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Hello, my beautiful people, and welcome back to the Moments Podcast. Today, I'm just having one of those days. A deep, deep, deep one of those days. It is so windy outside and gloomy and cold, and I'm really working on appreciating that kind of weather because Florida gets it a bit in the summertime to like, you know, have an inside day where I do work and...

you know, be productive and all that stuff. But I'm an outside girl. I need my sunshine to feel like a functioning human. That being said, I have been appreciating it more, but today is just built different. I did not sleep well last night. I just like kept falling in and out of sleep and never really felt comfortable in my sleep. And I hate when I don't feel comfortable in my sleep.

I just could not position my body in a good spot. So didn't sleep well. I woke up and I'm a little bit like nauseous and I kind of have a headache and my stomach hurts and I'm just so exhausted. I took my car to the service shop this morning and I was like, okay, today's going to be so great and productive. I have two hours while they fix my car to, you know, get some work done.

All I did was sit on the Jeep website and design a car that I'm not even going to get anytime soon. I was like, okay, whatever. That was fun. Let me go home, make a coffee, then I'll get moving. You know, truth be told, I never got moving. I'm still sitting in my bed. Like, I changed. I got workout clothes on. I walked Leia. Oh, I was walking the dog and I got freaking poured on. It was not raining. All of a sudden, we're 10 minutes in. We're sprinting back home.

I get inside, completely soaking wet. Rain stops. I'm like, alright, maybe I need to take a freaking nap because I just could not keep my eyes open. I go out back. I put a bathing suit on. Maybe I'll get some sunshine through the clouds. No. It's so windy, so cold. I can't nap. I'm like, okay, let me nap inside. Can't nap. I'm really bad at napping. Like, anytime I try to, all my mind can think about is all the things that I should be doing and I could be doing. And then...

That's what was happening even when I wasn't napping and I was trying to like do things on my phone I just kept scrolling on tick-tock and then I was on take talk for so long that it made me feel physically nauseous and Yeah, I think I've explained enough the kind of day it is I don't know if it's because it's the last day of my period or two days ago from when I drink my hangovers just catching on like it's just it's something and it's just one of those days I don't know how long I can ramble on about how it's one of those days But it's kind of gonna lead me into what I want to talk about today. I am

I'm kind of going to go through a bunch of different things. I have this one section in my notes app, and it's called Baby, I Hope Your Life is Bright and Beautiful. And then in there, I just write different quotes or phrases or pieces of advice that have just stuck with me. And most of the things in there are really valuable, so I want to share a couple of them with you. But the first thing I want to tell you is I don't know where I heard this. I don't know if it was a YouTube video, an article, or...

a TikTok, whatever it was, or if it was someone in person, they told me to look at your life like it's a game, right? A football game, a basketball game, a game where there's four different quarters and apply that to your life in the sense that just because you're losing in the first quarter doesn't mean you're going to be losing in the second quarter or just because you're down the whole first half, it doesn't mean you can't come back in the second half or vice versa, you know, like

You'd be losing in the third quarter, pull through in the fourth quarter. You could go really strong in the first quarter and then lose in the fourth quarter. Either way, like no matter what, as long as you're playing your best and you're doing the best that you can, like you need to be proud of yourself for playing in that game. And the way that I look at this is I had a really, really long phase of my life where I was struggling badly with sleeping in. And I was so embarrassed about it, but it was something that I almost physically couldn't help. I could not fall asleep at night.

No matter how hard I tried until like 3 a.m. Because I just couldn't get off my phone and like these things sound silly and I know that if you're not someone who's struggled with this you're like dude just turn your phone off. When you physically go through it or you know someone who physically goes through struggles with their mental health like you understand that these problems are kind of unavoidable no matter how much you try things certain times. I mean other times yes you have to put in a little bit of extra work to make the things possible and you have to start small and you have to trust yourself over time. But

Whatever you're going through, whatever you're feeling mentally, whatever phase of life you're in, your struggles are heard. You're not alone. And people might make you feel small. They might make you feel weak for going through things. But honestly, I want you to know that going through things makes you stronger because eventually you do come out on the other side and everything gets better and life gets lighter. Back to the point. I was in this phase of waking up at 10, 11, 12.

