Going to my first LA party
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Hey guys, I'm currently in LA and I'm currently in my hotel room in LA and I genuinely feel like I might have a heart attack at any given moment. This is not a brand deal, but this I've been drinking this shit Celsius. I thought this was like an energy drink that Americans had like Red Bull or something and I'm drinking it and I'm like, why the fuck am I having a panic attack? What is in this? And I don't know what's in this.

Like a lot of caffeine, I guess. But what's scary is it says that it's going to burn my body fat and accelerate my metabolism, which to me sounds like I'm going to shit myself later. That's what that fucking sounds like. That sounds like a nice way of saying you're going to take a really big shit. So can't wait, I guess. Not that I do that, obviously, I don't poop.

Maybe other girls, not me. Can I just quickly say, like, I'm just going to pat myself on the back so quickly. I've not suffered with jet lag one day since I got here. I landed at 3 p.m., stayed up till 10 p.m., slept from like 10 p.m. till like 8 a.m. or 7 a.m., went out, did my stuff all day, went to bed at like 10 p.m., woke up and I have not had one bad night of sleep since I got here.

Also, if you're watching the video version of this podcast, this hoodie has got so many questions. Now, again, I'm going to pat myself on the back. All right. This hoodie is from Urban.

okay because i responded to someone in my comments and i don't think that everybody saw it and everyone keeps messaging me where did you get the hoodie guys what the fuck is so exciting about this hoodie first of all it's in the worst color that you could put anything in which is navy blue okay they do sell other colors right but it's just it's literally just a hoodie like there's nothing different about it i do like these sleeves and i look it's a great fit and it's comfortable don't get me wrong but like it is like i've seen this before you know what i mean

no hate to urban but like why is everyone so obsessed with it anyway that said right i am jumping on my own bandwagon and i'm gonna go buy like five more of these just in case because apparently they're cute like i bought it and i was like oh like i think it's cute but i can't really tell like maybe that's fucking ugly and also why am i buying a hoodie i'm in la it's 23 degrees and then i bought it anyway and everyone was like oh my fucking god where did you get your fucking hoodie and i was like wow look at me i'm a fucking genius and

Knew that one would pop off, you know? I feel like I'm really getting down with the lingo, down with the kids. The kids are down with me, that's for sure. Also...

I've been getting this coffee every single day. I'm gonna show you guys it. It's from this place called Alfred's. Well, this is only gonna work if you're watching the video. If you're not watching the video, I'm gonna describe it to you. But they're these massive 24-ounce coffee cups that they do like everywhere here, which is actually absurd. And then it's filled like halfway, I'm not even kidding, with vanilla syrup and then the rest is like coffee.

And I've been drinking like at least two a day. And genuinely, I keep feeling hungover. Like I keep feeling like shaky, like run down. And I was like, what the fuck? Am I jet lagged? Is it like the difference? Like my gut biology is like getting spiked right now with American foods and bacteria. I was like, maybe that's it. And then it dawned on me.

It's probably not even the caffeine. I'm probably literally on a come down from the amount of sugar that I'm consuming in this country. Or I guess you guys do cornstarch, whatever the fuck that means. I don't know if we do that in the UK. I feel like we don't. Oh, no, I'm not thinking cornstarch. I'm such a ditz. I was thinking no high fructose corn syrup because this says no corn syrup, no aspartame, no preservatives, no artificial colors and zero sugar. Cute.

Love it. It's the most vile thing. Everyone said that I shouldn't be drinking that flavor though because I put on my Instagram story asking why the fuck it's spicy.

Because it's actually spicy. You know what it tastes like too? God, it's actually making me swell. Like, what is in this? It tastes like cowpoll kind of. And I hate cowpoll. I never enjoyed cowpoll. Apparently I was like the only one. But I think cowpoll is literally the most disgusting thing in the world. Anyway, what can we talk about? I've had a really nice time since I've been here. I've been vlogging the whole thing, which is on my YouTube if anybody wants to watch the vlogs. But it's like, I don't actually know anybody in LA, right?

