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Welcome to Can't Believe Reckless, a production of iHeartRadio and The Black Effect. And just like that, we back on the air. Welcome back. Welcome back, y'all. Y'all haven't heard my voice in a while. And I haven't done a podcast in a while, y'all. Of course, I had a baby. Her name is Marlee Sky Moore Tolliver. Yes, I hyphenated her name. She has me and her dad's last name. And I'm going to be talking about

And she was born August 20th, 247 in the morning. My baby is a Leo Lord. And she is she was seven pounds and three ounces, 19 inches. My baby was a long baby. Our father is like six to six, three, something like that. So I'm having me a talker. She will be dunking on bitches.

She back to be dunking on these bitches. Okay. For real. She going to be a trained Olympian or something. We going to get in something where her height is going to matter. All right. But motherhood has been great to me. It's been very challenging. Y'all know I do have a 12 year old Ashton. He has been amazing. He is amazing.

like a part of the village that is helping us take care of Marley. He's happy to be a big brother again. We know the first baby daddy, little baby father, he got...

Five kids? I think Roman's got five kids. And so he is, Ashton is used to being the big brother, but not used to mommy having a new baby. And I just think he's just ecstatic that he can grow up in the house with the baby this time, you know, because all of his siblings live with their moms. And so he don't get to see them every day, don't get to talk to them. But he is around Marley every day, all day. He loves her like she loves him. She'd be looking for him. And my baby is now...

almost three months. She's not three months yet, but she is a breastfed baby. So y'all she's big. And she looks like she's about four months going on five months, man. I'm trying to figure out when the fuck I can feed her some actual food. Cause she don't look her age. This is crazy. But, um, the journey has been up and down. I'm not going to lie. I thought I would be like right back to work. I thought after like six weeks, um,

I was going to be like pumping and listen, these are my pumps that y'all hear. I know y'all like, what the hell is that noise? If you're driving in your car or you in the gym or you, you doing something sitting at your job working, you probably trying to find a sound. I'm pumping. I am a breast pumping, breastfeeding mom. Okay. Um, so duty calls and whenever it calls, I got to be on the duty. So, um, this is what you get. And, um,

It's very challenging. I'm not going to lie. Like I said, I thought I would be back at work month and a half in. Nope. I felt crazy around my six weeks. I know. I felt crazy as hell. It's cool. I give

Yeah. But you know why? Because I didn't anticipate breastfeeding being a whole nother full time job. Imagine being somebody's food, yo. Like you can't like I had to alter my diet. I have to you know, I can't do certain things. I can't be away from her long. Like even like right now sitting at iHeart doing my podcast like she on her last bag of milk. I got to run out of here as soon as I finish wrapping up this episode. And that's why I'm pumping so I can like breastfeed.

be there with her next bag of milk whenever she's hungry. You know what I'm saying? And I have a village. You know, I always say this now. I take my hat off and...

And I worship the ground that the single moms walk on, you know, because I have help and it's still a big challenge every day. Me and Chris, we have his mom. She's the nanny. So we call her the grand nanny. And she moved all the way from Kuwait to come here and be a nanny for me and her son. And this is our first grandchild. And, yeah.

That this is big for her. And this is also big for Chris because this is his first baby. And we are excited. We are definitely excited to be parents to her. It is definitely a challenge, though. She's so attached to me. But having to that transition from like.

Taking her off the nipple, putting her on a bottle. That was a little challenging because she got so used to being on my nipple whenever she cries. There you go. Pop it right in. Boom. She latched perfectly. She latched well. She is healthy. She ain't missing no meals. But sometimes I will say being a breastfeeding mom, it definitely gets

I haven't had a full eight hour sleep yet. I have to get up every two to three hours and pump. So I, this is, this is like kind of,

Like this is more uncomfortable than the pregnancy. The last trimester, I wasn't getting sleep and I really can't even get sleep. And once I get like where I'm dreaming of getting that good REM cycle of sleeping, I got to wake up and pump. Like it's crazy. So Taylor here. Taylor here, y'all. Taylor here. So how much do you pump though then? All right. So each session, it varies. It's different, y'all. Like because some weeks are great.