Maybe not even getting out of bed till 12. Like that's just never been me. I never wanted to be someone who slept in and there's literally nothing wrong with it. If your life works better that way, then that's incredible for you. But for me personally, I don't like it. I would feel like my whole day was already wasted. I wouldn't even get my day fully started until 2, 3 p.m.

And at that point, I was like, oh, it's the end of the day. And I just never really felt accomplished or and I never really felt productive. And I felt like I was losing valuable hours of my life. Even though I was staying up later in those night hours, those aren't valuable hours of life, if that makes sense. Like I would rather do more in the day from 7 a.m. to 10 p.m. and go to bed at 11 than do more from 10 p.m. to 4 p.m. Anyways, the point is...

When I was going through that, I was always, always, always stressed, overwhelmed, anxious. Every feeling in the book you could imagine that was just hard and heavy and painful, I would feel. But I wouldn't be able to help it. And that's because I was looking at life in this like, I don't know, a normal way. And I started doing this thing where I viewed life as different quarters. And I realized just because I fumble in the beginning of the day doesn't mean the rest of the day is gone. And that was kind of how I felt all day long.

Today, I had to remind myself of this all day today because I woke up, you know, had a productive first quarter, got my car serviced, was feeling great. Second quarter was rough and third quarter is right now. And I wasn't even going to record this episode even though, you know, I have deadlines when I record these and I like to be ahead. But with how much is going on in my life, I'm usually not ahead. I'm usually like sending these and getting these all exported the day that it needs to be done. Kind of love it that way. Kind of hate it that way.

But I wasn't going to record this because I was just like, I can't do it. My head's all over the place. My brain's all over the place. I honestly don't feel so good. And I'm just not. I'm going to put it off. And then there was a part of me that was like, okay, but girl, it's the third quarter. You can come back right now. And honestly, you should show yourself feeling like this and like talking this way. Because I don't know. I think it's really easy for me to...

create content, be open-minded, be super positive, and I don't know, just more joyful and light when I'm in a good headspace. And I don't even want to say I'm in a bad headspace right now, but I find it so much harder to talk about things when I'm in a bad headspace because I'm just more tired. Like I'm physically exhausted and fatigued and thoughts don't process through my mind as easily as I'd like them to. And my brain just feels kind of dull and empty. And

I was like ashamed of that, embarrassed of that. Not even. Not even ashamed or embarrassed of that. I just... I mean, listen to me. How many times am I going to probably repeat the same thing in this episode? A lot. But I'm just showing you the real raw, sometimes, some days look like this kind of version of me. And I am always saying, you know, like, oh, you know, some days your mental health is not good. Some days it is good. Yada, yada, yada. I go back and listen to most of the podcast episodes I've done this year. I feel really blessed and really lucky that...

My mental health has been pretty on fire. Like, I have felt really, really good lately. And I think that when I look at last year's podcast, I was not okay. Like, I kind of even, even just from reading the titles, a lot of the titles from the end of last year were just, like, dealing with a bad headspace, bad rut. Like, I'm in a funk. I don't know how to get out of it. Versus this year, it's, like, how to get out of a funk. How to love yourself. How to appreciate life. How to show gratitude. And...

It's been so cool to watch myself go through all those waves of life but then I kind of remember like how different points felt and what it was like to go through all those moments and like being in those moments was so hard and it's cool now to be able to look back and see that I made it through it and I guess I guess that's just something I want to share with you in this episode is that

Wherever you are, and I know I kind of just said this, you got to know that it's going to get better. And if you can at least start by believing that, it's going to slowly, slowly, slowly, but surely make you feel better. You just got to believe all the things that you put out into the universe and also recognize, and I'm pretty sure I talked about this. I don't know if it was a TikTok or if it was last week's podcast. I get all caught up because...

