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Hello my beautiful people and welcome back to the moments podcast. I'm kind of all over the place today, but in a really good way and I think it's pretty fitting with what I want to talk about today. I asked on an Instagram post, what should we talk about in today's episode?
And it just so happened that while I was reading the comments, I was thinking about how stressed out I was that I wasn't staying motivated and I couldn't stay consistent with anything. And the first comment that I read was moments in staying motivated. And I thought about it and I was like, holy crap, you know, this would be a really good episode to do while I'm also on the journey of figuring out how to stay motivated.
Because it just makes me feel better seeing comments like that and understanding that people kind of have the same issues that I do and the same weird brainwaves and just, I don't know, I think my mind is weird sometimes. So when someone else has the same mind or the same thoughts, I'm like, okay, so I'm normal and I'm not going crazy.
And to be completely honest with you, I planned on recording this episode like three days ago, so I'm not really on the best track for the whole staying motivated and staying consistent thing, but that's okay. And we're going to talk about why that's okay. I want to give you kind of some background on myself. If you've been listening for a while, you probably already know this, but I have the brain of a squirrel, so...
That being said, there's always 10 million things going on in my mind at all times and I always am thinking about what I should be doing while I'm doing something instead of just appreciating what I'm doing and crediting myself for what I am doing in that moment. And a lot of times I'll try to get into writing a to-do list or writing lists of what I need to get done and then
When I can't accomplish everything I write down on those lists because I write so much because there's so much going on in my brain, I let myself down and I get so, so, so disappointed that I didn't accomplish everything on that list. And this past week, I've had a lot going on with work, but also a lot going on with life.
So you can imagine that I've just been all over the place. I will say I'm super aware and I think that I'm handling it much better than I was last time I was out here. Because again, if you don't know, last time I was out here, I had a really tough time mentally, especially in this aspect because work was booming everywhere.
Because I was growing so much online and I was creating so often, but also so was the social side of my life, which I hadn't been used to because we had basically just gotten out of quarantine. I had spent, when I first started TikTok, I was spending every day just at home making videos, hanging out with my family, hanging out with literally just Lisette. That was all I hung out with for like a year and a half. And then I got out here and
with two new roommates, with new friends, and always meeting new people. And when you're living with two other friends or roommates, it's kind of like a constant excursion. Like you always are seeing what other people are doing. And I don't know, you just lose your sense of like aloneness. So I was trying to figure out how to work alone.
and be social but I didn't know how to do it quite yet and not in a way like now how I still don't know how to do it but in a way like my body did not know how to handle that and mentally I was just getting drained and so burnt out so fast that
And it caused me to just become like a total disaster. Like I was a wreck. I mean, I was mentally not okay last time I was out here, not in the beginning and kind of towards the end. But honestly, looking back, I'm super grateful for it because it taught me how to handle situations like that now. And that's one of those moments where I realize everything happens for a reason. We have to have...
these learning lessons and I was making a TikTok literally last night and this is like what I wrote that we have to hurt to heal sometimes we have to go through the bad to get to the good and even when it sucks so bad you're learning a lesson every time and I think that this is something I have literally drilled into all of your minds especially if you've listened to every episode because I talk about it all the time but like really shitty experiences excuse my language I've been on a cursing kick lately I'm not a fan of it I'm really not
Anyways, sorry about that. But when you go through something really bad, once you make it out, you find so much clarity in exactly why you had to go through that and why you had to deal with it.
And I know that I'm getting kind of off topic. That's kind of how these podcasts go. Like I said in last week's episode, I haven't been able to make an outline in a little while because my iPad is being weird. It like ran out of storage and won't even let me delete anything. And it's just like all the apps are crashing. So if you have a solution to fix that, please let me know. I honestly haven't given it a really fair shot. I just kind of saw it wasn't working right and I stopped using it.
But I would like to get back to that. Anyways, I don't have an outline for this week's episode, but we're going to talk about just staying motivated, being motivated. And also just want to remind you guys to like, rate, subscribe to the podcast wherever you listen. I have some super exciting stuff coming up with it.
