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Hello, my beautiful people. Welcome back to the Moments Podcast. I'm still getting used to recording while I'm talking to you guys, but also knowing that there's a camera recording because if you don't know, every video or every podcast episode from here on out is also going to be posted on YouTube. Just on my channel, it's going to have its own little playlist and I'm super excited for that, but it's a very strange adjustment because
And that also means I have to be aware of like when I'm recording, like I can't really record at night like I used to. And in the van where I usually record at home in Florida. Also, another note, I'm back in Florida. Guys, there's so many things we have to talk about, but it's too dark to like film unless I get the right.
Camera, which I don't have right now because I lost the charger guys I'm literally all over the place the last few weeks of my life are such a blur But all that being said i'm recording in my room right now, and if you're watching on the camera, hello I have my phone set up like across the room and then if you're listening well You're listening wherever that you are
Moving on. I couldn't decide what I wanted to title this week's episode. I was originally going to title it Moments and New Beginnings Part 2 because that was like the first ever episode that I ever had titled. But instead, I think I'm going to do Moments Chasing Stability because, wow, I don't even know. There's so many reasons that I want to talk about this. And I think the main reason is that I've been chasing stability in my life for what feels like the past few years. Right?
But I guess I should kind of update you guys on where I'm at right now. I just got home from Hawaii. I was out there. I was supposed to be out there for a whole month focusing really on work and living in my own space. And I was living in my own space, sort of, kind of. I also have friends out there. So it makes it hard to like want to be in my own space all by myself when I also always want to be hanging out with my friends and doing stuff with them.
Especially because we were in the process of moving out of our first apartment. So obviously I wanted to be a part of that even though I haven't been living in there the past few months or the past month or so. My stuff hasn't been in there. But obviously I'm going to take part in that. Like it was my house for a year, you know. And then the girls moved into this new Airbnb that had extra bedrooms and I was living in a tree house. So...
I had, you know, bugs and cockroaches and stuff sometimes in my bed. So I slept at their place a lot of the time. And it just made it really difficult for me to...
actually succeed at the goals that I had for myself and the expectations that I had for myself. I didn't really meet them and it kind of just caused me all this stress and anxiety and I don't know. I'm just, I'm still a little bit bummed at myself that I didn't do everything that I wanted to do in Hawaii. Like for example, I had so many goals of recording podcasts in the treehouse and I ended up only recording one, actually two, but the first one never got posted on YouTube, but I'm going to post that eventually, I think.
And I had these goals of filming like these mini documentaries of all my friends and recording with other friends who actually live in Hawaii. I mean, people like both of the Hannah's actually and Ava, but, um,
The thing is, life gets so crazy all of a sudden. And when you're young and you are trying to balance figuring out your life and also prioritizing work and having fun with your friends, time flies by literally so fast. I mean, can anyone else process that it's already April? It's basically May. Like, by the time this podcast comes out, it's going to be a few days away from May. I feel like New Year's was yesterday. Yeah.
And I'm just I don't even know why is time flying by so fast and I can't be the only one feeling that I don't know if there's just so much going on in my life that I I can't sit still or process. I don't know what's going on. Please let me know if it's just me that feels like time is flying or if this is like a universal experience. I remember growing up my my older friends and stuff would always tell me like, oh, I
If you feel like summer's going by fast now, just wait till you get over. Time flies even faster and faster. And as I'm getting older, I'm like, damn, they were right. They were not kidding about that. All that being said about how Hawaii was the second time around, basically, I had so much fun. I met some new people who are now like some of the coolest people in my life. And that's also something I just want to share. And it has nothing to do with the
or the, what is the word I'm thinking of? Or anything to do with what this episode is about. But you have so many people that you are going to love in your life that you haven't met yet. And there is something that I love so much about that quote because in certain moments I don't realize it. I realize like, oh, these are all my friends. This is all I got. And it's not that it ever doesn't feel like enough. I am blessed with the coolest people in the world. But isn't that something crazy to think about? Like you're going to meet so many more people that you are going to love in this lifetime.
Like, this isn't it. Most of us are so young. We're not even, like, in our mid-20s yet, I would say. Most people listening to this. And even if you are, even if you're in your 50s, you still got years and years of people to meet. And you never know which one of them might be your soulmate or your best friend or someone who feels like a sister or a brother. Like, don't ever worry about it.
