25: Moments in Growing Up
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Hello my beautiful people and welcome back to the moments podcast. We are actually on camera right now and by we I mean me so I'm a little bit anxious for no reason because it's still the same thing still just me talking to you guys but I'm also in a really good mood but also roller coaster of emotions going on right now right when I started recording this there was literally a cockroach on the microphone I just stared right at it and I have it on video which is kind of cool I guess it is fun to video

But for today's episode, there were a bunch of things that I've realized in the past couple days of my life, and I don't even really know where to start on what I want to talk about. So I decided what we're going to title this episode is Moments of Growing Up and What I've Learned in the Past Couple Years of My Life. I'm not sure if you guys know this or if you don't know this, but I recently came back out to Hawaii and...

See, it's such a long story and I don't even know how to tell it, but I first moved out here a while ago. I ended up going home for a little because it just wasn't really good for my mental health at the time. And then I came back out and had the time of my life, but I still ended up going home just because I got a little bit overwhelmed. That's not the real reason I went home. I had things to do at home. That's why I went. But by the time I left, I had been feeling a little bit overwhelmed.

And I think what I kept trying to do was make this a place that felt like home. And I'm not to say it's not at certain points in my life. There are times where I truly enjoy it out here. And I always enjoy it out here. I'm so connected with the nature and the ocean here. But I realize that it's really hard for me to stay focused. It's kind of like being in college or in high school. And I just can't seem to keep my head screwed on straight.

So I'm just, I've been having that realization lately and it's been really cool. I talked to my therapist this morning and I got a lot of clarity and it was all just clarity on things that I had really realized and journaled about, but there's something that's so cool when someone else validates your thoughts and your emotions and kind of just confirms that you're thinking things through the right way, if that makes any sense. But

I've kind of been postponing recording this since I had to film it too. And you know how it is. Sometimes you're just like, I don't think I'm going to like what I look like on camera. And I've been struggling with that a lot lately, which isn't ideal, but we're all human. And today I feel, I feel a little bit better. I've,

I think it's from the journaling, the therapy, I'm not even going to lie. And just the fact that it's not a weekend anymore. Like I said, being out here is kind of like college. So on the weekends, everybody just kind of goes out all the time. And it's really hard for me to say no, because I do have fun. But I also know that at heart, I thrive when I am not extra, extra social and partying all the time. I just kind of like to be alone and still and I don't know.

But I love the other thing too. I love going out. So I don't even know if I'm making any sense. But do I ever? Not really. Anyways, I'm finally settled in. I'm finally in my new place that I have on my own. And I got this place because I knew that I needed a space where I could be alone, where I could just film myself or vlog myself and just be with myself, not always with other people.

And my place is beautiful. It's literally awesome. I will say, though, I have a lot of bugs because I'm currently in a treehouse. Like a real treehouse. There's a tree that comes through the deck outside. And there's just screens, no doors. So I have a couple pet cockroaches. And by a couple, I mean probably 100 or more. And I have some spiders. And I do believe that there's a rat living behind my fridge.

But I say that all with good things because it's so worth it. The view, like where I'm staring and looking right now as I'm recording this is probably the most magical thing I've ever seen in my life. And it makes it all worth it. And I'm just grateful to be here. But that being said, you guys are going to be the first to get the insight on this. I was supposed to stay out here for a month. And I know you guys are going to be like, oh, here we go again. She's living Hawaii because her mental health is bad. Yeah, you got me there. That is exactly what is happening. But

Yeah, because my mental health isn't bad. I'm just

all over the place. But I'm just gaining so much clarity that this is a chapter I can close for now. Hawaii is not going anywhere. I can come back out here in the winters when I can truly make it more of a vacation kind of time. Because right now what I'm trying to do is balance growing all these aspects of my work and myself while also being very present in the moment and living as a 21 year old. And it gets really heavy for me to balance all that. So it's easier for me to just

escape and find somewhere where I can gain some stability and some structure and really prioritize work in the way that I want to.

