢解。这是锡拉丘兹大学每个人都在说的事情。这是隧道的传言。可能不是最佳的路线，但这是最快的。所以爱丽丝才在那里。隧道有这些风化的石墙。白天，它非常美观。但在晚上，感觉就像有人会伸出手来抓住你。

而那晚确实有人伸手抓住了爱丽丝。那不是墙壁。是一个男人。他从后面抓住她，她能感觉到他的呼吸在她耳边。我会杀了你，如果你尖叫。你明白吗？如果你尖叫，你就死定了。

爱丽丝点头，而她并不是说她能尖叫，他的手紧紧抓住她的嘴巴，并且他把她的手臂压在身旁，等他一放手，她就尖叫出来，他又攻击了她，他再次捂住她的嘴，踢她的膝盖后面，让她猛烈地摔倒在地，擦伤了膝盖，擦伤了脸。你不明白，贱人，我会杀了你，我有刀，我会杀了你。

他开始踢她的侧面。爱丽丝试图反击，但她所做的只是对自己造成更多伤害，而不是对那个男人。爱丽丝设法转过身，爬起来，站起来，开始向隧道更深处跑去，想要逃离他。但在她看到尽头的光之前，他抓住她的头发，把她扔回地面，告诉她，现在，你是在求饶。

他从后口袋里拿出一把刀，爱丽丝向前冲，她直接摔倒在地，眼镜摔碎了，那个男人扔掉了他的刀，看起来很生气，他开始把她的脸磨擦在砖墙上，开始窒息她，爱丽丝失去了一瞬间的意识，她醒来时再次盯着这个男人，她百分之千相信，毫无疑问，她今晚会死。她在想，哦，我的天，我今晚要死了，就这样。

她将成为第二个在这个隧道中被杀害并可能被肢解的女孩。所以那个男人强迫她。脱衣服。他强迫她吻他。与此同时，她在乞求这一切停止。她在想，我能做些什么来吸引这个男人的人性？等等，我是一个寄养儿童，我从未见过我的父母，我只想在死之前见到他们。我从未见过我的生物父母。我从未与任何人有过亲密的时刻。拜托，我还是个处女。

这是真的。她从未有过亲密关系，但他并不在乎。相反，也许这让他更加兴奋。

他袭击了她。他叫她贱人。他强迫她告诉他他是个强壮的男人，并感谢他所做的一切，并告诉他她实际上想要发生这一切。他告诉她，她是他所袭击过的最糟糕的女孩，从视觉上看。她被迫进行口交。他在她身上撒尿，然后完全强奸了她。我是说，他对她所做的事情非常生动，但这...有很多。真的有很多。这不仅仅是...

不是说这只是，但这是一种折磨。流了很多血。那里有很多伤口，需要缝合。

因为隧道靠近锡拉丘兹大学，我不知道这是否是最糟糕的部分。有些人说是。但这是爱丽丝上学的地方，她是大学新生。晚上有很多大学生在四处走动。他们都会瞥一眼隧道，听到声音，他们认为是一对年轻情侣在约会。他们中的大多数人会字面上为他们欢呼，鼓励他们度过一个愉快的夜晚，然后继续走开。什么？

当他终于结束时，爱丽丝害怕他会杀了她。我是说，这只是他计划的开始。她怎么会知道呢，对吧？但他让她穿上衣服，在她走开之前，他说，“来，吻我告别。”爱丽丝走上前，吻了他，他开始哭泣。“我很抱歉。我很抱歉。你是个好女孩。你真是个好女孩，就像你说的那样。”爱丽丝感到震惊。她不知道该如何回应，所以她只是说，“没关系，真的，没关系。”

“不，我所做的事情是不对的。你是个好女孩。我为我所做的事情感到抱歉。”爱丽丝厌恶这种感觉，但她需要感到活着。安慰自己攻击者的感觉令人作呕。“没关系，我原谅你。我可以拿我的钱包吗？还有我的书吗？”他拿走了爱丽丝身上的8美元现金，但让她拿走了她的钱包和书。“好吧，你要去哪条路？”爱丽丝指了指。“好的，保重。”

爱丽丝开始沿着隧道朝校园的方向走。她不想现在就全速奔跑，因为如果他觉得这意味着她会直接跑去找警察呢？她不想走得太慢，以便给他思考任何下一步的机会。所以她只是以适当的速度快走。就在那一秒钟后，她听到身后传来声音。嘿，女孩。爱丽丝慢慢转过身。你叫什么名字？她看着他。她不知道该说什么。她处于极度震惊中。

她只是说，爱丽丝。他微笑着。很高兴认识你，爱丽丝。再见。然后他跑开了，爱丽丝走回了校园。通过添加Cox Mobile节省Cox互联网费用，在家享受光纤供电的互联网和无与伦比的5G可靠性。因此，无论你是在家玩游戏还是参加现场活动，

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After serving a certain amount of time in prison, an inmate is typically up for parole. I mean, depending on their sentence, if they're allowed to be. But when the time is right, they go to a parole hearing where a parole board is going to decide whether or not they're going to be released early or, you know, be out on parole.

There's a lot of different factors that the parole board takes into consideration, like the severity of the offense, release plans, behavior in prison. But one of the bigger parts is remorse and accountability. You cannot be remorseful if you don't take accountability. If you don't even admit that you did something, how can you be sorry that you did it?

Anthony refused to admit that he was a rapist, that he R-worded Alice, and the parole board did not like that. They denied Anthony his first and second parole hearings because of it. Some of his inmates, they don't understand him. Just admit what you've done and get out. What's the big deal? You say a few sentences. Okay, it was me. You're right. I did it. I feel so badly about it. Just be a robot. Oh my God, I will change.

And then freedom is right there. Why on earth would you come back to prison for 12 months at a time, being a convicted sex offender, the bottom of the hierarchy, your life is in danger every second. Why don't you just say it? Just say the magic words and get out of here. It's just puzzling. Even during his arrest, Anthony did not admit to what he did. He was asked where he was the night of the attack and Anthony said, I don't remember, but I know I wasn't doing that.

In his appeal, Anthony argued, "Alice had a reduced ability to perceive objects accurately due to the fear that she felt during and after the attack. It wasn't me. The parole board was annoyed. It just was... it just felt slimy. When you do something that bad, just try to give the victim closure. Just admit it was you. It's not that hard."