And then some weeks it's like, damn, I feel like I'm doing something wrong because I'm not pumping hardly like anything. Do they tell you like what to eat? Yeah. So I have lactation cookies. I had to change my diet. Like I was I had I think I was eating too much dairy because my baby's gas. She was smelling like a grown ass woman. And there's no way a baby supposed to smell like my baby was smelling at at age.

four and five weeks. I'm like, Oh hell no. So I like instantly changed my diet. I stopped eating dairy and then I started eating more protein, more vegetables, more fruits, fresh fruits, and then like flax seeds, chia seeds, elderberry, chamomile teas, and just like trying to find different things to increase the milk flow. I have lactation cookies. I have a lactation specialist who I consult with every now and then she's,

really, really, really good. But you just learn in doing this. Like, you can't take advice from everyone. You can take advice, but every woman is different. It depends on your body. And then I also got my boobs done at a younger age as well. So, I don't know. They keep saying that had nothing to do with it, but I do believe it does because my right boob does not pump as much as my left boob. And one...

boob also hurts more when I'm pumping than the other, you know what I'm saying? And, um, I don't know. I, it's, it's more comfortable to breastfeed her than pump pumping hurts. Like it hurts. Uh, it's a different type of pool. Yeah, definitely. And it's a machine, you know what I mean? And especially when the pumps are fully charged, it's, it's definitely some power behind that pump, you know? And, um,

I appreciate that I can actually make milk for her because some moms can't pump milk at all. And that was me with my first son. He, my first child, my son did not latch. So I was just going to pump, but then it hurt so bad. I couldn't, then I wasn't, you know, producing. I didn't really understand the benefits of breastfeeding back then though. So I, I, I was young. I was pregnant when I was 19. I had him when I was 20 girl, I was back at work in like four weeks. You know what I'm saying? And I, um,

It was good for me. And guess where I worked at? I worked at McDonald's. And look at my outfit today. Oh, my God. Y'all, so listen, I'm sitting up here, right? I got dressed for work this morning. This is a side note. I'm going to get back to all this shit.

I get ready for work this morning, right? And I got a white button-up on with a red and yellow sweater. All right? The sweater goes over top of the white button-up, and I got the collar coming out. You know, I get real preppy or whatever, right? And I got on these black slacks, and I got some black leather platform chunky heels, right? So the outfit sound cute. Sound like it's Gaffer.

And so I just thought I was killing them when I walked up here today. So I, first person I see is one of the producers here, Samantha. And she said, Oh, you look cute. But it was the way she said it. And I was like, hold on. So I went over to the mirror and it was quiet for like two minutes. And I came back like, I,

I did think I looked cute, but now I look like somebody managing at McDonald's. I look like the bitch that walk out, whatever, like, can I speak to a manager? And I come out like, hey, what's up? Like, fuck, I look like I work at... I can't unsee it. Why would you see it? Because, like, I don't know, and I really thought I was killing them when I was strutting in this bitch today. Yeah.

And then that just, that was a trigger for me just talking about my first pregnancy and my first birth because I worked at McDonald's and I was the fucking manager. Girl looking dumb as shit. Okay. So. Hold up, hold up. I know this shit getting good, but listen to just a couple seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen.

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All right, so what's the, what do you think is the biggest difference being pregnant at this age versus when you first were pregnant? I worry more. Like, I worry about everything. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing things wrong all the time. Sometimes I wake up and I feel like, yo, what the fuck am I even doing? Like, you know what I'm saying? Versus like a boy versus a girl, too? You said, is it different, like, that I have a girl? No. I honestly just feel like I was in a different place.

I was in a different time in my life. I was in a different state of mind. And I just now I'm fully aware I'm a grown woman. And it's just like, but now I wish I had that not a care in the world mindset that I had when I was younger. It's like now I feel like I care about too much. And I I overthink things. And and that's why I'm saying I don't know if I do have postpartum depression some days.

Well, actually, a lot of days I don't feel pretty. I don't feel like I can accomplish certain things that I knew I could accomplish before. I felt like I got to get back to where I got to get back to work. People are not going to miss me. People are not going to want me around anymore. And I got to get back on tour. My fans are going to forget about me. I got to write more comedy. I feel like I don't want to tell the same jokes. And when I overthink a lot and. But you don't think that's just your ambitions? I say yes.

You weren't pregnant. Maybe you just like, I don't know, broke a leg or something. You just can't come in. Yeah. You don't feel like it would be the same? It definitely would probably be the same. But the only thing that makes me feel like it is postpartum depression, and again, I haven't been diagnosed, guys, is that I cry so much. Like, I feel like I can't do anything right. Like, crazy. And then...

