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On today's episode of That Was Us, we will be discussing Season 2, Episode 9, Number 2. Kate and Toby experience a sudden change in their lives' trajectories, and Rebecca is supportive of Kate's aspirations to become a singer. Rock and roll. Welcome to the Doggone That Was Us podcast. Happy to be here, sir. Thank you for having me. What an honor. We are in a...
- My guests. - The hot seat over there, it feels like. - Today is Sterling K. Brown. - To talk about Kate's episode. - American actor of film, stage, and screen. So we're in episode number two of our first big three trio of episodes. - Correct. - Yes. - Yeah. - The trilogy. - We talked about Kevin last week. - Yeah. - This week.
It's all about Kate. Actually, you're kind of in the hot seat for this episode. We're talking about Katobi. Katobi. It's interesting because they kind of expand in that way. Kevin's is kind of just Kevin. Yeah. Then this one is, because we're both parts of couples, right? So then we expand to Kate and Toby. And then it's sort of like Beth, Randall. And I survived that heart attack. You survived the heart attack. Which means I get to.
Weasel my way into the Kate episode. You get to stick around, big man. So we start off again with that montage of the home videos from when they're babies, seeing who's going to walk first. And it's interesting, though, because in other words, saying, come on, number two, come on. Do we see her walk or is she just kind of standing? She kind of stands.
She's kind of standing. And I don't know if that's on purpose in terms of how they use the edit or if it was just like little baby just didn't feel like going nowhere. I believe it was the latter. Yeah. Because I remember in this, at the beginning of this episode, you see Jack or, as I could tell because I know him, Milo jump behind this baby and do these hand motions like, go baby, go baby, go baby.
Go, baby. And the baby just stands there. Yeah. You know, it's hard to get little ones to follow direction. It is. Amen. So do you guys want to do a sequential? Do you want to take the past storyline or the present? I always like doing the past. Yeah, let's do the past. Before the present. Let's start in the past. Let's live in the past. Because we've seen in the past that there's a day when
Coach from Pitt is coming over to the house to visit Kevin. In the first episode, number one, we saw Kate listening to headphones. She's kind of sitting, chilling. And we see Randall filling out an application for Harvard, I believe. But he's about to go on a road trip with his dad. And this series of episodes is the introduction of this dog. It is. This dog. Have we not seen the dog before? Well, I don't think we've made the connection yet, but this is the same dog...
after Jack and Rebecca had their date night where Rebecca was trying to Jack Pearson him. Yes. This dog is like in their front yard eating out of their garbage or eating, they went and got burgers and Rebecca sort of like tossed the bag behind her. And as they're walking back in the house after their conversation, this dog is eating the remains of that fast food. And I don't know what breed of dog this is, but it looks perpetually homeless. Mangy. Yeah. He's a scrappy guy. Yeah, he's a scrappy guy.
- This dog, does anybody do any grooming for this puppy? - Nobody calms the dog. Nobody calms the dog. But the dog is an important, it becomes a very important character in "This Is Us." - Yes, it does. - Moving down the line. - But so yes, this is the same night, a different perspective. - From Kate's perspective, and we've come to find out that the tape that she's listening to
is her audition for the Berklee School of Music. - Yes. - And she wound up doing Summertime. We don't know exactly what it is yet, but we come to, the lights go out and she asked the dog not to pee because the dog gets nervous very easily and then the dog pees. And so she has to clean the pee up, et cetera. - Oh, sorry, sorry. - Quick, go ahead, no, you do it. Are we about to talk about the same thing? - No, I don't know, are we? - One, two. - So she goes to clean up the pee and she's wiping the dog. - She's just dabbing the dog, right? - And I'm like, what?
In God's name. What are you doing? The piss stain is upstairs. And she throws the dog and is like dabbing this dog's penis. And I'm like, what?
Rebecca comes in and says, please. It doesn't say, please don't. What the hell are you doing? It says, don't do that on a couch. I was like. A living room couch. That's not. You don't need to clean up the dog. With the bounty. Is this like a piece of bounty that we're just like. The dog did not. The dog did not. Pee on that couch. On the couch. But did he pee on his belly? No. No. No. No. Never has there been a pet mistake where people are like, we got to.
We gotta bounty this dog. And I gotta know on set, like who gave that direction? 'Cause that was not her. - That was Ken Olin. - That's Ken, Ken was like, I think Ken's never owned a dog. And Ken was like, I think what you do is you flip the dog over and you give it a little pat on its private parts with a paper towel, I think is what you do. Anyways.