I don't know what you'd be worrying about, but just don't worry. Okay, you're going to meet so many awesome people in this lifetime, and I want that to be something that you take away from this episode. I made a little outline that I wanted to like go off of for this episode, but I'm not really using it. I'm kind of just staring at this notebook and not paying attention to what I have written, but that's okay. You don't need an outline. Another takeaway, I kind of talked about this in the moments in growing up, or things I learned growing up,
But you never have to have a full on outline of what your life is going to look like, of what your day is going to look like, of what your week is going to look like. For a lot of people, that's something that works. But for me personally, when I do that, I end up letting myself down because I have such a hard time following a specific structure.
But this does kind of actually lead into what I want to talk about in this episode is that I've just been chasing stability for so long. For as long as I can remember in my life, I was so structured. I had these calendars that literally were like hours.
hour by hour setup because I was in high school and I had cheer practice and I had other like things I was involved in like leadership and ROTC and I always had events for these things so I would constantly write down in my calendar what I had that day and like what I had to really focus on and I don't know everything was so structured and then I went to college and I was working on
Four jobs and I had classes because I was a college student. So again, I was able to keep a really, really structured calendar. And a couple years ago when I was still doing school, but I was doing it online. So I had a lot more room for freedom and stuff, I guess you could say. Like I could kind of write stuff.
I had more, I don't know, room for fun stuff in my schedule. So I tried to keep a calendar then. And then when social media came into the picture, it became really, really hard for me to set a calendar of like what I needed to do on what days because social media is so unpredictable. And obviously I've been at that for a while now. If you guys know, which I'm sure you do, social media has kind of become like
Not kind of. It has become my full-time job. And what that means, I need to schedule times that I'm going to work and when I'm going to focus on work. But then that gets hard because documenting my life is also work. But there's times where I really need to sit down, lock in, and get things done like contracts and emails and have business calls. And I'll try to set a schedule and use a calendar and make it, and I can't seem to do it anymore. And I think I'm understanding why...
like why I was able to do it so well in high school versus now is that everything is so nothing's set in stone. It's not like I go to school from 8 p.m. to 5 p.m. and then have practice 8 p.m. to 5 p.m. Wow. 8 p.m. to 3 and then have practice from 5 to 7 and then go to yoga at 8. Like it's not scheduled like that. It's just a very different setup and I think it's just been a huge goal for me for literally the past two years to figure out how to organize that and
Don't know if you guys know this but I'm sure you do even if you've just listened I have ADHD but I don't I'm not like medicated or anything and it makes it really difficult for me to sit down and accomplish pretty much any task or Remember anything and I'm constantly losing things I'm constantly forgetting things and I'm actually gonna go see someone about this just to talk it over and see if maybe I'm getting to a point where it's a good idea for me to try something out, but I want to try every other option first and
Anyways, literally, I've just been rambling for no reason and I don't really know where I was going with that. Also, please excuse the fact that I might be a little bit delusional. I flew. OK, so I flew back from Hawaii and I left Hawaii at 530 p.m. Right. And I had my first flight, which was like eight hours. And then I landed in Minnesota at like 7 a.m.
Meanwhile, I didn't sleep that whole flight. And then I had a two-hour layover in Minnesota. And then I flew from Minnesota to Florida from like 9 to 12 or something. Like, I don't know. And then I slept all day yesterday. And then I woke up this morning at like normal time, like 8.30. Even though my body is so confused by time right now that I'm just a little delusional. I'm dealing with, I don't even want to say it's jet lag because I feel fine. But I'm just confused. So you guys might be a little bit confused with me.
