3 Steps To Building A Healthy Relationship
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modern dating wisdom from the mistakes you've made and the lessons you've learned and all this different stuff. If you could go back to, you know, 20 year old you, when you were a star track athlete in college and high school and things like that, and you could give him three pieces of advice. That's a great question. On how to really become a great man and to attract a great partner for yourself.

What would you say to him with that advice? That's a great question. I'd sit him down, probably, and first and foremost, I would remind him that sometimes feeling in love doesn't always mean that you are in love, and that sometimes feelings can be misleading.

You know, like you can feel that spark, you know, or seduction and things like that. And that you're pining over someone and that intensity of that excitement all can be misconstrued into love and things like that. I'd also remind him that there's no benefit to being a love martyr. What do you mean by that? It's actually something I was just doing another friend's podcast and it kind of came up because, you know, my background, I grew up,

I had a great childhood, you know, lovely parents, family of, I have 10 brothers and sisters. I'm the second oldest of 11 kids. Wow. Parents are still married today. They were a great example of love. We grew up Catholic. And so there's a little bit, I don't know how familiar I was with Catholicism, but there's a little kind of martyr and the whole thing. And so I think that kind of passed down to us kids. But, you know, what I learned from my parents was that love is special.

But it's also, you know, relationships can be really hard. And, you know, then you grow up watching rom-coms and TV shows. Disney. Yeah, and movies like The Notebook who have all these high stakes and, quite frankly, a lot of toxicity in relationships. But those types of shows teach you that none of it really matters as long as you end up together. And in reality, that's not really the case. But as a young man...

I kind of took those lessons and thought to myself, well, love is hard, you know, special and it's hard. So you just have to fight through, you know, all these challenges. And yes, every relationship has its challenges and you, you know, you have to work through stuff. But I kind of turned into a bit of a love martyr. You know, I got to the point where.

it didn't really even matter if i liked them you know it's like i didn't ask myself questions like do i enjoy their company do they enjoy mine are we even compatible it was more like well i'll fight for the relationship so much that the more i fought for it the the more special i thought that relationship was and what that meant even if they weren't the right match even if it wasn't the right match i mean there were you know my first girlfriend god bless her i met her when i was 18 we broke up so many times usually it was her breaking up with me and and

And every time she broke up with me, it was like I had to fight for the relationship because, you know, again, love is special. And whether it was my parents telling me that love is special, but you have to work hard on things. You know, I had the right intentions, so to speak, but like it was a bit misguided.

And I think through that, I spent a lot of energy on people who, quite frankly, it just wasn't the right fit. But I kind of misconstrued my intentions, so to speak, and, you know, kind of became that love martyr. And I think a lot of people are, you know, sometimes where you kind of get stuck in these relationships and you think about things like, well...

I can't break up now. We've been dating for so long. As if like- We're so invested, right? Yeah. So invested. And there would be no value to these past three years of our relationship if we end the relationship. So I have to keep fighting. And if I fight, I will somehow be rewarded. And my love will be special because the worse it is, the harder I have to fight. And if the harder I fight, the more special it is. And that's such a misconstrued, toxic way to look at relationships. But

I very much did. So I would, I would tell him not to be a love martyr. Okay. And the third thing? I would tell him to be careful about listening to your ego over your heart, you know? And I think that's something I did a lot of and I confused validation with love, you know? And I think we do that a lot. So when our ego takes over and I think, you know, sometimes I talk a lot about ego on my show.

Almost to the point where I feel like it gets like a bad rep in a way. But it's not really true. You know, I don't know if you're like a comic book fan at all, but...

I kind of equate ego to like a superpower. Okay. A superpower that like if you an X-Men, are you familiar with like the Phoenix character? Right. She's so powerful that she can't control her own power to the point where it harms others. And that's kind of like your ego. Your ego can be a superpower. Your ego is what gives you the confidence to like act as if, you know, you had to have some kind of ego to do something.

what you've done, right? To say, I could do this. Why not me? You know, that takes a little bit of ego and that confidence and that allows you to step up the plate to, you know, face impossible challenges. But if you can't control that ego, if you can't, you know, be mindful of, you know, when it creeps up, it can really lead you down dark paths. You know, your ego will tell you,

that you have to change the wrong thing, chase the wrong thing. Because again, your ego is like saying, well, you're not good enough that, you know, that person who won't give you respect, who doesn't make you a priority, who treats you with disrespect. Well, if you can get them to change their behavior for you, even though they've done all this with other, all these other people, you'll be special. Wow. And, and,

chasing that feeling of being special because my ego thought, well, you know, because I was a, you know, I played sports. I was a competitive guy. You know, that challenge, you know, that fix of the recognition of, oh, you did this. I can't believe you did this. You got that, you know, that...

boy or whatever to like to settle for you. Hey, no one else could do that, but you got to do that. And that must make you special. And so that chasing the validation and not, and not being mindful of when your ego was telling you to chase the wrong thing,

got me into a lot of trouble. And I spent a lot of time not accepting relationships that weren't really healthy for me. And I wasted a lot of my time, you know, following my ego and not my heart. Man. You mentioned this concept of validation. What is the difference between validation and love?

Well, I feel like love is more about acceptance of yourself and the people you do love. I mean, to truly love someone is accepting who they are, both for their strengths and their weaknesses. And it's when you really love their weaknesses. You don't necessarily have to accept their weaknesses all the time. You can always challenge the people you love to become a better person. But at the end of the day, you got to go to a point where you accept them

Sure, everything that they are. And not to sound cheesy or cliche, but that starts with yourself. Validation is almost the opposite. Quite honestly, it seems like the literal opposite when I think about it. It's that feeling of needing outside praise, that recognition and needing that to feel enough rather than just knowing that you are. And so when you're chasing validation relationships,

suggesting that you, and I felt that when I was younger, I felt like I'm not going to be a complete person until I find that right person. Really? You know, my partner, you know, and until then, why did you feel that? I think it was because I, you know, again, for as great as my parents were, I think, you know, between seeing their love and, and,

getting caught up in the, all the rom-coms and the romance of love, I think I just kind of had a misconstrued, it was, it was, I felt like it was so important, you know, you got to find that person, start a family and things like that, that I thought to myself, well, if I, until I find that I'm not a finished product, you know? And, and so, you know, when I started looking for love, then it became, you know, looking for the person who I thought