Between TikTok, Instagram stories, trying to film things for YouTube and doing the podcast. I don't know who I told what, you know, but I want to get the message across to everyone. Shut up, Lexi. I just want to tell you that everything that you think, everything that you manifest, everything that you believe is in some way, shape or form going to come true for you. And this works for you.

really really well for us when we are thinking positive we are thinking gratitude we are thinking lucky girl syndrome we are believing in ourselves we're feeling confident we're being kind to other people this is when this works great for us good things come back to us good karma comes back to us we feel more motivated more inspired more creative because we're open to the universe or god or whoever it is sending us these messages to um

pursue things and just be more of a light and then the time that this sucks is when your thoughts are in a really bad place because it works both ways just as you can say like oh I'm so lucky and great things happen for me they will but if you think oh I'm so ugly I'm not good enough for anyone I'm never gonna accomplish this I'm such a failure I look like shit I feel like shit when we constantly think like this

And again, I know that a lot of times it's out of our control. I'm just bringing awareness to certain things. It doesn't mean they're going to change overnight. And it doesn't mean they're your fault. I'm just saying. When we think these things and our thoughts are so heavy, that is the energy that the universe provides right back to us.

It is not going to place people in our life who are going to love us for who we truly are because we aren't even loving ourselves for who we truly are. It is not going to bring us good people that are going to treat us kindly if we are not treating other people around us kindly. It is not going to bring us success and, you know, success and accomplishments if we are constantly comparing ourselves to others and wishing that we had things that other people have. And...

That's a cool thing. It's a cool thing. And it's just something I've been thinking about a lot lately. So I figured I would share it. And again, I don't know if I already said it. I just love you guys. I just love this podcast. I can't believe it's been almost two years. In October, it'll be two years of doing this podcast together. And it all started with some person. I wonder if the person listening to this or the person who commented this is listening to the podcast. But someone commented, you should start a podcast on one of my Coffee Talk videos. And I really thought about it. And I really thought about how...

passionate I've always been about mental health and just sharing all the things that I learned from other people in my life and how, in a sense, it's what I do on all the platforms I have and it would be really cool to do it long term and just build such a family and community of people who I know I can trust and who I trust with my whole entire life. On the trust note, you guys are doing so good keeping the podcast secret about the boyfriend. I love it. Y'all are the best. Oh, you're the only ones that know. That's a lie. There's one other group of people that know, but...

What I was saying is that I just really appreciate you guys. And I love that I can come on here and I can feel like this. And I can be in a headspace like this. And I can upload this podcast and not feel upset about what people are going to say about me. If they're going to say I don't know what I'm doing, yada, yada, yada. It's cool. And it's comforting. Because when I first started doing social media, I was at a point where everything that people said...

altered the things that I would do and it wasn't intentionally even but I would I would do all the trends follow all the aesthetics just because that's what people seem to like and whenever I would do anything different or something that was just you know for my own passion or my own love I

people would just be like, I don't know, make comments and they would actually bother me or they would comment on the way that I look. So I would change the way that I look. Uh, I remember when I was getting comments about how much weight I gained, that was the first time I ever even noticed that I looked any different and there's nothing wrong with gaining weight. But when people are saying the most terrible things, you know, you start to feel like bad about yourself. And now I've gotten to a point where I, I honestly couldn't care less. I feel so safe with you guys and with

And just knowing that I'm where I'm supposed to be and I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing and learning not to take anything personally and just understand that people are going to project their own insecurities onto me. And people are at broken points in their lives where instead of, you know, filling their own cup, they just want to empty out everyone else's. And we all go through that phase like without realizing it. We've all been there and we've all done that. We've all said things that we shouldn't have said or shouldn't.

you know, not been the kindest to the stranger that cut you off. Like you probably flicked them off instead of just letting it go and moving on. Like there's, it's all in the little things. It really is all in the little things. And yeah, just some thoughts on my mind.

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I'm going to go into my notes app now, and I'm going to read you a couple of the things that I really like that I have in here from this section of my notes. And I don't know what I'm going to title this episode. I feel like we're rambling, but I also feel like there's some good stuff in here. I love you guys so much. You have no idea. Okay. Oh, I like this one. It's really simple. It's really cheesy. You've definitely heard it before, but tomorrow is not promised. And I'm

This is something that's been heavy on my thoughts too because I just experienced something in my personal life. It wasn't directly related to me, but it was. Like I had to... I lost someone in my life. I wasn't super, super close with this person, but this person was still a part of my life and they lost their life unexpectedly and harshly and in the blink of an eye. And it kind of made me think about how we really have no idea if we will wake up tomorrow. We have no idea...