So I kind of knew like going in to a new city, like I intentionally came here for a long time because I wanted to experience something new. Like I've been very much trapped in this mundane cycle of life back home. This episode is brought to you by Mejuri. You know, I had a thought the other day. Since Rwanda jewelry becomes something we only bought on special occasions.

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joyba on Instagram and TikTok at joyba.fun for fun giveaways and to find a retailer near you. I like never really lived in London. Like I finished uni and I moved home like most people do. And that was like a temporary plan. Like I feel like it is for most people that you don't want to be living at home in your 20s. But then like...

Life is hard like it's scary out there and I didn't end up getting a flat for a year I was so I was with my mom for a year and I finally found a place and I moved in in London and then I hated it like not because I was living alone I enjoyed that aspect of it but like the flat was a mess like I've told you guys before like nothing in it worked like everything in it was broken my landlord was an asshole like I was living in like a low energy like I was living somewhere that I hated and

And like I've lived in places I don't like before. Like none of my uni houses were particularly luxurious. But like I think being like not feeling actually like comfortable in your own home. Like you can't get away from noise. Like come on it's the one place in the world that you're meant to have where it's like peaceful. And it was the last thing that that was. Like it was not peaceful. So I was like okay why am I staying here? I'm stressing myself out. So anyway I end up moving back home. And

with my mom again, which is fine. Like, I really love my mom. Like, I like where I live with my mom. Like, it's a nice place. It's walkable. It's peaceful. You know what I mean? But like, I was getting way too complacent being there because like, as nice as it is,

that is what's so scary about it because that's when people get stuck like there's so many of my friends that I grew up with that are never gonna leave like they they they will tell me to my face like yeah I'm here for life like it's crazy because like things aren't amazing there but like they're not bad enough that you need to leave or like you need to like you don't need to leave like you could easily stay there forever like nothing's really gonna force you to to do anything like it's it's like the curse of being comfortable you know what I mean comfortable too early on in life

And it just, I just hate being there for that reason because like I also, I really, really, I don't know, I get too comfortable too quickly as well. And then I feel like,

I get comfortable, I'm enjoying it, and then it dawns on me at 3am one night that, like, I'm missing out on life. And, like, everyone else my age, it feels like is, like, in a city with their friends, going out, doing things, meeting people. And I'm like, when the fuck was the last time that I even left this village? Like, it's so bad. And I had got back into one of those, like, slumps of, like, not going anywhere, being comfortable, just having a little routine. And look, it's good for me sometimes. Like, I need...

rest like that and it really was enjoyable but I was like it got to the point where I was like whoa

what the fuck am I doing for myself? Like, I have been in this town for two months. I have seen no one. I've spoke to no one. Like, yes, I post my little videos and I do my little things. But like, ultimately, these are my years. Why am I hiding? You know what I mean? Like, if that's the life you want, that's a different thing. But like, it's not the life I want. It's not the life I'm trying to build for myself. So why am I sat there in that life? You know what I mean? So that was when I like,

Really decided I want to come to LA for like two weeks and just meet people, speak to people. And I don't fucking know, go to Target. Like that's literally all I've done. I've spoke to some really cool people. Like I've met some really nice people since I've been here. Yesterday, I got a breakfast with this girl, Avia, who is literally one of the sweetest human beings I think I've ever, ever come across in my entire life. And actually, I think we said we were going to go... I say I think because...

I have the worst memory. Like, I'm so sure we said Friday. I should probably check. But we're going to go hiking on Friday to watch the sunrise because I saw that she posted this TikTok where she'd like gone hiking to watch the sunrise. So I asked her, I was like, where did you go for that? She was like, we could go together. I was like, oh my God. Yes. So anyway, I met this nice girl, Avia. We're going to go hiking. And then last night I had dinner with some really nice people as well. And it was just like, I feel like

I had the wrong idea of L.A. in my head because I feel like people talk so much shit about it. Like, oh, like everyone here is like it's all social currency and like man, man, man. Like like even in my comments, I'll see it like I'll complain about it. Like I'm fucking bored and L.A. is weird. And and then some be like, oh, yeah. How many people have like asked you how many followers you have or like how many people have done this? I mean, I'm like, I know who you're hanging around, but that's never happened to me.