Ah, look, I could get, I literally get so giddy and so happy. If you guys could see how big I was smiling right now, you would understand. But I have a super cool deal thing happening and soon enough there's going to be some merch for you to check out. I know, I know. I'm excited too. And I'm going to be uploading the podcast as a video form on YouTube every week.
So I know that a lot of people ask, like, can you film the podcast? Can you do this? Can you do that? And I haven't really gotten around to it yet, and I'm doing it now. I think it's going to start in March. Don't quote me on that. You guys know I'm always a little bit behind schedule. I'm always a little delayed, but it's going to be awesome. And once again, I'm so grateful for you guys. You are, like, the most incredible souls in the whole entire world. And I love the little system that we have here where we can both kind of inspire each other and...
I don't think you guys realize how much you help me through everything that I go through and motivate me. So you're the best. You're my best friend and you don't even know it. But staying motivated. That is something that is so difficult and I don't even want to say... I'm going to title the episode Moments in Staying Motivated, but I think it goes a lot deeper than that because...
So motivation isn't really something that's linear. As humans, there's going to be times where we're more motivated than other times. And I think what we more so need to do is be accepting of the fact that every day doesn't have to be this perfect, motivated, here's my to-do list, I crossed everything off kind of day. Because when we live like that, that's when we get burnt out. And
You can tell me I'm wrong, and I might be wrong. There's a lot of different kinds of people in this world. There are people who thrive. If you're type A, people thrive off having a schedule, having a to-do list, having a morning routine, a night routine, a day routine. I can't say that I'm one of those people. I'm very type B. I don't know if you guys do anagrams, but I'm an anagram 7, so basically that's where my squirrel brain comes from.
And if you guys haven't done the anagram personality test, it is so fun. There's nine different personality types and it's super cool to see. I make all my friends take it because I want to know like what kind of person they are. And it's always so accurate. And it's not like a Zodiac thing where it's just like when you're born. It's like you take like this 100 question quiz. And then anyways, I'm getting off topic again.
But for me, the to-do list isn't what works because here's how it happens. I will go through phases where I tell myself, you're getting back on track, you're getting everything on a schedule, you're getting back on your grind, you're going to focus on what you eat, when you're active, what work you get done, what you accomplish, etc.
Who you call, what brand deals you reach out to, all that kind of stuff. And then I'll do it for, no, I can't even say I'll do it for a day because that's a lie. And I'm going to be honest with you guys. A lot of times I don't even make it past the day of doing that because what happens is I'll wake up, I'll make this to-do list, I'll do good for the first couple hours, and then life happens.
I'm not at a point in my life where I can just zone in for an entire day and focus on work and focus on myself because there are other people who are a huge part of my life and part of my schedule.
But I forget that or I try to avoid that sometimes and then what will happen is after a couple things are done on my to-do list, something will come up or I'll be asked to go somewhere or I'll get stuck in a conversation with someone and then the rest of my to-do list gets completely messed up. My schedule gets thrown off and then I'll get so disappointed in myself and I'll have this all or nothing mentality where I'll just continue
cut off the rest of it. I'll be like, okay, you know what? I couldn't do this. So screw this, screw that. I'm just not going to do anything at all. And that's something that I'm working on is that all or nothing mindset. Because once I get to that nothing mindset, I get so immediately disappointed in myself for not being able to accomplish the tasks on my list, even though I know I can just do them tomorrow or the next day.
But then what I'll do, I'm just giving you guys all the details because I know that I'm not the only one who goes through it. I actually have a friend. I don't know if you guys follow her. Hannah draw wholesome hand on Instagram. She is an angel, an absolute angel. And I want to record a podcast with her soon. But her and I have like been able to bond so much over the way that our minds work because I've never met someone so similar to me as far as like how our minds work.
think about things. It's really cool and meeting someone like that is the most healing, just genuine good feeling experience because I don't know, it makes you feel better about like what you go through and she's awesome. So if you don't follow her and you're listening to this, I want you to go follow her. I'm going on a trip with her Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday of this week and oh you guys, I'm so excited. Just wanted to update you on my life because I feel like I haven't done that in a
The next day, I'll write down everything that was on the list the day before. And I'll be like, okay, today I'm going to do it. Same thing happens. I can't cross things off or I'll only do one thing or it's like a small task and something that I won't give myself any credit for. And I'll be like, okay, so you suck, Lexi. You literally can't do anything. You can't accomplish anything. What are you even doing with your life? I just get the most negative thoughts sometimes. Like I'm just being real with you guys.