I cannot. I did clock that. It was like, that is strange. It was weird the first time I saw it. And she's like, she's just, what are you doing to this dog? Also, it's like, yeah, I just, I remember thinking like, that's your dog. You love the dog. She's like,
It's right to call it out. I'm glad we discussed it. I was going to say that Rebecca is prodding Kate to fill out her school applications, to choose five different schools that she's interested in investigating and applying to. And Kate is very unfocused. She kind of brushes her mother off. And we come to learn that's because she already has a plan in place, which is to apply for...
the Berklee School of Music. - Yeah. And how we find out, you go up into the room after she leaves with the dog, right? And you just sort of rooting around a little bit, straighten up, fact-finding mission that parents will go on from time to time. Believe me, as they get older, every once in a while, you're like, "What's going on?" - I need information. - "What's going on with this kid?" You know what I'm saying? You see the application, you see the tape and you play the tape.
And there's, guys help me with this montage because there's her singing over, and are we flashing back to the present? Yeah, where Kate is. So we can come back to that because we're sort of blocking it. But it's a really beautiful sort of montage, right? And also just this idea that like, oh, my daughter is singing again. You know what I'm saying? And how can I be of service and how can I help? Now this is interesting. Quick anecdote.
My son, I go to, my oldest son, Andrew, he has two advisors and his two advisors are like the drama teachers at school. So the two advisors are- It's like an SNL sketch. They are heightened and explored. I love it. They are beautiful people. I love it. Right? And so they'll say like, you know, we'll have Andrew in class. 'Cause for one of his electives is improv or something like that from last year. And they're like, Andrew's kind of good.
Like he has some of the best ideas in improv that goes. And like we try to encourage him to come and audition. He's like, that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. Like Andrew's a jock. Yeah. Right. So the idea that he would do something like that. But it reminds me of this storyline because I talked to him. I said, hey, man, I heard you're actually pretty good when it comes to like the theater games, et cetera, et cetera. And he's like, yeah, so? And he's like, was there anything that you would ever consider doing? And he said, point blank, I will never do the same thing as you.
Wow. How does that make you feel? Not bad. No, of course not. But like an interesting leap. Very, right? Like to jump to the end of the discussion. He's like, not even will I tread along that path because I think that path leads to comparison.
and the idea that I would ever have to be compared. It's like, Bronny James was okay to do it for some reason or another. But Bronny James will always be compared to the greatest basketball player who's ever played. - It's unfortunate for him. - You know what I'm saying? And it makes me think,
Kate keeping it from you, was it also just sort of like, listen, if it doesn't go my way, I don't have to discuss anything. Like nobody knows about it. But if you, if she, if you in particular, right, know about it and I fail, then like it's, there's this thing that exists now that I could have tampered. Isn't that the entire reason Kate wanted to keep the pregnancy secret as well? It's
It's like you want to keep the stakes as low as possible because they are exceedingly high. So not telling anybody in your line of thinking will somehow mitigate the pain of disappointment if things don't end up going your way. This is a big theme in our industry too, the delayed joy. Sure. Because...
we as actors have learned to kick the can down the road where it's like, I'm not gonna get too excited. I've heard it being considered. Okay, I have a callback. I'm not gonna get too excited. Okay, oh, I got the part. Okay, I'm not gonna get too excited. Not until I'm on set. When I'm on set, I'll be excited. When it comes out and we see if people even like it. When it comes out. Okay, if we get another season, I'll be excited. Next thing you know, six seasons have gone by and you haven't enjoyed any of it. Yeah.
because you've been waiting to be excited about it. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. There's something to it, but I'm wondering like in terms of like when your mom is known for something. - Sure. - Right, and you have a passion for that same thing, like do you keep it close or do you?
Open yourself up to that and different people make different choices, right? Yeah, I mean clearly yeah makes one to sort of keep it to herself, right? Then you wind up sort of at the football game and let me know if I'm missing anything in between so you guys are at the game and Very sweetly just hand of $50 and you like for your application fee and she's like you went through my stuff and she's like look I
Yeah, I went through your stuff. I saw you were doing this thing. I wanted help. So here's the money. And you were so sweet. Like, it's interesting because I'm waiting. I was like, is Rebecca going to say like that wrong thing? Yeah. And she doesn't. And she does not. For once. At all. Yeah. It was so sweet. I think you have a real shot. I think it was really terrific. You know what I'm saying? And I think you have a shot. And she says, no, thanks.
So it's very cool. That happens right before Kev has his injury and she has to go call dad, et cetera. Is there anything with them once they get to the hospital from Kate's perspective? Yeah. You guys have a conversation in the lobby. We do. We do. In fact, it's quite sweet. And I was watching it and now having a daughter, I'm like, oh.