And normally I like to be a week ahead with these podcasts, like I'll have Monday's episode recorded by the Monday before, but in this case I don't. It's Friday and I'm recording for Monday. Anyways, let's just, let's just get into it. We've already been getting into it, but
The moral of this whole story is that I feel like I've been chasing stability and consistency for so long in my life that I've honestly been running the opposite way. And I blame this on my Enneagram type. If you guys haven't taken the Enneagram, Enneagram, I don't know how to say it. If you haven't taken the test, it is so fun to see. It's basically just like your personality types, but I'm a type 7, and I'm sure I've talked about this before. It's basically like the enthusiast, but can also be known as kind of a squirrel. Like I'm always picking up new hobbies or starting new things that I never really finish, and
And I've been running in that direction instead of really focusing on stability. And I'm also constantly changing my mind. Like I'm always trying to figure out what kind of lifestyle I want. And I get so caught up. And I think that a lot of this is because social media is feeding us so many different options. And this is something that people in the past never really had to deal with or experience. And yes, it's definitely a first world problem. But
Social media constantly feeds you different options of what your life could look like you could be living in Europe Going to coffee shops every day you could be living in Hawaii going to the beach every day you could be living in New York City working on fashion and as someone who has a very very impressionable mind I'm always like oh I should try this or I should do that or I want to do this and I'm always looking in the direction of what I don't have and
I also just wrote a really cool, I had the coolest opportunity to write a piece for Mad Happy. They have this, I want to say it's like a weekly newsletter. And basically I wrote a piece for them about the self-love letters that I write to myself. And I'll put the link, I don't know if I can do a link in the description, but I'll post it on my Instagram stories again today since I'm talking about it now.
But where was I going with that? Oh, I talked about how social media is always feeding us different options and different ideas of people that we could be. And we're also all human. We're all young. We're all impressionable. So we're going to change. We're going to grow. What we want is going to be different as time goes on. And I think I'm just getting to a point in my life where I've been doing the whole live different lifestyles thing. And not to say I've been different people.
But in a way, yes, I go through all these different personality changes and they're not in like a bad or aggressive way. It's just like one day I want to be barefoot all the time. And the next day I want to style a different pair of shoes every day. And I one day wear the same thing over and over and over again. And then the next week I'm trying to plan outfits and be like a fashion guru. Like, I don't know.
We're just constantly changing and evolving. And I don't really think that there's anything wrong with this. And I've just been so focused on living in the moment that I'm really focusing on short-term things. And I don't think that there's anything wrong with this. But that being said, like I talked about last week on the episode with Mare, is season two. How I'm entering this new era of myself and I have new goals and new things that I want to focus on.
And I think that this is something we should all kind of begin to lean towards and incorporate. And I don't know why, I feel like my voice in this episode sounds so... I don't know. Does my voice sound more... literally I don't even know how to describe it. I just feel like I sound different. And I think it's because I'm delusional and confused and all over the place. And I'm sitting in my room for the first time in a month, so it feels a little bit weird. Also weird to not be recording in a car. But anyways, here we are.
But back to the point, instead of chasing stability, I think what we're going to do is start attracting stability because I'm so big on the affirmation, I don't chase, I attract. However, I have not been attracting stability in my life whatsoever. I've been running around, living in places for like a month at a time, constantly changing what I want my wardrobe to be like, and I haven't really had a place that feels like home. And
That's not really exactly what I mean. I do have places that feel like home. Honestly, everywhere I've been in the last couple years has felt like home. But what I mean is I haven't created a space that feels like my own space because I'm only going places short term. So another little life update, I guess, and another huge factor of moving towards season two of my life is that I'm moving into my own place at home, like in Florida. So I'm moving out of my parents' house and into my own space. It's
It's the duplex. And I've talked about it a little bit on TikTok, but it's my dad... Not my dad. It's my grandpa's old duplex. And when he passed, it got passed down to my mom and my aunt. And...
I'm moving in and it's super cool. I really can't remember if I've talked about this already or not, but it's where my mom lived when she was in college and it's actually the first place I ever lived because it's where I was born basically. And this next chapter of my life is going to look a lot like me moving into there. And I also just got a new car at home because whenever I was home the past few times I came home from Hawaii, I would just share with my parents. So I
And my brother. But this really does feel like a full new era of my life. And it's so hard to let go of the past era. Like, I know that I've left Hawaii and I've gone back many times before. And this is the first time that I really, really feel...
like that chapter ended and that's not to say I'm probably gonna be back in Hawaii every winter but I don't live there anymore and that's a huge adjustment because it was just such a big part of my life for so long and I'll definitely say that that was season one and season one had a whole lot of memories and a whole lot of people and a whole lot of crazy crazy life changes but season two is
is where we're filming in a new location. We have new people, we have new goals, we have new habits. And that's kind of the next thing I want to talk about is that in season two, since we're all entering this new era,
Also, something you should know about season two, nothing crazy has to be happening as far as changes. Like you don't have to be moving. You don't have to be letting go of something. You can be staying the same, but you want to change mentally. There's your season two. It's up to you when you want to start season two. And right now, I think a lot of us want to be going through that because we just want to like
I don't know. Change things up a little bit or just feel a little bit different. Like that's what it is for me. I've been feeling good, but I want to feel great. So I set some new goals for myself and they're not crazy. They're not dramatic because I don't want to do the thing where I set all these really high expectations for myself. Okay, I glitched. Expectations for myself and then can't accomplish them.