Everybody knew what happened to Alice. The night of the assault, Alice didn't really know where to go, who to call or like what to do. She didn't go straight to the police. She just wanted to walk all the way back to her dorm room. She's in autopilot mode. She could vaguely string together the fact that all these people passing by her, they're pointing at her, they're whispering. She's really fucked up. Did you just see? She just walked by. She had blood.

She's way too exhausted, way too detached to even register what's going on, what they're saying, who they're even looking at. They're all looking at her. Her clothes are inside out. They're bloodied. There's smudges of dirt and leaves all over her clothes, all over her body. Her face is all cut up. There's scratches over her. There's bruises already starting to show up intensely around her neck, chest, arms, and legs. And she's walking like a zombie. She's just dazed, putting one foot in front of the other, walking back to her dorm.

I don't have my dorm key card. The assaulter had taken it along with her $8. She walked up to the student working the desk. I don't have my ID. I just want to go to my room. Oh my God, are you okay? What happened?

Alice isn't in the mood to explain everything to this stranger. I mean, I guess he quickly picks up on that because he just asks if she needs anything else and sends her up to the elevators. When she gets to her floor, she tries to open her dorm room. Locked. She knocks on the door. Mary Alice, are you in here?

Her roommate's not there. She can't get into her room, so she just starts going door to door, knocking on all the doors of the dorm room on this floor. And one of the last doors finally answered. Linda. Linda's a friend of Alice's. And her eyes are squinting and she's in the dark. What's going on? What happened? Alice walks in and Linda hops back into bed and she's rubbing her eyes. Linda, I was just R-worded and beaten in the park. Linda was silent and then she fell back into her bed and passed out.

Whether it was from shock or whether it was from the fact that she was likely blackout drunk or a combination of both, we don't know. But Alice goes back into the hallway where the RA, which is like a resident advisor, it's like a student that's in charge of the floor. He's staring directly at her. What is going on? I was already worried and beaten in the park. Will you call the police?

He rushes to call the police and Alice is rushed to the hospital. She's strapped down on this gurney and they rush her out into the hallway where now all the other students are staring down at her. They've gathered because now there's a commotion. A policeman dramatically puts out his arm, blocks the students and says very loudly with his full chest, get out the way, everyone. This girl has just been R worded.

As Alice is being gurneyed out of the dorm, she sees all the other students turning to one another like a game of telephone. One by one, they're turning to each other, parroting what they just heard, the words that they just heard and so on and so forth. And Alice hadn't even made it out the building yet. And she knew she knew that she was now only ever going to be known in this school as the girl who got R worded.

She's taken to the hospital where they have to do a rape kit. A lot of samples are taken that night, samples and clippings of hair. They need Alice to urinate after the exam so that they could give her the stitches. She saw them try to hide it, but...

It was kind of hard to miss. The entire tray was bright red. Her urine was just blood. It's likely that every part of Alice's body was aching and in some tremendous amount of pain. But like a lot of the victims, Alice went into the hospital bathroom after the exam and scrubbed herself for an hour under the scorching hot water because she just wanted to feel clean again. By the end of all of it, her towels were pink and bloodied.

When Alice gets discharged from the hospital, she's got to go back to school, pack her stuff, and then go home to her family. Both of which she's dreading this whole thing. When she goes back to the dorms, she just wants to quietly make it back to her room without anybody noticing, with people taking zero interest. Like, she doesn't want all the questions. She doesn't want the pity looks. She wants nothing. She wants to go home. She's trying to slip into her dorm as quickly as possible, but she ends up running into her friend's boyfriend, Victor.

Now, Victor is black and all their mutual friends, they start shuffling out into the hallway to see what's going to happen. And Victor's girlfriend, Alice's friend, looks at her and announces to everybody, Alice, Victor wants to hug you.

Alice said it was the last thing that she wanted to do. I mean, she said nothing against Victor, but she just didn't want to be near a man right now. And even though she knew why Victor wanted to hug her, to reset any newly forming feelings towards an entire race of people because of her attack that Alice might have, Victor wants to show her it's not all black people, which, you know, you would think is common sense. But anyway, she said that she felt the whole thing was ridiculous.

That's what she said. She said that she knew this wasn't her attacker. Why would they need to hug? She said, I'm sorry, I can't. Victor, I don't think I can. He was black, wasn't he? Victor starts crying in the middle of the hallway, telling Alice that he's so sorry. And Alice felt like she needed to hug him now, at least for the sake of him, for the sake of everybody else and how awkward it was. So she walks up to him, she hugs him, and she's just waiting, counting down the seconds for him to pull away.

It was the first man that hugged her after the assault and she hated it.

Alice said after that attack, everything changed. She said,

Except when she went to Professor Gallagher's class. Okay, it's technically a workshop, not a class, but it's hosted by the famous poet Tess Gallagher. And this is the whole reason that Alice even came back to Syracuse after the assault. Her parents begged her, just stay closer to home. We can get you into one of those like Christian universities nearby. It's safer. They have campus lockdowns. You don't have to leave the campus.

And Alice is like, mom, they don't believe in toasters. I'm not going there. I'm going to Syracuse where Tess Gallagher is going to be. Okay. So Alice goes back to Syracuse. And prior to all of this, prior to the assault, Alice considered herself a writer. That was her whole identity. But since the attack, what can she write about?

I mean, how can you write about anything when all you can think about is what happened underneath the tunnel? That's it. So when Tess Gallagher tells the class that they need to write a poem by the end of the week, Alice just goes into autopilot mode. She starts writing whatever is the first thing on her mind. And obviously it's the assault. It's the only thing that she can think about. When she's done, she absolutely fucking hated it. Hated it. But she turned it in anyway.

Tess Gallagher wanted to see her in her office, and she loved it. She requested that Alice read it out loud to the class the next day. Alice had to print out 14 copies for all the other students, pass them out one by one, and stand in front while reading it out loud. My poem is titled Conviction. She glances around and she clears her throat.

If they caught you long enough for me to see that face again, maybe I would know your name. I would stop calling you the rapist and start calling you John or Luke or Paul. I would make my hatred large and whole. If they found you, I could take those solid red balls and slice them, separately off as everyone watched. I have already planned what I would do for a pleasurable kill, a slow, soft ending.