What could happen to us the next day? What could happen to the person that you love most? And when I start thinking about life like that, I really start to understand that I have to live like tomorrow is not promised. I have to love everyone and I have to accept that at certain points. Like, who knows? What I say to Lissette tonight could be the last thing I ever say to her. And obviously, like, no, I'm not going to think like that. But it's just a cool reminder to...

Always live a life of love first and there's a quote that I really really like and I can't remember it at all but it's something along the lines of Be satisfied if this was the last thing you said to this person Okay, all I'm trying to say I stared out the window and I lost my train of thought all I'm trying to say is that just treat people with love never leave a fight unresolved never Leave tension with someone that you love like just be

proactive in the sense that life is short and we need to love each other as much as we can because when we spend a life holding a grudge or having anger towards people it only builds more anger up within you and I think that that's a lesson that I'm learning a lot in my life right now too I look back and I want to do a whole episode on friendship there's just a lot of like personal things in there so it's like iffy what can I share and what can I not share when it comes to friendship advice but there was a point in my life

not even all that long ago, that I was surrounding myself with people who were just really, really bad for me. And I put up with a lot. I really just let people walk all over me. Like my car got stolen and then like my friends got my car stolen. I didn't get mad at all. Like I still don't care about that. But then like I flew back to where I was going and they couldn't even pick, like they wouldn't even pick me up from the airport. And like I just look back on things like that. And for so long, I didn't see anything wrong with it.

And then once I finally understood that that was like really not okay and that was not cool and I should not have put up with that, I held a grudge for a really long time. And now I've gotten to a point where I've learned holding that grudge does absolutely nothing for me. I have shifted the friendships in my life. I am now surrounded by people who love me and appreciate me and would drop anything that they were doing if I needed them. And those are the kind of people you should have in your life. But I realized that holding a grudge against this other group of friends was

Wasn't doing me any good and they've grown they've evolved. We still have great friendships They're just better and healthier from afar and like there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. It's not beef. It's not tension It's not a problem it's just we were immature and like we have grown apart from each other and I think a lot of Situations that we have beef with people or tension with people kind of turn into that. It's like okay Why am I still holding on to this? What is this doing for me? Absolutely nothing. It's only I

Bringing my energy down when I think about it like no it's fine move on grow up when I started thinking about life that way Just helps me realize like just let the Frick go why why have anger towards people why have problems with people? Just find something different to focus on again one of those things. It's just so much easier said than done I'm gonna read the next one okay this one. I love I

Again, it's probably one you've heard a lot of these things on my notes app you've heard before. I think I'm going to do a whole episode of them though because this thing is pages and pages long. And I'm only going to do a couple because for some reason I'm deep diving into them. This one is, you never know what someone else is going through. And this is the one I've had to really learn to apply to my life when it comes to bad drivers. This is like the first thing I think of when I think of this quote.

is someone cuts you off, someone is speeding, someone is just a jerk on the road, someone is driving really slow, they're turning really slow. I don't want to say I get road rage, but I get pissed off when people around me can't drive. Like, you can hear it just in the way that I talk about it, and it's something I'm really working on. I don't know why it makes me so angry, but it really comes out when people can't drive. And I kind of just realized recently that

Not realized. What am I freaking saying, you guys? What am I saying? I'm gonna take a breather. Take a deep breath with me. Re-center yourself. Re-center your thoughts. Let it go. Back to the point. You don't know what someone is going through. And when I see people turn really slow now, I just have convinced myself to tell myself that maybe they have a baby in the car or a birthday cake in the car or a wedding cake or...

A dog. Something, some kind of reason that they have to turn slow. Or if they're driving slow in the fast lane of the highway, maybe there's something or someone really valuable in the car. And if they're flying on the highway, maybe their wife is in the car giving birth. Or it's a dad trying to make his way to his little kid's first soccer game. Like, when I start telling myself those things, of course, in every case, they're probably not true. But maybe if in one in a hundred of them they are...

