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Fear. We all have. And if you say you're not afraid of anything, bro, you're just lying. And since Halloween is right around the corner, or the video might be out after Halloween, I figured today I could talk about some of my own personal fears and fears that are just really weird and a lot of people have. Well, the fact that
fears like ovophobia exists, which is like the fear of eggs. I mean, I don't really understand how another human being can be afraid of eggs, but then again, I think about it and I have like some of the weirdest fears of all time. There's also a fear of dealing with numbers, numerophobia, and there's a fear of taking a
Yeah, these are some of the weirdest fucking fears I've ever seen, but bro, mine are not that weird. Like, come on, y'all gotta come me some slack. So I've ranked my fears, and I figured we'd start from the least weird to the most weird fear that I have. Now, we'll start with the fear of heights. This is probably like the most common one that I could think of that's on this list. For me, the fear of heights stops me from going on a roller coaster or doing anything like thrilling or fun, like ziplining.
bro. I don't know. I feel like I would just fucking shit myself as I'm gliding down the zip line. And I don't know, man, sometimes I'm at the mall and I just look down at the bottom floor and I just get a fucking gut feeling. That's just like, it's like fucking butterflies in my stomach. I just get the thought of me just plummeting down there. And then it itself makes me even scared to look down at the bottom floor. Like I just keep my head straight and I'm walking, bro. I am not looking at the bottom floor.
And I stay far away from that railing as possible because if I take one misstep, it's wraps. I'm done for. And the reason why I have a fear of heights is this next one. The fear of death. And I know that death is inevitable, but obviously since I'm really young and I have a lot of life to live, I'm gonna be afraid of death. I mean, when I'm fucking 90 years old, eating prunes and shit and taking medication, I probably won't be afraid of death. I'm gonna want it to happen sooner. But as dark as that is, I think it's just the truth.
But right now, I want to live life and experience as much as possible. And when I was seven years old, I was so scared of death. Like, when I first found out that, like, people die. Like, I literally just started fucking crying. And I'm like, I don't
died I was like 93 years left like I thought people just despawned at a hundred years old like I had no idea how the fuck it worked like I don't even know why I was worried about death if I had no idea how it worked when I was a kid there was other things that scared me to death like clown now clowns are a pretty common fear but a lot of people are like dude how the fuck are you afraid of clowns I just got a goofy ass nose and white makeup what the hell is so scary about I think
you see like it or some shit like that and nah bro it's over i'm fucking falling out of my chair or some shit watch the editor is gonna put it on screen i'm just gonna fucking jump okay my bad i low-key sounded like hank hill there obviously i'm not afraid of clowns as much anymore but they still gotta like get a creepy aura to them
When I was a kid, man, like I couldn't even like go to a birthday party. I'd fucking hide under the table or some shit if there was a clown there. Now, when I was a kid, this fear was kind of drilled into me still to this day. The fear of failure. Now, I don't know how common this one is, but I feel like this fear can be a good thing sometimes in some instances. But sometimes when I fail an exam, that shit got me stressing. I'm not going to lie.
But that being said, it does motivate me to work hard on YouTube no matter what happens. No matter if my video gets a 10 of 10, or if I get a strike, or a warning, or whatever the fuck happens, I'm just gonna keep it pushing. Because no matter what, that thought of just me failing is always gonna linger in the back of my head, and I'm not gonna want that outcome to happen. So I guess, in a sense, it does motivate me to work hard, but yeah, I still shouldn't be, like, super afraid.
But at the same time, I'm glad I'm using it to motivate me. But a fear that I have that I can't handle at all, bro? The fear of public speaking, bro. Nah. Every time I'm put on the spot or just anything that has to do with like speaking in front of a crowd, I just can't do it, bro. I'm just gonna be like, uh, uh.
Yeah, no, it's not gonna work. Like I will never get my sentences out fluently and clearly I'll always have some kind of stutter in my voice and my voice will sound trembly as hell and this was the worst especially with school Presentations they required you to speak for a certain amount of time, which is really fucking annoying Like I can't sit there and speak forever, you know, like I really only got so much to say I'm not gonna sit there and ramble for ages and plus I feel like
I would look stupid as hell if I was up there rambling for ages. Now, although I face this fear of public speaking many times, every time I think about speaking in front of a crowd, ugh, nah, I just get fucking butterflies in my stomach. But over the years, it's gotten a little bit better. Nomophobia, the fear of not having your phone.
Now, I only have this in some circumstances, like when I'm just fucking lost in the woods and my phone's dead or some shit. That would be the only circumstance where I would deal with nomophobia, like where I can't get into contact with anybody and I'm lost. But some people are just scared of a regular day without their phone. It's really not that scary, bro. It's not serious at all. Like, come on, bro, you can live without it for like a day. You know, it's not like you're deprived of food or water or anything.
But yeah, thinking of being lost in the woods with no contact, especially in today's day and age, like where we have contact with people at our fingertips. Yeah, it's fucking scary. I don't even want to think about it. And that leads me to like the fear of like open fields and open spaces. Now, like what I was saying, if I was lost in the woods, it's an extremely open field. So I don't even know what the fuck is out there. You know what I'm saying? I can't really get a full view of my surroundings.