Made me, you know, a better person. And people will say that too. It's like, what are you looking for? Oh, I'm looking for someone to make me a better person. Well, I, I learned that was not what you should be looking for. You can, I hope everyone gets to find someone like I feel like I've found that

someone that helps you become your best version of yourself, but no one's going to make you a better person. Right. That's a lot of responsibility and weight. A lot of weight. Yeah. And you know, how do they look next to you and things like that and all those things that at the end of the day don't really matter. And so love is again, just acceptance of what you have and the people you're with and loving your, your person for their strengths and their weaknesses. And

Yeah. I hope I answered your question. It was beautiful. Yeah. I'm curious. What would you say are a few key things that anyone going through a horrible breakup can do to overcome that with more grace? Um, I would say, uh, the pain doesn't mean they were special. Ooh. Wow. Cause I used to do that. You know, the more hurt I felt over a breakup,

the more my, I don't know if it was my ego or something internally would tell me, well, that must mean what I lost was very special. Interesting. And that means I have to fight for it.

You know? Oh, man. What does the pain mean most of the time? The pain might mean that, like, it was meaningful. You know? Like, if you're in any type of long-term relationship, you clearly shared meaningful moments. They take up a lot of your time. You probably met their family. They met yours. You've developed some really great memories together. You probably made a lot of promises about the future with one another that now...

If the relationship ended, you have to think about all the promises you made that aren't going to happen. And that can be very painful. It's the loss. It's the loss of something that, you know, at one point you held dear in your heart. And I think that's where the pain comes from because even a relationship that is unhealthy or toxic and sadly even sometimes abusive can still be hard to lose because you

A lot of those relationships take up so much of our energy and time. And sometimes when we lose a relationship or a loved one and we lose access to them,

We, you know, you have to fill it with, you know, there's the loss of the feelings that you have and the literal loss of all the time that you used to spend with them. Well, now what do you do? You know, the Sundays that used to go to the farmer's market and the movies, now it's like, I don't know what to do. And just filling that void, you know, can be very painful at first. But I learned that just because I was hurting over someone doesn't necessarily mean that they were the right fit for me. That, you know, that's what was good for my heart.

And I had to then focus on accepting the loss and accepting that the relationship, while meaningful for a period of time, wasn't necessarily something that was right for me. Wow. So that would be one. What would you say to yourself when you were like eight months in deep, when you're like, I can't control my feelings and I'll never get over this and no one understands me. If you were coaching yourself, what would you say? I would probably tell myself to get over myself. Yeah.

Yeah, because most people out there probably can understand heartbreak, you know, and I think that was my ego, you know, when I was my first love, me and my buddy, my first girlfriend, we met.

her and her girlfriend at the same time, you know, very kind of serendipitously. And I remember having a thought with my first girlfriend, and I think a lot of young people have thoughts like this, where it's like, we're kind of the most in love couple. We're more in love than with that. Because it's that ego, wanting to be like, wanting your love. Everyone wants their love to feel and be special. And I think the intentions are pure, but it can kind of turn...

little toxic and so yeah, I would probably just tell myself to maybe you know Get over myself a little bit and recognize that I'm not the only one who's ever experienced heartbreak Not the only one who's ever been cheated on you're not alone You know if you have been heartbroken the good news is you're you're not alone and unfortunately infidelity is very commonplace in relationships now more than ever and You know you are

you don't have a reason to be shamed over it. You know, it's not you, it's literally them. You know, there's maybe some things you can learn from...

from it. There's always, you can always learn from misfortune and challenges, but I would stop making myself more of a martyr than I need to be, you know, because again, I think the way I dealt with pain back then was to try, that was my ego saying, all right, well, if you can't have the relationship, at least the pain we're feeling right now, we'll find a way to make ourselves feel special about it. So because you're hurting more than anyone else, then you are

That's you're willing to sacrifice and be sad for love. And somehow that made me feel, I guess, in a way special, even though it also simultaneously made me feel very down. And it kept me stuck. And I think that's what a lot of people experience and breakups is they stay stuck much longer than they need to.

Let's say stuck in the past. Yeah. And it can be scary because it's like, again, some, you know, the longer the relationship, the more memories we have and the future can be, you know, the uncertainty is very scary. And, and so we don't want to face our fears. And so we'll hold onto the past. And like I said before, sometimes we'll hold onto the pain because it's the last thing we have left. Yeah. Wow. What's the best relationship advice you've ever received?

I honestly think it was from Dr. Wayne Dwyer was what other people think of you as none of your business. Wow. And even in relationships sometimes, you know, always kind of worrying about

You know, it's kind of, that's their opinion. And that really honestly helped me with my relationships on reality TV and handling my relationships with fans and things like that. I always think of relationships more than just romantic ones. Because you got criticized a ton. A ton. And it really, it edits who you are. You know, the more you seek out the opinions of others about yourself, the more it changes you.

you know, then you're not acting on what you think deep down you should do or, you know, because of what your character is and things like that. It's just like, well, you think this and you think that and, you know, I hear you there. Yep. No, that's a fair point. And I guess, you know, I see what you're saying there. So like, all right, let me do a version of what I guess I think you're all saying. Wow. And, and I think that's kind of how you become someone that's doesn't feel like it's you.

And so yeah, those other opinions are just, those are their opinions and that's their business and it's none of mine. And that's something I've constantly tried to remind myself of. What's your thoughts on if people should be public with their relationship or they should be posting that they're getting in a relationship with this person and all the date nights they're doing and all the conversations they're having and should they be doing it on TV and doing it on social media? Do you think that creates a healthy long-term relationship?

Or is that setting up a disaster? More of the latter. I think it's a risk. Yeah, I don't see any real benefit for the relationship. And Natalie and I, you know, we post about our relationship and she's on the vile files, you know, a lot more now. And, you know, we like to share some things about our relationship. We certainly don't share everything. I always say, like, Instagram's not a love language.