And then I also feel like so many people, like everything plays on your mind when you have postpartum depression. And I'm just going to say, yeah, every little thing bothers me. Like even if I change my daughter and she starts like to cry, I feel like, oh my God, I hurt her or I'm not, I'm not going to pump enough. I always often think like in the future, like, you know what?

one day I won't have milk for her, then what the fuck do I do? Because I don't want to give her a formula. And now I'm standing on it. I don't like, I really don't. And to each his own. I give my hat to a woman who has tried breastfeeding and can't do it because everybody just can't do it. You know what I mean? I've been in that predicament before as well, but yeah,

I always think about that because I don't pump enough to store. You know, you got women who can pump like to share breast milk and still have milk for their kids. You got...

that got too much damn milk. You know what I'm saying? Like that their breasts leak. My breast has not leaked yet. Really? You know what I mean? No, I don't have that. And I feel like that would be a great problem. I hear women complain about it, but that's what I want. I want to be able to make mass amount of milk so I don't have to take my daughter on these fucking airplanes and shit and risk getting her sick at such a young age and shit. But those are also the benefits of breast milk.

Your kids don't get sick easily. You know, they're getting all the nutrients and vitamins and protein and everything that they need because it's right there in the milk. And like all the good things that you have in you is just going right back into the baby. You know, I did. I capsulized my placenta. So I'm still taking my prenatal vitamins to try to increase milk flow. Like I said, the lactation cookies, I'm taking lactation capsules like I'm staying hydrated. I only drink milk.

coconut water, body armor, because it's made with coconut water and, um, and water, regular water. Like I, I don't drink Kool-Aid. I don't drink soda. I don't drink it. All the shit that I, I always wanted to, huh? No. I mean, everything that I, that I want to fucking drink. I can't,

orange juice. Yes. But if I do drink juice, it gotta be like 100% juices. So I'll drink grape juice or cranberry juice. Um, and not even a cocktail. I mean like the real cranberry juice, um, orange juice, pineapple, like all of that. So I'm trying to be as healthy as I can, but it's like only, but so much you can do. Like it's up to your body. Like it's what your body produces. And I just get scared that I'm not going to be able to feed her. And I may have to put her on formula and I just don't want to do it.

How long did you want to pump for? Until she's about eight, nine months. I honestly wanted to, you know, and even when she starts eating like solids, like, you know, real food, I actually still want to mix up my breast milk with it. Like I want to like puree carrots and carrots and celery and fucking...

broccoli and vegetables, cucumbers and shit like that. You know, things like fresh fruits and vegetables and then mix it with my breast milk. I was watching this lady on TikTok and she does that and it's so healthy. Her kid be fucking that food up. And I'd be like, shit, that's, I can't wait to do that. But like, I don't want to have to put my baby on formula before then. Cause I feel like I don't make enough milk for her. I just, I really don't. And then also like on another, another point,

like coming back to work was hard it was hard as shit because everybody just so it everybody just flip-flops like the internet is a strange place now listen I never been the type to care and to cater to people's opinions about me and shit like that but when you feel the way you feel after having a baby and shit and like your hormones are up and down it's like it's a it's

Like your mind does not allow you to think positively about shit. And I felt like people went from loving me. And there's a few haters scattered around in there. I mean, but I always had haters. I always could fend for myself and let shit roll off my back. People talk about me my whole fucking career. I don't care about that.

But it's just something about it now. Like, it just seems like I've gotten so much more hate. Like, yeah. Like, I don't know if my mind is set up to only go there with it. You know what I'm saying? The mind is a ghetto place. Yes. So I feel like... You already said that it might be postpartum. Like, you said postpartum. You say, like, you don't feel as pretty and everything else, too. So that might be also a mindset, too. You haven't been here for a long time. Not a long time, but, you know, a few months. So...

the absence filled with all the other stuff you got going on. Yeah, it could weigh on you, but I don't think. Definitely. I always think that people are on the internet. Yeah. In real life. I know there's so many people on the internet that probably talking shit and then they've met me and like, oh,

oh, hey Taylor, and don't say nothing. Yeah. I don't think you should pay that much mind to that. I know. And that's the thing, I try not to. And then I have Chris. Chris always helps me with that. He'll snatch my phone out of my hand like, yo, what the fuck you doing? Why are you looking for validation from other people? It must be in your position. That's almost what it is though. Or just boring. Nothing against y'all. We appreciate the listenership. But I'm just saying, a lot of times they're just at their boring job.

Yeah. Yeah. And they know they can't be seen. So they like, all right, cool. Like I'm, I'm basically a bot. I'm going to troll her. And like, but to try to break somebody is crazy. And it's like, I never really thought that I would be the person that struggled with this. Cause girl, you know, I don't give a fuck what nobody say, like usually like about me, but I, Oh, Oh my gosh, Taz.

That Frenchie gas is a different, it's a whole different gas, ain't it? I know. Listen, my dog be smelling like a whole fucking crack alley. I'd be like, wait a minute. Where the fuck did you go? What did you eat? What did you digest, honey? Yeah, I know. Her dog is in here and he stank, child. If I was pregnant, I would have threw up. You already know I couldn't handle no fucking smells. I could smell, listen, when I was pregnant, yo, I could smell when somebody was coming on there, period.