That being said, there's so much that I want to do with this podcast and the future of it. And I've said this so many times, but I want it to be a community, like a safe place for all of us. So it's more than just a podcast. I want to have not merch because I hate that, but like a clothing line. And I want to eventually down the road have a self-guided journal. And there's just a lot, a lot I want to do.

And I do believe that I need to take a step for myself away from all the fun and games and going to the beach every day because I have no self-control. And that is what I do every day. And just go focus. And I think it's going to be really, really good. It's what I'm just craving right now. And it's weird to say that I'm craving stability, but I think that we all go through so many phases in life. You guys have heard me talk so much about how I love to be all over the place. I can't sit still. I can't be in one place for longer than...

a month. And I think that the past couple of years of my life, that's kind of what I've been doing. And now I've experienced it and now I'm ready to just sit back. And I spent a lot of time with Hannah Gerard the other night. Again, my queen, we're going to get her on this podcast before I leave. I have to. And we were just kind of talking about how

We just want to make a space really feel like our own. And I don't really do that out here because since I'm kind of always moving into different Airbnbs or houses or rentals, I'm not really wanting to buy all the things that I would put into a real house of my own. And

That's just kind of hard for me knowing that at home I do have a house. I'm actually moving into my own place in Florida, which is so exciting. And it's such a cool story. And I haven't really talked about it too much. So I'll just give you a quick little debrief for me because I feel like I haven't updated you. I don't even know what I'm doing with my life. And anyways.

My mom and my grandpa, well, mostly just my grandpa, when he was younger, like back in the 80s, he bought this duplex and completely renovated it. And my mom helped and he rented out both sides. It was just like a side income of a property that you rented out. And he's always had the duplex and people living in there. And my mom actually lived in there when she was in her 20s. And that's where she had me. So it's the first place that I ever lived. And

So did my dad. Everyone just lived there. And now my grandpa passed. And when he passed, the duplex got passed down to my mom and my aunt. So now I will be moving in. And it's just been a very, very fun, exciting, emotional little journey. And I just feel kind of sad, which is a weird emotion to feel. I feel sad that I'm not home and I'm not really helping right now with the renovations. And my mom is my queen and she loves renovations.

to help and design. And she's so freaking talented, but I want to be there and I want to be a part of it. And I just think that right now my life is literally in a hundred different places. I have different versions of myself everywhere and I just want to settle down. And I don't know if that's something that anyone else has been feeling. Maybe it's something in the air or maybe it's just me and maybe we're all on a different schedule and maybe what you're craving is being all over the place and not just being in one place. And

That's a cool thing to understand that like everyone is going to be on a different schedule and everybody is going to be at a different point in your life. And at certain points, you're going to grow further apart from people and closer to people, depending on where you're at and depending on what you bond over and stuff like that. But anyways, I do want to get into the actual topic of what we're talking about, which is

moments in growing up and here's what I've learned. And I started this little list yesterday because I was procrastinating the filming portion. So I was like, okay, I'm just going to do the outline. And I did. And I wrote down like 30 things that first came to my mind when I think about what I've learned in the past couple of years. But honestly, a lot of these lessons have become very clear in my mind in the past two weeks.

And I just think that there's some valuable things that have been told to me and taught to me that I would like to now share and tell you and not teach you. I hate that. Just share with you. And the first one I have written down, and I love that this is the first one that came to my mind.

is that you have to believe in yourself. And growing up is hard enough. And the least thing that you can do is just be kind to you and show yourself compassion and show yourself love through all of these steps. Because I think I say this in every episode, you're the only person that you have until the end of time. You are the one who is going to be your best friend. And you have to believe in yourself. Because if you don't believe in yourself, you can't expect other people around you to believe in you. And that kind of leads into...