Right now i'm at a point where I can I can understand that i'm i'm successful. I'm happy. I'm working really hard But in a lot of different points in my life i've been So hard on myself and it's one of the most toxic things we can do is Whoa, I just looked down to see how long it was recording and it was 11 minutes 11 seconds and like point one one one that was crazy Anyways, geez lexi squirrel brain. Come on now, but
Yeah, when you constantly are looking at what you haven't accomplished, you're never going to feel satisfied. And that goes into a lot of different aspects of life as well. When you always focus on what you don't have, you're never going to feel like you have enough. And when you're always complaining, you're never going to find things to not complain about. It's just going to grow.
And whatever you water grows. If you water your complaints, you're going to find new things to complain about. And it's going to become this vicious cycle. And I'm telling you, it's a hard one to break. And I know it because I've been there. But here I go again. It starts with your mind. You have to start changing that and you have to fake it till you make it. That's what I really had to start doing with like finishing a to do list or figuring out what I want to do with work.
Like you guys, what I do for work, it is an absolute dream. I feel so grateful and so blessed every single day to wake up and do what I do because it's what I've wanted to do since I was literally in middle school. And to be able to record this podcast, it's so incredible. But when I tell you it's a little bit draining, I mean it. And I don't mean it in a way where it's a complaint. Like I want you guys to know that. It's more in a way where since it's a creative outlet,
It's like you have to keep thinking of the next thing because social media is constantly moving and growing. And when I try to like step back and take some time in one spot, I'll get super caught up that the world is moving too fast and I'm not keeping up and I'm going to lose everything. And again, there's that all or nothing mindset that I'm working on fixing. But it's just it's such an interesting thing. And it's such a weird thing.
mental situation to figure out because as much as I want to be able to take it slow and to sit back and like work on myself, it's like also I'm always thinking of new things because my brain is always going and I'm always wanting to create something new and I have more ideas but I forget that I don't have as much time in the day or in the week or in the month as I think I do because again life happens and
people come around. You have to go places. I know that we all struggle with this, especially if you're in college and you're listening to this. Taking time for yourself is a harder thing to do. It sounds easy. I mean, even high school or however old you are. But there's work friends, school friends, school events, going out. Going out is a huge one. If you guys are college, end of high school, and you're going out and drinking and stuff, then it kind of carries over into your next morning. And
I'm really just trying to say that I get that feeling and I know that it's hard to like get things situated and get things organized and to be able to make that to-do list and do things. So that's why we're going to talk about balance. I'm really becoming aware that everything is beautiful in moderation. And this is another thing, again, because of that all or nothing mindset. And this one I'm really just starting to accept and apply to my life is that you have to do everything in moderation.
Because I was at a point last time I was out here where I was super, super social and I wanted to go out all the time and I wanted to drink all the time and just, I don't know, I would be so socially anxious that I would just drink. But it wasn't in like a really bad way. It was just like I, if I'm going to a party, I want to drink and I want to hang out with my friends and have a good time. And I think that a lot of us are at that age and it's normal. Like literally we're in our young 20s, a lot of us, or like our late teens, right?
And that's just what everyone does at our age. But now there's all these different sources feeding us, oh, you should be doing this or you should be doing this or you can't do this or you can't do that. And it makes it really hard to figure out what are we actually supposed to be doing. And that's when you have to listen to your body. So my body got to a point where it was like, I don't want to be social at all. I want to be alone all the time. I want to go to bed at 930. I don't want to talk to people. I just want to be alone.
And that was good for me for a while. And honestly, like I still lean more towards that. Like if I had the option, I probably would do that more often than not because I just don't really trust myself. Like when I go out, I end up like sleeping in the next day or I don't know. You guys are getting what I'm putting down. You have to do it in balance. And that's why I'm getting to a point where
where I will spend a lot of nights alone where I'll just go to my room early I'll work on editing some videos or creating some TikToks and I know both of those things sound stupid but they're very time consuming and they're a huge part of who I am and my career and my outlet for sharing um
Or I'll read or I'll journal. But then there's some nights where I really have to... This is where it kind of takes me pushing myself. Step out of my comfort zone and go hang out with friends or go to a party and not drink or go to a party and just drink a little bit or just being social. It's been hard for me to do, but I'm finally getting there. And I'm saying that because like last night...