I'm glad that I didn't get angry at that person for doing the best they can for someone else. I'm glad that I just appreciated humans being humans. I've started to just take on life in a way where I just don't want to hold a grudge. I don't want to be angry at people. I don't want to feel anger. I just want to live and breathe easier because again, like I've said many times in this episode, I'm

Anger does nothing good for you. Not a single thing. Like yeah, you can say, "Oh, it motivates me, it inspires me." But at what cost? Like, you know, at what cost? There's other ways we can feel motivated and inspired and it shouldn't be through anger. And anger catches up to us too. When you start living a life of anger and you create anger as a habit or a habitual feeling or emotion that you go through, it only gets stronger and stronger and that's when people find alcohol. They find drugs to just numb the anger.

Or even if it's neither of those things, do you really want to feel anger more and more and more the older you get? No. I know we've all met some really angry old people. I bet they could have helped that out if they stayed less angry when they were younger. Let's just be happier little people. And the ways that I do that are just convincing myself that people are doing really important things or going really important places or carrying a lot of valuables when they're driving bad.

It's little things like that, you know? Okay. My dad works in B2B marketing. He came by my school for career day and said he was a big ROAS man. Then he told everyone how much he loved calculating his return on ad spend.

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Huge problem I had for a very long time. Most of the quotes I have in here are things that have just related really heavily to me. So I have stories on most of them. But for a long time, I think we've all done this. We all do this. My life was really, really all about comparison. And I was constantly looking at what other people were doing, whether it was on social media or my personal friends or people that I know in my life. I would compare what I was doing to what they were doing.

And subconsciously, I think in my head, I was like, I have to do that or I have to do that better. And I don't know, it seems silly and I hate even like admitting that because that's never someone I've wanted to be and it was never with bad intentions at all. But I just spent a lot of my life comparing and I think I was just doing things to do things because other people were doing things. And I've talked about this a lot this year too.

I've learned to really just appreciate a simple schedule and habits and things that make me feel good, like taking care of my body and walking my dog and waking up early and going to sunrise and not going out every weekend just because my friends wanted to and not traveling every other week just because opportunities arose. Like I really evaluated what is actually making me feel good and what is burning me out.

And last year when I was traveling back to back to back, yeah, all of those trips were incredible. Some of the best memories of my life. But every time I would come home, I would be a disaster because I would come home for four days at a time and I would like cry and I would be emotional and I would write these to-do lists that were pages and pages and pages long. It could have been a book and I wouldn't be able to get everything done. And then the process would just reset. And

Again, like I really don't want it to come across like I'm not grateful for all the opportunities I've had and all the things that I do I've been able to do I just want you to know that like these things are normal and they're real and we all feel them and That's how life goes and I don't know. I just don't want to hide anything from you guys I'm not gonna sit here and act like I don't know rambling. We're moving on

Did I even finish like what I was talking about with that? Basically just appreciate your life for what it is right now and evaluate your life. If it is not, if you're having a hard time appreciating your life, evaluate your life. What are the things going on in your life that are bringing you down, that are tearing you apart, that are hurting your feelings? And get them out. Get them out or just do what you can to help yourself feel better. Just look out for yourself, okay? Be your own best friend.

I love this one. And I've talked about this time and time and time and time again. And I will take this to the grave, like write this on my grave, whatever. The five closest people to you. Wait, the five closest people you surround yourself with is who you are going to become. I cannot stress this enough. You are amazing.

You pick up pieces from all the people that you keep around you. That's why you have certain traits from, I mean, besides genetics and DNA. That's why you pick up on certain traits from your best friend, from your mom, from your dad, from your boyfriend, from the people you're in class with, the people you watch on social media. That's a big one too. If you're watching someone so constantly on social media and keeping up on their lives, you're going to pick up traits from them. And that's beautiful.