The one thing I've realized is that the way that you treat yourself and the way that you carry yourself is the way that you are going to allow people to treat you. So if you are treating yourself with disrespect and you're unkind to yourself, other people are going to think it's okay to treat you that way. And obviously, it's not. So when I started thinking about it that way, it taught me to be kind to myself and it taught me to be proud of my accomplishments and confident in who I am on the inside and

Yeah, that's really kind of all I've got for the first one, but just believe in yourself. Shit's going to get hard. Wow, I've been cursing. Who am I? Even on Instagram, I like posted a curse word. Whatever, I guess that's part of growing up. But things are going to go down. You're going to have to learn a lot of lessons in this lifetime, and sometimes they're going to hit you like a truck. Total curveball, wild card, going to hit you in the face, and...

You're going to have to get past it. And the one way to get past it, I mean, imagine that you have no one else rooting for you or supporting you. At least you have you. So continue to do that. Be your hype man. Be your biggest supporter. Anyways, the next one that I have. And this one I've been feeling so strongly about lately. It's like something is being pulled through the inside of me and like pushed out to share this and talk about this because I don't know. But what I have written down is that true friends aren't essential.

You need true friends in your life. And when you begin to find real friendships, the one-sided friendships and the fake friendships and everything that's superficial just becomes so clear in your mind. So what I did today, actually on the Moments Podcast Instagram, by the time you're listening to this, it should still be there. I made a highlight called friendship, but I did a little question box and was like, what characteristics or how do you know someone's a true friend? Whatever it was that I wrote.

And it was very cool to see the responses. And I shared them all. And then what the plan was, okay, forgetting how to speak English. What I did was post those responses and just kind of give us all a way to evaluate the friendships that we're keeping close to us in our life because

friendship is such a valuable thing because yes you always have you but it doesn't hurt to have someone else someone that you can trust and really love and pour into where you guys can both feel each other's cup up and you can both laugh at everything and be content doing nothing and if you guys don't see each other for a while just pick up right where you left off those are the friendships that you want to build and I do believe that in this day and age especially in

the age that we all are, like our, even our younger teen years, our older teen years, our early twenties, people want to be friends for the wrong reasons. And people want to take from you and empty your cup and don't want to see you grow and don't want to see you thrive. And a lot of that comes from a place of their own insecurity and not being able to love themselves fully. So they take away the love that someone else has for themselves, if that makes sense.

And it's just something to be super aware of. And I'm not saying drop any friends who struggle with this because a lot of times when this is happening in a friendship, it's not something that they're doing on purpose. It's not done intentionally. But you just have to really be aware of your energy and protect your energy and make sure that if someone's treating you that way, you either learn to stand up for yourself, which I can't even say that confidently because I don't do that.

What I choose to do, which is also another option that's totally okay, there's different kinds of people that do things different ways, is I'll just walk away from it. And not walk away from it where I end a friendship, I just distance myself from it in a way that makes sense because it's a friendship that needs work still and a friendship that's going to continue to need work and the work can be done from...

a thought, if that makes sense. It's just giving yourself space and giving someone else space to find themselves or in a lot of cases, even just find yourself and check yourself as a friend. And I was going through my explore page yesterday on Instagram and I saw this one thing. It was like questions to call yourself out. And I was like, oh crap, here we go. And I wish I could remember what they are.

or what they were, but you really just sometimes got to be like, okay, am I the problem here? And I'm not saying make yourself feel guilty or make yourself feel like you're a bad friend, but just check yourself and make sure you're not adding to what this issue is. Just remember that you want to treat people the way that you would like to be treated. And a lot of times our emotions can get in the way of that. And things can just get messy. Friendships are hard. Friendships are harder than relationships. And I will say that until the day that I die.

Friendships do take work, but they shouldn't take everything out of you. And yeah, I've just been feeling very strongly on the whole little friendship thing. And I think it's just because I've come to realize that I have a few really, really incredible people in my life.

And there's such true friendships with such pure intentions and pure joy that it just made it really clear on what was superficial in my life. And it's been a cool thing to experience, but maybe I'll do a whole episode diving deeper into this. I've done one a while ago with the set, but I think I have even a deeper understanding than I did when I first recorded that one. So expect a little rerun of that one of these days. Who knows when?