Yeah. Like my nose was like, yeah. That's crazy. Like, yeah, I had the Cyclops of noses. But why? So what sense are you losing then? You're not losing anything. Like all your senses are heightened. Like, yeah, you got another baby growing, like a human being growing inside of you. Yes, because they have to smell. Yeah, absolutely. So I'm like, yes, man. Like I could smell bullshit from miles away too with these, uh,

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When I was younger or not even younger, but I used to be like, man, I want guys to be able to get pregnant too so they could feel how we feel. But I don't wish that no more just because it is a superpower that women have. Yeah. And even seeing the challenges after pregnancy is I don't even. Yeah. Hell yeah. I,

I appreciate that. No, for sure. It is a thing. It is really a thing. And then honestly, I don't even think a man could handle this shit. Yeah, they'll be reckless. Yeah, it is different. Can I even think, like, when you were saying this thing about how you're eating and like, yeah, because I'm thinking like, what's the pregnancy? It's going. I mean, I know people breastfeed, but I wasn't really taking consideration. Same. Me too. I didn't know that it would be.

like this, this, this much of a challenge, especially if you've never done it before. Like I said, I just tried. I wasn't able to go through with it at a younger age, but yeah, like it, it definitely is a whole different lifestyle, you know? And I thank God every day that I can pump. It's just, sometimes I get so discouraged. So just for the moms out there, I know that

you guys can sympathize with me and just to have a level of empathy. I know that you don't always feel like you're doing your best. You don't look your best. You know, you're behind or, you know, because that's how I feel. You know, I still have my moments where I'm not as confident and I am one of the most confident motherfucking people ever. So I'm trying to get out of this funk and shake it. And sometimes I wake up and I don't feel it at all. And then

12 noon and hitting, I'd be like, oh gosh. And then Chris sees it and he's like, all right, come on, let's go take a walk. Let's go meditate. Let's go. And he really tries. He really, really tries. But like, no matter what, you got to feel it. You know what I'm saying? And so I'm wondering if therapy definitely will help that. I mean, I don't know because I definitely ain't trying to be on no meds for it. You don't feel like you had postpartum when you had your first child? Mm-mm. I was so young. I wasn't even worried. I didn't even...

really consider what having a baby was like. Me and Rome didn't plan Ash. We was just young, fucking around. Did y'all try to, like, make a family? Yeah, we did. Yeah, but we was so young. I was 20, he was 20, and Rome was cheating on me real crazy. I lived with him. Like, we did a lot of playhouse shit before we were even...

out of the house with our parents and shit. So it was a lot of things that me and a lot of grown up me and Rome had to do. I wouldn't change my history for the world, you know, because that's how I got my first born, my beautiful baby boy. And that's how I got my family. Rome is my nigga, like my family for real. But yeah,

No, this has been a fucking challenge and it's still challenging. I'm just happy that I have my own platform where I can talk about it on my own time. And I'm actually sitting down with somebody that I trust who's Taylor and I can be heard and not be judged because this is a real thing. And women go through this shit. And now I know how Hallie felt. Now I know, you know what I'm saying? I know,

how fragile a woman can be after giving birth. And then I had this little girl, no epidural. I pushed her out naturally. How was that feeling? Listen!

Girl, I ain't need one, too. I ain't want to ever. I was like, give me the drugs. And Chris was like, no, her head right there. And they was like, yeah, it's too late. So you had to push. I said, what? Yes, girl. And I was bluffing the whole pregnancy because Chris is a holistic person. So the whole time I was like, we doing it natural. I was on the radio line and shit to myself. Like, yeah, it's just to sound good. I was like, yeah, yeah. He had got the dual force and everything. And I'm sitting there in my mind like, bitch, I'm going to get this needle.

As soon as the fucking water break, I'm getting this needle. Hold up. Whole time we get to the fucking... I didn't know that I was dilated so far apart. I didn't know that I was...

I didn't know that I was too late, you know, but my nurse did hear me say, I want to try to do this without epidural. And so she purposely waited for it to be too late to give it to me. And I do thank her for that. I ain't gonna lie. I do. Cause I think I was just so scared, you know, but it's amazing. That showed me what women can do. Yo,

Women are like, yo, we are so powerful. Like God made us. He was like, listen, no weapon, no weapon formed, you know, because we can do some amazing things. And before we get out of here, I just want to let y'all know Marley's dad delivered her like he did. He asked our doctor on the last visit before we actually went into labor. He's like, can I deliver my daughter? The doctor looked at him like, yes, you can.