Is that, can I even make that statement? Because I've only been like three times and I don't go to parties. But like, that's never happened to me ever. Like, I guess I choose my company very specifically. And like, I do not go out. That is, I've never been to a party here. Never been to a party anywhere. Like, I do not go to parties. It's not my scene. But tonight, actually, wait, guys, I might eat my words. Because tonight is the first time I'm ever going to be like,

going to an event in LA. It's my first event that I'm going to. I'm actually really excited because it's with Kosas and it's for the launch of the new BB Burst, which is really, I'm actually really fucking excited for tonight. Like genuinely, I'm a little bit nervous because I got a little like brunch with the founder of Kosas, who is genuinely one of the nicest women I think I've ever met in my life. And she was like,

Oh yeah, are you excited for Wednesday? Like your face is going to be everywhere. I was like, no, that's awful. Like that didn't occur to me because obviously we did like this big photo shoot and that's like the little like PR. I don't know what the fuck they're called. Like the pieces of paper that have the product on them, whatever that is, like that's got my face on it. And obviously this is like the launch party event thing. So that piece of paper will probably be in many, many locations in this room. No, no.

It'll be fine. I need to go get an outfit. I don't have an outfit, which is actually really, really bad of me because I asked them, I was like, what is the dress code? And they were like, oh, it's a casual. So in my head, I'm like, oh, cool. Like, I don't know, maybe like,

like flat shoes but like a long skirt and like a nice top you know what I mean like and then one of my agents like chirps in because like she knows me a little bit better than anybody else and like she knows that what I'm thinking when I say casual is like fucking so not what they mean by casual she's like oh but heels heels right and

They're like, oh yeah, like wear high heels. I was like, there's a language barrier for sure. Like what the fuck? I found that so funny. I was like the way she knew that I was not thinking what they were thinking when they said casual. So I have to wear heels. Apparently that's casual. I love this country. But yeah, I'm like excited. But I guess my point was that I might eat my words because tonight is the first night that I'm like mingling with strangers, I guess, in LA. And I don't know what...

With the situation with that is like, are they all going to be mean to me and pick on me because they're cooler than I am? Maybe. Or are they all going to be really nice? Like everyone I've ever met in L.A. has been really nice. Maybe that. Because I don't know, like what? Where are these evil, horrible monsters that everyone's talking about when they reference L.A.? Like the social climbers. I mean, social climbers exist everywhere. I guess they probably are worse here. But like why? OK, you know what? That just dawned on me. Why is no one using me to social climb?

This is hurtful now. This is actually starting to affect my feelings a little bit, guys. That is really horrible. You know what? Actually, so funny. This thing dawned on me once. And that was that. Basically, I saw this post and it was this person with like a big following and she was complaining and she was like, like some of my like old friends, they used to...

She said they used to never post her on their socials. And then the second that she got followers, like suddenly everyone wants to post with her and like wish her happy birthday on public Instagram and like blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And everyone's like, yeah, so annoying. Like so annoying. It's because you've got like loads of clout and everyone loves you now. I sat there like, hold on. No one's posting me. I still only make it to the private story. What the fuck is that about? What? Please, guys, please. I would love it. Please, please.

I feel a little bit left out. I feel a little bit neglected. Oh my God. I had the craziest experience like three or four days ago. Right. I was like so unhappy this day. I woke up like void in my chest. I was like, oh my God, I haven't seen anyone. And like, I feel so lonely and like, I'm so bewildered in this city. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to spend my time because I kind of came here thinking like I wanted to relax and like

kind of just see LA and understand what LA is about and like just be somewhere that wasn't London like I don't have a reason to like move to LA but equally I don't really have a reason to move to London and I don't really have a reason to like be with my mum at her house I don't have a reason you know I mean like I don't need to be anywhere which is a really strange feeling but like I don't like there's nothing holding me to any location right now which is

is such an amazing place to be in like somewhere that I'm only gonna be for so long and like I feel like I should make the most of it and you know probably not live at my mom's when that's the case like I'm 23 and I don't have to be anywhere for any specific reason why am I in some small village in rainy old England like come on like get the fuck up get up bitch go see the world like go make some friends or something I don't know