- But it is for a lot of people. - It is for a lot of people, yeah. A lot of women love being posted on Instagram. Why is that? I think it's the validation. I think we just are a society that really seeks out the approval of others, you know? What is the biggest risk of a woman wanting their man to post about them consistently on Instagram? Well, again, because you are increasing the chances of you caring a lot about what other people say.

Because you're reading all these comments. Oh, you guys look so good together. You guys, oh, what is that? And I always say, in my experience, in the public eye and in social media, that the positive comments are more dangerous than the negative ones. Really? Why? Because it's easy to dismiss negative ones. Like, I don't know me. Screw that. Whatever. But, you know, after a few...

Heart-eyed emojis and oh my god, you're the cutest couple of all time, you know, whether they're positive or negative They're all strangers, right? They don't know me. They have no insight into my life They they just they they they can make guesses from what they've seen or whatever, but they don't they don't really know me but if I'm going to read a bunch of positive comments and Take them to heart

well then my subconscious is gonna say, "Well, you can't pick and choose. "You have to take the negative ones to heart as well." So by getting the positive ones,

and you read them, you're like, yep, nope, I'm awesome, I'm awesome, I'm awesome, I'm awesome. And then you're like, well, these are very valid comments because, you know, I am awesome. Right, right, right. And then all of a sudden that negative one hits you and even if you say, oh, they don't know me, you've spent all this time not saying that about the positive ones. They don't know you either. They don't know you either. But now your subconscious brain

is taking it all to heart. And so that's why I always feel like the positive ones are setting you up for the negative comments. Wow, interesting. It's really dangerous that way. ♪

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Well, you know, despite me saying it can be a risk, I do think there's something you said about, you know, being with someone who gives you the sense that they're proud to be with you, that they want to share their relationship. You know, everything is about balance. And listen, we live in a world where a lot of things are online. So, you know, extremes scare me on anything. So if someone, I've been dating this guy for six months, everything's great, but he refuses to post.

It's a bit of a red flag. Right, right. You know? Unless he's just not on social media. If he's not on social media, yeah, that would be my first question is like, does he ever post? Yeah, he's like, no. He's like, no. It's like, well, then I don't think there's an issue. If he's posting about his friends and all this stuff and he's pretty active and he's not posting about you, like, that's definitely a red flag. So, if it's the latter and he is an active poster and he's actively on there, I would just...

Tell them what it would mean to you. It would just mean a lot if you shared our relationship and just...

I just want, I want to feel like you're proud of, of our relationship. And I think that's an okay feeling, you know? Um, I think the best thing we can do when we communicate to our loved ones is to say like, this is how I feel about a situation. This would mean a lot. And then the big question is you give them an opportunity to see if they're willing to make you a priority. Right.

Because I think there's a lot of relationships out there where people are accepting their partners not prioritizing them and choosing to stay in the relationship more out of fear of what else might be out there or what they don't think they can find rather than feeling loved and feeling validated. It's funny. People will call in about relationships and they'll be frustrated with their partner and

One of my favorite questions I ask them is, what do you like or love about how they make you feel? It's so funny how a lot of times people won't have an answer to that. And it's like, oh, well, we have fun together and he's really smart and he's really nice with people. That's all great. But what do you love about how they make you feel? Because what I'm hearing from you is you spend a lot of time telling me that you're

You're confused. You're often sad. You feel lonely. So I'm just wondering, what about this relationship are you fighting for? Yeah, and just because someone looks good on paper doesn't mean they're good for you. Yeah, or they're not just making, what's the point of being in a relationship if they don't make you feel loved? And I think I was that person. I was in a lot of relationships where I asked myself, I don't think she likes me.

you know, because I used to always prioritize chemistry over compatibility.

which I think most of us do because chemistry is sexy. It is. You know, it's fun. You know, it's gives you that spark. Yeah. Yeah. Unfortunately, chemistry is hard to trust and chemistry can be very much manufactured. You know, you know, people are just naturally charismatic, you know, tall, good looking, you know, can brighten up a room when they walk in. Chemistry can be found because of similar interests, you know,

People who go on The Bachelor have a natural chemistry because of a shared experience, being part of the same church or community. That can create chemistry between people. But that doesn't necessarily mean love. Now, compatibility, on the other hand, is not as sexy, is not as fun, but that you can trust a lot more. Do we enjoy being around each other? Natalie is the first person that I've been in a relationship with where we have a lot in common.

You know, where we're very compatible. Right. Because I used, again, back to that love martyr. I didn't even prioritize chemistry, uh, compatibly at all. It was like, and I, and I was like, well, it doesn't matter. We're in love. Love. It's all, it doesn't matter. You know, I'm, I love her and love will conquer all. But then every day it was just like, so what do you, like, what do you want to eat for dinner? Like, what should we watch? It was like complete opposites. Yeah. It was like opposite, you know, and love relationships are hard enough. Yeah.

Yeah. You know, even when you're super compatible and you're on the same page most of the time, it still requires sacrifice and compromise. And if you have to do that for every decision, every day, it is exhausting. Exhausting. And yeah, I just, you know, we are a society that prioritizes chemistry far too much and we have to give compatibility a little bit more of a spotlight.

You said one of the things is poor conflict resolution is one of the things that causes people to break up. You added to that as well, Matthew. Why do you think people struggle with emotional regulation, not just in life, but even heightened more in relationships? And how can someone learn to regulate their emotions in a relationship if they've been so used to reacting in fight or flight mode for so long? What do you think is a process they can start? I'll have you start and then we'll have you add to it, Sadia.

Well, I think the people that trigger us the most are the people that we're closest to. So it's hard to, you know, they, well, they uniquely know how to push our buttons as well. Hopefully they don't do that on purpose, but, you know, they have the knowledge to be able to push our buttons.

But also just, it's like family. You know, you think you've grown so much and you think you have become so kind of wise and you've healed. And then you go back for Christmas with family or for the holidays. And within two days, something has you feeling like a 14-year-old who's mad again. You know, those people that are closest to us have this unique ability to impact us. So I think it's really easy to have patience with family

You know, people are like "Oh, it's so much easier with my friends." Yeah, no sh*t. You don't see your friend every night of the week. You see them once every couple of weeks. It's like a little honeymoon every time you get together because you're just excited to see each other. Of course they don't push your buttons the same way.