And I'm learning a lot about myself. And one of those things is that I'm not going to set crazy goals right now because I don't need to. I need to just take things one step at a time and start small. And I can have these long-term goals that are the really big ones like write a book and film a documentary, but I don't need to have those in my short-term list of goals, you know?
So this list I'm about to tell you is it's less goals, more habits that I want to start encouraging myself to have because I am really bad at consistency and self-discipline. And I know on the surface, it might look like I'm really good at these things. Like when it comes to work and like a social media standpoint, whenever I talk to my friends about how I'm inconsistent and I feel like I'm not working enough, everyone's like, yeah, but you're literally posting all the time on all your platforms. I'm like, yeah, I know, but that's not exactly...
What working is in it? I don't know. I literally don't know how to explain it But also again don't know where I was going with that I'm gonna read you my little list of habits because I think that we could all add them to our list of things that we want to Work on a little bit and my first one is waking up early. I will go through phases with this one There's phases of my life where I'm up before the crack of dawn. I go to watch the sunrise I go to yoga. I work out all before like 8 a.m. And
But then there's other phases where I can't help but sleep in because I think sleep is important. But what I'll do is go to bed at like 3 a.m. because I'm scrolling on my phone or I'm working on my phone. And then I'll wonder why I have such a hard time waking up early. So that's actually another one that I have is no phone after 1 a.m. And this one's tough for me because I get the most creative and my brain works the hardest in like the middle of the night. Like I'll be in bed all
Say I get to bed by midnight. I'll go on my phone for like maybe 30 minutes. I'll be scrolling through TikTok or scrolling through Instagram, going on Pinterest. But then it hits like 1 a.m. and all of a sudden I have all these ideas. So I'm typing in my notes. I'm writing up these like these paragraphs of things I want to want to do. And I don't know, my brain just turns on. So I'm making it a goal for myself where if I'm going to do that, I'm still going to allow myself to do so. But no matter what, the phone goes off at 1 a.m. and I go to bed by 1 a.m. Honestly, that's even a little bit late. But yeah.
The next one is mindless scrolling. I want to do it less. I notice myself in the normally midday. I'll go on my phone. I'll have already accomplished a few things and then I'll just start scrolling. I'm scrolling and I'm scrolling and I'm scrolling for like an at least an hour. And that's that's on the.
A small scale. There's days where my screen time gets so high that I don't even want to talk about it. But that should be a goal for all of us is to consume less media. Even if it's good media, consume a little bit less. Like allow yourself certain amounts of time to scroll through TikTok because don't get me wrong, it's fun. I love scrolling through TikTok. I learn things on TikTok. I find new people on TikTok. I learn new recipes. I...
have just created a for you page that is so customized to me. Obviously, I'm going to want to keep scrolling, but we need to allow ourselves time
to do things that aren't watching other people do things, you know? And that's very weird for me to say because I am someone who has a platform, who has media that I guess would like to be consumed. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. But no matter what, we need to all spend time off of social media, like going for walks, going outside, listening to music.
And really just taking time for ourselves. Okay, you guys, I have a quick little intermission because I have to tell you about something I'm literally so excited to tell you about. I'm going to be telling you guys about StoryWorth. And the next like habit goal I have, this one's more of a goal, I guess, or more of just an update. I'm going to be in the process of moving out slash moving in for the next couple weeks of my life, at least, or the next month or so. And that being said, I'm
I am learning as an adult that like it's a lot of work. It is a lot of work and it is very time consuming. Like I don't know why for some reason I was like, oh, like laundry doesn't take that long. Dishes don't take that long. Cleaning the room doesn't take that long. Packing up all your clothes doesn't take that long. Well, I was wrong. It does take long, way too freaking long. And I'm just going to give myself grace and
for the next few weeks that that is productivity for some reason when i'm not creating anything or i'm not posting anything i'm like oh i wasn't being productive and that's something that is super not personal it's just very relatable to my life specifically right now is that i just need to allow myself time to do things that aren't creating content and i don't know i don't know
But that's just one of my goals and something that I'm working on because, again, the work-life balance gets so difficult to understand where that line is or where, yeah, where do you draw the line? This episode of the Moments podcast is sponsored by BetterHelp.