This is so interesting now to sort of think about it from this perspective. This is so good. Yes, please go. No, no, no, no. You go, go. Well, because you talk about this whole thing
and you have to fill it in about what parenting is and how, you know, you've seen how things were with me and my mom and she was always sort of like closed off. And I always just wanted to be open and available to you as a mom, have my arms open so when you need them, I'm here. You can fall into them. You can fall into them. And sometimes you may feel like this if you won't, but my job as a mom is to just keep the arms open for when you are ready. Right. Right? And it's such a sweet,
and thoughtful thing and i i want to connect it back to we will we will yes connected i heard this morning someone we were speaking of parenting
There was two comedians talking and it was this Irish comedian who I love very much named Tommy Tiernan who was talking about parenting and he distilled it down in a way that I was like, yeah, that's it. I agree with that. Yeah. Which is that it is a parent's job to provide shelter. Yeah. Of all kinds. Sure. Physical. Right. Emotional. Financial. Yeah. Spiritual. Yes. And whether or not the child needs it. Yes. Is up to them. Yes.
But they need to know that it is always there. That is available. And I was like, that's it. Tommy T nailed the tough part as a parent. You always want to give it.
whether they want it or not. And you have to learn how to just sort of like, I'm here. And not get in your feelings about whether or not they're looking for you, not just be like, I'm here. - Because having those things allows them to develop as wild and free and autonomous beings. - When you know that you can fall back to that shelter, right? It gives you the freedom to kind of spread your wings and become your individual.
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Okay, so that's that last little beautiful thing. Should we jump to the future and then we can tie it back in at the very end? Sure, yes, yes, yes. It opens with Kate and Toby and Toby's on the couch. Yeah. And Kate's like, all right, I'm off to my gig. And Toby's like, excuse me? I thought we were going to, are we going to sit here and be upset about the miscarriage that we just had? Right. Yeah. And she's like, no, I'm going to go do my thing. Wait, hold on. You guys have to go.
Have the... Wait. Yeah, you're skipping over the... Plain metal vitamins. Jump. Buddy. Yeah. Wait. Wait, what did I miss? Well, just the fact of her suffering the miscarriage. Oh, she has not had it. Yeah. She hadn't had it. I forgot. We can cut all that out. Yeah. And cut out my misstep. No, no, it's all good. It's totally fine. Yeah. It's totally fine. You're like, wait a minute, I jumped. You saw we opened. Yeah.
So we open. Yeah, all of those things. They're making her list of questions that she wants to ask her OB so she doesn't forget anything. Yes, that's right. But you see...
- Genuine enthusiasm. - And excitement, it's palpable. - Happening for her with this baby. - And them. - Yes, yes. - Collectively. - Everybody in the Damon Pearson household is getting amped about this thing, right? So then- - She goes into the restroom. - She goes to the restroom to do, oh, she wants to measure something for the bathtub thing that they want to get to watch the baby. And you see Toby's listening from off camera and off camera we hear
She yells Toby. Yeah, she yells Toby. She yells Toby. She yells Toby and there's a thud thing before and yells Toby, right? Cut to the hospital, right? A lesser show would have had to explain. A lesser show. Everything that had happened, but we see, and it's over, it's over montage, right? There's not like a direct, there's a little bit of talking. A little bit of the doctor explaining what's happening. Saying that like, well, you guys can try again. You were totally healthy, et cetera. And you just see two people in shock. Yeah. Right.
And we as an audience, or let me say me as an audience, start to feel like, okay, how, because the joy was just so palpable and exciting for me. And you're like, the rug being pulled feels all the more sort of dramatic. And you just hope that everybody is going to be okay. That's what I was feeling of like, I hope they're going to be okay. They go back to the house.
And I see Kate putting on makeup like she's getting dressed or something. She's got this red dress on. And here's what's happening. Toby is off. Toby's sitting on the couch. Thanks. Yeah. But they're about to have a day of being sad about what has just happened to them. Yeah, having a little grief party. But it doesn't even... The way that you sort of put forward, it seems...
generous and like, you know, we need a moment to process. But it doesn't sound like it's a pity party. It sounds like we collectively need a moment to just sort of deal with this thing. And she's like, no, I got the gig. And you know, if I cancel on them, they may not call me back again. And you're like, are you serious? Like, it's barely been 12 hours. We just went through this thing. And she says, and this is something that I want to talk about.