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Because fine jewelry doesn't have to cost the world. Feel good about your jewelry in more ways than one. Start stacking your favorites, shop online, or visit the website to find a store near you. So anyway, that's kind of why I've been like here for as long as I have because I could have just like come for the Coastless event and then like gone home. Like I don't, I didn't really need to be here for two weeks, but like it kind of

all came crashing down on me. And I was like, wait, I actually don't really have that many friends here. And like the friends that I do have, I've already seen and got breakfast with and like, I'm not gonna like hit them up three days in a row. Like, hey, babe, what's next? You know what I mean? Like, I was like, Oh my god, like, I really am very lonely. And I spent the whole day driving around, kind of just trying to find things to do, but feeling genuinely like really down. Like, I spent all my time alone in England, but it never gets me down.

I guess I felt probably a little bit homesick and like maybe I was missing my dog. I don't know. It was a really, really weird day for me. A really weird feeling. Like it felt as if something terrible had happened in my life, but I didn't know what it was. Like the same feeling you have on like the first day of a breakup, like that heavy feeling. Like I had that with me all day. And then I went for dinner downstairs, like to the restaurant by myself. And then there was this girl who

She sent me a drink from the bar. So like I was at one of the tables and then I ordered my dinner and I ordered it with a margarita. So I was like, fuck it. Like I try not to drink, but I was like, you know what? It's deserved. I deserve a fucking drink today. And so I ordered just one drink. I was going to cut myself off after one. And then the waitress comes over and she's like, this is from a guest at the bar and it's another margarita. And I was like, what the fuck? That's so funny. Like, and

Who is flirting with me? Also, guys, I've been flirted with like crazy here. Not to flex, but like it has... Whoa. It has actually been so strange. Like, I don't know what it is. The men in LA, they love me. Like, men in London, they don't want really anything to do with me at all. Like, they are not interested in me. I don't know what it is. But here, I swear to God, my eyes have been complimented like five times a day by boys. It's great. Like...

I've never experienced this kind of male attention in my life. I'm not saying that it's like something that I want. I'm just saying it's something that I need actually.

It's been like funny. They keep telling me I have nice eyes. Like one guy even complimented my glasses. Please, no, leave me alone. Anyways, I'm obviously joking. So this girl sends me like a margarita from the bar and I'm like, what the fuck? But she didn't tell me if it was a girl or a boy and I was like, what is going on? And I was looking at the bar trying to figure out who the fuck sent me this drink and I'm only seeing couples. So now I'm concerned that someone is either trying to have a threesome with me

I'm like, there's this girl at the end of the bar and I'm like, maybe it's her. And I was confused. I was like, no, like it wouldn't be her.

and then anyway I like could not figure it out for the life of me and I end up just like going up to my I was like do I buy them one back no because if it's a man then like I just put my fucking foot in it if I do that I was like if it's that girl I would get her a drink back but like I don't know because maybe she's gay and then that's like I'm like suggesting something and like man I was like getting in my head so I was like okay fucking going to bed so I go back up to my room

And then I was going out for like a cigarette. Don't tell anyone that I said that guys, that's between me and you. That's what I was doing secretly. And so I like come through the hallway and I like open the door and I see the same girl with her suitcase there. I was like, oh my God. And she like follows me out. And she was like, hey, I hope you don't mind, but I brought you that drink earlier. And I was like, oh my God, it was you. Like I thought maybe it was you, but I didn't want to like assume anything. She was like, yeah, it was me. Like, I like your videos. And then I was like,

oh, that's so sweet. Thank you so much. And then somehow we got talking and she was like, basically telling me that I'm not going to like tell you guys her fucking life story because that's hers. But she was like, she had not had the best day. I was like, oh my God, like what the fuck? It was a shit day. I was like, let me buy you a drink back. So we end up going back downstairs to the bar, getting some more margaritas,

We ended up, I think, I don't know, I maybe met this girl at like 8 or 9 p.m. And I think we stopped, like, she left at like 1 a.m. Like, we spent the entire evening together. We had so much fun. And I literally feel like she was like my soulmate. I was like, because she was, I was like, bro, you've had like the worst day. And I was just like so lonely today. Like,