First, I would kick hard and straight with a boot. Into you, stare while you shoot quick and lose. Contents, a bloody pink hue. Next, I would slice out your tongue. You couldn't curse or scream, only a face of pain would speak. For you, your thick ignorance threw.

Thirdly, should I hack away those sweet cow eyes with the glass blades you made me lie down on? Or should I shoot with a gun? Close into the knee where they say the cap shatters immediately. I picture you now, your fingers rubbing sleep from those live blind eyes while I rise restlessly. I need the blood of your hide on my hands. I want to kill you.

With boots and guns and glass, I want to fuck you with knives. Come to me, come to me, come die and lie beside me. By the time Alice was done reading her poem, her face and her ears were red, the tips of her fingerprints were tingling, and Tess Gallagher looked at her and told her, again,

Alice was forced to read it again. It felt like torture. And afterwards, Tess Gallagher demanded all the other students ask questions to give their input on the writing because technically it's a poetry workshop. One student, a guy, raised his hand. You don't actually feel that way, do you? Feel like what? You don't actually want to shoot him in the knees and that other stuff with the knives, right? I mean, you can't actually feel that way. Yes, I do. I want to kill him. What is there to gain by that? Revenge? Maybe you don't understand.

I guess I don't. I guess I just feel sorry for you then. The room went silent. And a week after reading her poem to the workshop, Alice was on her way to grab a snack in between classes. And it's as if the universe was giving her a response because standing in front of her on the middle of the busy street looking directly at her was her attacker.

If you stay in Times Square all day, you would probably see maybe 360,000 people walk by. And that's if you're really looking. And that's on an average day. What are the odds that without any coordination, without any planning, the attacker and the victim would meet again?

It is like the attacker had this invisible force field shooting out of him, threatening to knock Alice over. She starts feeling this crazy tightening in her chest. She could recognize this man from anywhere, even if it was just his back. She knew this man. This man changed her life five months ago. There is no forgetting him. Alice runs through the checklist in her mind. Height, posture, build. No, this is him. Like she knows it's him. She could feel it in her bones. This is the guy.

At this point, the amount of times that she was forced to think about the attack, she might have known him better than anybody else in her life.

Alice breathes, trying to rationalize. She crosses the street, trying to focus on the original task at hand, which was supposed to be snacks between classes. I mean, technically it could be anyone, right? She could be panicking. Alice walks into the store. Now, on her way here, she had been starving, but now, now her stomach feels like it's full of rocks. She just picks out a peach yogurt and a soda, and then she hurries back out onto the street, trying to forget everything. She glances both ways,

and she crosses the street, double checks the alleyway that he was originally in, and the man is gone. She releases a slow breath. Maybe she was wrong, right? Maybe her mind is playing tricks on her.

But then from the corner of her eye, she sees a flash of carrot orange. A very tall police officer is climbing out of his police car. Everyone on the street notices him because he's hard to miss. He's got this very vibrant carrot colored hair and Alice is relaxing at the sight of him. She glances at her watch. She quickens up her pace. Alice does not want to be late for class.

But all the hair on her arms shoot up in panic. Her pace doesn't slow. Instead, her breathing rate quickens because she sees him crossing the street straight for her.

Alice wants to scream, but her voice feels like it's gone. And she's just he's he's standing there smiling at her like they're classmates, like they see each other every day. Her brain is telling her to scream, to tell everybody on the street what this man did to her five months ago in the tunnel. But somehow her legs just keep moving. That's it. She's in autopilot mode. And as he gets closer, he smirks at her. Hey, don't I know you from somewhere?

Alice is having flashbacks from that moment in the tunnel. His face over hers, broken glass just digging into her back. She's laying on the cold concrete ground, his sour pee on her face. She could hear him laughing as he passes by her, but her feet just keep moving. She walks past him and it's only when she starts turning the corner that she looks back down the street and she sees that he's so relaxed.

He's so sure that she's not going to do anything. He's even casually talking and laughing and bringing up a conversation with that red-haired police officer. It's like he's teasing her, saying how he controlled every movement of hers, that the police aren't going to do anything to help her. Wait, so he asked her, do I know you from somewhere? Yeah, and then she ran off. And then he went to talk to the police. Yeah. The last line of her poem repeats in her mind. Come die and lie beside me.

Alice wants him to die. She needs it. Just like she died on that night in the tunnel. She wants him to feel her pain. So her feet start running before she knows it. She's already at the top of the hill. She's panting. She's making multiple phone calls. There are three things that she wants to do before she reports this sighting to the police. One, she needs to draw a composite sketch of her attacker with all of the details in her mind.

Two, she needs to call her parents to let them know. And three, Alice needs to go to tell her professor that she's going to be missing class. There really is no logic behind why she feels the need to do all of these things. But her plan is in order. Her professor was the most supportive in all of this. He told her, Alice, there are going to be a lot of things that happen from now on and they're not going to make sense. But try and remember everything.

So she does. She goes back to her dorm room. She's thinking red jacket, cuffed jeans, converses. That's what he was wearing. She sits on her bed and she starts drawing a composite sketch. She calls the police. I was awarded in May and I'm back on campus and I just saw my attacker. Can you please come?

As she waits, she continues on that composite sketch. She starts with his hair, how tall he is, the way he's built, his nose, eyes, mouth, everything. Her description would read, short neck, small but dense head, boxy jawline, hair slightly down in front, pretty dark but not black black. Alice would be taken to the police station. She's put into this almost storage-like room and she's asked to go through a bunch of mug shots. She's on her fourth book and the faces are blurring together. None of them look like her attacker.

But someone radios in to the officer sitting next to her. Police Clapper, the red-headed police officer that she just passed that day. Police Clapper just called in. He knows your man. Alice's head pops up and she watches as the police leave the room. They come back and they ask Alice two questions. What did the policeman you saw today look like? And where did you see his car? He has red hair and is super tall. He parked in the Huntington Hall lot. Bingo. We got our man.

Because the police officer was seen talking to him, remember? Yeah, yeah. Then Officer Clapper pops into the room. He's smiling ear to ear and he says, remember me? And everyone, the rest of the officers, they start cheering. It's like a superhero moment. People are patting Officer Clapper on the back. Officer Clapper, now all he has to do is go write a report and all that's left is the police send out a warrant to arrest.