Moving on, the next one that I have written down is that simple tasks won't always be simple. And this one hits me hard because the older I get, the more social media I consume. I see a lot of

trending like fat girl TikToks or oh waking up at 5am and then I do this, this, this and that and I get really, really down on myself because I'm someone with unmade, okay again can't speak English, I'm someone with unmedicated ADHD so I have a really, really hard time doing simple tasks in a consistent routine and that's probably part of the reason why I'm craving something like that because it just feels so absent in my life but

You just have to be okay with understanding, again, that everybody's different. And some people thrive in a very structured setting and some people just can't handle it. And it's a blessing and a curse to be either of those people. There's pros and cons to every single thing in life.

And you just have to learn to be grateful for the way that you do do things. Like for me, I get hard on myself for not completing simple tasks. But in reality, while I'm avoiding those tasks, I'm being creative. I'm using my mind and I'm coming up with new things to do. And I just think that that's pretty cool. And it's a good way to just think about things, you know? But I just need you to release the pressure and the expectations that you have set for yourself because

You're going to continue to change. You're going to continue to grow. You're going to be at different points at different times. And just because one month you can be that girl who wakes up at 5 a.m. and has the structure, it's not to say that next month you won't be able to do so or vice versa. Just be okay with where you are and how you function and how it works. And that doesn't mean you can't take steps to better yourself. It just means you got to be nice to yourself. It all goes back to that first one.

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And I really love this one because it's not something that I ever understood. I always thought that when I would read books or go to therapy or study up on what was going to happen in my life and how it was going to happen, I would be like, okay, I can learn this before I have to go through it. But the reality is,

shit has to, here I go again, shit has to happen to you before you can actually learn from it. And it's just taught me to be so freaking grateful for the bad things that happen to me in my life. And it's weird to say, it's like,

it almost feels cringy to say, yeah, like I'm so grateful for everything bad that happens. It sounds really extra, but I am, dude. Every time I've gone through my lowest points or had been the most screwed over is when I learned the most about myself and the way the world works and how to be okay with bad things happening and just letting them go instead of sulking in them and rotting in them and

The only way that you learn those lessons is to experience it. So don't be afraid. Don't live life with fear. And I think that that's something I've struggled with for so long in my life. And I still do. I still struggle. Like fear leads me a lot often. And it's not fun. It's not ideal. But I'm giving you this advice that I need. We can't live our life with fear. We just have to be

literally going with the flow and letting things happen. And you're allowed to feel when something bad happens, but also focus on what there is to be grateful about it. And I really wish I could give you like more specific examples of what I mean by this. But obviously that's a little, that's like into my personal life and I probably should keep it offline and yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So take what you will from that one.

And the next one I have is your gut is never wrong. Always trust the energy that you feel. I did a little TikTok coffee talk on this today because I felt it so heavily this morning.

Energy is so real in everything, in every person, in every situation. And you have to learn how to read it. And you have to begin to notice what people do you feel the best around? What places do you feel the best in? And then you start to notice what energy is and how it works. And you're like, holy cow, I can read.

take myself out of situations that are taking energy away from me and immerse myself into situations that are giving me energy. And I just kind of compare a gut feeling with energy because I think the two are very similar. But the real point of that was just trust your gut. If your gut is telling you something's not going to work out, maybe just don't run from it immediately because again, you want to experience it. Just have a little bit of a guard up and protect yourself. All right, next one.