I was just like, I really needed like company. But and then you just like came out of nowhere and we just got on so well. Like just I rarely find people that I get on with like that. Like there's a lot of people in the world that I can bend myself to and get on with them for like the sake of being with them for the period of time that I'm with them. You know what I mean? But I leave feeling like

like, a little bit drained or a little bit like, okay, that wasn't like very genuine or like, I don't know, like I put something on I made I made an effort for that to go well, if I had been completely authentic in that interaction, we probably wouldn't have got on so well, you know what I mean? Like,

I always feel like I am the one like bending to the social situation and but with her I was like this is actually like the most sweet normal girl like and I feel so like this is just nice like she's just like a nice girl I don't know it was just really sweet and she was so funny and then she kind of just disappeared into the wind like I like she went off at like 1am and and then I texted her to make sure she was okay the next day anyway it was it was like a really rogue little experience and I don't know I like

things like that don't happen to me I do not speak to strangers but this time I did and it worked out really well so that was kind of fun I like did not tell anyone about that that is so funny why I not told anybody that that happened I know like okay so like some of the only people that I know in LA are like my agents like the people that basically get me money like that's how you get paid doing what I do right you need people to like talk to brands on your behalf and there's like

they are basically the only people I really know in LA. And like, I feel like I give them panic attacks because like, I will just tell them like, oh yeah, I fucking did this. And they're like, what? Like, I was telling them that I rented a car out the back end of this fucking hotel and they were looking at me like, you did what? I was like, yeah, no, you're so right. Like that could have 100% got me killed. Oh my God, guys.

I got to LA and my car that I had pre-rented was not like, I couldn't pick it up basically because I didn't see on their website that it said you have to have a credit card. Like I've never experienced that before where you have to have a credit card for something. And I prepaid on my debit. So I was like, what is the issue? But I got there and he was like, no, I need a credit card on file.

And I was like, what the fuck? I don't even own a credit card. And I was so defeated. I was like, no. I was like, you'd do anything for me. And the guy was like, yeah, like, I know a guy. Hold on. And he, like, goes, he makes a phone call. And then he's like, okay, my friend is going to pick you up. I was like, oh, your friend is going to pick me up? Like, what the fuck? And...

And he didn't really tell me, like, the name of the company that his friend worked for, like, what was going on. He was just like, no, my friend can help you. And I was just tired. I was like, okay, fine. Your friend can fucking help me? Cool. So he's like, go wait outside. He's going to pick you up. And I kind of expected it to be, like, I don't know why I thought this. I do know why I thought this. So, like, it was, like, near the airport. So they had a bunch of, like, transport systems to get you from the airport to the car rental. And they were all, like, branded.

So I kind of thought it'd be like another one of those or some kind of like commercial vehicle. You know what I mean? This guy rocks up. He's wearing a Nike hoodie and skinny jeans in an unmarked Kia. And I was like, that's not possibly who you meant, but it was. And now to my surprise, I found that my legs were walking towards the car with all three of my suitcases. And I thought, this is a brilliant way

to get trafficked like this is this is probably I'm like not even making it hard for them you know what I mean like I never do like the amount of situations I've been in where I'm like god like I'm probably their dream victim like I just willingly come you know so I'm like walking towards him he looks nice enough but like it's a completely unmarked car like it's not an uber or anything like it's not a tracked vehicle and he's like let me let me help you with your bags

And by the way, he's in a parking lot that is not associated with the official car rental place that I'm already at. He's, like, in the parking lot over. Like, he's not even come to, like, the main area. He puts my shit in the back of his car. At this point, I'm like, this is really stupid because even if he's not going to steal me, he could 100% steal my bags. And that is, like, equally as annoying, you know? Anyway, I get in the car. And then this is when I start to think, like, wait, I'm, like, so vulnerable right now. Like, I'm just...

in the back of this man's car, like kind of got the ick for myself because I was like, who does this? Like, this is actually borderline embarrassing. Anyway, it's like a five minute drive, which the guy at the initial place, he was like, the other place is like five minutes away. So I was like counting down the time while I'm in this guy's car. Like if I'm in here for more than five minutes, I'm going to start screaming because I don't know where you're taking me. Anyway, five minutes go by and we pull in to this hotel.