An officer turns to Alice and tells her, we're going to get this puke. Rape is one of the worst crimes. He'll pay. Anthony Broadwater would soon be arrested for the rape of Alice Sebold, soon to be author of New York Times bestseller, The Lovely Bones.

Alice prepared for the trial like one would prepare for war. She said that she had a battle motto just written on her. Okay, it's like a mantra. That morning before getting dressed for the first day of trial, she took this dark blue ballpoint pen and wrote on her leg, you will die in blue. And she wasn't talking about herself.

Alice said that she was ready to take down her attacker. She said,

And on a mission she was. Alice said, I felt like if I was going to win, I had to hate the attorneys representing him. They may have been earning a paycheck or randomly assigned to the case, had children they loved, or a terminally ill mother to take care of. I didn't care. They were there to destroy me and I was going to fight back.

The defense attorneys for Anthony questioned Alice's ability to see clearly because her glasses were knocked off in the middle of the night. She argued, I can, in fact, see very clearly. I'm nearsighted. I just like to wear glasses during the evening because also it's cute. Like my vision is not that horrendous. I like the way the aesthetic is.

She would later say, At the scene of the crime, police found Alice's broken glasses and a knife. They also found pubic hair on Alice that did not belong to her. They were able to run a microscopic hair analysis, and it was a match to Anthony, the defendant.

Alice mistakenly did not pick him in a police lineup, but she and the assistant ADA, Gail, stated that Anthony and another individual in the lineup looked so similar to each other that they were practically identical, and the other individual was likely placed in the lineup with the sole intention of confusing Alice.

Which side note, police lineups, Alice said, are nothing like the movies. Instead of there being big rooms where you're standing comfortably, there's just a one-way mirror, glass that takes up the entirety of a wall and the lineup is done almost directly in front of you. You are separated by glass and they can't see Alice, but to Alice, it's very, very real. Her attacker is standing in front of her all over again. She said she started panicking. She didn't take the appropriate amount of time to really look at them. She just wanted to get out of there.

The assistant DA, Gail, remembers Alice was super freaked out, super panicked, asking, can they see me? Can they see me? They can see movement on the glass, but no, they can't see you. They know when someone is standing in front of them, but they don't know who it is. But Alice wondered, who else would it be? And then number five started staring her down. She said number five had this crazy expression in his eyes. It was ruthless. Even through the glass, even though he couldn't see her, the expression he was giving to her was like, if no one else was here.

Even if there was glass, he would break through it just to get to her. And that is why Alice chose number five. But when she got out, she realized it wasn't number five. It was number four. It was number four. Alice asked for their photo lineups again and she wanted to throw up. She jumped the gun. She told the police it was four, wasn't it? Four and five looked identical. Alice could tell by the look on the officer's faces. It was number four. The officers tried to sympathize with her. You are in a hurry to get out of here. I know, but it was four. Four.

That was all presented in the trial. Alice said, And a quote resonated with Alice during all of this. We are all prisoners, but some of us are in cells without windows and some with.

Alice said about the trial, I did what I was warned not to do. I focused my attention on Anthony's face. I stared at him. For a few seconds, I was unaware of the lawyers or the courtroom. I wanted my life back. During the trial, the word virgin was used nonstop so often, but Alice felt like at least, you know, she was doing something important by sitting through this, sitting through this very painful process. And the court would state that she was a good girl.

But good girls don't do heroin, typically. That's what they say. And according to Alice's parents, good girls also don't chew gum. That's reserved for waitresses and whores, according to her parents. And Alice just had a very hard time adjusting to life after the attack, after the trial. Even though her attacker was sentenced, it just...

She didn't feel like she had a good support system. Her dad was this crazy Spanish literature professor at UPenn. Her mom was not mentally stable. She would have constant panic attacks, and Alice was almost like a parent to her own mom, and she just had nobody. Instead, she just felt like the weird kid in the family. Her older sister Mary was perfect, sweet,

She was very academic. She was majoring in Arabic. And just to joke around, Alice would say, my perfect older sister is majoring in Arabic and I am majoring in the R word. One day, the whole family was at a dinner table and out of nowhere, Alice's dad even asked her, you mean he didn't have a knife in the tunnel? It was so abrupt. Everyone just kind of stopped mid fork. What do you know? I don't think I understand Alice. I thought there was a knife. She never saw the knife.</raw_text>

她说她可能能感觉到。哦，父亲在说，你是说没有刀吗？是的，他就像在问，刀在不在？到底发生了什么？你知道，刀怎么回事？爱丽丝的妈妈看起来非常不舒服，仿佛她已经和他谈过这个问题多次。亲爱的，有什么不明白的？我的意思是，如果他在你面前一直没有刀，你怎么会被R字化？我不知道你为什么不试着逃跑。

哇。

而爱丽丝觉得自己永远无法完全从袭击中走出来。但是当她被问到是否关注安东尼的案件，以及他在哪里、他的上诉和假释时，她说，绝对没有。

与此同时，安东尼试图说服假释委员会让他提前出狱。他不想为犯罪负责，而这正是他们想要的，他们需要的，但他只想出去。他争辩道，假释被拒绝。

我接受这个事实，这个定罪将永远伴随我。但假释被拒绝。在一次听证会上，假释委员会试图让他谈论犯罪，只是为了对其中一部分负责。安东尼回应说，先生，犯罪已经发生。我为此受到了惩罚。我必须与此共存。好吧，这不是我们的问题，安东尼。问题是，当被问到时你给出了什么样的回答？为什么会犯罪？你为什么要这样做？

好吧，我已经被定罪，所以我正在经历定罪的阶段。那么你还在争论自己是否犯了罪吗？假释委员会开始感到厌烦。这就像一个孩子被抓到手伸进糖罐里。承认你做了这件事，结束这一切。如果你不这样做，几乎是对他们的侮辱。你认为假释委员会是傻瓜吗？

专员提高了声音。你要么承认自己犯了罪，要么不承认。你在打圈子，谈论被定罪的事情。你犯了罪。基本上，停止这种行为。一种版本没有任何责任感，而另一种则表现出一些悔恨和责任感。假释被拒绝。