I kind of just talked about this in a way, but gratitude solves more than you think. And we're all complainers. We all have a problem. We all have issues. We're always looking for what's going wrong in our life instead of what's going right. And I say that wholeheartedly because there is no way you can tell me that you have never complained about something or you have never complained about a situation. We all do it. But the power of

after that happens maybe because there's I personally don't think there's a way to avoid that completely I'm not going to sit here and be like yeah I never complain and I never talk bad and I never I'm a human we're all humans we can't just turn that off but we can work towards pushing it back and by that I mean after you notice yourself

feeling a lot of emotions or feeling negative or complaining about a lot of things, sit back and do a little gratitude journal. It doesn't even have to be a lot. You can be like, I'm glad this happened because now I punched a pillow and I got my anger out. Even if it's that. Or just start writing and you'll be like, wow, I just...

had so much clarity on why that had to happen and why I had to feel that anger and that sadness to feel this sense of understanding and this sense of peace. And I just think, I think it's cool. I think gratitude is beautiful. There's always something to complain about. And there's also always something to be grateful for. So when you need to catch yourself, you find yourself in that dark place where the energy is dark.

Turn it off. Just find something to be happy about. There's something. Literally go eat your favorite snack. Dude, there's already something to feel better about. Go take a pee if you have to pee and then be grateful that you got to pee. It can be that simple. You got to start somewhere. Okay, moving on to the next one.

never run I literally just looked at the time on the thing and it was two two two guys I have not stopped seeing angel numbers it's terrifying how many I've seen not terrifying it's really freaking cool I don't know I'm feeling very enlightened right now that sounds cringy but it's a cool feeling anyways moving on never run from an opportunity

You're going to be handed a lot of opportunities and doors are going to be open for you. And the one piece of advice that I want you to take from this is walk through that door. Take that experience. Go to the opportunity. Today, I was scrolling through my old yoga account, right? And my yoga account was the account that I started back in like 2013 when I started doing yoga. It's really adorable and wholesome to go through it. I was reading all the captions that I had on there.

I was reading all those captions and I just started to realize that I was in a way manifesting the exact life that I'm living right now. It was wild. But that being said, I think that that was able to happen because I don't run from opportunities. And I don't know if that was something that was maybe drilled into my head as I was growing up through like my parents, but I assume that it is because that's something I've always done. They've always encouraged me to like,

take the leap and go for the big things like I remember in middle school I was in seventh grade and it was my first year on the cheer team and I wanted to run for captain but like captains were only eighth graders like you don't mess with that you don't try out for captain in seventh grade and I was like you know what I'm gonna do it and like my parents told me to do it and I ended up being a captain in seventh grade I got a lot of crap for it the eighth graders did not like me

But that's just an example. You just have to go for it because you never know what the outcome is going to be. Because I choose to believe that me being captain in middle school is what led me to being captain in high school. And then just, it's just every decision that you make has gotten you to exactly where you are right now. And I think that an opportunity never hurts because it's either going to be the biggest blessing that is going to lead you to the next step and the level up in your life, or it's going to be the biggest lesson. And you're going to learn so much from it.

But I just need you to do it. And I know that there's a lot of things that stop us from chasing opportunities. And I still struggle with this a lot. Like now I'm at a point where the doors and the opportunities will open and I'll be like, I don't know. I don't know. And I need to get back into like my little confident 13-year-old seventh grade self that's like, you know what? I'm going to do it. And one thing that helps me go for the opportunities is just understanding that you only have to live each moment one time.

You literally only have to experience it once. Like no matter how anxious you get, you only got to feel that one time. And I don't know. It just kind of made me realize like, go for it. Do it. You only get to do it once. And it could end up being one of the best things that you do in your life for yourself. So don't be afraid to just take the freaking leap. The next one that I have written down, I've already talked about this a bunch of times. It seems...

It's very prominent in what I wanted to talk about for this episode. It literally just says shit happens. I didn't even elaborate on it. I just wrote down shit happens. And honestly, I think that's all you need to know about it. You can't expect everything to be perfect because if everything were perfect, then it wouldn't be perfect. You know what I'm saying?

So just know that. As you grow up, the older you get, the more things that are going to happen. And that is one thing I never understood about adulting. I always thought it wasn't going to be so bad. And not to say it's bad. It's actually really awesome. But you just face a lot more real-life problems than you thought you were going to. Because we never really realized how much our parents and older people protected us from the real world.

until they stop doing that. And then you're like, oh crap, this is what it's like. Okay, we're going to live and we're going to learn. And we're going to make big mistakes and that's okay. The next one I have, I'm not really sure if I've talked about this. I kind of feel like I have. My brain doesn't know though. I have written down, don't live with expectations.