I wanted to do the whole go to bed early thing, not really hang out with people, but everyone was coming, not to our house, but we were going to this place nearby, and I almost skipped out on it, but something inside me told me, you should go. You should socialize. It is cool to make connections and to spend time with people because you are young, and you do have to go experience life. And I did, and it was so much fun. And I'm really, really glad that I did. So...
Not exactly sure where I was going with that, but I don't know if it relates to anyone. There's always balance. Everything in moderation. You can't go all or nothing. And I'm realizing that seems to be the main thing that I've been talking about this episode is fixing that all or nothing mindset. Now that I've been going for a while, I can't decide if I want to keep this titled staying motivated or working on the all or nothing mindset.
I guess you guys will find out. But I will talk also about staying motivated because that's where I'm at right now. That's what I'm trying to figure out. I'm trying to find that balance in doing what I know is good for me and also listening to my body because sometimes our body wants to tell us that it wants to do nothing and then that's where our kind of like mental health days or our mental resets turn into like weeks long of doing nothing. I don't think that's healthy either.
I'm all for listening to your body, but there's a difference between when your body is telling you to rest and when your mind is telling you to rest. And that's what we're going to work on. It's just training our mind. And I think that what we need to do is start with simple tasks. We have to start small, okay? Like I said, we can't go all in and expect it to work out immediately. That's not how we train. We're not going cold turkey into all of this because that's never good for mental health. And that's why...
You always go, you always backtrack when that's the route that you take. I mean, think about like diet culture, for example. If people go all in on like some crazy hard diet, like I'm thinking more like 2015, 2016, I feel like diets were really trending. Maybe it wasn't then. I don't know.
People eventually gain the weight back when you just completely cut yourself off and restrict yourself of things that you're used to. Once you stop doing that, because you're going to have a breaking point, it's all going to come back. And I think it goes the same way with mental health. And that's why it's a long journey. It's a marathon. It's not a sprint. So just be patient with yourself. Start with small goals.
My goal for this month was to actually call my therapist because when I'm out here, weeks literally fly by. Time flies so freaking fast and I always forget to call my therapist or make an appointment with her. And I made it a goal to do that this month and it's been so good for me.
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Small goals, okay? Me calling my therapist every week. It was hard for me because there was a point where I would start making the appointment with her and then I'd start thinking about what my week schedule looked like and I'd be like, actually, what if this happens or what if that happens? And I'd just tell her, never mind, we're going to take this week off. Or I would have an appointment and I would forget about it because I don't write anything down. And then she'd call and I'd be like, oh crap, not again. But I worked on it and I fixed it and I finally...
I realized that, well, here's actually how it went down, but I forgot that I made a therapy appointment and I start getting a call from my queen, Jessica. She was calling me for a phone therapy sesh and I was like in the middle of something and I was like, I'm not going to answer and I'm just going to reschedule. But I picked up the phone and I went for a walk and I talked to my dang therapist and my life felt immediately like so much weight was just lifted off my shoulders and I
That was my goal and that's been helping me. And then my other goal has really just been to not put so much pressure on myself. And it's weird because I think that when we do that, we find ourselves becoming a lot more motivated, like a lot more motivated because when there's all this pressure and you feel like you fail if you mess something up,
You obviously don't want to do it again and your body just pushes you away from that. But when there's no pressure, you lean more towards what genuinely makes you happy and what you genuinely prioritize and want to focus on and that's what happens. You just start kind of living the life that you were trying to live but there's no pressure on it. And that in itself is a really cool feeling.
And that is the biggest tip I have for staying motivated is number one, not being all or nothing. Giving yourself grace if you mess up, if you make a mistake, you are a human. You're going to do that. It's not avoidable. So just be accepting of it. Not so mad at yourself when you do it.