So it's scary. Like who knows who's just lurking in the shadows? I don't fucking know. Like, and especially if it's dark out, man, who knows a bear could be out there after you. But amen, I've seen a bear before and I don't know, man. After seeing that, that gave me a fear of being in the woods alone or in an open field or whatever it is. That's why if I go camping, I always go with a friend.
I never go like camping or in the woods or on a hike or anything alone Like I always go with somebody and I always bring three portable phone batteries because I'm not caught lacking out here But the next fear on this list is the complete opposite claustrophobia the fear of small spaces if I'm in an elevator or some shit and it's crowded as hell like I'm squeezed in there like in a fucking can of sardines then the elevator just gets stuck and the lights turn off
Yeah, I don't know when I'm being saved at that point. I think it's over. And especially if somebody's stanky as hell. Oof, I think I'm gonna die in that elevator. But of course, I'm also afraid of crawl spaces. Ugh, I'm never going in one of them, Johns. I don't even care. Like, when I was a kid, I wouldn't even go in, like, the little, like, tubes that they had at McDonald's or Chuck E. Cheese or whatever the hell. I would just play the arcade games. I didn't even want to bother with that.
The kids in there were fucking devious, bro. Like I literally got stuck in there one time because two fucking kids wouldn't let me out. So I think that gave me a traumatic experience with that. And they smelled like ass too, so I could barely breathe. Now, speaking of not breathing, we got the fear of drowning.
And I guess this one goes hand in hand with a lot of the other fears that I listed. Now when I usually go in the water, I try to stay in the lower end anyways, but like I'm always thinking like, "Worst case scenario, what if I just fucking go underwater and I can't swim up for some reason?" And it did almost happen once, so I guess that's probably what sparked that fear for me. I was at a pool party once, and there were these kids like on, I don't know, it was for a baseball team or something, and pretty much they were all on floaties, like and they were covering the entire pool.
I got, like, pushed off my floaty under the water, and I couldn't even see where I was going, and there was, like, a shit ton of people on top of me. Pause. But anyways, I find my way out eventually, and I was- it was to the point where I was struggling to breathe a little bit. I didn't swallow water up or anything. That was getting pretty close to that point. I just used all the strength of my little second-grader arms, and I just fucking-
push the fat kid out of the way. Next, we got exotic bugs. Now, I'm not, obviously, I'm not afraid of like ants or anything, but if I see like a weird looking spider, that shit's gonna creep me out. It's just the way they be crawling around and shit. It's just like, ah. The thought of a bunch of bugs like crawling on my skin literally makes my skin crawl. Bugs are just fucking weird looking. I don't know, man. And I don't even know if there's a point to them existing, honestly. Like, what the hell are mosquitoes even for? I don't know. They literally just fucking
leave you with bites that itch. Like, that's just so fucking annoying. Like, I could be outside for two minutes and then all of a sudden I come back inside, I got six goddamn mosquito bites. Next we got vomiting. Dude, every time I get sick with, like, the stomach bug or something like that, bro, I'm always posted up just lying down in my bed, like...
I don't want to throw up. I don't want to throw up. I don't know why. Like, it's just like the fact that I can't breathe when I'm throwing up, man. It just makes me just feel uneasy. It makes me feel like I'm slowly dying, bro. Even though, yeah, I'm not going to die from throwing up. I fucking hate it so much, bro. My heart starts racing and shit every time I vomit. And even just the smell of it, bro. Oh my...
Even that in itself makes me want to throw up. Like literally every time I attended like a college party or went to a club or anything like that, I could literally just smell vomit. Like the smell of vomit was just hitting my nose because of how much people were throwing up. Yeah, bro. It was rough. That's why I don't really like to attend shit like that anymore.
It's kind of like a once in a blue moon thing for me. Now we got the fear of flying. Yeah, man. Sometimes when I'm on a plane, like I'm low-key a little bit scared. I'm like, oh my god, what if the plane just fucking crashes? Like, I don't know. I'm just being pretty irrational. I mean, most of the times I calm myself down, but...
Yeah, sometimes I hate flying for that reason because my brain kind of just overreacts and starts thinking about the worst possibilities. Like, I don't know. It's like I always forget about the safety measures that they take on these flights. I don't know why my brain be cooking up like the worst scenarios possible, man.
Like I'm just trying to get to wherever I'm going in peace. That one doesn't really occur too much for me. I mean, sometimes it does. But this next one has by far got to be the dumbest fear I have had in my entire life. Mushrooms. You're probably asking how the fuck can a human being be afraid of mushrooms? It was possible. Me as like a five, six year old kid, I was afraid of mushrooms. Now, I don't know what about mushrooms was so menacing to me.
Because it was like the first time I ever saw them in my life. When I like went outside one day, I was setting up for a birthday party. Me and my brother were just fucking around in the yard. And we both looked down and see mushrooms. And then we just book it inside and just start screaming. Like, what did I-
think a mushroom was gonna do to me. Like, I genuinely thought it was gonna, like, kill the whole family bloodline or some shit. Like, it was sitting in the yard. Like, why was I afraid of it? I don't even know. It was literally the smallest mushroom, too, but apparently I just looked it up, and although it's a very weird phobia, like, a lot of people actually have it, surprisingly. I don't know. Maybe I wasn't alone as a kid. Maybe there were other people who were afraid of mushrooms, but I don't know, man. Even to this day, ugh.
I don't know. They're low-key kind of weird looking. Obviously, I'm not going to scream and cower when I see one.