When you are surrounding yourself with the right people who uplift you. My mom in high school told you guys this story before too, like wouldn't let me hang out with certain people and I would get so upset with her because I thought they were so cool and they partied every weekend and they did drugs and I like, I don't know, I wanted to do all that in high school. I thought it was so cool. My parents were a little bit strict. They still let me do what I want, but for the most part they were strict and they said, no, you cannot hang out with that group.

And I kind of realized the older I got, yeah, it's probably for the better because I can pinky promise you that if I would have started hanging out with him, I would probably be doing the same things and there's nothing wrong with that. It's just not the path that I would have chosen had I hung out with different people, had whatever. I think you get the point. I just want you to know that you need to make sure

The people this goes right back to the friend story I was just telling you the group of friends that I was hanging out with at this time and point in my life Just talk shit about people like made people feel bad about themselves Um me being one of those people and like I just put up with it And I can't say I picked up on any of those traits Like I was always the one to say something and be like shut up That's not how we talk about people that we spend time with or that's not how we talk about anyone in general but

Still, like there were certain things where I like kind of once I wasn't hanging out with that group of people anymore, I look back and I'm like, dude, that was not a priority in my life. That only became a priority in my life because it was a priority in the lives of the people around me. And when you think about life like that, when you think about how if you became one person who was a combination of the five people you keep closest to you, would you appreciate like would you like would you like that person? This is just my way of reminding you.

That you need to have friends who treat others right and treat themselves right and treat you right and inspire you and help teach you and help you grow and believe in you and support you. And you also have to make sure that you are someone who supports this person and loves them and treats them right because...

You guys want to have a relationship where you can both build each other up and you want to grow. And I think that that is something you should think about with every relationship in your life. Every friendship. There's no point in watering the weeds. Like, you know, you don't need the weeds to keep growing. Water the flowers. Water the garden. I don't know if that made any sense. I just pulled that out of my butthole. But, yeah. We're moving on to the next one. Okay. Next, next, next. I'm scrolling. I'm scrolling. Ooh. Ooh.

Ooh, I like this one. Okay. When you discover your self-worth, you lose interest in anyone who doesn't see it. Kind of touched on this. We kind of talked about it a bit, but it's so real. Like when I was struggling with knowing who I was, who I wanted to be, what I liked to do, what I loved, how I liked to dress and how I liked to do my hair. I searched for a lot of validation in other people and I wanted people to tell me I was beautiful or that, you know, I looked good or I was doing good or I was successful. And I just craved a lot more outside validation. And then I,

Again, when I came to this whole phase this year where I took the time to spend alone with myself and really figure out and like sit still at home too and figure out what it is that I enjoyed in my life and the outfits that I like to wear and the way that I like to do my hair and how I like to have...

two different nail colors and I usually look um like a hot mess when I go out in public and I don't like to make my hair look nice or anything like I kind of learned to just accept that and be okay with that like if that was something I loved about myself if that was something that helps me feel free and connected to whatever it is I couldn't care less what someone else has to say about that because if there's someone who doesn't love me for the version of me that I love

Why would I change for them? Why would I change for someone who is going to temporarily be in my life when the person that is going to be in my life forever, being me, already loves me? You know what I'm saying? Picking up what I'm putting down. Let's keep moving on. Okay, I'm going to do this one and then maybe one more. Optimism doesn't change the situation, right? But it changes how it feels. Touched on this too. These all kind of tie into one another in some way, shape, or form.

You're going to have a lot of shit happen to you. You're going to have a lot of shit happen to you. And it's not the things that you can expect. It's not the boy rejecting you. It's not, I don't know, like hating your outfit. It's like when life gives you things that you really didn't see coming. When it throws you a curveball that is just a lot heavier than the rest of them, you can't change that from happening. That's a part of growth. That's a part of life. It's the circle of life. It's how it goes. You can find something to appreciate about it.

No matter how deep, hard, heartbreaking it is, you have to put in the work to find something to appreciate about it. And like I'm going to give you a very personal example right now. I lost my grandpa in 2021. And he went into the hospital for just like a simple little fix, like something very simple. And he ended up passing away 10 days later. We didn't see it coming. He was only 75.