And then I'm like, fuck, like, I'm definitely, like, I've put my foot in it now. Like, what the fuck is going on? One foot in the grave. Like, why would a hotel stink? It's, we're gonna rent a car. You know what I mean? And then he's like, okay, leave your bags in the car and come in. And I was like, I can't leave my bags in the car. Like, you can't.

What if you're going to take them while I'm not looking? You know, what if you have a friend who is going to come up to the car knowing my shit is in here and he's going to take my bags while you take me inside, you know? So I'm like, okay, fine. I'll leave my bags in the car because, you know, I don't want to cause an issue for anybody.

That would be obnoxious. So I leave my bags in the car. I took one bag with me because I had my laptop in it and my passport. So I was like, okay, I'll leave everything else in the car. I'm bringing this one. And so I bring it in. And to my very pleasant surprise, he has a little office in the wall, which is not a thing in England. Like I've never seen that.

So I didn't even know. First of all, why did I enter the hotel with this man? What the fuck is wrong with me? But also, I'm just pretty confident that I could defend myself. I don't know why. He was not much taller than me. So I was like, yeah, no, I've got it. But I was completely defenseless. Anyways, I go in the hotel with him. And there's a little hole in the wall with a rental company car name above it.

and so it's like thank god like it's actually a rental company and I go in and he's like okay you're gonna take the car that I just drove you here in sign this and I just like signed my life away on this old piece of paper and he gives me the car and I'm on my way fucking crazy genuinely crazy and now that car is sitting at the hotel that I'm staying at racking up $70 a day in valet fines not fines valet charges like it's parking

costs. So that's really good. I don't really know what to do with the car because also it scared me like I turned it on and it was like service needed service needed and I was like I don't want to drive this like this I feel like is a liability like I'm gonna end up paying a lump sum to this company because something's gonna fucking break and it's not gonna be my fault but I'm gonna be charged for it. So I was just like you know I'm like not gonna even look at this car again and we've not driven it. We've not driven it. I have a different one now.

so I don't really know what to do with the other one because like I've already like I pre-paid it like it's like I could drop it back at the guy also it was not expensive it was 400 pounds which is a lot of money but when you think about it for like two weeks of driving like you would rack that up in uber costs in like a week also I still have so much that I want to do while I'm in LA like I wonder if I'll have put out a vlog by the time this podcast comes out

You guys know the answer to that, not me. But like, I really want to, I've been to a Target, but then I was talking to someone and they were like, all Targets are not created equal. Like, did you go to a good one? I was like, I don't think I went to a good one because it was fucking tiny and it stank. I was like a good experience, but like there wasn't as many home goods as I had desired. It was more like clothing.

Which like I wanted to buy like diffusers and like a flower pot. So it didn't really hit the nerve that I wanted it to hit, you know. I have like so many American places that I just have been curious about since I was seven. And I really want to go to them. And you know what else I want to do?

This is so fucking weird and embarrassing to actually admit online and maybe I shouldn't. But like when I first got my period, I like felt really scared by it. I don't know why. And so I used to like go on YouTube and type in like period advice videos. And it would be like teenage girls talking to me about their fucking periods. And I lived off of these. Like every month when I got my period, I would like go online and I would look up these fucking stupid videos. And a lot of them, they would have like...

like hauls of like tampons and pads. And like, I, it's such an American thing to do. I love it. But it's like, why are you doing a haul of your panty liners? It's crazy. But like, they would have like stocks and it was like doing, it was like the 2015 version of a restock. You know what I mean? Like, but like tampon version, maybe these things still exist. Maybe these videos are still out there. I don't know. But yeah,

I used to eat them up and it would really soothe me. But the thing they always would have was like, you buy Kotex. I'm pretty sure that's what it was called. And they would have the craziest designs on the wrappers. Now in the UK, like, I don't know, maybe they're sold there now. But like at the time or like wherever my mom was taking me to shop, the only real like good tampons and pads they had was like the Always brand. Or like, I can't remember what, I don't think I used tampons back then. But like I would, she would get me like the Always brand.

pads and they just have like a blue wrapper or like a green wrapper depending on the fucking flow absorbency so boring and they don't have like tween like sections because like i don't know just fucking it's a fucking pad like it's gonna do the same job you know i mean and so i feel like i was a little bit deprived of the joy of consumerism periods so i

I feel like that is something I really want to do while I'm here is go and find the stupid little panty liners and the stupid little tampons that I was so deprived of because they have fun wrappers and I'm just curious about them. It's TBH.