I went through it to be like, I lost the baby, right? I'm so curious, like, and Mandy, I would love to ask you this question. Like when you are pregnant and it is obviously you that is having the baby,
Do you enjoy hearing your husband say we versus I? Do you have any feelings about it one way or the other? Yeah, in fact, I was just telling you before we recorded, my husband and I were watching the show last night, this episode, and both later in the episode when Kate says, I was pregnant, like, you don't understand, I lost the baby. And when Chris goes through his explanation of like, I understand, like, I physically wasn't carrying the baby, but I lost the baby too. We both were like, oh,
Like, yes, of course. Like the fact that she didn't acknowledge that never bothered me. Like, yes, you are in it together. Again, someone that is physically carrying the child, but both people, both your, your partner, you're in it together. And I, yes, I very much, I never was like, felt weird about that. Okay. What about you guys? I just said, she's having a baby.
- Yeah, you know, I'll say like, if I feel, my wife is a very particular person too. So let me be clear in saying that. And also let me preface, Ron and Michelle Bethea, I love you. But I feel like any time that I'll try to sort of like try to be in partnership with her during those times, she'll be very clear. It's like, oh, are we pregnant Sterling? Is that what we're doing right now? And I'm like,
Sorry. Like, you know, so I'm always sort of like. There was a little bit of that. Yeah, yeah. Always trying to find what the balance is through those moments. I totally understand that. So Kate does go to sing.
And it seems like it's going well. And then she sees this mother and daughter, black woman and her daughter. - This is the beautiful montage that you were talking about earlier. - This is the beautiful montage that is happening where we hear summertime going on. And so we don't hear Kate actually singing. We hear summertime, we hear young Kate. And we see her seeing this mother and daughter
the mom just sort of smiling at her daughter. She's dancing and listening to the music and whatnot. And you see Kate's like, "I can't take this." Right? So she says, "I gotta get out of there." She walks out. And real quick on that montage. That's Hannah singing, right? - It is Hannah singing. - It is. - Really beautiful. - I know. - Really gorgeous voice. - She has a great voice. - It was lovely. - All three Kates. - Yeah. - Or two Kates. - All three generations. - Yeah. They sing. And so she decides to go for a walk.
And then she comes upon a buffet. Yeah. And she's like, you know what? I'm going to go eat, right? And it's interesting because while I...
I don't have the same issues as Kate with regards, but far be it for me to say that I have never emotionally ate. And it's interesting how it is. It's just all of a sudden you're like, it will make me feel better. I don't have to think if I just keep putting something in my mouth. - There have been moments in my life where I, in my head, essentially say, I'm gonna go use ice cream.
Like some would be like, I'm gonna go use a little cocaine. I'm gonna go use ice cream. I'm gonna eat a pint of ice cream. That's what I'm gonna do. Hands down. And so you see it filling up that plate. Now it's interesting because there's two different plates that she've, she had one plate.
That was like that. And then it cuts to another plate in which I'm wondering, did she eat the first plate or is one plate supposed to be the same plate? And she ultimately walks away. I think one plate was supposed to be. I agree. I agree. She ultimately winds up walking away from the plate.
Meanwhile, Tobias realizes that this bathtub, he's sitting at home by himself. You see him walk by the bathtub with the shower curtain. Ken does some gorgeous things here because we flash back a couple of times to 12 hours prior.
and sort of like Kate in the bathroom at one point in time, reaching for like the shower and it falling and her falling down and it's quiet when it happens. And then you see Toby coming into the bathroom a little bit later on and sort of comforting her. - I actually noticed it was a really quiet episode. - Yes, I have that written there too. - As far as score goes. - Yeah, there was a lot of silence in the house post this event. - Yeah, which makes sense and it was very, very poignant, right?
So he's at home by himself and he realizes, how do you realize that the thing is supposed to be coming to the house, the tub thing? I walk out to the garbage cans and I, classic like male response to the situation. I guess I'm going to throw away this thing.
shower curtain. Yeah. And this shower. I blame you shower up instead of fixing it. Yeah. Throws it away and gets a notification. Ding. Your baby bath will be delivered tomorrow. Yeah. And you're like, and he goes off. Damn it.
This is the last thing that I need to come to the crib. So you go to the distro center of where it is and whatnot. I see that I've got this thing coming. I need to intercept this package before it gets to my house. My wife's had it really bad. And the guy's like, I don't know what to tell you, man. Like, I don't think it's here. We haven't sent it out yet. And he says, I can't help you. And this is a really, I'm curious, how many times you got a chance to do this in terms of the balance of it all? Because you can't come across like,
I'm about to bash your mother knows him. But also I'm a man who needs something very much and I am big. - Yeah, I need you to do this. - You know what I'm saying? So like how many different takes did we go and did we ever go hotter? Did we ever go under? - We didn't do too many takes, but I think the last one Ken was like, and just do like a super hot one. - Okay.
