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John Dillamott: 这段经历始于我尝试进入Stripe工作。Stripe这家公司对我来说意义重大,因为它结合了我父亲在金融领域的工作和我对软件工程的热情。起初,我非常渴望加入Stripe,并为此做了充分准备,但第一次面试却失败了。第二次面试,我调整了策略,最终成功入职。 我加入了一个全新的JavaScript基础设施团队,初期面临诸多挑战,难以证明我的工作价值。我的经理不断强调业务价值,这让我感到压力巨大。此外,我还需要提升我的书面沟通能力,以适应Stripe更正式的工作流程。 经过努力,我成功完成了一个大型项目的迁移,极大地提高了团队效率。然而,我的绩效评估结果却低于预期,这对我打击很大。我意识到,这不仅仅是工作上的问题,也反映出我个人在人际关系和情绪管理方面的不足。 与此同时,我的个人生活也面临挑战。与妻子的争吵让我意识到自己可能存在问题,并开始寻求心理治疗。治疗师帮助我认识到童年创伤对成年人际关系的影响,以及我的大脑如何通过过去的经验进行自动决策。 在治疗的过程中,我开始更加关注妻子的健康问题,并减少工作时间来照顾家庭。这让我面临失去工作的风险,但我最终选择了家庭。在工作中,我开始坦诚地面对自己的不足,并寻求团队的帮助,这反而提升了团队的工作效率和凝聚力。 然而,好景不长,我又经历了倦怠和抑郁。我向同事坦诚了自己的困境,得到了他们的支持,并休假一段时间。在休假期间,我意识到自己对Stripe的强烈依恋,与我父亲的期望和童年经历有关。 我决定与父亲坦诚沟通,但结果却让我失望。他因为我质疑他的工作态度而把我“逐出”了家门。这让我经历了悲伤和愤怒,也让我更加深刻地认识到自己童年时期缺乏父爱的影响。 最终,在妻子的建议下,我决定离开Stripe。这段经历虽然充满挑战和痛苦,但也让我更加了解自己,并学会了平衡个人与职业优先级。 Adam Gordon-Bell: John的故事展现了一个人如何在职业和个人生活中经历挑战,并最终找到自我平衡的旅程。他最初对Stripe的渴望源于对父亲的崇拜和对自身职业抱负的追求,但这却成为他日后压力的根源。 在Stripe工作期间,John面临着技术挑战、绩效压力以及与上司的关系问题。这些问题不仅影响了他的工作,也反映出他个人在沟通、情绪管理和人际关系方面的不足。 John通过寻求心理治疗,开始探索自身的问题根源,并逐渐认识到童年创伤对他的影响。他与妻子的关系也经历了考验,最终变得更加稳固。 John的经历告诉我们,职业成功并非人生的全部,平衡个人与职业优先级至关重要。坦诚面对自己的不足,寻求帮助,并与他人建立信任关系,是克服困难、实现自我成长的关键。 John最终选择离开Stripe,这并非失败,而是他重新审视自我,追求更平衡生活方式的体现。他的故事对那些在职业和个人生活中面临挑战的人们具有启发意义,提醒我们关注自身的心理健康,并勇于寻求帮助。

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Why did Jon de la Motte initially fail his Stripe interview?

Jon failed his first Stripe interview because he was overly focused on demonstrating craftsmanship in TypeScript, which led to him underperforming on the actual problem-solving aspect of the interview.

What was the key project Jon worked on at Stripe that demonstrated significant business value?

Jon worked on migrating Stripe's largest JavaScript codebase from Webpack to Metro, reducing the startup time from 15 minutes to 30 seconds, which was a massive win for the company.

How did Jon's performance review at Stripe impact him emotionally?

Jon received a 'partially meets expectations' rating despite his successful project, which deeply affected him emotionally, leading to feelings of inadequacy and even causing him to cry for the first time as an adult.

What personal realization did Jon have about his identity and work?

Jon realized that work was a core part of his identity, and he had tied his self-worth to his career, which became evident when he struggled emotionally after his poor performance review at Stripe.

How did therapy help Jon in both his personal and professional life?

Therapy helped Jon understand childhood trauma and its impact on his adult relationships and work behavior. It allowed him to release long-held tensions, improve his marriage, and perform better at work by being more open about his struggles.

What was the turning point that led Jon to consider leaving Stripe?

Jon decided to leave Stripe after a period of burnout and depression, despite having achieved professional success. His wife suggested he quit, and he realized he needed to prioritize his mental health and personal well-being over his career.

How did Jon's relationship with his father influence his career decisions?

Jon's relationship with his father, who was a workaholic, deeply influenced his career. Jon realized he was replaying his father's patterns, and confronting his dad about his absence in his childhood led to a final estrangement, which was a pivotal moment in Jon's journey.

What broader lesson did Jon take away from his experience at Stripe and his personal struggles?

Jon learned that individuals matter and that understanding oneself is crucial for personal growth. He realized that removing layers of tension and addressing deep-seated emotional issues can lead to a more fulfilling life, even if it means making difficult career decisions.

Chapters
Jon de la Motte's journey to Stripe, marked by initial interview setbacks, his decision to join a new, challenging JavaScript infrastructure team, and the difficulties of demonstrating business value in a new environment. His struggles with project management and the pressure to show immediate results are highlighted.
  • Jon's initial failure and subsequent success in Stripe interviews.
  • His choice to join a risky new JavaScript infrastructure team.
  • Early challenges in demonstrating business value and the impact of his manager's feedback.
  • Successful migration of a large JavaScript codebase and the resulting performance improvement.

Shownotes Transcript

What if leaving your dream job was the way to discover your true self? 

  Jon de la Motte failed his first Stripe interview, but he didn't give up. It was his dream job, a company that connected with his father's work in finance with his software ambitions.

  At Stripe, Jon faced challenges. He joined a risky JavaScript infrastructure team and struggled to find his footing. Eventually he found his way, built a great team and then it all started to fall apart again.

  Discover how Jon's journey reshaped his life and what it means to balance personal and professional priorities.

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