But the person you're with every day is going to. So I think having we have to almost step back from it a little bit and go, this isn't necessarily a sign that my partner is so much worse than everybody else. It's a sign that this person is so close to me that it's the easiest place for me to get triggered. And it's probably the place I have the least patience.

Because I give so much energy everywhere else in my life, I take for granted that this person is going to be there at the end of the day. Right. You know, we go to work and we give our best energy and then we go home and whatever is left, we hand to our partner and, you know, we've reserved our patience for everyone else in our lives. So I think taking a step back and going, what would it look like?

It's a very hard thing to do, but what would it look like if I gave my partner the kind of grace or patience or understanding that I give to other people in my life that frankly probably do a lot less for me?

that show up a lot less for me. What would it look like if I started showing up for them in that way? I think isn't a bad question. Interesting. What would you add to that? I would say one of the problems with the racial dysregulation is we as human beings tend to select the person who enables the dysregulation rather than the person we want to be with the most.

Why do we select that person more? Because they tolerate our insufferable behavior a bit more. So sometimes as a woman who's suffered from lots of emotional dysregulation in the past, I would find myself just seeing somebody's tolerance of my insufferable behavior as a symbol of love.

So sometimes people who can't regulate their emotions will look for the punching bag in their life. They'll look for the person that they can be dysregulated for and that person remains committed and they see that as a signal of love and they connect with the person who actually has weak boundaries. So a combination of emotional dysregulation and selecting somebody who is tolerable

- Who accepts the dysregulation. - Yeah, it leads to that dysregulation not being resolved. I think the key question is that with emotional dysregulation, we know if we do that at work, we'll get fired. And we know that if we do that in public, we'll get arrested if we do that in public. But when we pick a partner and we make sure that that partner doesn't actually have a willingness to walk away or that partner just allows it the most, we might just exude all of our dysregulation on that one party.

So it's really important when you suffer from emotional dysregulation to select a partner that still, just because they can tolerate it doesn't mean they should. And they should still, and you, on the receiving end, still have a threshold of how much you can and can't accept. And only when a partner or a person who's emotionally dysregulated meets somebody that they genuinely love and respect but also has a very clear threshold of how much they can handle does a dysregulated partner start to monitor their own reactions.

But if they feel like they can get away with it, sometimes they will. So I think this regulation can lead to selection of enablers rather than selections of compatibility. What is this quote? I'm sure you both have heard this. If they can't accept me at my worst, they don't deserve me at my best. What do you guys think about that?

saying in relationships. I used to be a big banner for that because I was a nightmare myself. So I was like, oh, I love this statement. But I think if you can't respect somebody at your worst, you don't deserve them at your best.

And so while you're at your worst, if you totally disrespect that person and totally crush their boundaries, you don't deserve them when they're at their best or you don't deserve them when you're at your best. So instead of expecting somebody to tolerate your behavior, remember you also have a duty of care to them. And you should also say, at my worst, I don't want to put them through so much suffering. At my worst, I want to express myself. I understand I'm not going to be perfect, but does it mean I treat them as an emotional punching bag?

So I can't emotionally punch on them all day long and then say, well, you have to deal with my emotions. And then you'll get a party on your birthday. It doesn't really work that way. So it's almost like a form of manipulation. And I'm saying in the workplace scenario because I've been that person that had that kind of mantra. But it's actually how we treat our loved ones at our worst is a symbol of how much we respect them. And we need to try and be mindful of that because some people just

can't tolerate you at your worst doesn't mean they don't love you. It's just that they're not equipped for that level of emotional dysregulation. Yeah, you should be able to... I mean, you're worst as a child. I'm assuming you're going to scream and throw tantrums constantly, but then hopefully you learn how to develop your emotions and navigate your emotions so that you can be frustrated or have a breakdown, but not trash on someone. Yeah, not punish someone. Not punish someone and say, you're doing this to me, right? It's like...

learning how to you know maybe you need to step away or maybe you're gonna get loud for a moment but you're not going to attack someone ask yourself would you tolerate you at your worst if at your worst you get abused right now yeah yeah right now i'm good right now but yeah in the past i wouldn't but right now it's fine but in the past if your worst looks like emotional abuse if it looks like infidelity if it looks like a physical abuse um would you tolerate you at your worst and if you would

perfect, you're probably in a healthy space. If you wouldn't, what would you suggest to somebody who's going to have to, what would you say to yourself if you had to experience that? And if you would say to yourself, oh, just leave, don't tolerate that, then don't expect your partner to tolerate it. Why is it so hard to leave a relationship when after many years, when someone treats you poorly or they have dysregulation frequently, let's call it on a weekly basis or every other day, it seems like

dysregulation or this type of emotional, I don't know if you want to call it abuse or... Rollercoaster. Rollercoaster emotions, lack of respect. Why would you say, Matthew, it's so hard to leave a relationship? The relationship is failing, it's not healthy, but people tend to stay. In your work that you do with a lot of women, why do women stay so long? Maybe there's kids or not kids involved, but why do women stay

And how can they start to shift to make it healthier or get out of it in a healthy way? I think it's, well, it would be, it would be termed the trauma bond, right? That there's a,

There's this behavior that makes life really hard with this person or it might even make it intolerable, but we tolerate it for as long as we can. And then, you know, if it ever got too, too bad for too long, we would just have to leave. Right. If it was if it was just hell 24 seven, no matter what, we would leave.

it would be enough. We would reach a certain pain threshold. But there's doses of moments, right? Of good moments. There's that moment where, you know, someone does something that hints at a different side of them. It hints at the potential for kindness, the potential for understanding. It hints at what the relationship could

could be. Or was in the beginning. Or was in the beginning and that reels us back in and we are so elated and so happy to have this moment that we then say, "Okay, I'm going to go back in." And then of course the other shoe drops, which it always does. And I think of it as a broken clock

Right. The broken clock is right twice a day. You don't think it's a good, it's not a good watch for telling the time. Yeah. Right. It's failed in its fundamental function. When it's right, you go, well, you know, like that kind of relationship you're describing is the broken watch.

We're trying to use this thing to tell the time thinking that, oh no, it was right a minute ago. Well, maybe it is working after all. And then we have to wait another 12 hours before it's right again. So you have to ask yourself, am I in that broken watch relationship? And if I am, what's the way to get out of that? Well, I think one of the ways is to properly tune into your feelings.