- Until we have it. - Okay. - I think we both knew that that was just to see it. - Sure. - To live it. - 'Cause we weren't gonna use it. - Right. - Yeah, yeah. - But the guy was cool. You wind up walking through and you can't find the thing. And then it's just like, "God, man, I'm gonna go home. This thing is gonna be delivered. It's gonna bring up so much."
I'm always like the banging on the steering wheel is such a, is an actor thing that we all have to do at one point in time. And when you're younger, you'll do it with a fist. Yeah.
But he was older and was with an open hand. And I say this because you will jack your fist up so dead good. And maybe this is a dude thing. I was like, yeah. No, but guess who did the fist on the first take? You did? Yeah, yeah. Which is why I was hitting it with open hands because my hand's like, ouchie, ouchie. Oh.
Also, we were just talking with, what were we talking about? Oh, we were on that radio show the other day. We were all doing an interview and they were asking, have you ever seen a moment that you wish you could do better? Sure. And that was it. Really? Yeah, I was like, eh. Also, the way that they edited it was, I didn't know it was going to be edited like a joke.
because the way they edited it was like, oh, this guy has been standing there watching me do this. And I didn't play it that way. And I wish I had leaned into that a little more. - But I think it played great. - I agree. - I think it played fine. I think it played fine. I'm just saying, I saw a moment and I was like, this is what I would have done differently. - Fair enough. I respect that. And it was cool because then you're like, do you have a baby at home? He's like, no, but my sister's about to have a baby.
Do you like her? I love that the writers put that line. Do you like her? Does he answer or does he just kind of? He was like, you know. Like, kind of. Whether you like her or not, man. Give her this thing. Give her this baby bath. It's really nice. It fits in most tubs, I guess. Yeah.
It was great singing. And then he gives a real, I mean, he's a, let's shout him out because I'm sure he's on our sheet here. Jason Rogel. Jason Rogel. Carl, right? Carl. Carl, I am a large and powerful man. And then at the end, yeah, he delivers that really nice, I'm sorry if something happened.
Yeah. Which is about all you can say as a stranger. Thanks. Yeah. So you go to pick up your bride-to-be because you said that you were going to pick her up from her music gig. And she's not there. And she's not there. Not there. And it's interesting because...
I saw this from both perspectives simultaneously of her just needing a moment, leaving the two, the mom and the daughter that she had seen. And then remembering that you said that you were gonna go get her knowing that your beloved just had a miscarriage and you wonder what her state of mind is and not being able to find her both of those things, right?
And so you wind up trying to find her, you can't find her. You guys, you call, she doesn't answer. - Quick shout out to her band leader, Jason Michael Snow, big Broadway guy, the guy who was her piano player. - Oh, cool. - Shout out to him. And you guys don't reconvene until you get back to the house.
And you're like, "Where were you?" And she's like, "I took a walk." And that feels like completely and totally satisfactory from her perspective. But you're like, "Yo, I'm sitting here wondering where you are, not knowing anything." You know? Those moments in which you decide not to answer 'cause you need time to yourself. Like I understood her not answering and I understood him being upset for her not answering and not letting her know where she was. - Yeah. I mean, I understood her not answering.
That call my call. Yeah, the mom call but it's a different thing if you're just wandering downtown Los Angeles or whatever you are I love you. I'm okay. I don't really want to talk about anything right now, but I'm walking home. I left. Yeah all good Yeah, so good check in but it sort of sets the table for what we were talking about earlier than having it out and I
You should take this because you kind of went through the whole thing. Talk to me about this scene. As we talked about, or we'll talk about with Chrissy, fights between Toby and Kate were hard for Chris and Chris. Uncomfortable. Because there's no distinction for Chrissy almost. When she feels it, it's immediate. It is, yeah. And so when I get to...
saying hurtful things. Yeah. And I see it being so effective. It's very painful. Yeah. And, and this particular conversation was also like, you were talking about that tricky balance of, of, uh, I need to express myself here. Yeah. But I also know that you've been through a lot in the last 12 hours. Yeah. We've had, I had had little moments, uh, on, on the show that, that had switches, but this was, this episode was like a big, uh,
dramatic kind of turn for Toby, you know, as far as like, "No, no, no, this is where I stand. This is who I am." And it's not all levity. Yeah, it's not all Hootie and the Blowfish dancing around the coffee shop. You have moments like that throughout. I think this is one of the strongest ones.
Toby has this ability to articulate what he's feeling in the moment that I think most of us as grown-ass people hope to be able to achieve. Yeah, the writers gave him that. Yes, because this is the moment, again, where she circles down and you're acting like we went through something. It was my body. Kate says, this is something that I went through. And you're like, look.