And, oh, I really don't know if I talked about this, but I did talk about it in a coffee talk a couple of days ago. And it was all about how we fall in love with the idea of things. And it's very common in relationships that we fall in love with the idea of a person, but we don't actually love that person. And I think that this can be

used in a lot of different aspects of our life as well. And one example for me is kind of where I'm at with Hawaii right now. And I did talk about this earlier, but I fell in love with the idea of making it perfect because there is so much that I love about it. But I was like, if I do this, this and this, then it would be perfect because if that, then this. And I was just making all these ideas and saying all these things, but I didn't even know if they were going to work. And then when they didn't work, I let myself down and I was obsessed.

And I was like, dang, I thought it was going to be perfect. But again, nothing's going to be perfect. And that is the beauty of life. So just don't live with expectations. Just let things happen. And then you won't break your own heart. It sucks to break your own heart. It's like not the vibes, you know? The next one I have written down is keep good people close to you. And this goes all back to that second one I talked about with friendships.

Good people make you feel good. They make you do good. They make you want to be good. And you just have to keep them close because they are going to lead your life in such a good direction. And I don't know, just keep the good people close and stop trying to be superficial to friendships and relationships that are a waste of your time. Be around the people that you can be yourself around, not the people who make you feel like you need to be someone else.

Because I promise if you do that, you're going to end up with a crap load of people who don't care about you. And that's harsh, but it's really, really true. Be yourself. And the people that are meant for you and that are meant to be in your life are going to come into your life. Okay. The next one I have written down is that self-care is productive.

And I mean that wholeheartedly. This is one, again, I'm still struggling with it. A lot of the things I tell you guys are the things that I'm struggling with. And we've gone over that before. But when I find myself doing self-care, I'll get really upset with myself. I'm like, I'm being so unproductive. There's so much I could be doing, like either with my friends or for work or working out or taking care of myself in a way that's productive. And I'd be like, wow, doing a face mask is just not productive. But then I was thinking, when I really am the most

quote unquote productive, like when I get the most work done is when I feel the best about myself. And it just makes me understand that self-care is so productive. Self-care is what is going to make us want to do the work and want to chase the goals and chase the dreams. And it just teaches you to love yourself. And it's a huge factor in all of these things that I'm talking about. Loving yourself comes first and the rest comes after that. So self-care is productive.

Next up, you are important. It's cheesy, it's cringy, and I probably remind you every week, but you are so important and you deserve to be so valued and so respected by the people that are in your life. And

I just don't know if anyone needs that reminder. A lot of us let ourselves get crapped on, let ourselves get walked all over because we just want to make other people happy. And if it makes other people happy to hurt us, then we're like, okay, well, I guess this is supposed to be how it goes. But my therapist told me, no, that's not supposed to be how it goes. You're supposed to be treated with respect and love. And that's supposed to be what makes your friends happy, not tearing you apart, you know?

And she had a really good point. We deserve to be taken care of and loved and just treated right. And that's that on that. So as you grow up, don't forget that. Do not let people treat you like crap. And that, yeah, that's it. Moving on. That being said, treat people the way that you want to be treated. If you want to be treated with love and respect, it is also your duty to treat others with love and respect.