Because I think we don't really tune into what our experience is. We are so focused on where it could go or the fact that we think that we will be, we'll never be okay if we lose this person. That I will, how will I get by? Can I...

Can I deal with the pain of losing this person? If I could just get them and turn them into the thing that I need them to be, then I'll be happy. We're so fixated on that, that we're not fixated on the pain that we are in constantly, which is making us miserable. Or if we really paid attention, we'd look at how this disproportionately makes us miserable. I worked with someone who ended a relationship with a very toxic person.

And this person was never around. This person was completely dismissive. Even on the weekends when they were together, this person was just on their laptop paying them absolutely zero attention. And the woman that I was coaching, I remember at the end of the relationship, she said, I just don't know how I'm going to do this, how I'm going to be on my own.

And then I showed her the relationship. Yeah, like if I'm not, I don't know how I'm going to be on my own. And then I actually showed her the relationship. You are on your own. I said, this person's never home. They stay out. On the weekends, you're completely alone, even when you're in the same room. You've spent the last five years learning how to be alone. You're already good at this. You just have this old association that when I leave, I'm not going to be able to take it, but you already have the tools. Yeah.

Why does it seem like it's easier as a girlfriend or a guy friend of a person in a struggling relationship? Why is it easy for them to see, man, this has been two years you've been in this pattern, this loop of up and down emotional rollercoaster and it doesn't seem healthy when it's so hard for the person in the relationship to realize, man, this is broken. This is not working, but I'm going to keep trying to make it work. I'm going to keep trying to get that clock to hit the right time every minute. Why is it...

it so hard for people to understand they're in a broken relationship? The investment they've placed into it makes it very difficult for them to see objective reality. In their mind, they have a vision of the future. It might involve children, it might involve a home, it might involve any kind of connection. And they think that vision can only be achieved with the person they've invested the most in. They don't realize that vision is still achievable outside of this relationship. They attribute the ability to achieve all of that to this relationship working out.

As a friend or a family member, you can say, well, you're still a great person. You can still find love. You can still have kids. You can still get married. But you can do it outside of this relationship. They don't see the vision outside of the relationship. So they've zoomed into the perspective of only through this person can I achieve my end goals. We as friends and family can say your goals are still are separate to this individual.

They can still occur, but with somebody who doesn't have the unhealthy traits that make it impossible in this certain situation. What do you think of the things, you know, we're talking about why relationships fail, but what do you think of the things that people don't do before committing to the relationship that end up causing it to be just a rocky foundation to start with, which is destined to fail? What, you know, what are the things that women do or men do that you think, okay,

set up a rocky foundation. I'll let you start. They don't communicate what is a deal breaker to them. They know all the things that they like. I like to go on dinner dates. I like to do this. I like to do that. But they forget that the stability of the relationship depends on the actual deal breakers rather than all the things that you love about the person. What are some examples of deal breakers that people don't communicate?

It might be lack of availability, emotional availability. It might be lack of affection. So they might be funny. They might have a great job. They might be beautiful, all of those things. But if they are emotionally unavailable or if they are not considerate or if they're not compassionate as a person, but I haven't realized that, that deal breaker is still there causing disruption of peace every single day. But if I realize my deal breakers and I go into it with the mentality that as long as you, I don't care if you're an angel on paper, but if you've got even

one deal breaker, chances are we'll fight about this deal breaker forever. Really? It could just be that, you know, we disagree on a deal breaker might be commitment levels. How much commitment do I want? Or just a deal breaker might be how much time we spend together, quality time. It might be any of the love languages. One of them might be a deal breaker for you. But if that person has even one deal breaker, it will resurface again and again until the relationship slowly starts to corrode. So it's important to express what you think emotionally might be a deal breaker for you.

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And what do you think are the biggest deal breakers for people? Would you say it's sex or topics around sex, money and topics around money, family, kids, religion, or something else? Good question.

I suppose it could be anything depending on the person. Or is it just literally like we could have three things that are right, but if we have two that are off, like eventually it's going to be harder to make it work? Like, what do you think? I mean, I think if we have a very different vision for how we want to live our lives, you know, those are really hard. You know, one person wants a family and the other one doesn't. You know, these are...

But to the point of communication, those are things that often people turn a blind eye to. Why is that? Why do we not communicate deal breakers and things that are actually really important before committing to the relationship? Because we have a scarcity mindset. It's that fear of nothing better is going to come along. Look, I think that in our love lives especially,

We really want to meet someone. It's a universal thing. We really want to meet someone. And when we haven't met someone, we can start to get scared as time goes on. And we think there's something wrong with us and I'm broken and I'm never going to find someone. And what if it never happens for me? And God, it's so hard to meet someone. And so the most dangerous moment in life

love and dating is the moment you meet someone you're attracted to. That is the most dangerous moment because if you meet a person you're attracted to in a place of scarcity and fear, that is precisely the time that you lower your standards and you lose your boundaries.

Because the instinct is don't do anything that could mess it up. The instinct is not, let me see how right this is. Don't do anything to screw this up. Now, people have different ways of dealing with that fear. But if you take, you know, one example is some people go into like anxious fawning, right? I'm scared.

I'm just going to do everything. What kind of characterizes anxious fawning? I'm going to... Anxious fawning? Fawning, yeah. Fawning. I'm going to... So I'm anxious and my instinct when I'm anxious is to try to make you happy. Because if I can make you happy, maybe you'll never leave me. So for a lot of people, what that means is I overgive myself.

At the same time as under communicating what I really need, which is a really poisonous combination. Right. Because it simultaneously means you burn out giving to someone, but also no one knows what you really want. And you can resent the person for not giving you what you need that you haven't communicated it. Yeah. You resent them, but you're too afraid to rock the boat because you don't want to lose them. And it's fascinating to me. Like you can literally look at different types of people and how they behave.

how they react to that. If you are doing that and you come across an avoidant, someone who's avoidant is going to get pushed away. They're going to be like, "This is a lot." And you're going to keep giving even though they've pulled away because that's what you do, but you're not going to communicate that it's hurt you that they've pulled away. So with an avoidant type, you won't get your needs met

Because you won't communicate as they pull away. You'll just keep giving, hoping that they'll come back. If you come across an anxious person and you're anxiously fawning, that person might consume you. Most people, not most people, some people have had that experience with a parent where their parent was just trying to get their own needs met. And they became the child that gave and gave and gave and gave and gave to try to make the parent happy. But because they had no boundaries around that.