I recognize it was your body and I recognize this, but like to say that I wasn't a part of this, that something didn't, I'm feeling sad too. So whether or not it happened to my body, like you have to be okay with me being sad too and that I cared and I continue to care. We'll be right back with more That Was Us.
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And so it ends, not resolved, right? Like it's still sort of dangling at the end of it. And we go to the next morning and Toby's already out of the house and he's left a note for Kate saying, "Need some air, be right back." Something like that. And this is when we dovetail to the past
And Kate and Rebecca just had this sort of beautiful explanation about what parenthood is and sort of like holding your arms open for your child to walk into if and when they need them, et cetera. And there's a knock at the door, and you think Toby may have left his key, and he's coming back. And you open the door, and this was one of the biggest cries Brown has had in this day. When my mama comes walking through the door,
This was me at the airport. This was me at the airport eating my lounge food, crying. Is that Chris Sullivan from This Is Us crying? Watching This Is Us? Crying? Eating airport orange chicken? Listen.
- Sure, it sure is. - A lot of mistakes were happening in that story. - Mandy is, it was so, 'cause it was so simple. Like it wasn't like you needed to ask what she needed because she called you on the phone earlier, I should say, and said, "Mama lost a baby." And you kept asking, she's like, "I can't talk about it too much more. I love you, I'll talk to you later." Boom, right? And it's just like, Rebecca just said,
I'm getting on the damn plane and making moves and you open the door and you just open your arms and you just hold your bed and she just
- Crumbles. - Melt. - Yeah. - I know the microphone's blocking my face. She just melts. It touched me. - It touched me too. - To my core. - Yeah. - So we move forward then from there and just her sort of talking, Kate talking to you about it and how she's feeling. And don't let me jump over anything. - No, no. - I feel like I took this away from Tobi. And you talk about
You talk about Kyle. Yeah. And what it was like to live through that loss and how the doctors asked you, you talk about it. I'm talking about this thing that you did. No, she just, she implores Kate to share her grief with Toby because she did not share her grief with Jack for a long time. And she said, you know, it came out.
And it came out sideways. Like I found myself at the grocery store, like having a meltdown over yellow onions because I wanted to make your dad a pot roast. Meltdown was good. Yeah, it was just like, she was like, you have to share your grief because basically it's not just your grief. It's his grief too. And you guys have to, you know, have that connection and be in community with each other about what has just happened. And I thought it was just, yeah, it was a...
It was an interesting... I mean, this whole episode, you're really seeing, obviously, it's Toby and Kate, but you're really getting an inside glimpse into Rebecca and Kate's relationship, which we explore so extensively over the course of the series. And it's like, you're starting to just have more colored in for you about the trials and tribulations of a mother, like you said, just trying her level best. She just...
is trying to be there for her daughter at every turn. And really that's what that entire sort of like soliloquy in the hospital was like,
we just never got there. Like calling a spade a spade, like it was always easy with your brothers, but you and I, like no matter what, we just like, we just can't connect. There's always something in between us. But like as your mom, I'm always going to be there. Like my job is not to judge that, is just to be there with my arms open. And I think again, like as a parent to a daughter now, it's just, I was like, wow, it just has me thinking about mother-daughter relationships and a
very, you know, profound way that I just haven't been able to, you know, wrap my head around yet. They're different, right? Oh God. Yes. Like, and, and something in my head tells me they shouldn't be. They, is they different being mother daughter versus mother son or what's the they different? Being like, I feel a different type of relationship with bear than I do with Aoife. Yeah.
And neither is better or worse. But it's just, I don't know. It's just different. - So this is interesting. You're one of the few, you guys are two of the few people that I have in like friend groups that have at least one of each. A lot of my friends, we either have all boys or all girls, right? Which is sort of interesting in terms of how we work through the world as parents. But I'll say just as two boys that you have, they're so different, sure.