I remember I used to watch this one family and they were like definitely, definitely insane. And they had this daughter whose period they were obsessed with. Like every day, have you got your period yet? And she'd look at the camera, no. Next day, have you got your period yet? No. I remember when she did get her fucking period, Jesus Christ, I felt like the moon had exploded. Like that's the reaction that they got from the general public. It was insane.

saying, I feel really bad for her, actually. She's never, like, spoken out against it. She's, like, grown now. Like, I do wonder how she feels about that because her entire first menstrual cycle was fully documented by her mother for the public to, you know, view, which is crazy. But, like, I remember when she got her period, they linked up with another family vlogging channel and took their prepubescent teens and

to Target to get period kits to get excited for their first period. They would put the most like excessive shit in there like tampons, panty liners, pads and this was like to take to school with them every single day. Tied sticks, mini deodorants, fucking FemFresh like everything. Oh spare pair of pants, spare pair of trousers like everything

It was absurd. Like, you're fully prepared. I mean, it's a great idea. Like, you're fully prepared to, like, get your period at school and, like, fuck up your underwear. You know what I mean? But crazy. Crazy. Like, anyway, I thrived off that content. Like, I watched it with concern and a little bit of sadness in my heart, but also at the same time,

I ate that shit up. Like I really, really did. Fully fucking obsessed. And so I just like really want to do all the things that they used to do, like buy an upset amount of period products. And oh, I would also like to go to a Trader Joe's. I've heard good things. Do they have those in LA? Not sure. I really want to go to Trader Joe's and just walk around with one of those little shopping carts that they have there. I will vlog it. I'll do it. It'll be up on my YouTube. You guys can, you know, at your viewing leisure.

whenever you feel like it but what are my plans for today i need to go shopping because i need to get an outfit for tonight and then i actually am going on somebody else's podcast which i don't know if i'm allowed to say because i don't know if it'll be out by the time that this is posted

But I'm really I'm actually nervous because he has like a huge energy. And like, I'm so bad at matching people's energies. I just end up like shrinking into like a horrible small version of myself when people have big energies. It's weird. It's like if someone has a small energy, I become some kind of like Hulkish monster, like suddenly so confident, suddenly have so many things to say. And then the second someone has more energy or more confidence than me, I genuinely forget how to speak.

So I don't know what that's about. But I'm a little bit nervous, but we'll see. And then that is it. That is literally all I have for you guys this week. I'm really excited to like put the vlogs out because I love those. They go up on my YouTube. This podcast goes up everywhere. So I don't know where you're watching it right now. Maybe you're on my YouTube. Maybe you're on Spotify. Maybe you're on Apple. I don't know. I'm happy for you either way, obviously. But that is where the vlogs will be if you care, if you want to watch them, if you want to join me.

For the rest of LA, I'm really excited for tonight to go out and socialize because I do feel like I've been very much isolated since I got here. And I'm excited to see if people here are as scary as everyone says that they are because I'm starting to think that everybody's lying to me and that LA is actually just genuinely a nice place with good weather. Oh my God, I've definitely just cursed it. Like that is 100% a curse.

that I've just said right now. Oh well, I'm excited. I like it. I like life. I like all of the things that life has to offer even when it's mean people and scary things. I like that too. You know what I mean?

I have no complaints, really. Anyway, thank you guys so much for joining me for this week's episode of Pretty Lonesome. I love you all very, very much. And I will see you next week. Maybe I'll have a guest, maybe not. I haven't decided yet. I saw your suggestions that I asked for last week on who I should have on the podcast as a guest. So I'm just going to edge you a little bit there because I'm not entirely sure what's going to happen yet. But if not next week, maybe the week after. You know, you never know. So eagerly await the news. That's my suggestion to you.

I love you very much. I'll see you next week. Bye.