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The past few years of my life, nothing but awesome, but a lot of money has been spent. I think it's because I just started making money a couple years ago. I've always made money. I've always had a job, but this is the first few years that I've been financially independent where I've been responsible for all my money. Normally, my parents keep a good tab on what I'm spending and what I'm doing with my money.
or I was spending it on like college classes or rent and now I'm still spending it on rent but I am just being a little bit too careless and it's something that I want to focus on and just try to be a little bit more aware of what I'm spending because I want to be able to save so that when I'm older I won't have to worry about it as much. The next one is actually eating less meat. I don't know how well I'm going to do this one. I really really love meat and I do love beans too so I guess that's a good source of protein but
I posted a video about how much I love chickens on TikTok, and a lot of the comments were like, well, you still eat chicken. Like, that's a huge change for someone to make. And it's not that I don't love, I can't, I still love chickens. I want to have chickens as pets, but I don't know. It just, seeing all those comments made it kind of a goal for me because I do feel sad when I think about how many chickens get killed. Anyways, I don't need to go into detail on that.
If you don't want to stop eating meat, don't stop eating meat. I'm just going to do my best to eat a little bit less, I think. Next one is actually doing what I say I'm going to do. You guys know me all too well. You know I'm really, really bad at this. Or maybe not bad. It just takes me a long time to do the things that I say I'm going to do. So I guess the goal is to actually just do them in a normal period of time. And I blame my ADHD for this one a lot because...
Life, life happens and I don't purposely like not do things. I wish that I got more things done, but I don't. I don't know. We're human. We're learning. We're growing. We're evolving. And I am simply going to focus on setting smaller goals for myself. If that's what it's going to take, I can start with smaller goals.
You know, and I talked about this a little bit earlier. I'm not going to set such high expectations for myself. I'm going to be proud of whatever it is that I do accomplish because that's what's going to motivate me to accomplish more. And we all need to imply that, imply, apply, glitched again, apply that to our life. Be proud of your smaller accomplishments because they're not small. They're huge. And I'm proud of you. Other people are proud of you. You need to work on being proud of yourself because when you're constantly telling yourself what you're not doing,
You're not going to want to do more. But if you're telling yourself that you're proud of what you have accomplished, you're going to have this deep-rooted subconscious motivation to do more. And that is proven. Maybe not scientifically, but it is proven by me. So I'm just saying. The next one I have is to use a calendar. My therapist has been telling me that I need to use a calendar since the first time I went to her. This was back in October of last year. So I've been going to therapy now for...
quite some time and I still have not started using a calendar because again life has been in moving in all crazy different directions I have like four different google calendars I have like written calendars I have to-do list notebooks I have journals and there's not one spot specifically where I write down everything that I need to do and every trip that I have so a goal that I have is in my new house or the duplex when I move in I want to have a big calendar wall
like just a big paper calendar that I actually use and I write on. And whether I'm using it super consistently or once in a while when I remember, that's something that we'll see when I get there. But that is something that I'm actually going to do.
And then the next couple of things I'm not going to talk about too in detail, but let's just say there's some really, really fun stuff that's happening for the podcast. Like I have been wanting to do so much with this podcast for so I mean, since I started it and then I went back to Hawaii and obviously it was harder for me to keep up with it then. And then again, yeah, life life. I'm not going to like try to make excuses.
Life just happens. I'm 21. I get caught up in hanging out with my friends all the time and there's literally nothing wrong with that. So if you're at a point where you feel like you're behind or you're stressed out, you're not behind. You're young. You have so much life ahead of you. You don't have to know what you're doing and you don't have to be organized all the time and you don't have to have a perfect job lined up for you because you have so many years to live. And when you get old, you don't want to look back on these years and think,
Think about how stressed you were about the future because the future is going to work itself out. God has a path for you. I'm telling you this. And yes, you can work towards it and you can make sure that you stay on the path. But you're also allowed to have fun. You're allowed to make mistakes because the mistakes are what you're going to learn from. And the fun is what's going to make the memories. And these are two things that are going to help create your future, whether you realize it or not.