They're like completely their own sort of thing. And I don't have a little girl to sort of compare to. You're going to be Uncle Sterling. I'll be Uncle Sterling. But so from that conversation that you have, she does have a conversation with Toby. They come together and...
they both talk about how they want to try again. Like not immediately, but they're going to and that's, and they're not, they are not going to let this break them. Yeah. I feel like something I edited out of this episode because when Toby comes in, he does not look happy to see you. Yeah. And I feel like, I feel like there was a short scene in this where it was like, Toby had like,
teen-cated up a little bit because it's something that she said to him about not wanting to talk to you about it. Gosh, that feels vaguely familiar. Right? About like, do you want me to come? No, no, no, don't come. And then you come anyway. Oh, really? Yeah, yeah. Like I came against your wishes. And it might be wrong. Yeah, yeah. It might be wrong, but I come in
With a weird mood. And I was like, ew, that's a wrong choice, Chris. No. No, no. But I also think like you came back, you needed some space to sort of clear your head so you didn't bring that energy to your lady. Sure. And you're expecting to have a moment alone with her and you're like, oh. Oh, your mom's here? Sure, sure, sure. Well, it totally works. It totally works. But I do feel there's something about that. It made me flash on something. Yeah. Yeah. You might be right because that does ring a bell a little bit.
That's interesting. There were... Rebecca and Toby had, you know, they had their moments. Sure. Did you? I mean, it was just like... It wasn't unfriendly, but I think in the beginning, initially, like...
Rebecca was slightly dubious earlier on of Toby. Rightly so. Rightly so. And Toby was a little dubious of Rebecca. Because Kate essentially told him to be. They had a complicated relationship. So I feel like there is something about what you say that does feel plausible. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Always so respectful, though. I never saw him do anything. No, no, not disrespectful.
and he has great boundaries and he sticks up for his lady and has respect for her. There's a whole thing like, whatever you're trying to do, I'm team Kate. Yeah, I remember that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. The thing that I remember from that moment, because I'm always wondering if Rebecca will read the room based upon previous encounters with Kate.
And so as soon as you come in, she's like, I'm going to go around the corner to that coffee place. Because she knows these two people need to have a conversation. And what I remember then, and filling in any gaps or whatnot, you guys said, we will try again. Not immediately, but we will. And you see her smile. You see you smile. We go out to the shower curtain. We pick it out of the trash. And I was wondering, should we rinse this? Yeah.
But they just hang it right back up. I mean, technically it's a shower curtain, so it will get rinsed. It will get rinsed, I suppose. They're hanging it up together. Side note, me and shower curtains. That thing, when the shower curtain sucks into your body, I have no more shower curtains in my house. But that's because I've reached a place in my life where I can afford not to have shower curtains in my house. You have a glass shower door. That sticking onto my body thing where I have to keep pushing it off to wash? Yeah, yeah. Not my face.
- It also means that you have great water pressure creating that vacuum to pull the, there are things to be grateful for. - So that's the end. - That'll make the retread segment. - That's the end of that episode with again, cutting back to the final home video thing about we're about to see number three begin his walking journey.
Something tells me, in real life, Randall would have walked first. Randall probably would have walked first. 100%. And then taught the other two how to do it. Possibly. So we're going to take a little break, but when we come back, we actually have Chrissy here. Yeah. To chat with us a bit about this particular episode. We picked her brain a bit. So we'll be back with some Chrissy and more. That was us. Let's do it. Let's do it.
Okay, we're discussing episode 209, also entitled Number Two. And as a special guest, this episode focuses on Kate. And we have in the house Chrissy Metz. Here you are.
Okay, so we're talking about episode 209 and it's sort of the end of 208. We see Kevin come see Randall and Kevin's about to tell something to his brother. And we think he's about to say something about what's going on in his life. And Randall says to him, oh man, I already know.
Kate lost the baby. Yeah. And I'm curious because there's been a whole buildup to this point of like how you've actually told Toby, please don't get your hopes up about this. Like I'm pregnant, but like it's a geriatric pregnancy. We don't know how it's going to go. So until this child is actually out of my body, living in the world, I kind of need you to keep it down. Then he hootie and the blowfish did. And then he hootie and the blowfish did. And there was all this excitement and enthusiasm. All the way up.
- And then the way they told Kevin as well. Remember with the- - Oh yeah, with the hoodies. That was good times. Question to you in terms of your recollection, if you can make yourself go back in time, like just sort of playing that sense of loss.
of not having to have the pregnancy go to fruition? Do you have any sort of memory of what it was like going through? Yeah, well, first of all, a lot of people have approached me about this particular topic. Yeah. Because it's not really talked about and not the way that we did it. Sure. And I think it was very real. And I think a lot of women...
have this sense of responsibility like, "Oh, I'm the one carrying the child." Like, something is wrong with me if something goes wrong. And I think that's a lot of what Kate felt like. Her weight and her weight has been her issue all her life. And so like, could this have been prevented? And like, if she was thinner sooner, could this have been a better pregnancy? And then disappointing her husband and who knows what's going to happen.