They became deeply resentful of this one-sided relationship with their parent. People then go into that in relationships too, where it's like they just live in service of this other person who's anxiously taking as much as they can. If you come across a secure person and you're anxiously fawning, then that person's going to have a hard time connecting with you.

Because they're not going to know what your preferences are. They're going to say, what do you want for dinner? And you say, what do you want for dinner? And they'll go, I don't know, Chinese food. And you'll go, that was me too. I wanted that. And if you do that three times in a row, they'll realize they don't know who you are. They can't connect with you. They don't know how to make you happy. And they can't really trust you.

Because they can't trust that you're ever really saying what you really think. So I say this to highlight the fact that this is how these dynamics get started, is we're coming from a place of fear. And when we're coming from a place of fear, we go to the weapons that we know how to use. We all have our weapon of choice. For some people, it's, I don't let anyone screw with me.

And that's their weapon of choice. And the moment they think they could get hurt, they reject someone before that person can reject them. Other people is my weapon of choice is making, trying to do as much as possible for you that I make myself indispensable. It's worth everyone asking, like, what's my weapon of choice? What do I default to? And if I never question what I'm defaulting to,

I'm going to be, I'm going to always be in the same kinds of relationships. And by the way, that anxious fawning I'm talking about, who does it attract? The toxic person, right? Because that person sees a free lunch. I'm going to come and take everything from the buffet here. And then when I'm done with it, I'm out. So then we go, how, why do I always attract people like this? Or why do I always fall into these patterns?

It's because there is a weapon that we are overusing. And at some point, we have to... It's a very brave thing to go, what weapon am I overusing? And recognize, by the way, that's meeting a need. That there's some need it's meeting.

Right? If I'm... Not a healthy need. Right. But if I'm... Like, if I crack jokes and make everyone laugh, and I know I can do that, then it meets a need for me. It's control. I know that I can control the room through making people laugh. Now, it also might be a barrier to connection in situations where sincerity is called for, and we never get deep because I'm always making jokes. But if I stop joking...

And I say, "I'm going to try and create a deeper connection and that means I'm going to pull back from the sarcasm," let's say. I've taken away my own most practiced sharpened weapon. And I may not know how to operate in this new territory. I now may find myself almost like a toddler in conversation going, "I don't know how to play this game. I don't know how to connect with people when I'm not being funny."

And it requires us almost to get worse before we get better, to feel like we're taking a step backwards before we take a step forwards. The step forwards might ultimately be a far healthier relationship or a far better relationship than anything we've ever experienced. But we might have to go almost like go back to like learning how to walk again in an area and give up that power we're used to feeling so that we can have something much more rewarding on the other side of it.

Where do you feel like people have the happiest relationships in the world that you've experienced? Or at least they say they do. And what do they have in common in those places where they're the, not that everything's going to be perfect, but where are they the happiest? So that's a very interesting question. And by the way, I didn't answer the question about people dating who want to be in a relationship. We can get back to that. Yes.

Don't leave us out. Didn't forget you. I don't know that it's geographic. In places where the community is really strong,

which a lot of people come here from countries where you, you know, at the heart of your life is this community, extended family and all of that. You get support, you get a lot of clarity, but you often get very little freedom, which is why so many people come to America.

And to New York, to get that freedom. In places like in New York, where we're in very individualistic places, where at the heart of the relationship is not the community but the individual, in search of a community, you have unprecedented freedom. We've never been more free and we've never been more alone.

So, I don't know a place on the planet where we are more happy. The places where people have a lot of togetherness, people often yearn for separateness, for freedom, for autonomy. The places where people have a lot of individuality and freedom, they yearn for more connection. They yearn to not feel modern loneliness, which kind of masks itself as hyper-connectivity. You can have a thousand virtual friends and no one to feed you cat.

No one to pick up a prescription at a pharmacy. That's what we understood in the pandemic. God forbid somebody to pick you up at the airport. Friends and friendship is not the same.

So, I don't know places where people are more happy geographically. What makes people more happy is to feel that they matter. That people care about them even when they don't see them. That they take them with them, inside of them. That their relationships are meaningful, nurturing. That they don't judge them and that they also don't ignore them. So, it's this kind of nice...

flexibility between, you know, you dare for me, but not on the condition that I do what you want. Right.

And I have the freedom, but not that you can cancel an hour before dinner because these days who cares? Which happens a lot in this town, Case in Point. Of course, yeah. So this is freedom too, like the freedom to think, do I have better? Is there a better deal for me tonight? And this is also freedom, is that I'm so important that I no longer think about

how this is going to affect you, that you may have cooked a whole meal and I just at 7 o'clock tell you that I won't show up at 8. That makes people feel... Yeah. Lack of respect. What makes us happy is meaning, creativity, flexibility, and good laughter. Good laughter? Yes. Yeah. So it's...

So it's having the community with flexibility. Yes. Where it's not like you have to do what I tell you to do or otherwise we're not going to love each other. Which is why people have family of choice. People create today new communities. People pursue polyamory as a form of community building. I mean, there's a lot of iterations of how to build community. Yes. But it doesn't have to be always the people that you grew up with. Right. Because they're not always your best community either. Sure.

And what about the single people who have maybe struggled in previous relationships or who maybe took time for themselves but now they want to attract and create a healthy relationship? How can they do the work for themselves so that they can really see when a person is in front of them that, "Oh, this is a healthy human being. Let me explore this." And not just get into old similar patterns. Right. I tend to not like, first of all, the concept of single and coupled.

Because today you're single and tomorrow you're not. And today you're coupled and tomorrow you're single. There's a lot much more fluidity these days. But what I do know is this. We live with belief systems. Relationships are stories. Everyone here has a story about your relationship. And we sometimes hold on to our stories so tightly that we confuse them with the truth.