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But also, along the lines of wanting to do more with moments, I finally got approval on, I've been working on a journal proposal because I'm top secret. Only podcast listeners are going to know this because I'm not posting it anywhere else. I'm designing a self-guided journal.
And it's going to have a bunch of prompts in it. And it's going to have the most awesomeness. I have so many ideas. I'm not going to tell you all of them because it's going to be a long process of getting it through like publishing and everything. And we haven't even sent it out to like publishing companies yet. But seriously, guys, this is top secret information. And it's going to take a while. But it's been in the works and I'm very excited to share it with you. But that's kind of all I could think of on my like little short list of goals and habits that I want to accomplish.
for myself. But I guess the main point of this is that we all need to stop chasing things. And whether that's relationships, friends, boys,
stop chasing, okay? And start attracting. So if you want to encourage more stability in your life, then you need to act stable. And that's really just what I need to tell myself because if I want to encourage stability, I can't be running around to a new place every month. And that's not to say I can't go on trips. I can go on trips, but I think I need to settle myself down and make the steps like making a home feel like home and having a home base and having
Getting myself a car is a huge one because now I'm like, I don't know I'm dialing myself in and I'm letting go of the me that lived in Hawaii and would just come home for time periods. Now I'm moving home. I'm living home and then Hawaii is something I can do for trips and for fun. But in when I'm in the right headspace, I just kept setting all these expectations for myself that and I've talked about this so many times before.
So I'm not going to go too into it. Setting all these expectations for myself that like when I go to Hawaii, I'm going to do this, this, and this so that I can do that, that, and that. Because that's not always how it happens. Hawaii's like college. It's fun. There's friends. There's parties. There's places to go out to dinner. There's money to spend. There's excursions to go on. There's hikes to do. And I can't really sit down and focus. And I want to be able to sit down and focus. So that is what season two looks like for me. And...
I don't know. I just kind of felt like sharing all of that with you because it is the main thing that's been on my mind and the main thing that I'm prioritizing for these next few weeks of my life.
And I hope this episode wasn't too repetitive. I don't really, I think I talked about things a couple times each, but whatever. I do think the main message that I want you to take away from this is, again, I literally already said this. What is wrong with my ADHD right now? I need to take a nap. But don't chase. Attract. Okay? If you want to attract someone to your life, if you're looking for a relationship, I want you to act as the person that
that you would want to be in a long-term relationship. Now, I don't know if that makes sense, but if you're not ready to be in a relationship, then now's not the time to be chasing it because you don't want someone to find you as this version of yourself because what am I really trying to say? Let me think on this for a second. I think what I'm trying to say is that you need to work on yourself, work on becoming the best version of yourself, and then the person that is meant for you will eventually be attracted to you.
towards you, maybe not to you. I meant to use the word towards you. When you are ready, when God knows that you are ready, he is going to give you the person that is meant for you. And if you don't necessarily, whatever it is that you believe in, if it's the universe that's going to send that person to you, you guys know how I am with religion and everything. Wherever you are, you are. Whatever you believe, you believe. And that's fine. As long as you trust that there is a path that is made for you and that you are on it, that's what I need to remind you.
Okay, you're all good. You're right where you're supposed to be. You're doing everything you're supposed to be doing. Set some goals. Set some things that you want to work on. But don't be upset with yourself if you don't accomplish them right away. Some things take time. The best things in life take time. And I'm just proud of you for getting to where you are right now. I mean, think of everything that you've already accomplished and everything that you've already done. You can handle anything at this point. So keep it up. Keep up the good work.
am going to take a nap. I'm going to go eat some food and clean my room because it's a disaster. But I love you guys and I'm so grateful for you and I'm so happy that we're all going into season two together and I can't wait for you guys to see everything that I have in store because I have a really good feeling about the next month of my life and there's a lot that I'm going to share. So
Let's do this, okay? Me and you. Season two. Let's run it. Okay, I'll talk to you guys next Monday, and don't forget to like the podcast, subscribe to the podcast, download all the episodes. You guys know the drill. I am so grateful for you. There's big things happening with this podcast. I can't wait. Okay, I love you.