How will the baby, you know, how is the baby's health? Like all of those things that circle around anybody's head, whether they're overweight or considered geriatric or not. I think geriatric is 35 or over. We need a rebranding. We need a rebranding. It needs a real rebrand. That and the BMI. But anyway. I think now they call it advanced maternal age. Do they? Okay. Still, we need a rebranding. We need a rebranding. So if we could do that, guys. It's one of those things that I think,
every woman goes through and I've obviously never been pregnant. But what I sort of leaned into was,
a real thought of like, what if I do want to have a child? And like, how scary that would be if I'm too old now or I'm, I put my body in a position to not have the most healthy baby and like really internalizing that and making it my own fault. You know, I think that is a really real thing. And maybe for so long, I was like, oh, I don't, I wouldn't want children. Yeah. But not having the option is another story. A completely different story. A completely different story. And that's after like all the IVF and everything else that Kate went through. Yeah. And all those, you know,
I have so many friends who have gone through that and have not had luck and have spent thousands of dollars. And it's emotional. It's expensive. It's taxing on your body. It's a lot. So all of those things definitely came into play. And then obviously playing the miscarriage is like...
One of my sisters had a miscarriage and she's never talked about it, but after the episode, she was able to talk to me about it. Wow. Yeah. And I was like, wow, this is amazing. We're talking about my own family. So yeah, it really made, I think, an impact on so many people. Whether you wanted children or had one or didn't, it was...
really hard to play though. Yeah. I have a dear friend who came out around this episode and around the same time I did a reading of a podcast from the New York Times when they talk about like true love stories. Oh, modern love. Modern love. Yeah. And it was a modern love on a woman who had had a miscarriage.
And I don't know, like they chose my voice for this thing because maybe it's from the husband's perspective. I can't remember exactly. But a female friend of mine reached out to me and she wound up telling me who has two children and the way her pregnancies went were miscarriage, child, miscarriage, child, miscarriage.
And she's like, how difficult and the shame that she felt for herself is like, is something wrong with me? Exactly what you're talking about. But like in terms of how often it is represented and how oftentimes that shame keeps you from putting it out into the world. But then just seeing that somebody else went through it and that
It wasn't just me that this is something that ha-- - I have to say before, if anything, like what we discovered in the process of preparing for the episode, I think there's one in 10 pregnancies are a miscarriage. - One in four. - One in four? It's even higher. - Yeah, before the-- - Oh wow, okay, one in four. - Yeah.
So much more common than is depicted in the world, is talked about. There is still so much stigma around it, like you said. So much shame and guilt. The shame that I think women feel. There's no... It doesn't feel like anyone's educated on how to talk about it. It doesn't feel like there's a good time to talk about it or the possibility of it or the...
the reality that it is a possibility. And to be able to have this context to tell it, to talk about it through the TV show. Yeah. Is I think what our show does a lot actually is give people the context to talk about hard things. Sure. And the permission. Yeah. Like, oh, well, you know what Kate went through? Yeah. It definitely gives you like a little blueprint of sort.
There's so much to dive into, not just with this episode, but like with every, the entire arc of your character. I really hope that you can come back and chat with us more. We'd love to. We love you, Chrissy. I love you. I love you. I love you. All right. That was that for That Was Us. Bye. Bye. Welcome to the retread brought to you by Peloton. Find your push, find your power with Peloton. Yeah.
This retread, what we talk about. We talked to Chrissy. Chrissy came back. She came back, which was always a pleasure. Justin hasn't been once. Chrissy's been twice. Not once, but Chrissy's been twice. That's true. We talked about the miscarriage of the baby, obviously. That's right. We talked about the incorrect way to clean up dog pee. We did. We did. You do not dab it with a paper towel. You do not need to dab your dog. We do need to take that up with Ken Olin. Probably. Because he did direct this episode and let that slide. Missed that one. In all three episodes, by the way. Sure, yeah.
We also told Chris Ronald of admitting that there was a scene that Key would have redone, which was the banging on the car horn. Yeah, on the steering wheel. Finally found a mistake. Well, you also made the mistake of punching with your fist the steering wheel at first before you realized you got to open, call, and that. People in general, when you get mad, just leave your car alone. The car didn't do anything. Quit banging on it. It's not that deep. Quit banging on it. We saw a couple sort of going through something and finding their way back to each other.
I think it was really lovely. And not just a couple, but a mother and a daughter. - That's right. - Sort of from the past, having a little bit of friction and then finding one of my favorite moments of Mandy Moore walking through the door to hug her child in her time of need, melting my heart. That was this week's "Retread with Peloton." Find your push, find your power with Peloton. "That Was Us" is filmed at Rabbit Grin Studios and produced by Rabbit Grin Productions. Music by Taylor Goldsmith and Griffin Goldsmith.
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