If I say there are no good men out there, if I say old people are out to get you, if I say I'm a pathological pleaser, if I say people have never cared about me properly, these stories become belief systems that become a part of my confirmation bias. And when we have confirmation bias, it means that I'm now going to look at you and see to what extent this is going to reinforce my belief.

And then I'm going to disregard evidence of the rest. So, check your assumptions. That's the first thing on the chain. What are your fundamental beliefs with which you enter relationships? And to what extent do you find yourself busy proving that they're true, which doesn't serve you much? Right, right. Number one. Number two,

When you go out on a date, don't turn them into job interviews. They've never seen something less interesting. I mean, people ask questions and then they look to see if they have butterflies. How can that work? It's the most dull kind of encounter. This weird thing that I see has happened. But you go out to date, as this is if you get a date,

You know, because they had that other experience. And then you have to come back to your life to tell them if you won the lottery or not. And you come back with your shame or with your emptiness. It's dreadful. You know, there was something useful in the other model, the old model. You date, you meet somebody, you bring them to your life. You meet them with your friends. You'll have a thousand data points. Far more interesting than sitting in some noisy bar and trying to ask questions.

And this integration, if the date doesn't work, the date is gone and the friends are here and you continue your life. -Wow. -So, this is not about the building of the relationship, but it's about the dating itself. The next thing is that we have a thing in relationships that's very interesting. It's called fundamental attribution error. -Fundamental what? -Attribution error. -Fundamental attribution error. -Yes, it goes like this.

I am complicated and complex, you are simple. When you come late, it's because you don't care. When I come late, it's because there were circumstances in my life to explain why I am late.

Mine is circumstantial, yours is characterological. You don't care about me. You're just a slob. You're just this, you're just that. It's a fantastic way we have to organize the world. So, that is one of those nasty things that really make relationships not thrive. Name calling the other person, the whole thing. And then I'll ask you one other one that I think is really crucial. When you fight,

because fighting is a major piece of relationship. It's intrinsic. Conflict is part of love and relationships, all relationships. But don't think that what matters is what you're fighting about, but always ask yourself, "What is it that I'm fighting for?" What people fight for when they fight is usually three things. You fight for care and closeness. You fight for respect and recognition.

and you fight for power and control. Who makes the decisions? Whose priorities matter more? Power and control. Care and closeness, do you have my back? Can I trust you? And respect and recognition, can you value me? Most fights you will find are about one of those three things. But that's not what we say. What we say is, why did you leave your shoes once again? In my life,

in my tour, I have this couple and they talk, they fight about the cat closet, the litter, the cat box, you know, and I'm thinking, seriously? We're going to talk here about cat litter? I mean, this is an important session. And then I understand that when she says, why didn't you close the closet? It has nothing to do with the closet. It has to do with his father who told him all the time what to do, who stood with his foot on his neck

who never let him breathe and this guy grew up saying nobody's gonna be the boss of me. This is what he's saying when he says why should I close the closet? That's power and control. And then she grew up all alone taking care of the whole family, really miserable situation. And when he says why should I close the closet? You close the closet! What does she hear? I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. I've always had to do it for everybody. I took care of everyone and this is gonna continue? No.

This is the underlying thing. But people will get so caught in the closet and the cat litter, it's phenomenal. This is why... Do you get this? What are you fighting for? Ask yourself that, it will shorten your therapy hours by many. That's beautiful. This is why me and Martha have one of the electronic robo-cat

cleaning litters. So no one has to clean the litter. Yeah. It self-cleans. It's amazing. Yes, yes. These days we trust our robots more than our partners. I know, right? It's amazing. The cat robot. You guys know what I'm talking about. You guys got one? Yeah, those are good, right? No one's got to clean it. It's self-cleaning. They don't have that for dogs. You just got to walk them still, you know? So...

I want to ask you a personal, we've got a few minutes left with Esther, and I want to ask you a personal question. I always like to do this with you. We'll see if you want to receive it or not. But you've done a lot of work coaching others for a long time, and you've got amazing podcasts. Your podcast, Where Should We Begin, is incredible. I don't know if anyone's ever heard this. Where Should We Begin is incredible. Thank you.

You've got amazing books, which we have your books out in the bookstore. If people haven't gotten them yet, we've got your books here. You've got this game that'll help you. Where should we begin? Anyone have this yet?

Where should we begin? This is an amazing game of stories by Esther Perel where you can really connect with your partner on ideas and things like that. You've got an eroticism course as well. Coming out this week. We'll have a link for you guys. We'll show you that in a second. For anyone that wants to be more sexually connected in that playful way, you'll be able to tap into that. But I'm curious, with all the research and all the work you've done to help others, what in the last five years...

have you received for yourself or had to overcome personally in intimacy, relationships? Again, you help and serve so many people, but sometimes as the coach,

You don't get the opportunity to always self-reflect and get coached and work through things personally. I'm curious, is there anything in the last five years that you've seen a breakthrough personally with your life? Yes, yes. And half of me was so excited I have an answer and half of me wished I didn't have to have an answer. But you'll hear why. Have you experienced serious complications with the Perigard IUD like breakage or fracture? You're not alone. Kelly

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My kids were already waiting for us there. And basically, we entered the doctor's office and the doctor said, "You ain't going on any plane. You're not flying. You have 10% kidney function left." Wow. For you? For him. For him. Wow.

And we knew he had kidney issues, but not that bad. Not that bad. That meant... And you know, in the United States, there are no organs because the system is set up that if you want to be a donor, you have to specify it on your driver's license. In Belgium, where I'm from, everybody is a donor unless you specify on your driver's license that you don't want to be a donor. So think about that because it really saves lives.

But now I needed to find a kidney. Wow. And that meant I needed to let people help me. And I was at a mercy. So I began to talk to small groups of friends, just grew the circle every time a little bit. Who would like to donate a kidney? I'm not a match. My son is not a match. My other son was not going to be able to do. And it's an amazingly humble thing.

I had no problem asking, I have to say. I genuinely have no problem asking for help. I am not the person who helps others but can't ask for myself. I am a help.

You don't gingerly do the eroticism with asking for help. -You're not playing. -Exactly. You're like, "Give me the help. Let's go." I got a point where we had ten people who were willing to donate, but one match. Anyway, the match came through. It was our friend. We brought her over from Europe.

