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Back in the days, when I was in my school time, I had a crush and he was so handsome, so cute, so lovely. I had never seen him before. He was my first male attraction, love, whatever you name it. And I don't know how I fell in love with him. I mean, initially, I was only attracted to him.
But something happened to me during school. There was a lecture going on and something happened. So I started crying. And he offered me his handkerchief when we were in 6th standard. So I was like, oh my God. I was...
so much in love with him and he offered me his hanky after that we used to talk a lot for our time we used to roam in the school and and everybody used to think we were a couple we were a thing and we were not we used to talk a lot our chemistry was next level so when i used to come back from
I used to talk to him in the sun. I used to talk to him in the sun. He used to talk to me in the sun.
I used to stay for tuition. After tuition, I used to call him again. We used to talk at night. We used to sleep early to go to school. We used to stay in school. So everybody assumed that there was something.
So it was so funny but I wanted something to happen. I mean I would have liked it if someone would have teased me that you two are together. I would have liked it. And he probably didn't like it. I don't know. I don't know if it is clear or not.
so i was like fat back in school i was fat so i didn't had confidence asa abhi toh i can pull any guy i want asa confidence hai but pehle itna nahi tha and i was fat i was being bullied also in school times par woh time pe bohot affect kata tha woh sab cheez hai toh
I mean, I felt that he doesn't think like that about me. He doesn't think romantically like I think for him. So, my mind was getting overthink. So, I never told him that I love him. I didn't even tell him that I had a crush on him or something like that. I just... We just talked. It was just chemistry. Then, after that...
I found out about him after 6 months. He has a girl in G class, I think. And she was very beautiful. Like, touch wood, she was beautiful. So I thought that if he likes her, then he should go with her. And I just dabbed my own heart with my own hands.
So at that time, my first heartbreak happened. And for about 3 years, I had a crush on him. 3 years. I didn't go into any relationships in those 3 years. I didn't talk to any guy for 3 years. So that was my first heartbreak. And irony...
I am having such a bad irony with myself that I forgot him. So I have a tattoo. It's religious but it is related to his name. But I didn't thought of him while making the tattoo. I thought of God only. But ironically and coincidentally that tattoo matches his name. And I think about it and I laugh a lot.
He approached me after I glowed up and everything. I became more fit and everything. It happens, right? In school, who looks good in 600? But he looked good, no doubt. But it happens. Then puberty hit. After that, I started looking good. Then he approached me. His girl left him. I don't know anything. So, after that, we talked. And...
And he told me, he confronted me that you should see me as Laika.
So I didn't tell him, I told him that it was all rumours and I don't like him. Because even now, I got so much glow and confidence but I didn't have the guts to accept him that I had a crush on him just because he offered me his handkerchief.
Who gets crush on hankies? I was in love with that guy for 3 years. 3 years. Who gets so much? I was like, let it go. And then, I never got a crush on anyone. And there are a lot of celebrity crushes. Why would everyone have one? So...
So that was my crush that I can never forget in my life because that was the time when I felt rejected. I don't know why but I felt it. After that, there is another crush of mine and he's too cute. Like too cute. He's after being in a toxic relationship with two guys. Okay.
I have a crush on him now. He's too cute and too much my type. But I don't want to go in relationships now because it just happened. It's not happening so soon. So, I can tell you so much about this guy that this guy is crazy about college girls. And this guy flirts with me.
So I feel like there is a special feeling. So there is. He goes around with me and talks to me nicely. But everything fits in my mind that everything is good in the beginning. So everything keeps going on. And the rest of the celebrity crushes I have lots of. That was it about my crush.
And while walking around, boys look good Boys are beautiful, I mean girls are beautiful But how do girls look when they put on makeup? But girls are natural beauty So boys can look good So if boys look good, we appreciate that they look good
So, there are many short time crushes but there was one long time crush in school. And that was actually one sided. But it was such a beautiful thing. So, I don't regret that we didn't came in relationship. I like that we didn't came in relationship because
The one sided one was so beautiful. I think of it and just smile.
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