And I was like, well, is he going to get paid? Because you can get all the fucking money. Now, fuck. Girl. But the doctor said, shit, I'm going to get paid anyway. Go ahead. Deliver your own baby. Fuck. Girl. What do you mean? So, why are you pushing out? Yes. She was just coaching me through it. And he took her place. He got right there. And then she gave...

him some substance on his fingers or something like that it was like a gel and it was warm and because I didn't split thank God um that was a big baby yeah that's what I'm gonna say like this split from and I didn't split and by the grace of God I did not split yo because I just knew I was you know what I mean Chris was a big ass baby I was a big baby so I'm like oh my god I'm gonna have a big ass child but I didn't split and that's that's because like he was going around like the realm of

my vagina like he was really really helping me yo like for real and um he caught her like he he helped like guide her out of my womb yeah and it was amazing the doctor trusted him I trusted him and I just was I was like I just need to get her out um but that ring of fire if you know you know that shit is real when you feel the baby's head come out yeah oh my god

And then the rest, after that, you can get, if you can get through that pain, you can get through anything in life. I'm talking about, you could probably be shot and be like, oh, thank you. You know what I'm saying? I probably feel better getting shot than the fucking delivering another fucking big ass head. That's so, I always told my best friend, I was like, you going to carry my child? Cause that's always, that's dope. Y'all, that's so dope. I was always scared of that though. That's so funny. Me and Sheena, look, I told Sheena cause I always wanted more kids. I told Sheena, I said, look,

if I don't meet the love of my life, because I didn't just want to have a baby with anybody, but I knew I always wanted more kids. If I don't meet the love of my life by 35, man, you're going to have a baby. I said that. And everybody knows she's a stud and shit. And that's my best friend and shit. Yes, she is gay. Whatever. But I said that because she want kids too. You know, I was like, we just going to have a baby together. We ain't going to be together, but bitch, we're going to have a baby. But then I was thinking,

like that's going to be selfish because the baby, you know, it's going to be like, um, y'all not even a Gavin, y'all best friends. Y'all both my mother's. It's about to live, but I don't love Shannon like that.

Like, the first... That's my bitch, yo. Not my bitch. Like, you know, but that's my girl. My friend, she already had... She already has three now. Mm-hmm. But, like, her second baby, I was like, yeah, so you gonna have my child, too? Oh, shit. But I'm just... Because...

What you were just talking about, that leaving part, is what freaks me out. I know. Because I can't even... How even Chris was able to like... Deliver her, yeah. And look at her come out and just, yeah. He was down there, child. The best thing about it is like, oh my God. I know, I know. So how did it feel afterward? Do you feel like a relief? Like, what is the feeling? Yeah, so after her whole body came out, he got her and everything, then you have to deliver the placenta.

The placenta is like that bag of like everything that, you know, that like. Do you feel that the cord like. Yes, I did. And I was like, everybody wanted me to be relieved. Everybody else was relieved too. Like, oh, I'm like, no, it's still something in here. Come on, hurry up. Y'all celebrating the shit. And then after that, my little sister over there, she gonna fucking turn on. They not like us. I'm like, bitch, I don't want to hear no motherfucking Kendrick right now. Bitch, I'm fucking.

Fucking pussy all wide, hanging out. You can probably see up my shit. Everything. And I look over, the nurse got the baby. She's talking about, yep, they not like us. Girl, yes. Very much ghetto. Hope Hospital in Cherry Hill, Baltimore City. Bitch.

I said, hold the fuck up. Put my fucking daughter down and shit. They all singing towards her, busting on the beat. Yo, that's mad for me. Girl, everybody. Chris got the gloves, had me and shit. Like, hey, they not like us. I'm...

I was done. I'm glad Kendrick Lamar could be a part of your birth. Kendrick Lamar was definitely there in spirit in the goddamn room. But yes, y'all, we come to the end of another episode of Catholic Reckless with your girl Jess Hilarious. I'm about to go run and get my baby this milk. And let's thank Taylor for just letting me think to her and be vulnerable enough.

to share what I'm going through right now because she didn't have to listen, but she did, y'all. We could have just did a regular Just Fix My Mess Today, but I wanted y'all to... I wanted to be as transparent as possible and I wanted y'all to...

come into my world for a second because I go through shit too. Everybody goes through things. Jess Hilarious herself, yes, everybody goes through things and I didn't anticipate this but it happened and I'm getting better every fucking day. I'm still that bitch, yeah. And listen to me every day on The Breakfast Club. Also catch me Fix and Mess on Thursdays on The Breakfast Club and wherever you find your podcast. Peace. See you next week. ...

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