如果我被释放，我会确保我所有的时间都要负责任。以防万一，你知道，如果再次发生这样的事情，或者我被逮捕，或者如果我再次因犯罪被质疑，我会确保我所有的时间都被锁定。假释被拒绝。安东尼，对吧？我想你仍然坚持你没有犯下这个罪行。是吗？是的，女士。上次我回答这个问题时，我被加了24个月的刑期。所以我现在不敢说任何话。等一下，当他说那句话时，他们给了他24个月的刑期？是的。

我理解你处于一个棘手的境地，但根据我们面前的情况，你对你所犯的罪是有罪的。假释被拒绝。下次安东尼的假释听证会时，他告诉监狱管理员，谢谢，但我想拒绝在假释委员会面前的机会。我现在明白，除非我为袭击、为犯罪承担责任，否则他们不会释放我。我还有九年才到最高刑期，我想我会坚持下去。哇。

安东尼在最终被释放之前被拒绝假释五次。但在监狱里度过了16年漫长的岁月后，安东尼·布罗德沃特终于出狱了。他和爱丽丝·塞博尔生活在同一个世界，他们的道路不可避免地再次交叉。在过去的16年里，爱丽丝一直在努力从袭击中走出来。

但助理地区检察官盖尔再次与她会面，拿出一个袋子，一个装有内衣的大塑料拉链袋，就是爱丽丝16年前穿的那条内衣。等一下，这是16年后吗？是的。他们在会面并查看证据？是的。好的。爱丽丝正在看着它。它与审判记录一起被保存下来。助理地区检察官把这些都交给35岁的爱丽丝。

爱丽丝需要这些所有的东西来写她正在进行的回忆录。她将讲述她在隧道下遭遇袭击的故事，以及这起犯罪如何塑造了她的整个生活。每个人都在问爱丽丝，你现在35岁。这件事发生在你18岁时。你确定吗？就像你想回去，重新打开所有这些伤口，似乎它们终于有些愈合了吗？经过16年，这就是你想做的事情吗？爱丽丝说，任何其他故事都不会奏效，除非她完成这个故事。她需要结束她生活的这一章，以便继续前进。

即使在袭击期间，她也说她有些意识到自己最终会写下这一切。爱丽丝说：“这是一种我与自己保持联系的方式。你知道那种关闭但又不想完全消失的感觉，所以你会去寻找那些让你与生活相连的东西？对我来说，那就是文字，那就是语言，那就是写作。所以，是的，这正是她想做的。这正是她需要做的。”这本回忆录发布后，销量超过一百万本。这是她的第一本书，因此是在《可爱的骨头》之前写的。

它叫什么？《幸运》。好的。《幸运》也是在安东尼出狱一年后发布的。她的攻击者再次获得自由，但希望这本书能将他与犯罪联系在一起。

与此同时，安东尼38岁，搬进了表哥的家。他在过去的16年里一直在监狱里。他是注册的二级性犯罪者。因此，大多数工作都不在考虑之中。对不起。在书《幸运》中，安东尼有名字吗？她给了他一个化名，格雷戈里·麦迪逊。但如果你查一下，你可能很容易找到他。好的。是的。现在他在暴风雪后清理人们的车道。他在修剪草坪。他在做屋顶工。他在做拆迁。他只是尽可能地做任何能接手的工作。

有一天，如果他能做的最好的事情就是拖地，他就会这样做。第二天，他会去装袋洋葱。他试图在一些行业中获得认证，比如空调和供暖安装。但在那些课程中，一旦他们发现他的犯罪记录，他就被踢了出去。

不幸的是，这就是你在这样的定罪下生活的生活。安东尼说，可能不到10个人曾经邀请安东尼到他们家。没有人想和他分享一顿饭。没有人想让他在他们的家里，靠近他们的妻子、女儿、侄女，甚至连他自己的家人都不想。但你能责怪他们吗？他是二级性犯罪者。他将在登记册上待30年。你真的能责怪他们吗？律师斯蒂芬的门上敲响了。什么事？

你知道你和马杰斯提奥一起工作的那个R字案件吗？检方的受害者在此案上写了一本书，而你在书中。

目前尚不清楚斯蒂芬是否记得为安东尼的案件辩护。此时已经过去了16年。当他接手安东尼的案件时，他还很年轻。他就像一个新手，刚入行。他工作过度，刚刚在这个行业待了两年。不清楚他是否甚至记得案件的细节。但他知道他们没有赢。这是他唯一确定的事情。因此，他订购了这本书，书寄到了他的邮箱，平装本，刚印刷出来。斯蒂芬开始阅读它。斯蒂芬·帕凯特要崩溃了？什么？

我们所有怀孕的女士围着他，交叉审问我们，让他看起来很糟糕。什么？发生了太多事情。字面上，他在书中被提到，他们整个时间都在贬低他。他继续阅读，肚子里开始有一种不安的感觉。一旦他读完关于他的所有选择词和作者对他外貌的描述，他想回去从头到尾再读一次，真正地阅读这本书。

他从未记得代表过一个名叫格雷戈里·麦迪逊的客户。他绞尽脑汁，最终找到了安东尼·布罗德沃特的档案。作者使用了一个假名，现在斯蒂芬对此产生了兴趣。他再次阅读了审判记录，将其与她的回忆录进行比较，发现陈述并不一致。但她写的许多细节都是如此令人质疑。如果他在审判期间知道这些细节和事实，他会让案件被驳回。

法官与受害者进行了私下交谈。警方的排队基本上是被操控的。我是说，很难说辩护律师是否总是相信他们的客户和他们的无辜。但在阅读受害者的书后，有一件事非常明确。安东尼·布罗德沃特被判五项罪名并被判处最高25年监禁，他是无辜的。安东尼真的非常不想见她。

但他的表哥坚持。不是的，相信我。你们会相处得很好，也许你们会觉得像失散多年的朋友，两颗被撕裂的灵魂。好吧，这有点戏剧化。但他的表哥绝对坚持，安东尼知道没有争论的余地。他将要见...