We were always, like, pretty close with my grandpa, but he wasn't like the grandpa that I call every single day, you know? And when he went into the hospital was the first time I saw him so many times in one month or one week. And once he passed away, obviously I had nothing but grief to feel. I didn't feel like there was anything to appreciate. I just lost my grandpa, and I didn't plan on losing my grandpa the way that I did. But...

Constantly thinking about that and feeling heartbroken about that wasn't going to make me feel any better. Wasn't going to make him feel any better up in heaven looking down on me. He wouldn't want me to hurt. He wouldn't want me to be upset. He would want me to continue my life and live it for him and live through him. And just taught myself to appreciate the fact that I got to spend so much time with him at the end of his life. And he's going to remember that and I'm going to remember that for the rest of forever. And I learned to appreciate that I now have...

This guardian angel who is going to look over me in everything that I do and help make sure I'm on the right path and lead me in the right direction and talk to me with signs and signs that only I can see. Like, I'll give you another example that aligns perfectly with this. Currently in the process of looking for a house in a city close to mine, I want to...

Me and my mom just love projects and I'm working on like investing my money and I really want to buy a property and whether I turn it into an Airbnb, rent it out, whatever it is that I do with it. The point is we looked at a house yesterday and we go out in the backyard and there's a fire hydrant. My grandpa was a firefighter by the way so anytime I hear sirens or see a fire hydrant or whatever it is I think of him and that's him saying hello.

So my mom and I walk out into the backyard and she's got to walk away because she starts crying. But I only see those signs because I'm open to seeing those signs. And I believe in things, whether people want to say, you know, you're believing in nothing, it's stupid, it's a hoax. Okay, cool. But if believing makes me feel better and I want to believe, I'm going to believe. So the point is you've got to find something to be happy. You've got to find some way to make yourself happy, to...

to appreciate the shit that's going to be handed to you. And again, like that doesn't change the situation. No, but it does change how it makes you feel. And now like I can look back on my grandpa's passing and see it as this blessing in disguise. And it's just, I don't know. We're moving on. Oh, this is my favorite and I'm doing a whole podcast episode on it. So I'm just going to read it to you and then I'm going to leave it at that.

Never criticize the way someone expresses joy. This goes through my head every single freaking day. And we'll deep dive into it another time. But essentially, never, ever, ever put up with someone

Well, first of all, your reminder, never, ever, ever make fun of the way someone laughs. Make fun of the way someone's real smile looks. Make fun of the way someone's eyes crinkle when they smile. Make fun of the way you laugh, you smile, or you look when you're at your happiest, or your weird noises you make when you're excited. When you criticize the way...

feels happiness you make it a lot harder for them to be happy and you make it a lot harder for them to be comfortable being happy in front of other people and that's just a life lesson that really really

sits deep with me ever since I first read that. And I also want you to take that as your sign that you should never put up with someone who criticizes the way that you express joy because you deserve to 100% fully genuinely express any kind of happiness that comes from within you in however way you show it. You should feel comfortable to do so because joy is beautiful. Laughter is beautiful. Expression is beautiful. And I don't think that you should, I mean, besides being

Wait, even further than joy, like never criticize the way someone goes through grief or someone hurts. Like just let people express the way that they want to express. Because when we can express our emotions, we get through things a lot quicker. So if you're part of the reason someone can't, that's not cool, you know? And same thing with people in your life. Make sure that they allow you to fully express everything and anything. So I think that's where I'm going to leave this.

And if you want another episode like this, couldn't even tell you what I talked about to be completely honest. But if you want another one like it, happy to do so. And thank you guys for listening to me ramble and rant when I didn't even think my mind was capable of doing so. You guys have given me a little bit of a shift in energy for today. And again, the whole reason I started this episode was just to tell you that, you know, you got four quarters. And as long as you play your best game, you're doing just fine. Okay, so it's effort that counts.

And also, no, you know, if you're fumbling in the first and second quarter, you still got time in the second half. And that's what I'm going to do with the rest of my day. But I love you guys. And I appreciate you with my whole heart and couldn't do this life without you. And hopefully tomorrow's a better day than today was. And if it's not, then you know what? We'll get through it tomorrow too. Okay. I love you guys. Have the best day ever. And I'll see you next Monday.