As a kid in the cinema I loved to go to the cinema and I would sit right in the back of the theatre. What did something within me was the moment when all the lights went down. It was as if when the lights went down there was a roar. And I am not talking about the lion's roar of the Metro Goldwyn Mayer lion. The moment the lights went down there was a roar of the light going down within me. It was raw, a raw-ly roar and the moment that the screen was lit, the blackness was lit with a beam of light.
Everyone was more interested in the play of light in terms of images and activities. I was more interested in how the light streamed and danced and that it came from an aperture. I would look at the movie but I was constantly looking at the streaming of the light and how there were particles dancing and what seemed to be non- physical appeared physically on the screen So the light that you could put your hands through became physical on the screen. It had three dimensional form, it had activity, it could speak, it could do things - there was action in it That was not too dissimilar from the light beaming and streaming but the light beaming and streaming was purer than the activity on the screen.
I am endeavouring to give an expression to Reality, that this 'I' is an aperture and this 'I' is the first light streaming this level of reality called existence. And this level of reality called existence is experienced as solid and real for it's made of Reality.
Underlying this idea 'I am someone' is a no-one. Underlying this from is formlessness. Underlying every action is actionless-ness. Underlying every hearing is silence . Underlying every seeing is pure Seeing. Underlying every sound is pure Hearing. Underlying everything is a formless dimension of Reality and it is coming up and streaming this level.
NZ Retreat D3 S2