Because friendship does go both ways. You guys hear the birds? I'm not sure if you can, but it's very magical. But friendship, it's a two-way street. And you have to do your part as well. And that's why I'm a huge believer on treating people the way that you want to be treated. And I really am feeling like I talked about this in here already because I think I did. So I'm going to move on to the next one. But next thing I have written down.

is that if people show you that they're going to hurt you, they're going to continue to hurt you if you let them. Honestly, I'm feeling like this episode is a little bit, not out of my comfort zone, but out of my norm. Because normally, I don't know, I'm not so like, stand up for yourself, make sure you know your worth. Like I am, but in a different way. So really what I'm telling you right now, don't let people hurt you. You don't deserve that. You do not deserve that crap. And you deserve to be

here I go again, but treat it right. And when you allow people to hurt you, it becomes a cycle. And one thing I've been thinking a lot about lately is that someone makes a mistake one time, it's a mistake. Sometimes even twice, it's just a mistake. But when you're shown repeated patterns of someone doing the same thing, it's a decision. And it's no longer a mistake. And you no longer need to give that person the benefit of the doubt or

Try to make yourself believe that they're a good person. If they're hurting you and they're draining you over and over and over again, they're going to keep doing it. So walk away. Walk away. And this also goes a lot of like relationships and flings and things, especially at the age that we're at. Like I remember in high school.

I used to like the mean boys, like the boys that were not nice to me. I was like, ooh, he likes her? Okay, I'm going to make him like me. No, no, no, no, no. If someone doesn't like you from the start and isn't going to

not worship you. Like that's really dramatic. But if someone isn't going to treat you the way that you deserve to be treated from the start, that's not going to change. And I learned that firsthand from all the boys I talked to in high school. They don't change. That boy never stopped liking her. He never started liking me. He would just like trick me and fool me into thinking that he would and then go for someone else. So we're not, we're not going to do that anymore. In 2022, we're not putting up with that energy. Nice boys only.

and nice friends and just nice people in our life because that's what we need more of because that's what makes us happy and healthy and yeah all right we're moving on to the next one even if your dreams are crazy keep on chasing them and I brought this up just a few minutes ago but I was looking at like my my old yoga account and I was reading all the captions and I was just so mind blown like literally in the captions I was like one day I'm gonna grow an Instagram and

I'm going to share yoga with the whole world and I'm going to teach classes. Then I would talk about how bad things happen before good things happen. I just literally wrote about everything that I say on this podcast now, but in a really cute, wholesome, cringe 12-year-old way. I would always be like, the rain comes before the rainbow. It would be like an Instagram picture edited with the Instagram edits. It was just wholesome. That being said,

Clearly, over all those years, different points in my life, I was focused on different things. And it's really cool to see myself be back into that passion where I'm sharing words and I'm sharing wisdom that is taught to me with other people, because that's what I've

always wanted to do. And it's just cool to see it become full circle. And the only way that it's going to do that is if you keep chasing your dreams and you keep working towards them and you don't let go of your passion just because something else is trending or going on. Your passion is your passion and that's your purpose. And that's why you're here. And you need to continue to chase that passion and chase that purpose. Because if you don't, if you go in a direction that is led by superficial things like money and popularity and

You're going to lose yourself in that and you're never really going to feel happy. And I know that that's a little bit harsh. That's pretty straightforward, but that's how it goes. You'll notice that when you're doing what you're passionate about, your work doesn't really feel like work. And I think that's why I sometimes have such a hard time balancing work and life.

Because my work is my life and my life is my work. And I wouldn't really want to have it any other way because I'm doing everything that I dreamed of. And there's so much more that I want to do. And just keep chasing your dreams and don't give up on them, please. That is like a huge takeaway that I want you to take away from this episode. This episode is brought to you by Shopify. Whether you're selling a little or a lot.

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And the next one I have written down is that your life doesn't need a perfect outline because things are going to happen. And I was reading an article that was written about me back when I did all my yoga stuff in 2015. And it was like a little interview with me. And I guess in the interview, I said, I'm not going to tell you exactly what I want to do with my life because I know that the plan will change because life happens. But I want to be a physical therapist because I want to make people's days better. And

I just thought it was cool that I knew that I didn't have an outline then. And I know that I don't have an outline now, but what is beneficial to have is a rough draft, an idea of what you want to do and an idea of the things that make you happy and how you want to keep them around in your life. And just an understanding that,