一个名叫伊丽莎白的女人。这将是安东尼17年来的第一次约会。约会本身进行得很好，但安东尼知道这对伊丽莎白不公平，他也不想让她觉得自己在对她隐瞒什么。因此，在晚餐后，他请伊丽莎白和他回家。他递给她一个磨损的文件夹，里面是他的审判记录、上诉、假释拒绝的所有文件。他让她坐下，说，我知道这很奇怪。我们才刚见面。但如果你要和我在一起，这就是我背负的东西。这就是我携带的东西。

那晚，他在沙发上睡觉，而伊丽莎白则在他的房间里度过了一夜，整晚都在阅读文件。第二天早上，她走出来，坐在他旁边，开始哭泣。她告诉他，我相信你。我相信你。这是监狱帮派首领在监狱里的反应。甚至亚利安兄弟会的人也说，你不应该因为这个而在这里，伙计。我们相信你。

直到今天，伊丽莎白都没有离开他的身边。我的意思是，他们俩决定找一些可以一起做的夜班工作。凌晨3点，安东尼在这栋看起来阴森的建筑里拖地，一切都死寂无声，清洁化学品的气味让他感到剧烈的偏头痛。他会看向伊丽莎白，她正因疼痛而捂着背。她不必在这里。她不必做这个。她不必和他在一起或做这些夜班工作。但她愿意。

几乎每天，安东尼都对伊丽莎白坚定不移的支持感到震惊。她从未动摇，甚至没有怀疑或质疑他的无辜。她非常坚定。他说，她是他能够抬起头来的原因。他向她承诺，只要她相信他，他就永远不会停止战斗。因此，伊丽莎白搬进了他那间没有窗户、破旧的房子，房子主要是用防水布支撑着。他们结婚了。我的意思是，安东尼愿意为伊丽莎白做任何事情。

好吧，几乎是任何事情。他永远不会有孩子。他说：“我不能。我不能在背负这种污名的情况下把孩子带到这个世界上。我不能在他们的父亲是被定罪的性犯罪者的情况下把孩子带到这个世界上。”伊丽莎白感到心碎，但这让他非常生气，因为他想给伊丽莎白她想要的一切。安东尼说，仇恨、挫败、痛苦和不信，这一切都在显现。

与此同时，爱丽丝·塞博尔的《幸运》和《可爱的骨头》发布后，立刻成为国际畅销书。一天，伊丽莎白跑到图书馆，阅读书中的片段。她回家时怒火中烧，不是因为这不是真的，而是因为那不是安东尼。不是他做了所有这些事情。她试图告诉安东尼书中字面上写的所有不当行为。但安东尼说，嘘，我不想知道。这与我无关。这是她发生的事情。这与我无关。

全世界都在支持爱丽丝。而安东尼只有伊丽莎白和他的阿姨，阿姨玛米·露。她是唯一一个在他入狱期间支持他的人，因为他父亲在入狱一年后去世。她是唯一一个每个月给他写信两次的人。安东尼的五个兄弟都知道安东尼可能不会做这样的事情。但那为什么他会被定罪呢？

他们可能会觉得安东尼被定罪有点奇怪，因为他不是那种会做这种事情的人，但有一个兄弟因更可怕的罪行入狱也不容易。他们都开始疏远，继续过自己的生活。现在，安东尼出狱了，他身边真的没有多少人。他说，他会在释放后参加家庭聚会，但已经过去了16年。变化太大了，他能感觉到很多远房亲戚不喜欢他。他们不想让他在那儿。

他说：“我没有很多和家人合影的照片，你知道吗？我的意思是，我有很多家人的照片，但我没有和他们的合影。”安东尼会节省所有能省下的钱，试图证明自己是无辜的。即使在他出狱后，安东尼也会花300美元进行一次测谎测试。他会进行两次，并且都通过了，但没有人关心。

后来，他花了一个半月的工资，把钱寄给O.J.辛普森的律师，并附上一封信，称他是他最后的救命稻草。但支票寄回时附带一封信，称他不处理定罪的上诉。

安东尼一无所有。他几乎从未拥有过任何东西。他在几乎每天工作8到16小时的情况下，单年收入从未超过10,000美元。他只有这栋他父亲去世时给他的旧房子，最终完全由防水布支撑。大多数窗户都缺失。在那条街的尽头，有一所小学，如果他稍微路过，就会被逮捕。

前警长转私人侦探丹·迈尔斯于2021年被导演蒂莫西雇佣，调查爱丽丝·塞博尔。因此，到此时，爱丽丝已经写了三本书。

《可爱的骨头》是她发布的第二本书，并被改编成电影。它是一个巨大的成功。她的第三本书算是失败，但她的第一本书《幸运》，她关于自己真实生活和这次袭击的回忆录，表现得非常好。因此，许多制片人试图购买该书的选项，试图获得它。导演蒂莫西得到了它。当他阅读新剧本时，他觉得很奇怪。它就是不对劲。因此，在2021年，他雇佣了一名私人侦探丹·迈尔斯。丹·迈尔斯的任务是找到安东尼。

他去到安东尼的家，四处张望。防水布在风中飘动。房子上钉着木板，巨大的洞显然曾是窗户。他看着街对面，有一个墓地。所以这并不是一个健康的视野。

私人侦探发现一个60岁的男人走出来，手里拿着一块巨大的金属废料，试图回收。250磅的金属大约值36美元。因此，安东尼在城市里打电话给任何需要金属垃圾的人。他去捡。60岁的他捡起260磅的金属并交给回收站，只是为了赚36美元。嗨，你是安东尼吗？你知道他们正在拍摄关于你被定罪的袭击者的电影吗？

安东尼转向他，说，好吧，整个定罪都是谎言。是谎言。好吧，我们有时间。我打算买我一直想要的那辆卡车。等一下，你不需要几周的时间来选车吗？我不需要。Carvana让找到我想要的东西变得超级方便。等一下。你在手机上买车？这不是更适合笔记本电脑吗？你可以在任何地方购物。

我喜欢做研究，阅读评论，比较型号。此外，Carvana有成千上万的选择。你是怎么决定买那辆卡车的？因为我喜欢它。哦，这真是个好理由。去Carvana.com以便便捷地出售你的车。你的孩子在某个特定科目上挣扎，还是需要作业帮助吗？

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在 iXL.com/audio。访问 iXL.com/audio，以获得最有效的学习程序，价格最优惠。他们三个人可能是书籍俱乐部中最意想不到的组合。蒂莫西，电影的执行制片人。他雇佣了丹，私人侦探。然后蒂莫西又雇佣了戴夫，一名刑事辩护律师。而他们三人正在阅读的书是爱丽丝·塞博尔的《幸运》。