We created this whole ritual with friends in my house where the night before they went in, instead of it just being an organ donation, we turned it into a sacred gift. -Holy moly. -We sat in a circle and talked about what is our experience in life about giving and receiving. We brought them together the next day. Then for the next months while they were recovering,

Basically, I had all our friends. This one took them to the hospital every morning at 7:00. This one cooked. This one this, this one that. And here's the important thing. I live with an expert on community resilience. His work, his lifelong work is about collective trauma and community resilience, but he had never experienced it himself in action. Wow. So this is my story. Oh, my goodness. Oh, my gosh.

That's beautiful. I have not yet told this in public. Wow, that's beautiful. This is my first. What has been the breakthrough of the lesson for you two and a half years later now? Here's the interesting thing. There is a moment that is a lesson. At one point early on, I said I talked to so-and-so and they said we should go see the doctor so-and-so, which we're going to see now in LA. He said, "Why do you talk about this with people? I'm entitled to my privacy."

Any of you who are in this room who are that person. And I said, "But come on, it's because I talked to these people that I got this name that I now have this appointment that this is how it works, community."

I mean, do you think we're just going to sit here and find a doctor who's going to see us in less than six months? That's what I meant by I talk. And it's about overcoming your shame and thinking that privacy is really nice, but you will die in privacy. And, you know, and that if you don't want to do it, that's okay, but let the people around you do it for you. Wow, that's beautiful. That's amazing. Thank you.

And how is he doing now? It's great. It's like, you know, a new life. It's impressive. I mean, you know, most surgeries take things out. This one just puts something in. Wow, that's incredible. And what was the biggest lesson for the donor?

I mean, the donor, what you experience is you feel like you've given life to someone. And by the way, you live perfectly well with one kidney. So it's really when the most important moment about the donor is that at Mount Sinai, they have every year a gathering of the donors, liver donors, kidney donors. And you're in a room with these people. We happen to know ours, but all of the other people, sometimes it's strangers who just one day appear like angels.

and you watch these people, these unsung heroes, and you just shut the up because, you know, I don't know if I would do it. This is the thing. Would I have done this? Have I known people? Have I heard and I never responded? Like, it's so easy, you know, to think, but no, no. And I watched these people and I just bawled.

Wow, that's a beautiful experience. I'm so glad you shared that. Thank you for sharing that. I have a question for you. Yeah, uh-oh. I'm pretty open. Because the last time we met, you were just in the engagement, going to therapy, working on it. And here you are, you know, what's the... You know, you said, I worked on my cell phone, we have worked together, but...

What's the part of yourself that you discovered that you didn't know existed? I have another one afterwards. Is that Martha whispering to you? The part of me, I'm just trying to be present with the whole experience. Part of me I've discovered that I knew it didn't exist. That I didn't know existed. The thing that has come out of me that surprises even me. I think that...

that I am deserving of incredible love. That's the thing I just said. Thank you. And I think it's been a journey of receiving it. Thank you. But I feel like for most of my life, and I don't know if anyone can relate, it was about... I felt loved by people, but I also think the traumas outweighed the memories of the love.

So the traumas were bigger memories of fear, anxiety, and pain. And like, you know, Dan, you're safe, you're loved, you're free. And it's not like there was one person or people. It was just a series of events over time of all the different series of events. You know, my sexual abuse is one of the first memories I have as a human being.

And again, that kind of imprints you until you reprogram it, until you create new meaning with it and allow it to, and say, how can I use this for good, right? And how can I, this doesn't define me as a thing that happened, and I feel at peace about it. But as a child, you know, that was there. You know, my parents had their struggles. They just really struggled.

Struggle my dad was a difficult human being as much as I loved him He was very difficult and emotionally up and down so there was not emotional stability from him so therefore there was challenge with them and My brother was in prison for four and a half years when I was eight years old So there was just shame and trauma within the family dynamic that oh my older brother who's my hero is in prison and

I love him. Is he a bad guy? Is he a good guy? I feel like he's a good guy. Why is he here? Every weekend we would go for hours in the visiting room and be around 20, 30 convicts and their families every week for four and a half years. And so there's traumas there. It's just the picking on, the bullying, the being dyslexic, not being able to read, unable to speak in front of an audience without being terrified. Just all the series of events, I focused more on the traumas than the love. There was a lot of love, but I couldn't feel them.

And so learning how to regulate my nervous system and my heart and my body and learn how to breathe with all of it, the chaos of the world, relationship challenges from the past, and learning how to say, oh, I am safe no matter what's happening around me. Whether I'm going through a disagreement, it doesn't mean my life is at risk. Whether someone doesn't like me, it doesn't mean I have to give in to what they're requesting.

If I don't feel good right now, that's okay. I know I can transform it and feel good tomorrow. So learning the skills, learning the tools, and doing the deeper healing work has allowed me to feel loved. And really, I think one of the biggest fears was I lacked the courage to end relationships so I would stay for way longer than I knew intuitively I shouldn't be in this. But I was afraid to be alone. I didn't know how to fully be alone and love myself alone.

And I really learned how to do that to where I don't feel like I have to give in to anyone. I'm like, I love myself if I'm alone and I know that God will provide me in the right direction with what I need. It's not what I want, but I know I'll be provided that. And having that clarity and that inner peace of,

I'm going to be okay no matter what happens, lets me be free to be me and feel loved. I can give myself love and I can receive it from others also. Even if I'm not getting it from others in a moment, if I need it, I know how to give it to me in a spiritual way, not like a selfish, "Oh, I'm loving myself" way. I think learning that process while healing and creating meaning from all these memories of the past

it just gives me a lot of peace and freedom. And I never had that until really the last four years. -Thank you. -Of course, thank you. I think that everything you just said is part of your question. It's part of the answer to the question, how does one prepare oneself to be in a relationship? There's often a pull in a relationship between two polarities.

The fear of losing the other and the fear of losing oneself. Yes. The fear of abandonment and the fear of suffocation. Yes. I will not leave you, but I will lose myself in order not to be alone. Wow. Or the reverse is I leave you all the time. I don't stick around anywhere because I'm afraid that if I hang one more day, I'm going to get trapped.

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