A rough draft makes it a lot easier on yourself. And it kind of, going back to what we talked about earlier, releases the expectations and the creation of an idea that hasn't even happened yet. And what I like to have in my rough draft is kind of just my goals and what I think I'm really going to need and what I'm really going to want to do. Those are the things that stay on my rough draft. And

And the rest is just going to fill itself in. All the empty space is going to get filled in. And it's not something that you have to worry so much about. The next one I have is that you're going to change. You are going to change. And I think about this all the time because I always look back on the old versions of myself. And I'm like, so much has changed yet so much is so similar. And you'll notice that the parts that are the most true to you

are the characteristics that won't change even when you change extreme amounts. And it's just cool to see that because the older you get, the more you'll tap into the truest version of yourself, the version of yourself that isn't created based on outside factors. It's just coming from within and

Just know that you're going to keep changing, but whatever characteristics stick around are the ones that are truly what make you you, and you need to hold on to those. And don't try to change it. It's going to happen naturally. The next one I have is that things always make sense eventually. And you guys know I ramble on and on and about this one all the time, but

Sometimes it's not going to make sense until a year later or two years later or six years later or seven years later, or you'll understand it the next day. But again, back to the little quote that Meredith came up with. Everything happens for a reason. And when you don't know the reason yet, it's because you're in the happening. And it just gets me through it. It really does. Like that quote is my favorite. Meredith is literally my favorite person in the whole wide world. I'm going to have her on another episode before I leave Hawaii too. That's the goal.

But moving on to the next one is that you're going to make mistakes. And I think a huge part in growing up is being able to forgive yourself and being able to move past parts of you that you don't love anymore. I'm not exactly sure how to explain it. Like the really simple way to look at it is just forgive yourself for your past. You're going to make mistakes. You have to. It's the only way to learn. And I've talked about that on here too, but in a different way.

The only way you learn is from making mistakes. So know that they're going to happen. And know that you have to forgive yourself for them and that you can move past them. Anyways, I have a couple more and then I'll let you guys go. And we can do this again because I have a very long list and I could go over all of these things. But the next one that I'm going to give you, I'm actually going to end on this next one, is that you can either control what you consume or what you consume will control you.

And I just want you to take away from this episode that you have a lot more power than you realize in your own life. You are capable of taking in what is going to benefit you versus what is destroying you. And I've talked about this on here many times before, but

When you're scrolling through TikTok, if you're seeing videos that are making you feel bad about yourself or making you feel hopeless or down or unsuccessful, click not interested. It's not something that you need to watch, but what social media does is it makes you addicted to that. It gives you more video after video like that if you're watching them. And that's why you click not interested. When you choose to own and consume the media, it's going to help you grow and it's going to benefit you and it's going to make you feel better about yourself.

Because you deserve to feel good about yourself. And you deserve to understand that your life is your life. And it doesn't really matter what everyone else has going on. Just because someone else has something that you don't, it doesn't take away from who you are and what you're capable of and what your potential is. I promise you.

So consume what is good. Read books. I have that written down too. I really enjoy reading books. And I noticed myself go through phases. Sometimes I'll read two books in a day and sometimes I won't touch a book for like four weeks. So that's okay too. And I love you guys. I'm feeling pretty good. I am excited to upload this podcast because you might be seeing it on YouTube too. That's new and fun. I know I gave you guys that hint a while ago, but then life happened and it took me a little bit longer.

But I do believe it's happening. I think. We'll see. Anyways, wherever you're watching me, you're on YouTube, you're on Spotify, you're on Apple Podcasts, don't forget to follow, subscribe, leave a rating. Guys, do you know that we hit one million listens? I was literally crapping my pants the other day when I looked up the analytics and saw that we did that. Like, I need to have a picnic or something. That's so cool. You guys are awesome. I freaking love you. You're my best friends. Anyways.

I love you. And I'm really proud of you for growing up. I know it's hard, but we're all going to keep doing it. And life's only going to get better from here. We're still so young and have so much to see and so much to learn. But I love you. All right. I'll talk to you next Monday. Thank you for listening. Bye, Queens.