一只手拿着爱丽丝的书，另一只手拿着审判记录，他们互相交流引用，确保详细记录这一切。越来越明显的是，爱丽丝的书更像是对检方不当行为的揭露，而不是其他任何东西。嗯。

调查员乔治·洛伦茨是最初在袭击中接受爱丽丝报告的警探。没有任何解释，我们只知道，接受初步报告的侦探表示，他怀疑她的报告完全真实。附带说明，他很可能只是那些喜欢怀疑所有受害者故事的危险警官之一，或者他可能感觉到她的故事有些不对劲。他写道：“在与本案受害者的访谈后，作者认为受害者所呈现的案件并不完全真实。”

等一下，这是最初的报告。最初的。在一开始。他们在哪里写的？在审判记录中？而爱丽丝在她的书中写到，那个警察疯了。他不相信我。他不相信我，因为他可能是个R字辩护者。

再说一次，这并不是要怀疑她的袭击，而是更多地怀疑她对攻击者的描述。她确实在犯罪的初步报告中给出了对攻击者的描述，并且他们做了一个合成素描。现在，五周过去了。攻击者没有被抓住。现在爱丽丝在街上走，正好走进了她的攻击者。安东尼甚至不记得那天在马歇尔街见过爱丽丝。他试图向爱丽丝身后的那个人招手。

记得那个红发警官保罗·克拉珀吗？是的，他们在同一个社区长大，他们并不友好。我甚至不知道我是否会称他们为熟人。就像想象一下，你认识一个高中同学，但你从未真正和他们交谈过，你从未真正和他们一起出去过，你只是知道他们。所以他说，嘿，我是不是在某个地方见过你，对着爱丽丝身后的警官，但爱丽丝以为他在和我说话，哦，我的天。

她确信这是袭击她的人，他在嘲笑她，因为他逃脱了。这部分，我认为一些网民会更理解，因为许多受害者表示，在他们遭受袭击后，无论他们走到哪里，他们都觉得在每个街角都能看到他们的攻击者。任何甚至模糊记得他们攻击者的人，他们的恐慌反应都会启动。

据说这可能是一个毁灭性的PTSD反应。然而，执法部门在调查中非常草率，这样说是非常温和的。关于抓捕安东尼的一些事情。

所以很久之后，她在街上看到了安东尼。首先，根据初步报告，爱丽丝并没有好好看清她攻击者的脸。因此，她在几个月后突然认出他在街上有点奇怪。她说隧道里很黑，她的眼镜被打掉了。最初，她是这么说的。所以这已经不幸地至少在合理怀疑的最低限度上，她无法在没有其他相应证据的情况下识别攻击者。

其次，她在袭击当晚给当局的素描与五周后的安东尼并不匹配。因此，在她被袭击的那晚，她试图给出对攻击者最新的描述。他们做的合成素描与安东尼完全不同。没有其他相应证据的情况下又一次出现合理怀疑。但他们还是追踪到了安东尼，还是逮捕了他。但为什么？为什么执法部门仅仅根据她的描述和老实说的直觉就这样做，因为描述甚至不匹配？

我认为这个事件应该告诉你足够多的信息。在爱丽丝报告看到她的攻击者后，警方把她放进巡逻车，开始开车四处寻找，看看，好的，也许她能再次认出他，因为他可能没有走远。爱丽丝坐在后座，试图帮助他们识别他。在某个时刻，警察看到三个年轻的黑人男性，他们都不符合她的描述，根本不符合。

她告诉警官，不，他们太高了。继续开。不是他。警官犹豫了一下，停车说，不，他们是麻烦制造者。你留在这里。顺便说一下，他们什么也没做。他们只是闲逛。警察跳下警车，开始用警棍追赶他们，这绝对是多余的。我是说，这是非法的。这是失控的。他们甚至什么也没做。他回到车上，爱丽丝问他们，等一下，他们做错了什么？他只是耸耸肩说，他们是麻烦制造者，永远不要对警官顶嘴。

爱丽丝说，她意识到这有多么错误。她写道，骚扰和身体伤害三名无辜的年轻黑人男性是错误的，根本没有任何理由。但她也承认，做这件事的警官生活在她的星球上，也就是一个黑人男性不重要的星球。我的意思是，她并没有这样说，但这就是它的意思。她意识到警察把她视为需要保护的人，而他们并没有把安东尼视为需要保护的人。

当警方逮捕安东尼后，执法部门把爱丽丝带来进行警察排队。警方让五名男子穿上匹配的浅蓝色衬衫排成一排。他们穿着监狱制服，被告知在一个光线充足的房间里面对单向镜。爱丽丝被带进来，她一个一个地看过去。他们看不到她。所以他们是第一人到第五人。爱丽丝确信她的攻击者是第五人，看到他就想呕吐。她能感受到恶心的波动。

但她在助理地区检察官盖尔那里找到了些许安慰。

她是一个在男性主导的领域工作的女性，她正在帮助她。她说，你准备好了吗？爱丽丝点头，她一个一个地看过去，盖尔在安慰她，因为在他们这边是光亮的，而这里是黑暗的，他们看不到你。所以爱丽丝选择了第五人，她知道自己选择错了。她能在警官的脸上看到这一点。她甚至记得自己感到让盖尔失望。她在书中写道，我感到自己在崩溃。我让他们失望了，所有人。

这就是总结。盖尔会去处理其他案件，更好的受害者。她没有时间浪费在像我这样的失败者身上。什么？这太疯狂了，但在书中，爱丽丝详细描述了检方和警方的不当行为。她说，在选择错误的嫌疑人后，盖尔走进来安慰她，说，当然你选择错了。他和他的律师努力确保你永远没有机会。

警方试图警告助理地区检察官不要进一步透露，但助理地区检察官盖尔继续。她有权知道。她反正知道。爱丽丝，之所以花了这么长时间，是因为安东尼让他的朋友过来站在他旁边。我们试图派车去监狱接他，但他们不会继续，除非他出现。等一下，我不明白。他被允许让朋友站在他旁边吗？这是被告的权利，从某种程度上来说是合理的。如果排队中的其他人看起来与嫌疑人不够相似，他可以选择让某人站在他旁边。

那么，我们能说这就是我选择错误的人的原因吗？不。这违反了被告的权利。他们真的对你做了很多事情，你知道吗？他利用那个朋友。那个朋友利用他。在他们进行的每一次排队中。他们看起来一模一样。他们看起来一模一样。盖尔暗示他们总是互相利用来混淆受害者，因为他们看起来一模一样。I的...