And also, start with small goals. And lastly, don't put so much pressure on yourself. Now, don't get me wrong. I do believe in goals, but that's why I say small goals are the most important. I want you to write them down. I want you to start journaling. Definitely start journaling. Because here's how I feel about journaling, and I don't know if I went over this in the last episode. It doesn't really matter if I did. We all need repetition sometimes.
which I am the queen of, I say things way too many times because that's how many times I need to hear them. But when you start journaling, there's a lot of power in writing things down because here's the way I see it. When I'm writing in my journal,
subconscious thoughts come out. But when I'm just like typing on my phone or I'm texting someone, you just type with your conscious mind. Like you just type with what you're used to using. But when you're writing, you get so in tune with what you're like writing out that all these other thoughts that you didn't even know you had in the back of your mind started rising and you're like, whoa, I didn't even know that I felt that way. And the same thing
Think about it this way. The way I put it is like, you know, when you're in a really deep conversation with someone and you just start saying stuff and you're like, whoa, where did that come from? That's because you're tapped into your subconscious mind. And I'm not a doctor. I don't have any PhD. I don't even have a source on that. But it's a personal feeling. And I really feel strongly about that being a fact. So, yeah, that's that.
And I think that another thing I want you guys to do is fake it till you make it. I want you to start saying those affirmations. Look in the mirror. You're going to feel stupid when you look in the mirror and you're like, you know what? I look good today or I'm going to do this today and this is my goal for the day. When you do that, it's really, really helpful. You have to look at yourself and truly believe it. You can't.
Just disregard that you're a person. Now, I don't know if I know how to make this one make sense. But something that helps me is when I take a step outside of my body and I try to look at myself. This is why I like to look in the mirror and realize that I am a human being and that I need to see myself as that. Not just a brain. I don't know how to explain it, but I have to look at myself like I am my friend.
Like when I look in the mirror, I look at myself and I say, that's your best friend. Now, how would you treat your best friend? Because that's how you need to treat yourself. And I talked about this a lot in last week's episode because it's all about self-love. So if you want to listen to that one, go for it. But just be kind to yourself. Treat yourself with things that you love and things that you enjoy and just treat yourself as a freaking person.
You wouldn't treat other people the way that you treat yourself sometimes. And I can say that confidently because I know, especially at our age, and honestly everyone's age, we're so harsh on ourselves. We don't treat ourselves with any compassion. So eat your favorite foods, listen to your favorite songs, watch your favorite movies.
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So I'm going to end this off here. And I don't really know if this helped you like get super motivated or if it's exactly what you were looking for, for this to be this motivational, you can do this, here's what you have to do kind of episode. But I'm learning as I get myself motivated.
That there's a lot more to it and that we are humans and we got to take things one step at a time and we got to realize that this is our only life and we don't want to spend it being stressed out trying to be perfect because perfect looks different in everyone else's eyes. Everyone has a different vision of perfect and you're never going to be perfect to everyone. So just be you. Just be yourself and when you do that you're going to attract the right people into your life. You're going to stay on the right path and you're going to just do what you love.
And that is the goal in life. And that is the conclusion that my mind has come to. And the next time that I'm so hard on myself about doing this or doing that, that's what I need to remember. We're all on this path for a reason. We're all on different schedules. And it's going to take us all different points to get to where we want to be. But we're going to end up where we're supposed to be. And I hope that this motivated you enough in that way to just understand that you have to be patient with yourself. It's not all or nothing.
And I love you. And I can't wait to talk to you guys next week. I might have a very awesome guest. That's a lie. I will have a very awesome guest because I think I'm going to record with Miss Hannah Jara in Kauai. That's where I'm going.
Fun fact, I've never been island hopping and that's what I'm doing. I can't wait. Also, huge things happening in my life. I'm really excited to share them with you. But long story short, I'm supposed to leave at the end of February like for good. But I think I'm going to come back for March and April. Not the full month, just like a month in between there somehow.
and get my own place because I love my roommates. I literally have the best time ever with them but I think that my body is really like my mind is also calling me towards having my own space and
and being able to like pick and choose what I attend more often and like focus on work and creating and I don't know we'll get into it in a later date at a later episode but thank you guys so much for listening I will talk to you soon I hope you know how much I love you don't forget to like follow subscribe do all that good stuff you guys know the drill
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Stay motivated. At your own pace. I love you. Bye.