这个案件非常复杂。我认为总结这个短语的最好方式是许多事情可以同时为真。爱丽丝既可以是强奸受害者，也可以对过去的决定负责。人们对爱丽丝感到同情，并能为她找到共鸣，但他们也可以对她的其他事情非常批评，反之亦然。在同样的意义上，因为爱丽丝写了《幸运》，她实际上是#MeToo运动的一个关键发起者。

很多人认为她完全是#MeToo运动的发起者，毫无疑问，她的故事帮助了许多其他幸存者。这两件事情可以同时存在并且都是真实的。她可能在帮助他人的同时也伤害了安东尼。导演蒂莫西说：“我不认为18岁的爱丽丝应该承担任何责任。她是一个受害者。她尽力而为。她受到了一位不道德的助理地区检察官的指导。”

但我确实对39岁的爱丽丝·塞博尔有疑问，她写了《幸运》。在她写这本书之前，她已经审查了整个地区检察官的档案，包括警察认人照片。她难道没有意识到，事后看来，嫌疑人四和五在外貌上并不相似吗？她当时难道没有机会发声，审查审判记录并意识到，等等，这里有错误吗？她难道没有看到这些？

许多人同意蒂莫西对这个案件的看法，以及他在让安东尼平反中的角色。然而，正如我所说，许多事情可以同时为真。蒂莫西并不是一个好人。

是的。帮助他的人？导演，是的。导演？导演在雇佣私人侦探、雇佣辩护律师、发现书中的缺陷并将其提出来方面非常关键，对吧？然而，他在安东尼之后立即试图利用他。据说，他给安东尼提供了一份合同。据说，我不知道，好吧？那么...

人们说他不是个好人。这是一个观点，而不是事实。好吧。据说，蒂姆给安东尼提供了一份令人震惊的合同。他想把安东尼变成一个摇钱树，或者至少这是他的辩护团队和一些网民的看法。这是一份全面的合同，剥夺了安东尼生活故事的所有戏剧性和文学权利，而在当前或未来没有任何补偿。我们可能可以解读为安东尼永远无法分享自己的故事并从中获利，无论是以何种形式或媒介。

只有蒂莫西可以分享安东尼的故事。安东尼的故事不再属于蒂莫西。是的。蒂莫西还有一条重罪记录。是的。

他因白领犯罪服刑。他据说欺骗投资者。我是说，嗯，不是据说，好吧。但是蒂姆说服人们投资400万只避孕套和乳胶手套从英国进口。他告诉投资者，他要把这些避孕套和乳胶手套带到俄罗斯，换取鸡，然后把鸡卖到沙特阿拉伯赚取巨额利润。这太疯狂了。他骗走了很多钱，然后他进了监狱。所以这很混乱。连他自己都觉得...

是的，这非常复杂。但归根结底，安东尼才是最重要的。我本来想为他开个GoFundMe，但现在已经关闭了。然而，HBO确实宣布将在2025年制作关于他故事的纪录片系列。所以请关注，因为也许这就是我们能最好地支持安东尼和伊丽莎白的方式。在爱丽丝的回忆录中，她写道，我生活在一个两个真相共存的世界里，地狱与希望都在我手掌之中。

感谢上帝，安东尼的希望得到了实现。

顺便说一句，虽然这不是题外话，但非常非常重要的是，安东尼·布罗德沃特的错误定罪和监禁不应被误解为不再相信受害者的理由。18岁的爱丽丝遭到攻击。她被侵犯。这一事实没有争议。爱丽丝·塞博尔关于她最初攻击的谎言几乎不可能。而尽管关于虚假强奸指控的统计数据备受争议，统计分析师也同意它们也是微乎其微的。然而，爱丽丝被侵犯的事实并不否定或免除...

她的行为，无论是故意还是无意。因为归根结底，爱丽丝在认人时识别了错误的黑人男性。她为什么不停止思考一下？我们已经看过照片。她也看过照片。安东尼和亨利·哈德森看起来完全不同。如果她知道她可能会将一个无辜的黑人男性终身定罪，为什么她不花时间确保她的识别是100%准确的？这很有趣，值得深思。

如果爱丽丝在认人时识别了错误的白人男性，她会停下来想想为什么吗？法庭会停下来想想为什么吗？

也许这就是我们的答案。为了突出这个案件的不同视角，有些人认为爱丽丝和安东尼都是纯粹的受害者，而有些人认为爱丽丝有点是受害者，有点不是。一个观点写道，

但其他网民争辩说这不是真的。他们说这根本不是真的，甚至在她在这一切中扮演角色的时候比较爱丽丝的受害者身份感觉不对。一个评论写道：“你看，像这样的评论语气真的让我很烦恼。白人女性的创伤被重视，而黑人男性的创伤却被忽视，这令人沮丧。也许这不是你的意图，但这在潜意识中感觉是种族主义。”

另一个评论写道，

另一个评论写道，她识别错了人，把他送进监狱16年，实际上毁了一个生命，而她却没有任何评论？我们认为这没问题吗？不，我想要爱丽丝的评论。但我认为这个评论总结得很好。两件事情可以同时为真。第一，爱丽丝·塞博尔被一个未知的袭击者殴打和侵犯。第二，错误的人被送进监狱。令人惊讶的是，多少人难以真正理解这一点。

安东尼已对纽约州提起5000万美元的错误监禁诉讼。他赢得了500万美元，扣除律师费后，他可能带回360万美元，这远远不够。但他确实想在乡村买一块大土地，支付伊丽莎白的手术费用，他只想带她去那里，种一些梨树、苹果树，观看他剩下的日落和日出。

安东尼说，那是最有意义的事情。我一直想要的就是我的自由，我的自由和我的清白。仅此而已。这就是安东尼·布罗德沃特的故事。你对这个案件有什么看法？你知道《可爱的骨头》作者的这一切吗？请在评论中告诉我，并请保持安全。我将在周日的下一集见到你们。再见。